第23章
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  Theotherdayhetookitintohisheadtocrosstheroomwithnootherpurposebuttoopenadoorforme;andIfeltmoreintouchwithmankindthanIhadbeenforyears。Ridiculous,isn’tit?OfcourseIguessthereissomething——someawfullittlescrape——whichyouknowallabout——butifIamsurethatitisterriblyheinous,Ifancyonecouldmanagetoforgiveit。Formypart,IdeclareIamunabletoimaginehimguiltyofanythingmuchworsethanrobbinganorchard。Isitmuchworse?Perhapsyououghttohavetoldme;butitissuchalongtimesincewebothturnedsaintsthatyoumayhaveforgottenwe,too,hadsinnedinourtime?ItmaybethatsomedayIshallhavetoaskyou,andthenIshallexpecttobetold。Idon’tcaretoquestionhimmyselftillIhavesomeideawhatitis。Moreover,it’stoosoonasyet。Lethimopenthedoorafewtimesmoreforme……“Thusmyfriend。Iwastreblypleased——atJim’sshapingsowell,atthetoneoftheletter,atmyowncleverness。EvidentlyIhadknownwhatIwasdoing。Ihadreadcharactersaright,andsoon。Andwhatifsomethingunexpectedandwonderfulweretocomeofit?Thatevening,reposinginadeck-chairundertheshadeofmyownpoopawningitwasinHongKongharbour,IlaidonJim’sbehalfthefirststoneofacastleinSpain。

  `Imadeatriptothenorthward,andwhenIreturnedIfoundanotherletterfrommyfriendwaitingforme。ItwasthefirstenvelopeItoreopen。“TherearenospoonsmissingasfarasIknow,“ranthefirstline;

  “Ihaven’tbeeninterestedenoughtoinquire。Heisgone,leavingonthebreakfast-tableaformallittlenoteofapology,whichiseithersillyorheartless。Probablyboth——andit’sallonetome。Allowmetosay,lestyoushouldhavesomemoremysteriousyoungmeninreserve,thatIhaveshutupshop,definitelyandforever。ThisisthelasteccentricityI

  shallbeguiltyof。DonotimagineforamomentthatIcareahang;butheisverymuchregrettedattennis-parties,andformyownsakeI’vetoldaplausiblelieattheclub……“Iflungtheletterasideandstartedlookingthroughthebatchonmytable,tillIcameuponJim’shandwriting。

  Wouldyoubelieveit?Onechanceinahundred!Butitisalwaysthathundredthchance!ThatlittlesecondengineerofthePatnahadturnedupinamoreorlessdestitutestate,andgotatemporaryjoboflookingafterthemachineryofthemill。“Icouldn’tstandthefamiliarityofthelittlebeast,“Jimwrotefromasea-portsevenhundredmilessouthoftheplacewhereheshouldhavebeeninclover。“IamnowforthetimewithEgstrom&Blake,ship-chandlers,astheir——well——runner,tocallthethingbyitsrightname。ForreferenceIgavethemyourname,whichtheyknowofcourse,andifyoucouldwriteawordinmyfavouritwouldbeapermanentemployment。“Iwasutterlycrushedundertheruinsofmycastle,butofcourseIwroteasdesired。Beforetheendoftheyearmynewchartertookmethatway,andIhadanopportunityofseeinghim。

  `HewasstillwithEgstrom&Blake,andwemetinwhattheycalled“ourparlour“openingoutofthestore。Hehadthatmomentcomeinfromboardingaship,andconfrontedmeheaddown,readyforatussle。“Whathaveyougottosayforyourself?“Ibeganassoonaswehadshakenhands。

  “WhatIwroteyou——nothingmore,“hesaidstubbornly。“Didthefellowblab——orwhat?“Iasked。Helookedupatmewithatroubledsmile。“Oh,no!Hedidn’t。

