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  Eleanorwascertainlythinkingmoreofherfatherthanherself,asshearrangedherhairbeforetheglass,andremovedthetracesofsorrowfromherface;andyetIshouldbeuntrueifIsaidthatshewasnotanxioustoappearwellbeforeherlover:

  whyelsewasshesosedulouswiththatstubborncurlthatwouldrebelagainstherhand,andsmoothsoeagerlyherruffledribands?whyelsedidshedamphereyestodispeltheredness,andbiteherprettylipstobringbackthecolour?Ofcourseshewasanxioustolookherbest,forshewasbutamortalangelafterall。Buthadshebeenimmortal,hadsheflittedbacktothesitting-roomonacherub’swings,shecouldnothavehadamorefaithfulheart,oratruerwishtosaveherfatheratanycosttoherself。

  JohnBoldhadnotmethersincethedaywhenshelefthimindudgeoninthecathedralclose。Sincethathiswholetimehadbeenoccupiedinpromotingthecauseagainstherfather,andnotunsuccessfully。Hehadoftenthoughtofher,andturnedoverinhismindahundredschemesforshowingherhowdisinterestedwashislove。Hewouldwritetoherandbeseechhernottoallowtheperformanceofapublicdutytoinjurehiminherestimation;hewouldwritetoMrHarding,explainallhisviews,andboldlyclaimthewarden’sdaughter,urgingthattheuntowardcircumstancesbetweenthemneedbenobartotheirancientfriendship,ortoaclosertie;hewouldthrowhimselfonhiskneesbeforehismistress;hewouldwaitandmarrythedaughterwhenthefatherhaslosthishomeandhisincome;hewouldgiveupthelawsuitandgotoAustralia,withherofcourse,leavingTheJupiterandMrFinneytocompletethecasebetweenthem。Sometimesashewokeinthemorningfeveredandimpatient,hewouldblowouthisbrainsandhavedonewithallhiscares——butthisideawasgenerallyconsequentonanimprudentsupperenjoyedincompanywithTomTowers。

  HowbeautifulEleanorappearedtohimassheslowlywalkedintotheroom!Notfornothinghadallthoselittlecaresbeentaken。Thoughhersister,thearchdeacon’swife,hadspokenslightinglyofhercharms,Eleanorwasverybeautifulwhenseenaright。Herswasnotofthoseimpassivefaces,whichhavethebeautyofamarblebust;finelychiselledfeatures,perfectineveryline,truetotherulesofsymmetry,aslovelytoastrangerastoafriend,unvaryingunlessinsickness,orasageaffectsthem。Shehadnostartlingbrilliancyofbeauty,nopearlywhiteness,noradiantcarnation。Shehadnotthemajesticcontourthatrivetsattention,demandsinstantwonderandthendisappointsbythecoldnessofitscharms。YoumightpassEleanorHardinginthestreetwithoutnotice,butyoucouldhardlypassaneveningwithherandnotloseyourheart。

  Shehadneverappearedmorelovelytoherloverthanshenowdid。Herfacewasanimatedthoughitwasserious,andherfulldarklustrouseyesshonewithanxiousenergy;herhandtrembledasshetookhis,andshecouldhardlypronouncehisname,whensheaddressedhim。BoldwishedwithallhisheartthattheAustralianschemewasintheactofrealisation,andthatheandEleanorwereawaytogether,nevertohearfurtherofthelawsuit。

  Hebegantotalk,askedafterherhealth——saidsomethingaboutLondonbeingverystupid,andmoreaboutBarchesterbeingverypleasant;declaredtheweathertobeveryhot,andtheninquiredafterMrHarding。

  ’Myfatherisnotverywell,’saidEleanor。

  JohnBoldwasverysorry,sosorry:hehopeditwasnothingserious,andputontheunmeaninglysolemnfacewhichpeopleusuallyuseonsuchoccasions。

  ’Iespeciallywanttospeaktoyouaboutmyfather,MrBold;

  indeed,Iamnowhereonpurposetodoso。Papaisveryunhappy,veryunhappyindeed,aboutthisaffairofthehospital:

  youwouldpityhim,MrBold,ifyoucouldseehowwretchedithasmadehim。’

  ’Oh,MissHarding!’

