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  SundaycametheKATOOMBA,CaptainBickford,C。M。G。

  Yesterday,GrahamandIwentdowntocall,andfindhehasorderstosuppressMataafaatonce,andhastogodownto-daybeforedaybreaktoManono。Heisaverycapable,energeticman;ifhehadonlycometendaysago,allthiswouldhavegoneby;butnowthequestionsarethickanddifficult。1

  WillMataafasurrender?2Willhispeopleallowthemselvestobedisarmed?3Whatwillhappentothemiftheydo?

  4Whatwillanyofthembelieveafterformerdeceptions?

  ThethreeconsulswerescamperingonhorsebacktoLeulumoegatotheKing;noCusack-Smith,withoutwhoseaccessionIcouldnotsendalettertoMataafa。Irodeuphere,wrotemyletterinthesweatoftheconcordanceandwiththeable-

  bodiedhelpofLloyd-anddined。Thendownincontinualshowersandpitchydarkness,andtoCusack-Smith’s;notre-

  returned。Backtotheinnformyhorse,andtoC-S。’s,whenIfindhimjustreturnedandheacceptsmyletter。Thencehome,by12。30,jollytiredandwet。Andto-dayhavebeeninacrispationofenergyandill-temper,rakingmywretchedmailtogether。Itisahatefulbusiness,waitingforthenews;itmaycometoafearfulmassacreyet-Yoursever,R。L。S。

  MYDEARCOLVIN,-Quiteimpossibletowrite。Yourletterisdueto-day;anasty,rainy-likemorningwithhugeblueclouds,andahugeindigoshadowonthesea,andmylampstillburningatnear7。Letmehumblygiveyounews。Fannyseemsonthewholethemost,ortheonly,powerfulmemberofthefamily;forsomedaysshehasbeentheFloweroftheFlock。Belleisbeggingforquinine。LloydandGrahamhavebothbeendownwith’bellybelonghim’BlackBoyspeech。

  Asforme,Ihavetolayasidemylawntennis,havingaswastobeexpectedhadasmartbuteminentlybriefhemorrhage。

  Iamalsoonthequinineflask。Ihavebeenre-castingthebeginningoftheHANGINGJUDGEorWEIROFHERMISTON;thenI

  havebeencobblingonmygrandfather,whoselastchapterthereareonlytobefourisintheformofpiecesofpaper,ahugewelterofinconsequence,andthatglimmeroffaithorhopewhichonelearnsatthistrade,thatsomehowandsometime,byperpetualstaringandgloweringandrewriting,orderwillemerge。Itisindeedaqueerhope;

  thereisonepieceforinstancethatIwantin-Icannotputitoneplaceforagoodreason-Icannotputitanotherforabetter-andeverytimeIlookatit,IturnsickandputtheMs。away。

  Well,yourletterhasn’tcome,andanumberofothersaremissing。Itlooksasifamail-baghadgoneon,soI’llblamenobody,andproceedtobusiness。

  ItlooksasifIwasgoingtosendyouthefirstthreechaptersofmyGrandfather……Iftheyweresetup,itwouldbethatmuchanxietyoffmymind。Ihaveastrangefeelingofresponsibility,asifIhadmyancestors’SOULSinmycharge,andmightmiscarrywiththem。

  There’salotofworkgoneintoit,andalotmoreisneeded。

  StillChapterI。seemsaboutrighttome,andmuchofChapterII。ChapterIII。Iknownothingof,asItoldyou。AndChapterIV。isatpresentallendsandbeginnings;butitcanbepulledtogether。

  ThisisallIhavebeenabletoscrewuptoyouforthismonth,andImayaddthatitisnotonlymorethanyoudeserve,butjustaboutmorethanIwasequalto。Ihavebeenandamentirelyuseless;justabletotinkeratmyGrandfather。Thethreechapters-perhapsalsoalittleofthefourth-willcomehometoyounextmailbythehandofmycousinGrahamBalfour,averynicefellowwhomIrecommendtoyouwarmly-andwhomIthinkyouwilllike。Thiswillgiveyoutimetoconsidermyvariousanddistractedschemes。

  Allourwarsareoverinthemeantime,tobeginagainassoonasthewar-shipsleave。Adieu。

  MYDEARCOLVIN,-YourpleasingletterRETHEEBBTIDE,tohand。Ipropose,ifitbenottoolate,todeleteLloyd’sname。Hehasnothingtodowiththelasthalf。Thefirstwewrotetogether,asthebeginningofalongyarn。Thesecondisentirelymine;andIthinkitratherunfairontheyoungmantocouplehisnamewithsoinfamousawork。Aboveall,asyouhadnotreadthetwolastchapters,whichseemtomethemostuglyandcynicalofall。

