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  Andthenwhentheyhaddiscussedallthis,whenthefatherhadtoldalltothechild,shecouldnotbelessconfidingthanhehadbeen;andasJohnBold’snamewasmentionedbetweenthem,sheownedhowwellshehadlearnedtolovehim——’hadlovedhimonce,’shesaid,’butshewouldnot,couldnotdosonow——no,evenhadhertrothbeenplightedtohim,shewouldhavetakenitbackagain——hadshesworntolovehimashiswife,shewouldhavediscardedhim,andnotfeltherselfforsworn,whenheprovedhimselftheenemyofherfather。’

  ButthewardendeclaredthatBoldwasnoenemyofhis,andencouragedherlove;andgentlyrebuked,ashekissedher,thesternresolveshehadmadetocasthimoff;andthenhespoketoherofhappierdayswhentheirtrialswouldallbeover;anddeclaredthatheryoungheartshouldnotbetornasundertopleaseeitherpriestorprelate,deanorarchdeacon。

  No,notifallOxfordweretoconvocatetogether,andagreeastothenecessityofthesacrifice。

  Andsotheygreatlycomfortedeachother——andinwhatsorrowwillnotsuchmutualconfidencegiveconsolation!——

  andwithalastexpressionoftenderlovetheyparted,andwentcomparativelyhappytotheirrooms。

  IphigeniaWhenEleanorlaidherheadonherpillowthatnight,hermindwasanxiouslyintentonsomeplanbywhichshemightextricateherfatherfromhismisery;and,inherwarm-heartedenthusiasm,self-sacrificewasdecidedonasthemeanstobeadopted。WasnotsogoodanAgamemnonworthyofanIphigenia?ShewouldherselfpersonallyimploreJohnBoldtodesistfromhisundertaking;shewouldexplaintohimherfather’ssorrows,thecruelmiseryofhisposition;

  shewouldtellhimhowherfatherwoulddieifhewerethusdraggedbeforethepublicandexposedtosuchunmeritedignominy;shewouldappealtohisoldfriendship,tohisgenerosity,tohismanliness,tohismercy;ifneedwere,shewouldkneeltohimforthefavourshewouldask;butbeforeshedidthistheideaoflovemustbebanished。Theremustbenobargaininthematter。Tohismercy,tohisgenerosity,shecouldappeal;butasapuremaiden,hithertoevenunsolicited,shecouldnotappealtohislove,norundersuchcircumstancescouldsheallowhimtodoso。Ofcourse,whensoprovokedhewoulddeclarehispassion;thatwastobeexpected;therehadbeenenoughbetweenthemtomakesuchafactsure;butitwasequallycertainthathemustberejected。Shecouldnotbeunderstoodassaying,MakemyfatherfreeandIamthereward。Therewouldbenosacrificeinthat——notsohadJephthah’sdaughtersavedherfather——

  notsocouldsheshowtothatkindest,dearestofparentshowmuchshewasabletobearforhisgood。No;tooneresolvemustherwholesoulbebound;andsoresolving,shefeltthatshecouldmakehergreatrequesttoBoldwithasmuchself-

  assuredconfidenceasshecouldhavedonetohisgrandfather。

  AndnowIownIhavefearsformyheroine;notastotheupshotofhermission——notintheleastastothat;astothefullsuccessofhergenerousscheme,andtheultimateresultofsuchaproject,nooneconversantwithhumannatureandnovelscanhaveadoubt;butastotheamountofsympathyshemayreceivefromthoseofherownsex。Girlsbelowtwentyandoldladiesabovesixtywilldoherjustice;forinthefemaleheartthesoftspringsofsweetromancereopenaftermanyyears,andagaingushoutwithwaterspureasinearlierdays,andgreatlyrefreshthepaththatleadsdownwardstothegrave。ButIfearthatthemajorityofthosebetweenthesetwoeraswillnotapproveofEleanor’splan。Ifearthatunmarriedladiesofthirty-fivewilldeclarethattherecanbenoprobabilityofsoabsurdaprojectbeingcarriedthrough;thatyoungwomenontheirkneesbeforetheirloversaresuretogetkissed,andthattheywouldnotputthemselvesinsuchapositiondidtheynotexpectit;

  thatEleanorisgoingtoBoldonlybecausecircumstancespreventBoldfromcomingtoher;thatsheiscertainlyalittlefool,oralittleschemer,butthatinallprobabilitysheisthinkingagooddealmoreaboutherselfthanherfather。

  Dearladies,youarerightastoyourappreciationofthecircumstances,butverywrongastoMissHarding’scharacter。

  MissHardingwasmuchyoungerthanyouare,andcouldnot,therefore,know,asyoumaydo,towhatdangerssuchanencountermightexposeher。Shemaygetkissed;Ithinkitveryprobablethatshewill;butIgivemysolemnwordandpositiveassurance,thattheremotestideaofsuchacatastropheneveroccurredtoherasshemadethegreatresolvenowalludedto。

  Andthensheslept;andthensheroserefreshed;andmetherfatherwithherkindestembraceandmostlovingsmiles;

  andonthewholetheirbreakfastwasbynomeanssotristeashadbeentheirdinnerthedaybefore;andthen,makingsomeexcusetoherfatherforsosoonleavinghim,shestartedonthecommencementofheroperations。

  SheknewthatJohnBoldwasinLondon,andthat,therefore,thesceneitselfcouldnotbeenactedtoday;butshealsoknewthathewassoontobehome,probablyonthenextday,anditwasnecessarythatsomelittleplanformeetinghimshouldbeconcertedwithhissisterMary。Whenshegotuptothehouse,shewent,asusual,intothemorningsitting-room,andwasstartledbyperceiving,byastick,agreatcoat,andsundryparcelswhichwerelyingabout,thatBoldmustalreadyhavereturned。