  ’Indeedyouwould——anyonewouldpityhim;butafriend,anoldfriendasyouare——indeedyouwould。Heisanalteredman;hischeerfulnesshasallgone,andhissweettemper,andhiskindhappytoneofvoice;youwouldhardlyknowhimifyousawhim,MrBold,heissomuchaltered;and——and——ifthisgoeson,hewilldie。’HereEleanorhadrecoursetoherhandkerchief,andsoalsohadherauditors;butshepluckeduphercourage,andwentonwithhertale。’Hewillbreakhisheart,anddie。Iamsure,MrBold,itwasnotyouwhowrotethosecruelthingsinthenewspaper——’

  JohnBoldeagerlyprotestedthatitwasnot,buthisheartsmotehimastohisintimatealliancewithTomTowers。

  ’No,Iamsureitwasnot;andpapahasnotforamomentthoughtso;youwouldnotbesocruel——butithasnearlykilledhim。Papacannotbeartothinkthatpeopleshouldsospeakofhim,andthateverybodyshouldhearhimsospokenof:——theyhavecalledhimavaricious,anddishonest,andtheysayheisrobbingtheoldmen,andtakingthemoneyofthehospitalfornothing。’

  ’Ihaveneversaidso,MissHarding。I——’

  ’No,’continuedEleanor,interruptinghim,forshewasnowinthefullflood-tideofhereloquence;’no,Iamsureyouhavenot;butothershavesaidso;andifthisgoeson,ifsuchthingsarewrittenagain,itwillkillpapa。Oh!MrBold,ifyouonlyknewthestateheisin!Nowpapadoesnotcaremuchaboutmoney。’

  Bothherauditors,brotherandsister,assentedtothis,anddeclaredontheirownknowledgethatnomanlivedlessaddictedtofilthylucrethanthewarden。

  ’Oh!it’ssokindofyoutosayso,Mary,andofyoutoo,MrBold。Icouldn’tbearthatpeopleshouldthinkunjustlyofpapa。Doyouknowhewouldgiveupthehospitalaltogether,onlyhecannot。Thearchdeaconsaysitwouldbecowardly,andthathewouldbedesertinghisorder,andinjuringthechurch。Whatevermayhappen,papawillnotdothat:hewouldleavetheplacetomorrowwillingly,andgiveuphishouse,andtheincomeandallifthearchdeacon——’

  Eleanorwasgoingtosay’wouldlethim,’butshestoppedherselfbeforeshehadcompromisedherfather’sdignity;andgivingalongsigh,sheadded——’Oh,Idosowishhewould。’

  ’NoonewhoknowsMrHardingpersonallyaccuseshimforamoment,’saidBold。

  ’Itishethathastobearthepunishment;itishethatsuffers,’saidEleanor;’andwhatfor?whathashedonewrong?howhashedeservedthispersecution?hethatneverhadanunkindthoughtinhislife,hethatneversaidanunkindword!’andhereshebrokedown,andtheviolenceofhersobsstoppedherutterance。

  Bold,forthefifthorsixthtime,declaredthatneitherhenoranyofhisfriendsimputedanyblamepersonallytoMrHarding。

  ’Thenwhyshouldhebepersecuted?’ejaculatedEleanorthroughhertears,forgettinginhereagernessthatherintentionhadbeentohumbleherselfasasuppliantbeforeJohnBold——

  ’whyshouldhebesingledoutforscornanddisgrace?whyshouldhebemadesowretched?Oh!MrBold’——andsheturnedtowardshimasthoughthekneelingscenewereabouttobecommenced——’oh!MrBold,whydidyoubeginallthis?You,whomweallso——so——valued!’

