第29章
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  TheletterwentontorequestthathewouldclimbnomoreAlps,sincehehadbeensenttoSwitzerland,toscalenotmountains,butthepeaksofknowledge。Itadded,withthatnaiveselfishnessfromwhichsometimeseventhemostpiousarenotexempt,“hadyoubeenkilled,inadditiontolosingyourownlife,whichwouldnotsomuchhavemattered,sinceItrustthatyouwouldhavepassedtoabetter,youwouldhavedoneawrongtoyourfamily。Inthatevent,asyouarenotyetofage,Ibelievethemoneywhichyourfriendlefttoyourecently,wouldhavereturnedtoherestateinsteadofgoingtobenefityournaturalheirs。“

  Godfreyponderedoverthewords“naturalheirs,“wonderingwhothesemightbe。Comingfinallytotheconclusionthathehadbutone,namelyhisfather,whichaccountedforthesolicitudeexpressedsoearnestlyintheletter,heutteredanexpletive,whichshouldnothavepassedhisyouthfullips,andthrewitdownuponthetopofthatofMadameRiennes。

  Afterthishelefttheroommuchdepressed,andwatchinghisopportunity,forthemerrypartyinthe/salon/whohadgatheredtogreethimwerestilltheredrinkingheavywhitewine,heslippedthroughthebackdoortowalkinthewoods。Thesewoodswerelonely,butthentheysuitedhismood。Intruth,neverhadhefeltmorealoneinhislife。Hisfatherandhewereutterlydifferent,andestranged,andhehadnootherrelatives。Infriendshewasequallylacking。MissOgilvy,whomhehadbeguntolove,wasdead,andafriendinheavenissomewayoff,althoughhedidthinkhehadheardhervoicewhenhewassoneartojoiningher。

  ThereremainednoonesavethePasteur,ofwhomhewasgrowingtrulyfond,somuchso,thathewishedthattheoldgentlemanhadbeenappointedtobehisfatheraccordingtotheflesh。Therestoftheworldwasablanktohim,exceptforIsobel,whohaddesertedhim。

  Besides,somenewsentimenthadenteredintohisrelationswithIsobel,wherebythesewerehalfspoiled。Ofcourse,althoughhedidnotaltogetherunderstandit,thiswastheeternalcomplicationofsexwhichcursesmorethanitblessesintheworld;ofsex,theeatingfirethatissobeautifulbutburns。Forwhenthatfirehaspassedovertheflowersoffriendship,theyarechangedintosomenewgrowth,thathowevergorgeousitmaybe,yetalwayssmellsofflame。Sexbeingtheoriginoflifeisnecessarilyalsotheoriginoftrouble,sincelifeandtroubleareinseparable,anddevoursthegentlejoysoffriendship,asakitedevourslittlesingingbirds。Thesegotoitssustenance,itistrue,andbotharebirds,butthekiteisaverydifferentcreaturefromthenightingaleorthelark。Oneofthegreatadvantagesofmatrimony,ifitendureslongenough,isthatwhenthesexattraction,whichwasitscause,hasfaded,orpracticallydied,oncemoreitmakesfriendshippossible。

  Perhapsthebestthingofthelittlewehavebeentoldaboutheaven,isthatinittherewillbenosex。Iftherewere,itisdoubtfulwhetheritcouldremainheaven,aswedefinethatstate,sincethenmustcomedesires,andjealousies,andselfishness,anddisappointment;alsobirthsanddeaths,sincewecannotconceivesex-

  lovewithoutanobject,orabeginningwithoutanend。Fromallofwhichtroubleswelearnthattheangelsarerelieved。

  Nowthiswondrous,burningmantleofsexhadfallenonGodfreyandIsobel,ashehadlearnedwhenhesawherwiththeknightinarmourinthegarden,andeverythingwaschangedbeneathitsfiery,smotheringfolds,andforhimtherewasnoIsobel。Hisfriendhadgone,andhewasleftwanderingalone。Hisdistresswasdeep,andsincehewastooyoungtomaskhisfeelings,aspeoplemustlearntodoinlife,itshoweditselfuponhisface。Atsupperthatnight,allofthelittlepartyobservedit,forhewhoshouldhavebeengay,wassadandspokelittle。Afterwards,whenthePasteurandGodfreywenttotheobservatorytoresumetheirastronomicalstudies,theformerlookedathimawhile,andsaid:

  “Whatisthematter,Godfrey?Tellme。“

  “Icannot,“hereplied,colouring。

  “Isitsobadasthatthen?Ithoughtthatperhapsyouhadonlyreceivedaletter,orletters。“

  “Ireceivedtwoofthem。Onewasfrommyfather,whoscoldsmebecauseIwasnearlykilled。“

  “Indeed。Heseemsfondofscolding,yourfather。Butthatisnonewthing,andonetowhichyoushouldbeused。Howabouttheotherletter?Wasit,perchance,fromMadameRiennes?“

  “Itisnotsigned,butIthinkso。“

  “Really。Itisodd,but,Itoo,havehadaletterfromMadameRiennes,alsounsigned,andIthink,afterreadingit,thatyoumaysafelyshowmeyours,andthentellmethetruthofalltheseaccusationsshemakesconcerningyouandJuliette。“

  NowGodfreyturnedcrimson。

  “HowcanI?“hemurmured。“FormyselfIdonotcare,butitseemslikebetraying——someoneelse。“

  “Itisdifficult,myboy,tobetraythatwhichisalreadywellknown,tome,amongothers。Hadthisletter,perchance,somethingtodowithanexpeditionwhichyoutwoyoungpeoplemadetosearchforflowers,andnothingelse?Ah!Iseeitisso。Thenyoumaysafelyshowittome,sinceIknowallaboutthatexpedition。“

  SoGodfreyproducedtheepistle,foratthemomentheforgotthatitcontainedallusionstoMadamealso,andholdingitgingerlybetweenhisthumbandfinger,handedittohim。ThePasteurreaditthroughwithoutshowingtheslightestemotion。

  “Ah!“hesaid,whenhehadfinished,“inherwaysheisquitemagnificent,thatoldwitch。But,surely,oneday,unlesssherepents,shewillbeaccommodatedwithsomeparticularhellofherown,sincetherearefewworthytoshareitwithher。Yousee,myboy,whatshesaysaboutMadame。Well,asIthinkItoldher,thatdearwifeofminemayhavehadherfoolishmoments,likemostothers,ifallthetruthwereknown。Butnotethis——thereisagreatdifferencebetweenthosewhohavefoolishmoments,ofwhateversort,andthosewhomakeittheirbusinesstoseeksuchmoments;further,betweenthosewhorepentoftheirerrorsandthosewhogloryin,andtrytocontinuethem。IfyouhaveanydoubtofthatstudytheBible,andreadamongstothers,ofDavid,wholivedtowritethePsalms,andofMaryMagdalene,whobecameasaint。Also,althoughthisdidnotoccurtothattigerofawoman,Imayhaveknownofthosemoments,andevendonemybesttohelpmywifeoutofthem,andbeenwellrewarded“——herehiskindoldfacebeamedlikethesun——“oh!yes,mostgloriouslyrewarded。SoafigfortheoldwitchandhertalesofMadame!AndnowtellmethetruthaboutyourselfandJuliette,withamindatease,forJuliettehastoldittomealready,andIwishtocomparethestories。“

  SoGodfreytoldhimeverything,andaridiculouslittletaleitwas。

  WhenhehadfinishedthePasteurburstoutlaughing。

  “Youareindeedsinners,youtwo,“hesaid,“sogreat,thatsurelyyoushouldstanddressedinwhitesheets,oneoneithersideofthealtar,withthecrushedflowerinthemiddle。Ah!thatiswhatIregret,thisflower,foritisveryrare。OnlyoncehaveIfounditinallmylife,andthen,astherewasnoladypresent,Ileftitwhereitgrew。

