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  “Ididn’twanttocomehere,“hesaidatlast,“butIwaspositivelydriventoit……EvelynM。,“hegroaned。

  Hesatup,andbegantoexplainwithmocksolemnityhowthedetestablewomanwassetuponmarryinghim。

  “Shepursuesmeabouttheplace。Thismorningsheappearedinthesmoking-room。AllIcoulddowastoseizemyhatandfly。

  Ididn’twanttocome,butIcouldn’tstayandfaceanothermealwithher。“

  “Well,wemustmakethebestofit,“Helenrepliedphilosophically。

  Itwasveryhot,andtheywereindifferenttoanyamountofsilence,sothattheylaybackintheirchairswaitingforsomethingtohappen。

  Thebellrangforluncheon,buttherewasnosoundofmovementinthehouse。Wasthereanynews?Helenasked;anythinginthepapers?

  St。Johnshookhishead。Oyes,hehadaletterfromhome,aletterfromhismother,describingthesuicideoftheparlour-maid。ShewascalledSusanJane,andshecameintothekitchenoneafternoon,andsaidthatshewantedcooktokeephermoneyforher;shehadtwentypoundsingold。Thenshewentouttobuyherselfahat。

  Shecameinathalf-pastfiveandsaidthatshehadtakenpoison。

  Theyhadonlyjusttimetogetherintobedandcalladoctorbeforeshedied。

  “Well?“Helenenquired。

  “There’llhavetobeaninquest,“saidSt。John。

  Whyhadshedoneit?Heshruggedhisshoulders。Whydopeoplekillthemselves?Whydothelowerordersdoanyofthethingstheydodo?Nobodyknows。Theysatinsilence。

  “Thebell’srunfifteenminutesandthey’renotdown,“saidHelenatlength。

  Whentheyappeared,St。Johnexplainedwhyithadbeennecessaryforhimtocometoluncheon。HeimitatedEvelyn’senthusiastictoneassheconfrontedhiminthesmoking-room。“Shethinkstherecanbenothing_quite_sothrillingasmathematics,soI’velentheralargeworkintwovolumes。It’llbeinterestingtoseewhatshemakesofit。“

  Rachelcouldnowaffordtolaughathim。SheremindedhimofGibbon;

  shehadthefirstvolumesomewherestill;ifhewereundertakingtheeducationofEvelyn,thatsurelywasthetest;orshehadheardthatBurke,upontheAmericanRebellion——Evelynoughttoreadthembothsimultaneously。WhenSt。Johnhaddisposedofherargumentandhadsatisfiedhishunger,heproceededtotellthemthatthehotelwasseethingwithscandals,someofthemostappallingkind,whichhadhappenedintheirabsence;hewasindeedmuchgiventothestudyofhiskind。

  “EvelynM。,forexample——butthatwastoldmeinconfidence。“

  “Nonsense!“Terenceinterposed。

  “You’veheardaboutpoorSinclair,too?“

  “Oh,yes,I’veheardaboutSinclair。He’sretiredtohisminewitharevolver。HewritestoEvelyndailythathe’sthinkingofcommittingsuicide。I’veassuredherthathe’sneverbeensohappyinhislife,and,onthewhole,she’sinclinedtoagreewithme。“

  “Butthenshe’sentangledherselfwithPerrott,“St。Johncontinued;

  “andIhavereasontothink,fromsomethingIsawinthepassage,thateverythingisn’tasitshouldbebetweenArthurandSusan。

  There’sayoungfemalelatelyarrivedfromManchester。Averygoodthingifitwerebrokenoff,inmyopinion。Theirmarriedlifeissomethingtoohorribletocontemplate。

  Oh,andIdistinctlyheardoldMrs。PaleyrappingoutthemostfearfuloathsasIpassedherbedroomdoor。It’ssupposedthatshetortureshermaidinprivate——it’spracticallycertainshedoes。

  Onecantellitfromthelookinhereyes。“

  “Whenyou’reeightyandthegouttweezesyou,you’llbeswearinglikeatrooper,“Terenceremarked。“You’llbeveryfat,verytesty,verydisagreeable。Can’tyouimaginehim——baldasacoot,withapairofsponge-bagtrousers,alittlespottedtie,andacorporation?“

