TothisinquiryMr。Knightatoncerepliedthatthemoneysmightbepaidtohimasthefatherofthelegatee,andwasfuriouswhenallsortsofobjectionswereraisedtothatcourse,unlesseverykindofguaranteeweregiventhattheywouldbeusedsolelyandstrictlyforthebenefitofhisson。Finally,anaccounthadtobeopenedonwhichchequescouldbedrawnsignedbyoneofthetrusteesandMr。Knight。
Thisprovisomadethelatterevenmoreindignantthanbefore,especiallyasitwasaccompaniedbyanintimationthatthetrusteeswouldrequirehisson’sconsent,eitherbyletterorinapersonalinterview,toanyarrangementsastohiscareer,etc。,whichinvolvedexpenditureofthetrustmoneys。Whenasomewhatrudeandlengthylettertothemtothateffectwasmetwithacurtacknowledgmentofitsreceiptandareferencetotheirpreviousdecision,Mr。Knight’sannoyancehardenedintoapermanentgrievanceagainsthisson,whomheseemedtoholdresponsibleforwhathecalledan“affront“tohimself。
Hewasamanwithlargeideasofpaternalrights,ofwhichanexamplemaybegiventhatwasnotwithoutitseffectuponthevitalinterestsofothers。
WhenIsobelreturnedfromLondon,afterthefancy-dressball,atwhichshethoughtshehadseenaghostwhilstsittinginthesquarewithheryoungadmirerwhowasdressedasaknight,shewaitedforalongwhileexpectingtoreceivealetterfromGodfrey。Asnonecame,althoughsheknewfromMrs。Parsonsthathehadwrittenhomeseveraltimes,shebegantowonderastothecauseofhissilence。Thenanideaoccurredtoher。
Supposingthatwhatshehadseenwasnofancyofhermind,butGodfreyhimself,whoinsomemysteriousfashionhadfoundhiswayintothatsquare,perhapsinthehopeofseeingherattheballinordertosaygoodbye?Thiswaspossible,sinceshehadascertainedfromsomecasualremarkbyhisfatherthathedidnotleaveLondonuntilthefollowingmorning。
Ifthishadhappened,ifhehadseenher“playingthefool,“assheexpressedittoherselfwiththatgood-lookingmaninthesquare,whatwouldhehavethoughtofher?Sheneverpausedtorememberthathehadnorighttothinkanything。Somehowfromchildhoodsheacknowledgedinherheartthathehadeveryright,thoughwhenshesaidthistoherself,shedidnotintheleastunderstandallthattheadmissionconveyed。Althoughshebulliedandmaltreatedhimattimes,yettoherselfshealwaysconfessedhimtobeherlordandmaster。Hewastheonemalecreatureforwhomshecaredinthewholeworld,indeed,puttinghermotheroutofthequestion,shecaredfornoothermanorwoman,andwouldneverlearntodoso。
Forherswasasingularandveryrareinstanceofalmostundividedaffectioncentredonasingleobject。SofarashissexwasconcernedGodfreywasherall,apositionofwhichanymanmightwellbeproudinthecaseofanywoman,andespeciallyofonewhohadmanyopportunitiesofdevotingherselftoothers。Inherexample,however,shewasnottobethanked,forthereasonthatsheonlyfollowedhernature,orperhapsthedictatesofthatfatewhichinspiresandrulesverygreatlove,whetheritbebetweenmanandwoman,betweenparentandchild,betweenbrotherandbrother,orbetweenfriendandfriend。
Suchfeelingsdonotarise,orgrow。Theysimply/are/;theblossomsofaplantthathasitssecretrootsfarawayinthesoilofCircumstancebeyondourken,andthat,mayhap,haspusheditsbranchesthroughexistenceswithoutnumber,andintheclimatesofmanyworlds。