  Hemadeitakindofconfidentialbusinessbetweenus。HewasmostdamnablymysteriouswheneverIcameovertothemill;hewouldwinkatmeinarespectfulmanner——asmuchastosay,“Weknowwhatweknow。“Infernallyfawningandfamiliar——andthatsortofthing。“Hethrewhimselfintoachairandstareddownhislegs。“Onedaywehappenedtobealoneandthefellowhadthecheektosay,`Well,Mr。James’——IwascalledMr。JamesthereasifIhadbeentheson——`herewearetogetheroncemore。Thisisbetterthantheoldship——ain’tit?’……Wasn’titappalling,eh?Ilookedathim,andheputonaknowingair。`Don’tyoubeuneasy,sir,’hesays。`IknowagentlemanwhenIseeone,andIknowhowagentlemanfeels。Ihope,though,youwillbekeepingmeonthisjob。Ihadahardtimeofit,too,alongofthatrottenoldPatnaracket。’Jove!Itwasawful。Idon’tknowwhatIshouldhavesaidordoneifIhadnotjustthenheardMr。Denvercallingmeinthepassage。Itwastiffin-time,andwewalkedtogetheracrosstheyardandthroughthegardentothebungalow。Hebegantochaffmeinhiskindlyway……Ibelievehelikedme……“

  `Jimwassilentforawhile。

  “`Iknowhelikedme。That’swhatmadeitsohard。Suchasplendidman!

  Thatmorningheslippedhishandundermyarm……He,too,wasfamiliarwithme。“Heburstintoashortlaugh,anddroppedhischinonhisbreast。

  “Pah!WhenIrememberedhowthatmeanlittlebeasthadbeentalkingtome,“hebegansuddenlyinavibratingvoice,“Icouldn’tbeartothinkofmyself……Isupposeyouknow……“Inodded……“Morelikeafather,“hecried;hisvoicesank。“Iwouldhavehadtotellhim。Icouldn’tletitgoon——couldI?““Well?Imurmured,afterwaitingawhile。“Ipreferredtogo,“hesaid,slowly;“thisthingmustbeburied。“

  `WecouldhearintheshopBlakeupbraidingEgstrominanabusive,strainedvoice。Theyhadbeenassociatedformanyyears,andeverydayfromthemomentthedoorswereopenedtothelastminutebeforeclosing,Blake,alittlemanwithsleek,jettyhairandunhappy,beadyeyes,couldbeheardrowinghispartnerincessantlywithasortofscathingandplaintivefury。

  Thesoundofthateverlastingscoldingwaspartoftheplaceliketheotherfixtures;evenstrangerswouldverysooncometodisregarditcompletelyunlessitbeperhapstomutter“Nuisance,“ortogetupsuddenlyandshutthedoorofthe“parlour。“Egstromhimself,arawboned,heavyScandinavian,withabusymannerandimmenseblondewhiskers,wentondirectinghispeople,checkingparcels,makingoutbillsorwritinglettersatastand-updeskintheshop,andcomportedhimselfinthatclatterexactlyasthoughhehadbeenstone-deaf。Nowandagainhewouldemitabotheredperfunctory“Sssh,“whichneitherproducednorwasexpectedtoproducetheslightesteffect。“Theyareverydecenttomehere,“saidJim。“Blake’salittlecad,butEgstrom’sallright。“Hestoodupquickly,andwalkingwithmeasuredstepstoatripodtelescopestandinginthewindowandpointedattheroadstead,heappliedhiseyetoit。“There’sthatshipwhichhadbeenbecalmedoutsideallthemorninghasgotabreezenowandiscomingin,“heremarked,patiently;

  “Imustgoandboard。“Weshookhandinsilence,andheturnedtogo。“Jim!“

  Icried。Helookedroundwithhishandonthelock。“You——youhavethrownawaysomethinglikeafortune。“Hecamebacktomeallthewayfromthedoor。“Suchasplendidoldchap,“hesaid。“HowcouldI?HowcouldI?“