  Tospeakthetruth,thereformer’spunishmentwascertainlycomeuponhim,forhispresentplightwasnotenviable;hehadnothingforitbuttoexcusehimselfbyplatitudesaboutpublicduty,whichitisbynomeansworthwhiletorepeat,andtoreiteratehiseulogyonMrHarding’scharacter。Hispositionwascertainlyacruelone:hadanygentlemancalleduponhimonbehalfofMrHardinghecouldofcoursehavedeclinedtoenteruponthesubject;buthowcouldhedosowithabeautifulgirl,withthedaughterofthemanwhomhehadinjured,withhisownlove?

  InthemeantimeEleanorrecollectedherself,andagainsummonedupherenergies。’MrBold,’saidshe,’Ihavecomeheretoimploreyoutoabandonthisproceeding。’Hestoodupfromhisseat,andlookedbeyondmeasuredistressed。

  ’Toimploreyoutoabandonit,toimploreyoutosparemyfather,tospareeitherhislifeorhisreason,foroneortheotherwillpaytheforfeitifthisgoeson。IknowhowmuchIamasking,andhowlittlerightIhavetoaskanything;butIthinkyouwilllistentomeasitisformyfather。Oh,MrBold,pray,praydothisforus——praydonotdrivetodistractionamanwhohaslovedyousowell。’

  Shedidnotabsolutelykneeltohim,butshefollowedhimashemovedfromhischair,andlaidhersofthandsimploringlyuponhisarm。Ah!atanyothertimehowexquisitelyvaluablewouldhavebeenthattouch!butnowhewasdistraught,dumbfoundedandunmanned。Whatcouldhesaytothatsweetsuppliant;howexplaintoherthatthematternowwasprobablybeyondhiscontrol;howtellherthathecouldnotquellthestormwhichhehadraised?

  ’Surely,surely,John,youcannotrefuseher,’saidhissister。

  ’Iwouldgivehermysoul,’saidhe,’ifitwouldserveher。’

  ’Oh,MrBold,’saidEleanor,’donotspeakso;Iasknothingformyself;andwhatIaskformyfather,itcannotharmyoutogrant。’

  ’Iwouldgivehermysoul,ifitwouldserveher,’saidBold,stilladdressinghissister;’everythingIhaveishers,ifshewillacceptit;myhouse,myheart,myall;everyhopeofmybreastiscentredinher;hersmilesaresweetertomethanthesun,andwhenIseeherinsorrowasshenowis,everynerveinmybodysuffers。NomancanlovebetterthanIloveher。’

  ’No,no,no,’ejaculatedEleanor;’therecanbenotalkoflovebetweenus。Willyouprotectmyfatherfromtheevilyouhavebroughtuponhim?’

  ’Oh,Eleanor,Iwilldoanything;letmetellyouhowI

  loveyou!’

  ’No,no,no!’shealmostscreamed。’Thisisunmanlyofyou,MrBold。Willyou,willyou,willyouleavemyfathertodieinpeaceinhisquiethome?’andseizinghimbyhisarmandhand,shefollowedhimacrosstheroomtowardsthedoor。

  ’Iwillnotleaveyoutillyoupromiseme;I’llclingtoyouinthestreet;I’llkneeltoyoubeforeallthepeople。Youshallpromisemethis,youshallpromisemethis,youshall——’Andsheclungtohimwithfixedtenacity,andreiteratedherresolvewithhystericalpassion。

  ’Speaktoher,John;answerher,’saidMary,bewilderedbytheunexpectedvehemenceofEleanor’smanner;’youcannothavethecrueltytorefuseher。’

  ’Promiseme,promiseme,’saidEleanor;’saythatmyfatherissafe——onewordwilldo。Iknowhowtrueyouare;

  sayoneword,andIwillletyougo。’

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