  YouwillseethatIamnotinagoodhumour;andIamnot。

  Itisnotbecauseofyourletter,butbecauseofthecomplicatedmiseriesthatsurroundmeandthatIchoosetosaynothingof。LifeisnotallBeerandSkittles。Theinherenttragedyofthingsworksitselfoutfromwhitetoblackandblacker,andthepoorthingsofadaylookruefullyon。Doesitshakemycast-ironfaith?Icannotsayitdoes。

  Ibelieveinanultimatedecencyofthings;ay,andifIwokeinhell,shouldstillbelieveit!Butitishardwalking,andIcanseemyownshareinthemissteps,andcanbowmyheadtotheresult,likeanold,stern,unhappydevilofaNorseman,asmyultimatecharacteris……

  Well,ILFAUTCULTIVERSONJARDIN。Thatlastexpressionofpoor,unhappyhumanwisdomItaketomyheartandgotoST。

  IVES。

  24thAUG。

  Anddid,andworkedabout2hoursandgottosleepultimatelyand’a’thecloudshasblawnaway。’’Besurewe’llhavesomepleisandweather,Whena’thecloudsstorms?hasblawngone?away。’Versesthathaveaquiteinexplicableattractionforme,andIbelievehadforBurns。Theyhavenomerit,butaresomehowgood。Iamnowinamostexcellenthumour。

  IamdeepinST。IVESwhich,Ibelieve,willbethenextnoveldone。ButitistobeclearlyunderstoodthatI

  promisenothing,andmaythrowinyourfacetheverylastthingyouexpect-orIexpect。ST。IVESwilltomymind

  notbewhollybad。Itiswritteninratherafunnystyle;alittlestiltedandleft-handed;thestyleofSt。Ives;also,tosomeextent,thestyleofR。L。S。dictating。ST。IVES

  isunintellectualandexceptasanadventurenovel,dull。

  Buttheadventuresseemtomesoundandprettyprobable;anditisalovestory。Speedhiswings!

  SUNDAYNIGHT。

  DECOEURUNPEUPLUSDISPOS,MONSIEURETCHERCONFRERE,JEME

  REMETSAVOUSECRIRE。ST。IVESisnowinthe5thchaptercopying;inthe14thchapterofthedictateddraft。IdonotbelieveIshallendbydislikingit。

  MONDAY。

  Well,heregoesagainforthenews。FannyisVERYWELL

  indeed,andingoodspirits;IamingoodspiritsbutnotVERYwell;Lloydisingoodspiritsandverywell;Bellehasarealgoodfeverwhichhasputherpipeoutwholly。Grahamgoesbackthismail。HetakeswithhimthreechaptersofTHE

  FAMILY,andistogotoyouassoonashecan。Hecannotbemuchthemasterofhismovements,butyougriphimwhenyoucanandgetallyoucanfromhim,ashehaslivedaboutsixmonthswithusandhecantellyoujustwhatistrueandwhatisnot-andnotthedreamsofdearoldRoss。Heisagoodfellow,ishenot?

  SinceyouratherreviseyourviewsofTHEEBBTIDE,IthinkLloyd’snamemightstick,butI’llleaveittoyou。I’lltellyoujusthowitstands。Uptothediscoveryofthechampagne,thetalewasallplannedbetweenusanddraftedbyLloyd;fromthatmomenthehashadnothingtodowithitexcepttalkingitover。Forwechangedourplan,gaveuptheprojectedMonteCristo,andcutitdownforashortstory。

  Myjmpression-Ibegyourpardon-thisisalocaljoke-afirmherehadonitsbeerlabels,’solejmporters’-isthatitwillneverbepopular,butmightmakealittleSUCCESDE

  SCANDALE。However,I’mdonewithitnow,andnotsorry,andthecrowdmayraveandmumbleitsbonesforwhatIcare。

  Holeessential。Iamsorryaboutthemaps;butIwant’emfornextedition,soseeandhaveproofssent。YouarequiterightaboutthebottleandthegreatHuish,Imusttrytomakeitclear。No,IwillnotwriteaplayforIrvingnorforthedevil。CanyounotseethattheworkofFALSIFICATIONwhichaplaydemandsisofalltasksthemostungrateful?AndIhavedoneitalongwhile-andnothingevercameofit。