SoatleastitwaswithIsobel,andsoithadalwaysbeensinceshekissedthesleepingchildintheoldrefectoryoftheAbbey。Shewashis,andinaway,howevermuchshemightdoubtormistrust,herinnersenseandinstincttoldherthathewasalwayshers,thatsohehadalwaysbeenandsoalwayswouldremain。Withtheadventofwomanhoodthesetruthscamehometoherwithanincreasedforcebecausesheknew——againbyinstinct——thatthisfactofwomanhoodmultipliedthechancesofattainmenttotheunitywhichshedesired,howeverpartialthatmightstillprovetobe。
Yetsheknewalsothatthisgreatmutualattractiondidnotdependonsex,thoughbytheinfluenceofsexitmightbequickenedandaccentuated。Itwassomethingmuchmoredeepandwide,somethingwhichshedidnotandperhapsneverwouldunderstand。Thesexelementwasaccidental,somuchsothatthepassageofafewearthlyyearswouldrobitofitspowertoattractandmakeitasthoughithadneverbeen,buttheperfectfriendshipbetweentheirsoulswaspermanentandwithoutshadowofchange。Sheknew,oh!,sheknew,althoughnowordofithadeverbeenspokenbetweenthem,thattheirswastheLoveEternal。Thequickperceptionofherwoman’smindtoldherthesethings,ofwhichGodfrey’sinitsslowergrowthwasnotyetaware。
AnimatedbythisnewideathatshehadreallyseenGodfrey,andwhatwasmuchworse,thatGodfreyhadreallyseenheruponanoccasionwhenshewouldhavemuchpreferredtoremaininvisibletohim,shewasfilledwithremorse,anddeterminedtowritehimaletter。Likethatoftheyoungmanhimselftohisfather,itscompositiontookheragooddealoftime。
Hereitisascopiedfromherthirdandfinaldraft:——
“MydearoldGodfrey,——IhaveanideathatyouwereintheSquareonthenightofthefancyballwhenIcameout,andworethathorridPlantagenetdresswhich,afterall,didnotfit。Isentittoajumble-salewherenoonewouldbuyit,soIgaveittoMrs。
Smilie,whohasninechildren,tocutintofrocksforherlittlegirls。Ifyou/were/there,insteadofrestingbeforeyourlongjourneyasyououghttohavedone,andsawmewithamaninarmourandarose——andtherest,ofcourseyouwillhaveunderstoodthatthiswasallpartofthegame。Yousee,wehadtopretendthatwewereknightsandladieswho,whentheywerenotcuttingthroatsorbeingcarriedoffwiththeirhairdown,seemtohavewastedtheirtimeingivingeachotherfavours,andallthatsortofbosh。Wedidnotknowwhatafavourwas,soweusedarose。Thetruthisthattheyoungmanandhisarmour,especiallyhisspurswhichtoremydress,andeverythingabouthimboredme,themoresobecauseallthewhileIwasthinkingof——well,otherthings——howyouwouldgetthroughyourjourney,andlikethoseFrenchpeopleandtherest。Sonow,ifyou/were/there,youwon’tbecross,andifyouwere/not/,anddon’tunderstandwhatIamsaying,itisn’tworthbotheringabout。Inanycase,youhadnorightto——Imean,becross。ItisIwhoshouldbecrosswithyouforpokingaboutinaLondonsquaresolateandnotcomingforwardtosayhowdoyoudoandbeintroducedtotheknight。ThatisallIhavetosayaboutthebusiness,sodon’twriteandaskmeanyquestions。
“Thereisnonewshere——thereneveris——exceptthatIhaven’tbeenintothatchurchsinceyouleft,anddon’tmeanto,whichmakesyourfatherlookatmeassourlyasthoughhehadeatenawholehatfulofcrab-apples。Hehatesme,youknow,andIratherlikehimforshowingit,asitsavesmethetroubleoftryingtokeepupappearances。Dotellme,whenyouwrite,howtoexplainhiseverhavingbeen/your/father。IfhestillwantsyoutogointotheChurchIadviseyoutostudytheThirty-nineArticles。Ireadthemallthroughyesterday,andhowanybodycansweartotheminthisyearofgraceI’msureIdon’tknow。Theymustshuttheireyesandopentheirmouths,likeweusedtodowhenwetookpowders。Bytheway,didyoueverreadanythingaboutBuddhism?
