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  Fannycouldnotkeepthesecret,andcameandtoldherthatnightunderatransparentpretextofneededadvice。“Mr。Snooks,“saidFanny,“wantstowritetome。Fancy!Ihadnoidea。ButshouldIlethim?“Theytalkeditoverlongandearnestly,andMissWinchelseawascarefultokeeptheveiloverherheart。Shewasalreadyrepentinghisdisregardedhints。Whyshouldshenothearofhimsometimes——painfulthoughhisnamemustbetoher?MissWinchelseadecideditmightbepermitted,andFannykissedhergood-nightwithunusualemotion。

  AftershehadgoneMissWinchelseasatforalongtimeatthewindowofherlittleroom。Itwasmoonlight,anddownthestreetamansang“SantaLucia“withalmostheart-dissolvingtenderness……

  Shesatverystill。

  Shebreathedawordverysoftlytoherself。Thewordwas“SNOOKS。“

  Thenshegotupwithaprofoundsigh,andwenttobed。Thenextmorninghesaidtohermeaningly,“Ishallhearofyouthroughyourfriend。“

  Mr。SnookssawthemofffromRomewiththatpatheticinterrogativeperplexitystillonhisface,andifithadnotbeenforHelenhewouldhaveretainedMissWinchelsea’shold-allinhishandasasortofencyclopaedickeepsake。OntheirwaybacktoEnglandMissWinchelseaonsixseparateoccasionsmadeFannypromisetowritetoherthelongestoflongletters。Fanny,itseemed,wouldbequitenearMr。Snooks。Hernewschool——shewasalwaysgoingtonewschools——wouldbeonlyfivemilesfromSteelyBank,anditwasintheSteelyBankPolytechnic,andoneortwofirst-classschools,thatMr。Snooksdidhisteaching。Hemightevenseeherattimes。Theycouldnottalkmuchofhim——sheandFannyalwaysspokeof“him,“neverofMr。Snooks,——becauseHelenwasapttosayunsympatheticthingsabouthim。Hernaturehadcoarsenedverymuch,MissWinchelseaperceived,sincetheoldTrainingCollegedays;

  shehadbecomehardandcynical。Shethoughthehadaweakface,mistakingrefinementforweaknessaspeopleofherstampareapttodo,andwhensheheardhisnamewasSnooks,shesaidshehadexpectedsomethingofthesort。MissWinchelseawascarefultospareherownfeelingsafterthat,butFannywaslesscircumspect。

  ThegirlspartedinLondon,andMissWinchelseareturned,withanewinterestinlife,totheGirls’HighSchoolinwhichshehadbeenanincreasinglyvaluableassistantforthelastthreeyears。

  HernewinterestinlifewasFannyasacorrespondent,andtogiveheraleadshewroteheralengthydescriptiveletterwithinafortnightofherreturn。Fannyanswered,verydisappointingly。Fannyindeedhadnoliterarygift,butitwasnewtoMissWinchelseatofindherselfdeploringthewantofgiftsinafriend。ThatletterwasevencriticisedaloudinthesafesolitudeofMissWinchelsea’sstudy,andhercriticism,spokenwithgreatbitterness,was“Twaddle!“

  ItwasfullofjustthethingsMissWinchelsea’sletterhadbeenfullof,particularsoftheschool。AndofMr。Snooks,onlythismuch:“IhavehadaletterfromMr。Snooks,andhehasbeenovertoseemeontwoSaturdayafternoonsrunning。HetalkedaboutRomeandyou;webothtalkedaboutyou。Yourearsmusthaveburnt,mydear……“

  MissWinchelsearepressedadesiretodemandmoreexplicitinformation,andwrotethesweetestlongletteragain。“Tellmeallaboutyourself,dear。Thatjourneyhasquiterefreshedourancientfriendship,andIdosowanttokeepintouchwithyou。“AboutMr。SnooksshesimplywroteonthefifthpagethatshewasgladFannyhadseenhim,andthatifheSHOULDaskafterher,shewastoberememberedtohimVERYKINDLYunderlined。AndFannyrepliedmostobtuselyinthekeyofthat“ancientfriendship,“remindingMissWinchelseaofadozenfoolishthingsofthoseoldschoolgirldaysatthetrainingcollege,andsayingnotawordaboutMr。Snooks!