  AfterapauseHirstremarkedthattheworstinfamyhadstilltobetold。HeaddressedhimselftoHelen。

  “They’vehoofedouttheprostitute。OnenightwhilewewereawaythatoldnumskullThornburywasdodderingaboutthepassagesverylate。

  Nobodyseemstohaveaskedhimwhat_he_wasupto。HesawtheSignoraLolaMendoza,asshecallsherself,crossthepassageinhernightgown。HecommunicatedhissuspicionsnextmorningtoElliot,withtheresultthatRodriguezwenttothewomanandgavehertwenty-fourhoursinwhichtoclearoutoftheplace。

  Nooneseemstohaveenquiredintothetruthofthestory,ortohaveaskedThornburyandElliotwhatbusinessitwasoftheirs;

  theyhaditentirelytheirownway。IproposethatweshouldallsignaRoundRobin,gotoRodriguezinabody,andinsistuponafullenquiry。Something’sgottobedone,don’tyouagree?“

  Hewetremarkedthattherecouldbenodoubtastothelady’sprofession。

  “Still,“headded,“it’sagreatshame,poorwoman;onlyIdon’tseewhat’stobedone——“

  “Iquiteagreewithyou,St。John,“Helenburstout。“It’smonstrous。

  ThehypocriticalsmugnessoftheEnglishmakesmybloodboil。

  Amanwho’smadeafortuneintradeasMr。Thornburyhasisboundtobetwiceasbadasanyprostitute。“

  SherespectedSt。John’smorality,whichshetookfarmoreseriouslythananyoneelsedid,andnowenteredintoadiscussionwithhimastothestepsthatweretobetakentoenforcetheirpeculiarviewofwhatwasright。Theargumentledtosomeprofoundlygloomystatementsofageneralnature。Whowerethey,afterall——

  whatauthorityhadthey——whatpoweragainstthemassofsuperstitionandignorance?ItwastheEnglish,ofcourse;theremustbesomethingwrongintheEnglishblood。DirectlyyoumetanEnglishperson,ofthemiddleclasses,youwereconsciousofanindefinablesensationofloathing;directlyyousawthebrowncrescentofhousesaboveDover,thesamethingcameoveryou。ButunfortunatelySt。Johnadded,youcouldn’ttrusttheseforeigners——

  Theywereinterruptedbysoundsofstrifeatthefurtherendofthetable。Rachelappealedtoheraunt。

  “TerencesayswemustgototeawithMrs。Thornburybecauseshe’sbeensokind,butIdon’tseeit;infact,I’dratherhavemyrighthandsawninpieces——justimagine!theeyesofallthosewomen!“

  “Fiddlesticks,Rachel,“Terencereplied。“Whowantstolookatyou?

  You’reconsumedwithvanity!You’reamonsterofconceit!

  Surely,Helen,yououghttohavetaughtherbythistimethatshe’sapersonofnoconceivableimportancewhatever——notbeautiful,orwelldressed,orconspicuousforeleganceorintellect,ordeportment。Amoreordinarysightthanyouare,“heconcluded,“exceptforthetearacrossyourdresshasneverbeenseen。

  However,stayathomeifyouwantto。I’mgoing。“

  Sheappealedagaintoheraunt。Itwasn’tthebeinglookedat,sheexplained,butthethingspeopleweresuretosay。Thewomeninparticular。

  Shelikedwomen,butwhereemotionwasconcernedtheywereasfliesonalumpofsugar。Theywouldbecertaintoaskherquestions。

  EvelynM。wouldsay:“Areyouinlove?Isitnicebeinginlove?“

  AndMrs。Thornbury——hereyeswouldgoupanddown,upanddown——

  sheshudderedatthethoughtofit。Indeed,theretirementoftheirlifesincetheirengagementhadmadehersosensitive,thatshewasnotexaggeratinghercase。

  ShefoundanallyinHelen,whoproceededtoexpoundherviewsofthehumanrace,assheregardedwithcomplacencythepyramidofvariegatedfruitsinthecentreofthetable。Itwasn’tthattheywerecruel,ormeanttohurt,orevenstupidexactly;

  butshehadalwaysfoundthattheordinarypersonhadsolittleemotioninhisownlifethatthescentofitinthelivesofotherswaslikethescentofbloodinthenostrilsofabloodhound。