I’vegotabookonitwhichIthinkratherfine。Atanyrate,itisagreatidea,thoughIthinkIshouldfinditdifficulttofollow’theWay。’
“IamsorrytosaythatMotherisnotwellatall。ShecoughsagreatdealnowthatEssexisgettingsodamp,andgrowsthinnerandthinner。ThedoctorsayssheoughttogotoEgypt,onlyFatherwon’thearofit。ButIwon’twriteaboutthatorweshouldhaveanotherargumentonthefourthCommandment。Good-bye,dearoldboy——YouraffectionateIsobel。
“P。S——Whenyouwritedon’ttellmeallaboutSwitzerlandandsnow-
coveredmountainsandblue,bottomlesslakes,etc。,whichIcanreadinbooks。Tellmeaboutyourselfandwhatyouaredoingandthinking——especiallywhatyouarethinking。
“P。P。S——Thatmaninarmourisn’treallygood-looking;hehasasquint。Alsoheputsscentuponhishairandcan’tspell。Iknowbecausehetriedtowriteabitofpoetryonmyprogrammeandgotitallwrong。“
WhenshehadfinishedthissomewhatlabouredepistleIsobelrememberedthatshehadforgottentoaskGodfreytowritedownhisaddress。
BethinkingherthatitwouldbeknowntoMrs。Parsons,shetookitroundtotheAbbeyHouse,proposingtoadditthere。AsithappenedMrs。Parsonswasout,sosheleftitwiththehousemaid,whopromisedfaithfullytogiveittoherwhenshereturned,withIsobel’smessageastowritingtheaddressonthesealedenvelope。Inorderthatshemightnotforget,themaidplaceditonatablebythebackdoor。Byillluck,however,presentlythroughthatdoor,came,notMrs。
Parsons,buttheRev。Mr。Knight。HesawtheletteraddressedtoGodfreyKnight,Esq。,and,thoughhehalfpretendedtohimselfthathedidnot,atoncerecognizedIsobel’slarge,uprighthand。Takingitfromthetablehecarrieditwithhimintohisstudyandtherecontemplateditforawhile。
“ThatperniciousgirliscommunicatingwithGodfrey,“hesaidtohimself,“whichIparticularlywishtoprevent。“
Adesirecameuponhimtoknowwhatwasintheletter,andhebegantoarguewithhimselfastohis“duty“——thatwasthewordheused。
FinallyheconcludedthatasGodfreywasstillsoyoungandsoopentobadinfluencesfromthatquarter,thisdutyclearlyindicatedthatheshouldreadtheletterbeforeitwasforwarded。Inobediencetothishighimpulseheopenedandreadit,withtheresultthatbythetimeitwasfinishedtherewasperhapsnomoreangryclergymanintheBritishEmpire。Thedescriptionofhimselflookingasthoughhehadeatenahatfulofcrab-apples;theimpiousremarksabouttheThirty-
nineArticles;thesuggestionthatGodfrey,insteadofgoingtobedashehadorderedhimtodothatevening,waswanderingaboutLondonatmidnight;theboldlyannouncedintentionofthewriterofnotgoingtochurch——indeed,everywordofitirritatedhimbeyondbearing。
“Well,“hesaidaloud,“IdonotthinkthatIamcalledupontospendtwopence-halfpenny“forIsobelhadforgottenthestamp“inforwardingsuchpoisonoustrashtoasonwhomIshouldguardfromevil。Hatefulgirl!Atanyratesheshallhavenoanswertothiseffusion。“
Thenheputtheletterintoadrawerwhichhelocked。
Asaconsequence,naturally,Isobeldidreceive“noanswer,“afactfromwhichshedrewherownconclusions。Indeed,itwouldnotbetoomuchtosaythatthesesearedhersoul。ShehadwrittentoGodfrey,shehadhumbledherselfbeforeGodfrey,andhesenther——noanswer。Itneveroccurredtohertomakeinquiriesastothefateofthatletter,exceptoncewhensheaskedthehousemaidwhomshechancedtomeet,whethershehadgivenittoMrs。Parsons。Thegirl,whosebrain,orwhateverrepresentedthatorgan,wasentirelyfixeduponayoungmaninthevillageofwhomshewasjealous,answered,yes。Perhapsshehadentirelyforgottentheincident,orperhapssheconsideredthethrowingoftheletteruponatableasequivalenttodelivery。