  FornearlyaweekMissWinchelseawassoangryatthefailureofFannyasago-betweenthatshecouldnotwritetoher。Andthenshewrotelesseffusively,andinherlettersheaskedpoint-blank,“HaveyouseenMr。Snooks?“Fanny’sletterwasunexpectedlysatisfactory。“IHAVEseenMr。Snooks,“shewrote,andhavingoncenamedhimshekeptonabouthim;itwasallSnooks——SnooksthisandSnooksthat。Hewastogiveapubliclecture,saidFanny,amongotherthings。YetMissWinchelsea,afterthefirstglowofgratification,stillfoundthisletteralittleunsatisfactory。FannydidnotreportMr。SnooksassayinganythingaboutMissWinchelsea,noraslookingalittlewhiteandworn,asheoughttohavebeendoing。Andbehold!

  beforeshehadreplied,cameasecondletterfromFannyonthesametheme,quiteagushingletter,andcoveringsixsheetswithherloosefemininehand。

  AndaboutthissecondletterwasaratheroddlittlethingthatMissWinchelseaonlynoticedasshere-readitthethirdtime。

  Fanny’snaturalfemininityhadprevailedevenagainsttheroundandcleartraditionsofthetrainingcollege;shewasoneofthoseshe-creaturesborntomakeallherm’sandn’sandu’sandr’sande’salike,andtoleavehero’sanda’sopenandheri’sundotted。SothatitwasonlyafteranelaboratecomparisonofwordwithwordthatMissWinchelseafeltassuredMr。Snookswasnotreally“Mr。Snooks“

  atall!InFanny’sfirstletterofgushhewasMr。“Snooks,“inhersecondthespellingwaschangedtoMr。“Senoks。“MissWinchelsea’shandpositivelytrembledassheturnedthesheetover——itmeantsomuchtoher。ForithadalreadybeguntoseemtoherthateventhenameofMrs。Snooksmightbeavoidedattoogreataprice,andsuddenly——thispossibility!Sheturnedoverthesixsheets,alldappledwiththatcriticalname,andeverywherethefirstletterhadtheformofanE!Foratimeshewalkedtheroomwithahandpresseduponherheart。

  Shespentawholedayponderingthischange,weighingaletterofinquirythatshouldbeatoncediscreetandeffectual,weighingtoowhatactionsheshouldtakeaftertheanswercame。ShewasresolvedthatifthisalteredspellingwasanythingmorethanaquaintfancyofFanny’s,shewouldwriteforthwithtoMr。Snooks。

  Shehadnowreachedastagewhentheminorrefinementsofbehaviourdisappear。Herexcuseremaineduninvented,butshehadthesubjectofherletterclearinhermind,eventothehintthat“circumstancesinmylifehavechangedverygreatlysincewetalkedtogether。“Butshenevergavethathint。TherecameathirdletterfromthatfitfulcorrespondentFanny。Thefirstlineproclaimedher“thehappiestgirlalive。“

  MissWinchelseacrushedtheletterinherhand——therestunread——andsatwithherfacesuddenlyverystill。Shehadreceiveditjustbeforemorningschool,andhadopeneditwhenthejuniormathematicianswerewellunderway。Presentlysheresumedreadingwithanappearanceofgreatcalm。Butafterthefirstsheetshewentonreadingthethirdwithoutdiscoveringtheerror:——“toldhimfranklyIdidnotlikehisname,“thethirdsheetbegan。“Hetoldmehedidnotlikeithimself——youknowthatsortofsuddenfrankwayhehas“——MissWinchelseadidknow。“SoIsaid’Couldn’tyouchangeit?’Hedidn’tseeitatfirst。Well,youknow,dear,hehadtoldmewhatitreallymeant;