  Considermynewproposal,ImeanHonolulu。YouwouldgettheAtlanticandtheRockyMountains,wouldyounot?forbracing。

  Andsomuchlesssea!AndthenyoucouldactuallyseeVailima,whichIWOULDlikeyouto,forit’sbeautifulandmyhomeandtombthatistobe;thoughit’sawrenchnottobeplantedinScotland-thatIcanneverdeny-ifIcouldonlybeburiedinthehills,undertheheatherandatabletombstonelikethemartyrs,wherethewhaupsandploversarecrying!DidyouseeamanwhowrotetheSTICKITMINISTER,anddedicatedittome,inwordsthatbroughtthetearstomyeyeseverytimeIlookedatthem,’Whereaboutthegravesofthemartyrsthewhaupsarecrying。HISheartremembershow。’

  Ah,byGod,itdoes!SingularthatIshouldfulfiltheScotsdestinythroughout,andliveavoluntaryexile,andhavemyheadfilledwiththeblessed,beastlyplaceallthetime!

  AndnowawordasregardsthedelusionsofthedearRoss,whoremembers,Ibelieve,mylettersandFanny’swhenwewerefirstinstalled,andwerereallyhoeingahardrow。Wehavesalad,beans,cabbages,tomatoes,asparagus,kohl-rabi,oranges,limes,barbadines,pine-apples,Capegooseberries-

  galore;pintsofmilkandcream;freshmeatfivedaysaweek。

  Itistherarestthingforanyofustotouchatin;andthegnashingofteethwhenithastobedoneisdreadful-fornoonewhohasnotlivedonthemforsixmonthsknowswhattheHatredoftheTinis。Asforexposure,myweaknessiscertainlythereverse;Iamsometimesamonthwithoutleavingtheverandah-formysins,beitsaid!Doubtless,whenIgoaboutand,astheDoctorsays,’exposemyselftomalaria,’I

  aminfarbetterhealth;andIwoulddosomoretoo-forI

  donotmeantobesilly-butthedifficultiesaregreat。

  However,youseehowmuchthedearDoctorknowsofmydietandhabits!Malariapracticallydoesnotexistintheseislands;itisanegligeablequantity。Whatreallybothersusalittleisthemosquitoaffair-theso-calledelephantiasis-askRossaboutit。Arealromanceofnaturalhistory,QUOI!

  Hi!stop!yousayTHEEBBTIDEisthe’workingoutofanartisticproblemofakind。’Well,Ishouldjustbetitwas!

  Youdon’tlikeAttwater。Butlookatmythreerogues;

  they’reallthere,I’llgobail。Threetypesofthebadman,theweakman,andthestrongmanwithaweakness,thataregonethroughandlivedout。

  Yes,ofcourseIwassorryforMataafa,butagooddealsorrierandangrieraboutthemismanagementofallthewhiteofficials。Icannotbeartowriteaboutthat。Manonoalldestroyed,onehousestandinginApolima,thewomenstripped,theprisonersbeatenwithwhips-andthewomen’sheadstaken-allunderwhiteauspices。Andforupshotandresultofsomuchshametothewhitepowers-Tamasesealreadyconspiring!

  asIknewandpreachedinvainmustbethecase!Well,well,itisnofuntomeddleinpolitics!

  Isupposeyou’rerightaboutSimon。ButitisSymonthroughoutinthatblessedlittlevolumemyfatherboughtformeinInvernessintheyearofgrace’81,Ibelieve-thetrialofJamesStewart,withtheJacobitepamphletandthedyingspeechappended-outofwhichthewholeofDaviehasalreadybeenbegotten,andwhichIfeltitakindofloyaltytofollow。Ireallyoughttohaveitboundinvelvetandgold,ifIhadanygratitude!andthebestofthelarkis,thatthenameofDavidBalfourisnotanywherewithintheboundsofit。

  Aprettycuriousinstanceofthegenesisofabook。IamdelightedatyourgoodwordforDAVID;Ibelievethetwotogethermakeupmuchthebestofmyworkandperhapsofwhatisinme。Iamnotashamedofthem,atleast。Thereisonehitch;insteadofthreehoursbetweenthetwoparts,IfeartherehavepassedthreeyearsoverDavie’scharacter;butdonottellanybody;seeiftheycanfinditoutforthemselves;

  andnodoubthisexperiencesinKIDNAPPEDwouldgofartoformhim。IwouldlikeacopytogotoG。Meredith。

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