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  Ican’trememberallandIthinkIscarcelyunderstandagreatdealofwhatIdoremember。ButitallcomesbacktomesofreshthatIcan’thelpcryingsometimestothinkIshallneverreadthemagainwithhim。“

  Arthurhadneverspokenofhishomebefore,andTomhadn’tencouragedhimtodoso,ashisblunderingschoolboyreasoningmadehimthinkthatArthurwouldbesoftenedandlessmanlyforthinkingofhome。Butnowhewasfairlyinterested,andforgotallaboutchiselsandbottledbeer;whilewithverylittleencouragementArthurlaunchedintohishomehistory,andtheprayer-bellputthembothoutsadlywhenitrangtocallthemtothehall。

  FromthistimeArthurconstantlyspokeofhishome,andaboveall,ofhisfather,whohadbeendeadaboutayear,andwhosememoryTomsoongottoloveandreverencealmostasmuchashisownsondid。

  Arthur’sfatherhadbeentheclergymanofaparishintheMidlandcounties,whichhadrisenintoalargetownduringthewar,anduponwhichthehardyearswhichfollowedhadfallenwithfearfulweight。Thetradehadbeenhalfruined;andthencametheold,sadstory,ofmastersreducingtheirestablishments,menturnedoffandwanderingabout,hungryandwaninbody,andfierceinsoul,fromthethoughtofwivesandchildrenstarvingathome,andthelaststicksoffurnituregoingtothepawnshop;childrentakenfromschool,andloungingaboutthedirtystreetsandcourts,toolistlessalmosttoplay,andsqualidinragsandmisery;andthenthefearfulstrugglebetweentheemployersandmen——loweringsofwages,strikes,andthelongcourseofoft-repeatedcrime,endingeverynowandthenwithariot,afire,andthecountyyeomanry。Thereisnoneedheretodwelluponsuchtales:theEnglishmanintowhosesoultheyhavenotsunkdeepisnotworthythename。YouEnglishboys,forwhomthisbookismeantGodblessyourbrightfacesandkindhearts!,willlearnitallsoonenough。

  IntosuchaparishandstateofsocietyArthur’sfatherhadbeenthrownattheageoftwenty-five——ayoungmarriedparson,fulloffaith,hope,andlove。Hehadbattledwithitlikeaman,andhadlotsoffineUtopianideasabouttheperfectibilityofmankind,glorioushumanity,andsuch-like,knockedoutofhishead,andareal,wholesomeChristianloveforthepoor,struggling,sinningmen,ofwhomhefelthimselfone,andwithandforwhomhespentfortune,andstrength,andlife,drivenintohisheart。Hehadbattledlikeaman,andgottenaman’sreward——nosilvertea-potsorsalvers,withfloweryinscriptionssettingforthhisvirtuesandtheappreciationofagenteelparish;nofatlivingorstall,forwhichheneverlooked,anddidn’tcare;nosighsandpraisesofcomfortabledowagersandwell-got-upyoungwomen,whoworkedhimslippers,sugaredhistea,andadoredhimas“adevotedman;“butamanlyrespect,wrungfromtheunwillingsoulsofmenwhofanciedhisordertheirnaturalenemies;thefearandhatredofeveryonewhowasfalseorunjustinthedistrict,werehemasterorman;

  andtheblessedsightofwomenandchildrendailybecomingmorehumanandmorehomely,acomforttothemselvesandtotheirhusbandsandfathers。

  Thesethings,ofcourse,tooktime,andhadtobefoughtforwithtoilandsweatofbrainandheart,andwiththelife-bloodpouredout。Allthat,Arthurhadlaidhisaccounttogive,andtookasamatterofcourse,neitherpityinghimself,norlookingonhimselfasamartyr,whenhefeltthewearandtearmakinghimfeeloldbeforehistime,andthestiflingairoffever-denstellingonhishealth。Hiswifesecondedhimineverything。