  itmeansSevenoaks,onlyithasgotdowntoSnooks——bothSnooksandNoaks,dreadfullyvulgarsurnamesthoughtheybe,arereallywornformsofSevenoaks。SoIsaid——evenIhavemybrightideasattimes——’ifitgotdownfromSevenoakstoSnooks,whynotgetitbackfromSnookstoSevenoaks?’Andthelongandtheshortofitis,dear,hecouldn’trefuseme,andhechangedhisspellingthereandthentoSenoksforthebillsofthenewlecture。Andafterwards,whenwearemarried,weshallputintheapostropheandmakeitSe’noks。Wasn’titkindofhimtomindthatfancyofmine,whenmanymenwouldhavetakenoffence?Butitisjustlikehimallover;

  heisaskindasheisclever。BecauseheknewaswellasIdidthatIwouldhavehadhiminspiteofit,hadhebeententimesSnooks。Buthediditallthesame。“

  Theclasswasstartledbythesoundofpaperbeingviciouslytorn,andlookeduptoseeMissWinchelseawhiteintheface,andwithsomeverysmallpiecesofpaperclenchedinonehand。Forafewsecondstheystaredatherstare,andthenherexpressionchangedbacktoamorefamiliarone。“Hasanyonefinishednumberthree?“sheaskedinaneventone。Sheremainedcalmafterthat。Butimpositionsruledhighthatday。AndshespenttwolaboriouseveningswritinglettersofvarioussortstoFanny,beforeshefoundadecentcongratulatoryvein。HerreasonstruggledhopelesslyagainstthepersuasionthatFannyhadbehavedinanexceedinglytreacherousmanner。

  Onemaybeextremelyrefinedandstillcapableofaverysoreheart。

  CertainlyMissWinchelsea’sheartwasverysore。Shehadmoodsofsexualhostility,inwhichshegeneraliseduncharitablyaboutmankind。“Heforgothimselfwithme,“shesaid。“ButFannyispinkandprettyandsoftandafool——averyexcellentmatchforaMan。“

  AndbywayofaweddingpresentshesentFannyagracefullyboundvolumeofpoetrybyGeorgeMeredith,andFannywrotebackagrosslyhappylettertosaythatitwas“ALLbeautiful。“MissWinchelseahopedthatsomedayMr。Senoksmighttakeupthatslimbookandthinkforamomentofthedonor。Fannywroteseveraltimesbeforeandabouthermarriage,pursuingthatfondlegendoftheir“ancientfriendship,“andgivingherhappinessinthefullestdetail。AndMissWinchelseawrotetoHelenforthefirsttimeaftertheRomanjourney,sayingnothingaboutthemarriage,butexpressingverycordialfeelings。

  TheyhadbeeninRomeatEaster,andFannywasmarriedintheAugustvacation。ShewroteagarrulouslettertoMissWinchelsea,describingherhome-coming,andtheastonishingarrangementsoftheir“teenyweeny“littlehouse。Mr。Se’nokswasnowbeginningtoassumearefinementinMissWinchelsea’smemoryoutofallproportiontothefactsofthecase,andshetriedinvaintoimaginehisculturedgreatnessina“teenyweeny“littlehouse。“Ambusyenamellingacoseycorner,“saidFanny,sprawlingtotheendofherthirdsheet,“soexcusemore。“MissWinchelseaansweredinherbeststyle,gentlypokingfunatFanny’sarrangementsandhopingintenselythatMr。Sen’oksmightseetheletter。Onlythishopeenabledhertowriteatall,answeringnotonlythatletterbutoneinNovemberandoneatChristmas。

  ThetwolattercommunicationscontainedurgentinvitationsforhertocometoSteelyBankonaVisitduringtheChristmasholidays。

  ShetriedtothinkthatHEhadtoldhertoaskthat,butitwastoomuchlikeFanny’sopulentgood-nature。Shecouldnotbutbelievethathemustbesickofhisblunderbythistime;andshehadmorethanahopethathewouldpresentlywriteheraletterbeginning“DearFriend。“Somethingsubtlytragicintheseparationwasagreatsupporttoher,asadmisunderstanding。Tohavebeenjiltedwouldhavebeenintolerable。Butheneverwrotethatletterbeginning“DearFriend。“

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