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  ’Oh,papa,dotellme,’sheexclaimed,throwingherarmsroundhim,andlookingintohisface;’whatisitheisgoingtodo?Whatisitallabout?Isthereany——any——any——’shedidn’twellknowwhatwordtouse——’anydanger?’

  ’Danger,mydear,whatsortofdanger?’

  ’Dangertoyou,dangeroftrouble,andofloss,andof——

  Oh,papa,whyhaven’tyoutoldmeofallthisbefore?’

  MrHardingwasnotthemantojudgeharshlyofanyone,muchlessofthedaughterwhomhenowlovedbetterthananylivingcreature;butstillhedidjudgeherwronglyatthismoment。HeknewthatshelovedJohnBold;hefullysympathisedinheraffection;dayafterdayhethoughtmoreofthematter,and,withthetendercareofalovingfather,triedtoarrangeinhisownmindhowmattersmightbesomanagedthathisdaughter’sheartshouldnotbemadethesacrificetothedisputewhichwaslikelytoexistbetweenhimandBold。Now,whenshespoketohimforthefirsttimeonthesubject,itwasnaturalthatheshouldthinkmoreofherthanofhimself,andthatheshouldimaginethatherowncares,andnothis,weretroublingher。

  Hestoodsilentbeforeherawhile,asshegazedupintohisface,andthenkissingherforeheadheplacedheronthesofa。

  ’Tellme,Nelly,’hesaidheonlycalledherNellyinhiskindest,softest,sweetestmoods,andyetallhismoodswerekindandsweet,’tellme,Nelly,doyoulikeMrBold——much?’

  Shewasquitetakenabackbythequestion。Iwillnotsaythatshehadforgottenherself,andherownloveinthinkingaboutJohnBold,andwhileconversingwithMary:shecertainlyhadnotdoneso。Shehadbeensickathearttothinkthatamanofwhomshecouldnotbutowntoherselfthatshelovedhim,ofwhoseregardshehadbeensoproud,thatsuchamanshouldturnagainstherfathertoruinhim。Shehadfelthervanityhurt,thathisaffectionforherhadnotkepthimfromsuchacourse;

  hadhereallycaredforher,hewouldnothaveriskedherlovebysuchanoutrage。Buthermainfearhadbeenforherfather,andwhenshespokeofdanger,itwasofdangertohimandnottoherself。

  Shewastakenabackbythequestionaltogether:’DoIlikehim,papa?’

  ’Yes,Nelly,doyoulikehim?Whyshouldn’tyoulikehim?

  butthat’sapoorword——doyoulovehim?’Shesatstillinhisarmswithoutansweringhim。Shecertainlyhadnotpreparedherselfforanavowalofaffection,intending,asshehaddone,toabuseJohnBoldherself,andtohearherfatherdosoalso。

  ’Come,mylove,’saidhe,’letusmakeacleanbreastofit:doyoutellmewhatconcernsyourself,andIwilltellyouwhatconcernsmeandthehospital。’

  Andthen,withoutwaitingforananswer,hedescribedtoher,ashebestcould,theaccusationthatwasmadeaboutHiram’swill;theclaimswhichtheoldmenputforward;

  whatheconsideredthestrengthandwhattheweaknessofhisownposition;thecoursewhichBoldhadtaken,andthatwhichhepresumedhewasabouttotake;andthenbydegrees,withoutfurtherquestion,hepresumedonthefactofEleanor’slove,andspokeofthatloveasafeelingwhichhecouldinnowaydisapprove:heapologisedforBold,excusedwhathewasdoing;nay,praisedhimforhisenergyandintentions;mademuchofhisgoodqualities,andharpedonnoneofhisfoibles;then,remindinghisdaughterhowlateitwas,andcomfortingherwithmuchassurancewhichhehardlyfelthimself,hesenthertoherroom,withflowingeyesandafullheart。

  WhenMrHardingmethisdaughteratbreakfastthenextmorning,therewasnofurtherdiscussiononthematter,norwasthesubjectmentionedbetweenthemforsomedays。SoonafterthepartyMaryBoldcalledatthehospital,buttherewerevariouspersonsinthedrawing-roomatthetime,andshethereforesaidnothingaboutherbrother。Onthedayfollowing,JohnBoldmetMissHardinginoneofthequiet,sombre,shadedwalksoftheclose。Hewasmostanxioustoseeher,butunwillingtocallatthewarden’shouse,andhadintruthwaylaidherinherprivatehaunts。

  ’Mysistertellsme,’saidhe,abruptlyhurryingonwithhispremeditatedspeech,’mysistertellsmethatyouhadadelightfulpartytheotherevening。IwassosorryIcouldnotbethere。’

  ’Wewereallsorry,’saidEleanor,withdignifiedcomposure。

  ’Ibelieve,MissHarding,youunderstandwhy,atthismoment——’AndBoldhesitated,muttered,stopped,commencedhisexplanationagain,andagainbrokedown。

  Eleanorwouldnothelphimintheleast。

  ’Ithinkmysisterexplainedtoyou,MissHarding?’