  Shehadbeenratherfondofsociety,andmuchadmiredandrunafterbeforehermarriage;andtheLondonworldtowhichshehadbelongedpitiedpoorFannyEvelynwhenshemarriedtheyoungclergyman,andwenttosettleinthatsmokyholeTurley;averynestofChartismandAtheism,inapartofthecountrywhichallthedecentfamilieshadhadtoleaveforyears。However,somehoworothershedidn’tseemtocare。Ifherhusband’slivinghadbeenamongstgreenfieldsandnearpleasantneighboursshewouldhavelikeditbetter——thatsheneverpretendedtodeny。Buttheretheywere。Theairwasn’tbad,afterall;thepeoplewereverygoodsortofpeople——civiltoyouifyouwereciviltothem,afterthefirstbrush;andtheydidn’texpecttoworkmiracles,andconvertthemalloff-handintomodelChristians。Soheandshewentquietlyamongthefolk,talkingtoandtreatingthemjustastheywouldhavedonepeopleoftheirownrank。Theydidn’tfeelthattheyweredoinganythingoutofthecommonway,andsowereperfectlynatural,andhadnoneofthatcondescensionorconsciousnessofmannerwhichsooutragestheindependentpoor。Andthustheygraduallywonrespectandconfidence;andaftersixteenyearshewaslookeduptobythewholeneighbourhoodasthejustman,themantowhommastersandmencouldgointheirstrikes,andinalltheirquarrelsanddifficulties,andbywhomtherightandtruewordwouldbesaidwithoutfearorfavour。Andthewomenhadcomeroundtotakeheradvice,andgotoherasafriendinalltheirtroubles;whilethechildrenallworshippedtheverygroundshetrodon。

  Theyhadthreechildren,twodaughtersandason,littleArthur,whocamebetweenhissisters。Hehadbeenaverydelicateboyfromhischildhood;theythoughthehadatendencytoconsumption,andsohehadbeenkeptathomeandtaughtbyhisfather,whohadmadeacompanionofhim,andfromwhomhehadgainedgoodscholarship,andaknowledgeofandinterestinmanysubjectswhichboysingeneralnevercomeacrosstilltheyaremanyyearsolder。

  Justashereachedhisthirteenthyear,andhisfatherhadsettledthathewasstrongenoughtogotoschool,and,aftermuchdebatingwithhimself,hadresolvedtosendhimthere,adesperatetyphusfeverbrokeoutinthetown。Mostoftheotherclergy,andalmostallthedoctors,ranaway;theworkfellwithtenfoldweightonthosewhostoodtotheirwork。Arthurandhiswifebothcaughtthefever,ofwhichhediedinafewdays;andsherecovered,havingbeenabletonursehimtotheend,andstoreuphislastwords。Hewassensibletothelast,andcalmandhappy,leavinghiswifeandchildrenwithfearlesstrustforafewyearsinthehandsoftheLordandFriendwhohadlivedanddiedforhim,andforwhomhe,tothebestofhispower,hadlivedanddied。Hiswidow’smourningwasdeepandgentle。Shewasmoreaffectedbytherequestofthecommitteeofafreethinkingclub,establishedinthetownbysomeofthefactoryhandswhichhehadstrivenagainstwithmightandmain,andnearlysuppressed,thatsomeoftheirnumbermightbeallowedtohelpbearthecoffin,thanbyanythingelse。Twoofthemwerechosen,who,withsixotherlabouringmen,hisownfellow-workmenandfriends,borehimtohisgrave——amanwhohadfoughttheLord’sfightevenuntothedeath。Theshopswereclosedandthefactoriesshutthatdayintheparish,yetnomasterstoppedtheday’swages;butformanyayearafterwardsthetownsfolkfeltthewantofthatbrave,hopeful,lovingparsonandhiswife,whohadlivedtoteachthemmutualforbearanceandhelpfulness,andhadalmostatlastgiventhemaglimpseofwhatthisoldworldwouldbeifpeoplewouldliveforGodandeachotherinsteadofforthemselves。

  Whathasallthistodowithourstory?Well,mydearboys,letafellowgoonhisownway,oryouwon’tgetanythingoutofhimworthhaving。ImustshowyouwhatsortofamanitwaswhohadbegottenandtrainedlittleArthur,orelseyouwon’tbelieveinhim,whichIamresolvedyoushalldo;andyouwon’tseehowhe,thetimid,weakboy,hadpointsinhimfromwhichthebravestandstrongestrecoiled,andmadehispresenceandexamplefeltfromthefirstonallsides,unconsciouslytohimself,andwithouttheleastattemptatproselytizing。Thespiritofhisfatherwasinhim,andtheFriendtowhomhisfatherhadlefthimdidnotneglectthetrust。