  Hislipstwitched。“Hereitdoesnotmatter。““Oh!you——you——“I

  began,andhadtocastaboutforasuitableword,butbeforeIbecameawarethattherewasnonamethatwouldjustdo,hewasgone。IheardoutsideEgstrom’sdeepgentlevoicesayingcheerily,“That’stheSarahW。Granger,Jimmy。Youmustmanagetobefirstaboard;“anddirectlyBlakestruckin,screamingafterthemannerofanoutragedcockatoo,“Tellthecaptainwe’vegotsomeofhismailhere。That’llfetchhim。D’yehear,MisterWhat’s-your-name?“

  AndtherewasJimansweringEgstromwithsomethingboyishinhistone。

  “Allright。I’llmakearaceofit。“Heseemedtotakerefugeintheboat-sailingpartofthatsorrybusiness。

  “Ididnotseehimagainthattrip,butonmynextIhadasixmonths’

  charterIwentuptothestore。TenyardsawayfromthedoorBlake’sscoldingmetmyears,andwhenIcameinhegavemeaglanceofutterwretchedness;

  Egstrom,allsmiles,advanced,extendingalargebonyhand。“Gladtoseeyou,captain……Sssh……Beenthinkingyouwereaboutduebackhere。

  Whatdidyousay,sir?……Sssh……Oh!him!Hehasleftus。Comeintotheparlour。“……AftertheslamofthedoorBlake’sstrainedvoicebecamefaint,asthevoiceofonescoldingdesperatelyinawilderness……“Putustoagreatinconvenience,too。Usedusbadly,Imustsay……““Where’shegoneto?Doyouknow?“Iasked。“No。It’snouseaskingeither,“saidEgstrom,standingbewhiskeredandobligingbeforemewithhisarmshangingdownhissidesclumsilyandathinsilverwatch-chainloopedverylowonarucked-upbluesergewaistcoat。“Amanlikethatdon’tgoanywhereinparticular。“Iwastooconcernedatthenewstoaskfortheexplanationofthatpronouncement,andhewenton。“Heleft——let’ssee——theverydayasteamerwithreturningpilgrimsfromtheRedSeaputinherewithtwobladesofherpropellergone。Threeweeksagonow。““Wasn’ttheresomethingsaidaboutthePatnacase?“Iasked,fearingtheworst。Hegaveastart,andlookedatmeasifIhadbeenasorcerer。“Why,yes!Howdoyouknow?Someofthemweretalkingaboutithere。Therewasacaptainortwo,themanagerofVanlo’sengineeringshopattheharbour,twoorthreeothers,andmyself。Jimwasinhere,too,havingasandwichandaglassofbeer;whenwearebusy——yousee,captain——there’snotimeforapropertiffin。Hewasstandingbythistableeatingsandwiches,andtherestofuswereroundthetelescopewatchingthatsteamercomein;

  andbyandbyVanlo’smanagerbegantotalkaboutthechiefofthePatna;

  hehaddonesomerepairsforhimonce,andfromthathewentontotelluswhatanoldruinshewas,andthemoneythathadbeenmadeoutofher。

  Hecametomentionherlastvoyage,andthenweallstruckin。Somesaidonethingandsomeanother——notmuch——whatyouoranyothermanmightsay;

  andtherewassomelaughing。CaptainO’BrienoftheSarahW。Granger,alarge,noisyoldmanwithastick——hewassittinglisteningtousinthisarm-chairhere——heletdrivesuddenlywithhisstickatthefloor,androarsout,`Skunks!’……Madeusalljump。Vanlo’smanagerwinksatusandasks,`What’sthematter,CaptainO’Brien?’`Matter!matter!’