  ’Praydon’tapologise,MrBold;myfatherwill,Iamsure,alwaysbegladtoseeyou,ifyouliketocometothehousenowasformerly;nothinghasoccurredtoalterhisfeelings:ofyourownviewsyouare,ofcourse,thebestjudge。’

  ’Yourfatherisallthatiskindandgenerous;healwayswasso;butyou,MissHarding,yourself——Ihopeyouwillnotjudgemeharshly,because——’

  ’MrBold,’saidshe,’youmaybesureofonething;Ishallalwaysjudgemyfathertoberight,andthosewhoopposehimIshalljudgetobewrong。Ifthosewhodonotknowhimopposehim,Ishallhavecharityenoughtobelievethattheyarewrong,througherrorofjudgment;butshouldIseehimattackedbythosewhooughttoknowhim,andtolovehim,andreverehim,ofsuchIshallbeconstrainedtoformadifferentopinion。’Andthencurtseyinglowshesailedon,leavingherloverinanythingbutahappystateofmind。

  ’TheJupiter’

  ThoughEleanorHardingrodeofffromJohnBoldonahighhorse,itmustnotbesupposedthatherheartwassoelateasherdemeanour。Inthefirstplace,shehadanaturalrepugnancetolosingherlover;andinthenext,shewasnotquiteSosurethatshewasintherightasshepretendedtobe。Herfatherhadtoldher,andthatnowrepeatedly,thatBoldwasdoingnothingunjustorungenerous;andwhythenshouldsherebukehim,andthrowhimoff,whenshefeltherselfsoillabletobearhisloss?——butsuchishumannature,andyoung-lady-natureespecially。Asshewalkedofffromhimbeneaththeshadyelmsoftheclose,herlook,hertone,everymotionandgestureofherbody,beliedherheart;shewouldhavegiventheworldtohavetakenhimbythehand,tohavereasonedwithhim,persuadedhim,cajoledhim,coaxedhimoutofhisproject;tohaveovercomehimwithallherfemaleartillery,andtohaveredeemedherfatheratthecostofherself;butpridewouldnotletherdothis,andshelefthimwithoutalookofloveorawordofkindness。

  HadBoldbeenjudgingofanotherloverandofanotherlady,hemighthaveunderstoodallthisaswellaswedo;butinmattersoflovemendonotseeclearlyintheirownaffairs。

  Theysaythatfaintheartneverwonfairlady;anditisamazingtomehowfairladiesarewon,sofaintareoftenmen’shearts!Wereitnotforthekindnessoftheirnature,thatseeingtheweaknessofourcouragetheywilloccasionallydescendfromtheirimpregnablefortresses,andthemselvesaidusineffectingtheirowndefeat,toooftenwouldtheyescapeunconqueredifnotunscathed,andfreeofbodyifnotofheart。

  PoorBoldcreptoffquitecrestfallen;hefeltthatasregardedEleanorHardinghisfatewassealed,unlesshecouldconsenttogiveupatasktowhichhehadpledgedhimselfandwhichindeeditwouldnotbeeasyforhimtogiveup。Lawyerswereengaged,andthequestionhadtoacertainextentbeentakenupbythepublic;besides,howcouldahigh-spiritedgirllikeEleanorHardingreallylearntoloveamanforneglectingadutywhichheassumed!Couldsheallowheraffectiontobepurchasedatthecostofhisownself-respect?

  Asregardedtheissueofhisattemptatreformationinthehospital,Boldhadnoreasonhithertotobediscontentedwithhissuccess。AllBarchesterwasbytheearsaboutit。Thebishop,thearchdeacon,thewarden,thesteward,andseveralotherclericalallies,haddailymeetings,discussingtheirtactics,andpreparingforthegreatattack。SirAbrahamHaphazardhadbeenconsulted,buthisopinionwasnotyetreceived:

  copiesofHiram’swill,copiesofwardens’journals,copiesofleases,copiesofaccounts,copiesofeverythingthatcouldbecopied,andofsomethatcouldnot,hadbeensenttohim;

  andthecasewasassumingmostcreditabledimensions。But,aboveall,ithadbeenmentionedinthedailyJupiter。Thatall-

  powerfulorganofthepressinoneofitsleadingthunderboltslaunchedatStCross,hadthusremarked:’Anothercase,ofsmallerdimensionsindeed,butofsimilarimport,isnowlikelytocomeunderpublicnotice。WeareinformedthatthewardenormasterofanoldalmshouseattachedtoBarchesterCathedralisinreceiptoftwenty-fivetimestheannualincomeappointedforhimbythewillofthefounder,whilethesumyearlyexpendedontheabsolutepurposesofthecharityhasalwaysremainedfixed。Inotherwords,thelegateesunderthefounder’swillhavereceivednoadvantagefromtheincreaseinthevalueofthepropertyduringthelastfourcenturies,suchincreasehavingbeenabsorbedbytheso-calledwarden。

  Itisimpossibletoconceiveacaseofgreaterinjustice。

  Itisnoanswertosaythatsomesixornineortwelveoldmenreceiveasmuchofthegoodsofthisworldassucholdmenrequire。Onwhatfoundation,moralordivine,traditionalorlegal,isgroundedthewarden’sclaimtothelargeincomehereceivesfordoingnothing?Thecontentmentofthesealmsmen,ifcontenttheybe,cangivehimnotitletothiswealth!

  Doesheeveraskhimself,whenhestretcheswidehisclericalpalmtoreceivethepayofsomedozenoftheworkingclergy,forwhatserviceheissoremunerated?Doeshisconscienceeverentertainthequestionofhisrighttosuchsubsidies?Orisitpossiblethatthesubjectneversopresentsitselftohismind;thathehasreceivedformanyyears,andintends,shouldGodsparehim,toreceiveforyearstocomethesefruitsoftheindustriouspietyofpastages,indifferentastoanyrightonhisownpart,orofanyinjusticetoothers!WemustexpressanopinionthatnowherebutintheChurchofEngland,andonlythereamongitspriests,couldsuchastateofmoralindifferencebefound。’

  ImustforthepresentleavemyreaderstoimaginethestateofMrHarding’smindafterreadingtheabovearticle。TheysaythatfortythousandcopiesofTheJupiteraredailysold,andthateachcopyisreadbyfivepersonsattheleast。Twohundredthousandreadersthenwouldhearthisaccusationagainsthim;

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