  Aftersupperthatnight,andalmostnightlyforyearsafterwards,TomandArthur,andbydegreesEastoccasionally,andsometimesone,sometimesanother,oftheirfriends,readachapteroftheBibletogether,andtalkeditoverafterwards。

  Tomwasatfirstutterlyastonished,andalmostshocked,atthesortofwayinwhichArthurreadthebookandtalkedaboutthemenandwomenwhoselivesweretheretold。ThefirstnighttheyhappenedtofallonthechaptersaboutthefamineinEgypt,andArthurbegantalkingaboutJosephasifhewerealivingstatesman——justashemighthavetalkedaboutLordGreyandtheReformBill,onlythattheyweremuchmorelivingrealitiestohim。Thebookwastohim,Tomsaw,themostvividanddelightfulhistoryofrealpeople,whomightdorightorwrong,justlikeanyonewhowaswalkingaboutinRugby——theDoctor,orthemasters,orthesixth-formboys。Buttheastonishmentsoonpassedoff,thescalesseemedtodropfromhiseyes,andthebookbecameatonceandforevertohimthegreathumananddivinebook,andthemenandwomen,whomhehadlookeduponassomethingquitedifferentfromhimself,becamehisfriendsandcounsellors。

  Forourpurposes,however,thehistoryofonenight’sreadingwillbesufficient,whichmustbetoldhere,nowweareonthesubject,thoughitdidn’thappentillayearafterwards,andlongaftertheeventsrecordedinthenextchapterofourstory。

  Arthur,Tom,andEastweretogetheronenight,andreadthestoryofNaamancomingtoElishatobecuredofhisleprosy。

  Whenthechapterwasfinished,TomshuthisBiblewithaslap。

  “Ican’tstandthatfellowNaaman,“saidhe,“afterwhathe’dseenandfelt,goingbackandbowinghimselfdowninthehouseofRimmon,becausehiseffeminatescoundrelofamasterdidit。

  IwonderElishatookthetroubletohealhim。Howhemusthavedespisedhim!“

  “Yes;thereyougooffasusual,withashellonyourhead,“

  struckinEast,whoalwaystooktheoppositesidetoTom,halffromloveofargument,halffromconviction。“Howdoyouknowhedidn’tthinkbetterofit?Howdoyouknowhismasterwasascoundrel?Hisletterdon’tlooklikeit,andthebookdon’tsayso。“

  “Idon’tcare,“rejoinedTom;“whydidNaamantalkaboutbowingdown,then,ifhedidn’tmeantodoit?Hewasn’tlikelytogetmoreinearnestwhenhegotbacktocourt,andawayfromtheprophet。“

  “Well,but,Tom,“saidArthur,“lookwhatElishasaystohim——

  ’Goinpeace。’Hewouldn’thavesaidthatifNaamanhadbeeninthewrong。“

  “Idon’tseethatthatmeansmorethansaying,’You’renotthemanItookyoufor。’“

  “No,no;thatwon’tdoatall,“saidEast。“Readthewordsfairly,andtakemenasyoufindthem。IlikeNaaman,andthinkhewasaveryfinefellow。“

  “Idon’t,“saidTompositively。

  “Well,IthinkEastisright,“saidArthur;“Ican’tseebutwhatit’srighttodothebestyoucan,thoughitmayn’tbethebestabsolutely。Everymanisn’tborntobeamartyr。“

  “Ofcourse,ofcourse,“saidEast;“buthe’sononeofhispethobbies——HowoftenhaveItoldyou,Tom,thatyoumustdriveanailwhereit’llgo。“

  “AndhowoftenhaveItoldyou,“rejoinedTom,“thatit’llalwaysgowhereyouwant,ifyouonlysticktoitandhithardenough。Ihatehalf-measuresandcompromises。“

  “Yes,he’sawhole-hogman,isTom。Musthavethewholeanimal-

  hairandteeth,clawsandtail,“laughedEast。“Soonerhavenobreadanydaythanhalftheloaf。“

  “Idon’tknow;“saidArthur——“it’sratherpuzzling;butain’tmostrightthingsgotbypropercompromises——Imeanwheretheprincipleisn’tgivenup?“

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