  theoldmanbegantoshout;`whatareyouInjunslaughingat?It’snolaughingmatter。It’sadisgracetohumannatur’——that’swhatitis。Iwoulddespisebeingseeninthesameroomwithoneofthosemen。Yes,sir!’Heseemedtocatchmyeyelike,andIhadtospeakoutofcivility。`Skunks!’saysI,`ofcourse,CaptainO’Brien,andIwouldn’tcaretohavethemheremyself,soyou’requitesafeinthisroom,CaptainO’Brien。Havealittlesomethingcooltodrink。’`Damnyourdrink,Egstrom,’sayshe,withatwinkleinhiseye;`whenIwantadrinkIwillshoutforit。Iamgoingtoquit。

  Itstinksherenow。’Atthisalltheothersburstoutlaughing,andouttheygoaftertheoldman。Andthen,sir,thatblastedJimheputsdownthesandwichhehadinhishandandwalksroundthetabletome;therewashisglassofbeerpouredoutquitefull。`I’moff,’hesays——justlikethis。`Itisn’thalf-pastoneyet,’saysI;`youmightsnatchasmokefirst。’

  Ithoughthemeantitwastimeforhimtogodowntohiswork。WhenIunderstoodwhathewasupto,myarmsfell——so!Can’tgetamanlikethateveryday,youknow,sir;aregulardevilforsailingaboat;readytogooutmilestoseatomeetshipsinanysortofweather。Morethanonceacaptainwouldcomeinherefullofit,andthefirstthinghewouldsaywouldbe,`That’sarecklesssortofalunaticyou’vegotforawater-clerk,Egstrom。Iwasfeelingmywayinatdaylightundershortcanvaswhentherecomesflyingoutofthemistrightundermyforefootaboathalfunderwater,spraysgoingoverthemasthead,twofrightenedniggersonthebottomboards,ayellingfiendatthetiller。Hey!hey!Shipahoy!ahoy!Captain!Hey!hey!

  Egstrom&Blake’smanfirsttospeaktoyou!Hey!hey!Egstrom&

  Blake!Hallo!hey!whoop!Kicktheniggers——outreefs——asquallonatthetime——shootsaheadwhoopingandyellingtometomakesailandhewouldgivemealeadin——morelikeademonthanaman。Neversawaboathandledlikethatinallmylife。Couldn’thavebeendrunk——washe?Suchaquiet,soft-spokenchap,too——blushedlikeagirlwhenhecameonboard……“

  Itellyou,CaptainMarlow,nobodyhadachanceagainstuswithastrangeshipwhenJimwasout。Theothership-chandlersjustkepttheiroldcustomers,and……“

  `Egstromappearedovercomewithemotion。

  “`Why,sir——itseemedasthoughhewouldn’tmindgoingahundredmilesouttoseainanoldshoetonabashipforthefirm。Ifthebusinesshadbeenhisownandalltomakeyet,hecouldn’thavedonemoreinthatway。

  Andnow……allatonce……likethis!ThinksItomyself:`Oho!ariseinthescrew——that’sthetrouble——isit?Allright,’saysI,`noneedofallthatfusswithme,Jimmy。Justmentionyourfigure。Anythinginreason。’Helooksatmeasifhewantedtoswallowsomethingthatstuckinhisthroat。`Ican’tstopwithyou。’`What’sthatbloomingjoke?’I

  asks。Heshakeshishead,andIcouldseeinhiseyehewasasgoodasgonealready,sir。SoIturnedtohimandslangedhimtillallwasblue。

  `Whatisityou’rerunningawayfrom?’Iasks。`Whohasbeengettingatyou?Whatscaredyou?Youhaven’tasmuchsenseasarat;theydon’tclearoutfromagoodship。Wheredoyouexpecttogetabetterberth?——youthisandyouthat。’Imadehimlooksick,Icantellyou。`Thisbusinessain’tgoingtosink,’saysI。Hegaveabigjump。`Good-bye,’hesays,noddingatmelikealord;`youain’thalfabadchap,Egstrom。Igiveyoumywordthatifyouknewmyreasonsyouwouldn’tcaretokeepme。’`That’sthebiggestlieyouevertoldinyourlife,’saysI;`Iknowmyownmind。’

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