  Hearken,allthisisapackofnonsense。

  “Hearkenagain,Godfrey。Everybodythingsmeanoldfool。Howcanitbehelpedwithsuchafaceasmine,andthesebluespectacles,whichI

  mustwear?Butevenanoldfoolseesthingssometimes。Thus,IhaveseenthatMadame,whohadonceplentyofmoneytoplaywith,andlongs,poordear,forthefinethingsoflife,isveryanxiousthatherJulietteshouldmakeagoodmarriage。Ihaveseen,too,thatshehasthoughtofyou,whomshethinksmuchricherthanyouare,asagoodmatchforJuliette,andhasdoneherbesttomakeJuliettethinkasshedoes,allofwhichisquitenaturalinher,andindeed,praiseworthy,especiallyifshelikesandrespectstheyoungman。But,myboy,itisthegreatestnonsense。Tobeginwith,youdonot,andneverwill,careforJuliette,andshedoesnot,andneverwill,careforyou。Yournatures,ah!theyarequitedifferent。Youhavesomethingbigintheyou,andJuliette——well,shehasnot。Marriagewithherwouldbeforyouamisery,andforJulietteamiseryalso,sincewhathaveyouincommon?Besides,evenifitwereotherwise,doyouthinkIwouldallowsuchathing,withyousoyoungandinmycharge?Bah!begoodfriendswiththatprettygirl,andgohuntforflowerswithherasmuchasyoulike,fornothingwillevercomeofit。Only,betnomoreinkisses,fortheyaredangerous,andsparkssometimessetfiretohaystacks。“

  “Indeed,Iwillnot,“exclaimedGodfreywithfervour。

  “There,then,thattroubleisfinished。“Here,althoughhedidnotknowit,thePasteurwasmistaken。“Andnow,astotherestofthisletter。Itismalignant,malignant,anditswriterwillalwaysseektodoyouill,andperhaps,sometimessucceed。Itisthepricewhichyoumustpayforhavingmixedwithsuchapersonwhomixeswiththedevil,thoughthatwasnofaultofyours,myboy。Still,always,alwaysintheworldwearesufferingfromthefaultsofothers。Itisalaw,thelawofvicarioussacrifice,whichrunsthrougheverything,why,wedonotknow。Still,benotafraid,foritisyouwhowillwinatthelast,notshe。Fortherest,soonyouwillgoawayfromhere,sincetheyearforwhichyoucameisalmostfinished,andyoumustturnyourmindtothebiggerlife。Iprayyouwhenyoudo,nottoforgetme,for,myboy,I,whohavenoson,havelearnedtoloveyoulikeason,betterperhaps,thanhadyoubeenone,sinceoftenIhaveobservedthatitisnotalwaysfathersandsonsthatloveeachothermost,frequentlytheotherway,indeed。

  “AlsoIprayanotherthingofyou——thatifyouthinkIhaveanywisdom,oranylittlelightinthelampofthisugly,oldbodyofmine,youwillalwaystakemeforacounsellor,andwritetomeconcerningyourtroubles,asindeed,youmustdo,forrememberIamyourtrusteeofthisproperty,andperhapspayattentiontotheadviceImaygive。Andnowletusgettoourstars;theyaremuchmoreamusingthanMadameRiennes。ItisstrangetothinkthatthesameGodwhomadethestarsalsomadeMadameRiennes。TrulyHeisacharitableandtolerantGod!“

  “Perhapsthedevilmadeher,“suggestedGodfrey。

  “Itmaybeso,itmaybeso,butisitnotsaidintheBookofProverbs,Ibelieve,thatHemakesbothgoodandevilforHisowninfiniteends,thoughwhatthesemaybe,I,wormthatIam,cannotpretendtounderstand。Andnowtoourstarsthatarefarawayandpure,thoughwhoknowsbutthatifonewereneartothem,theywouldproveasfulloffoulnessastheearth?“

  ThePasteurwasrightwhenhesaidthatMadameRienneswouldnotceasefromattemptstodoeviltoGodfrey,andthereforewrongwhenheaddedthatthetroubleshehadcausedwasfinished。Ofthis,thatyoungmanwasmadepainfullyaware,whenafortnightorsolateranotherletterfromhisfatherreachedhim。ItinformedhimthatMr。Knighthadreceivedananonymouscommunicationwhichstatedthathe,Godfrey,wasleadinganevillifeinLucerne,alsothathewasbeingentrappedintoamarriagewithMademoiselleBoiset,whomhehadbeenseenembracingbehindsomerocks。Theletterended:

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