  ’Johnhascomebacksosuddenly,’saidMary,comingintotheroom;’hehasbeentravellingallnight。’

  ’ThenI’llcomeupagainsomeothertime,’saidEleanor,abouttobeataretreatinhersuddendismay。

  ’He’soutnow,andwillbeforthenexttwohours,’saidtheother;’he’swiththathorridFinney;heonlycametoseehim,andhereturnsbythemailtraintonight。’

  Returnsbythemailtraintonight,thoughtEleanortoherself,asshestrovetoscrewuphercourage——awayagaintonight——thenitmustbenowornever;andsheagainsatdown,havingrisentogo。

  Shewishedtheordealcouldhavebeenpostponed:shehadfullymadeuphermindtodothedeed,butshehadnotmadeuphermindtodoitthisveryday;andnowshefeltillatease,astray,andindifficulty。

  ’Mary,’shebegan,’Imustseeyourbrotherbeforehegoesback。’

  ’Ohyes,ofcourse,’saidtheother;’Iknowhe’llbedelightedtoseeyou’;andshetriedtotreatitasamatterofcourse,butshewasnotthelesssurprised;forMaryandEleanorhaddailytalkedoverJohnBoldandhisconduct,andhislove,andMarywouldinsistoncallingEleanorhersister,andwouldscoldherfornotcallingBoldbyhisChristianname;andEleanorwouldhalfconfessherlove,butlikeamodestmaidenwouldprotestagainstsuchfamiliaritiesevenwiththenameofherlover;andsotheytalkedhourafterhour,andMaryBold,whowasmuchtheelder,lookedforwardwithhappyconfidencetothedaywhenEleanorwouldnotbeashamedtocallherhersister。

  Shewas,however,fullysurethatjustatpresentEleanorwouldbemuchmorelikelytoavoidherbrotherthantoseekhim。

  ’Mary,Imustseeyourbrother,now,today,andbegfromhimagreatfavour’;andshespokewithasolemnair,notatallusualtoher;andthenshewenton,andopenedtoherfriendallherplan,herwell-weighedschemeforsavingherfatherfromasorrowwhichwould,shesaid,ifitlasted,bringhimtohisgrave。’But,Mary,’shecontinued,’youmustnow,youknow,ceaseanyjokingaboutmeandMrBold;youmustnowsaynomoreaboutthat;Iamnotashamedtobegthisfavourfromyourbrother,butwhenIhavedoneso,therecanneverbeanythingfurtherbetweenus’;andthisshesaidwithastaidandsolemnair,quiteworthyofJephthah’sdaughterorofIphigeniaeither。

  ItwasquiteclearthatMaryBolddidnotfollowtheargument。

  ThatEleanorHardingshouldappeal,onbehalfofherfather,toBold’sbetterfeelingsseemedtoMaryquitenatural;itseemedquitenaturalthatheshouldrelent,overcomebysuchfilialtears,andbysomuchbeauty;but,toherthinking,itwasatanyrateequallynatural,thathavingrelented,Johnshouldputhisarmroundhismistress’swaist,andsay:’Nowhavingsettledthat,letusbemanandwife,andallwillendhappily!’Whyhisgoodnatureshouldnotberewarded,whensuchrewardwouldoperatetothedisadvantageofnone,Mary,whohadmoresensethanromance,couldnotunderstand;

  andshesaidasmuch。

  Eleanor,however,wasfirm,andmadequiteaneloquentspeechtosupportherownviewofthequestion:shecouldnotcondescend,shesaid,toasksuchafavouronanyothertermsthanthoseproposed。Marymight,perhaps,thinkherhigh-

  flown,butshehadherownideas,andshecouldnotsubmittosacrificeherself-respect。

  ’ButIamsureyoulovehim——don’tyou?’pleadedMary;

  ’andIamsurehelovesyoubetterthananythingintheworld。’

  Eleanorwasgoingtomakeanotherspeech,butatearcametoeacheye,andshecouldnot;soshepretendedtoblowhernose,andwalkedtothewindow,andmadealittleinwardcallonherowncourage,andfindingherselfsomewhatsustained,saidsententiously:’Mary,thisisnonsense。’

  ’Butyoudolovehim,’saidMary,whohadfollowedherfriendtothewindow,andnowspokewithherarmsclosewoundroundtheother’swaist。’Youdolovehimwithallyourheart——youknowyoudo;Idefyyoutodenyit。’

  ’I——’commencedEleanor,turningsharplyroundtorefutethecharge;buttheintendedfalsehoodstuckinherthroat,andnevercametoutterance。Shecouldnotdenyherlove,soshetookplentifullytotears,andleantuponherfriend’sbosomandsobbedthere,andprotestedthat,loveornolove,itwouldmakenodifferenceinherresolve,andcalledMary,athousandtimes,themostcruelofgirls,andsworehertosecrecybyahundredoaths,andendedbydeclaringthatthegirlwhocouldbetrayherfriend’slove,eventoabrother,wouldbeasblackatraitorasasoldierinagarrisonwhoshouldopenthecitygatestotheenemy。Whiletheywereyetdiscussingthematter,Boldreturned,andEleanorwasforcedintosuddenaction:shehadeithertoaccomplishorabandonherplan;andhavingslippedintoherfriend’sbedroom,asthegentlemanclosedthehalldoor,shewashedthemarksoftearsfromhereyes,andresolvedwithinherselftogothroughwithit。’TellhimIamhere,’saidshe,’andcomingin;andmind,whateveryoudo,don’tleaveus。’SoMaryinformedherbrother,withasomewhatsombreair,thatMissHardingwasinthenextroom,andwascomingtospeaktohim。

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