  Warmingtothetheme,shecontinued:

  “Directlyanythinghappens——itmaybeamarriage,orabirth,oradeath——onthewholetheypreferittobeadeath——everyonewantstoseeyou。Theyinsistuponseeingyou。They’vegotnothingtosay;theydon’tcarearapforyou;butyou’vegottogotolunchortoteaortodinner,andifyoudon’tyou’redamned。

  It’sthesmellofblood,“shecontinued;“Idon’tblame’em;onlytheyshan’thavemindifIknowit!“

  Shelookedaboutherasifshehadcalledupalegionofhumanbeings,allhostileandalldisagreeable,whoencircledthetable,withmouthsgapingforblood,andmadeitappearalittleislandofneutralcountryinthemidstoftheenemy’scountry。

  Herwordsrousedherhusband,whohadbeenmutteringrhythmicallytohimself,surveyinghisguestsandhisfoodandhiswifewitheyesthatwerenowmelancholyandnowfierce,accordingtothefortunesoftheladyinhisballad。HecutHelenshortwithaprotest。

  Hehatedeventhesemblanceofcynicisminwomen。“Nonsense,nonsense,“

  heremarkedabruptly。

  TerenceandRachelglancedateachotheracrossthetable,whichmeantthatwhentheyweremarriedtheywouldnotbehavelikethat。

  TheentranceofRidleyintotheconversationhadastrangeeffect。

  Itbecameatoncemoreformalandmorepolite。Itwouldhavebeenimpossibletotalkquiteeasilyofanythingthatcameintotheirheads,andtosaythewordprostituteassimplyasanyotherword。

  Thetalknowturneduponliteratureandpolitics,andRidleytoldstoriesofthedistinguishedpeoplehehadknowninhisyouth。

  Suchtalkwasofthenatureofanart,andthepersonalitiesandinformalitiesoftheyoungweresilenced。Astheyrosetogo,Helenstoppedforamoment,leaningherelbowsonthetable。

  “You’veallbeensittinghere,“shesaid,“foralmostanhour,andyouhaven’tnoticedmyfigs,ormyflowers,orthewaythelightcomesthrough,oranything。Ihaven’tbeenlistening,becauseI’vebeenlookingatyou。Youlookedverybeautiful;

  Iwishyou’dgoonsittingforever。“

  Sheledthewaytothedrawing-room,whereshetookupherembroidery,andbeganagaintodissuadeTerencefromwalkingdowntothehotelinthisheat。Butthemoreshedissuaded,themorehewasdeterminedtogo。Hebecameirritatedandobstinate。

  Thereweremomentswhentheyalmostdislikedeachother。

  Hewantedotherpeople;hewantedRachel,toseethemwithhim。

  HesuspectedthatMrs。Ambrosewouldnowtrytodissuadeherfromgoing。Hewasannoyedbyallthisspaceandshadeandbeauty,andHirst,recumbent,droopingamagazinefromhiswrist。

  “I’mgoing,“herepeated。“Rachelneedn’tcomeunlessshewantsto。“

  “Ifyougo,Hewet,Iwishyou’dmakeenquiriesabouttheprostitute,“

  saidHirst。“Lookhere,“headded,“I’llwalkhalfthewaywithyou。“

  Greatlytotheirsurpriseheraisedhimself,lookedathiswatch,andremarkedthat,asitwasnowhalfanhoursinceluncheon,thegastricjuiceshadhadsufficienttimetosecrete;hewastryingasystem,heexplained,whichinvolvedshortspellsofexerciseinterspacedbylongerintervalsofrest。

  “Ishallbebackatfour,“heremarkedtoHelen,“whenIshallliedownonthesofaandrelaxallmymusclescompletely。“

  “Soyou’regoing,Rachel?“Helenasked。“Youwon’tstaywithme?“

  Shesmiled,butshemighthavebeensad。

  Wasshesad,orwasshereallylaughing?Rachelcouldnottell,andshefeltforthemomentveryuncomfortablebetweenHelenandTerence。

  Thensheturnedaway,sayingmerelythatshewouldgowithTerence,onconditionthathedidallthetalking。

  Anarrowborderofshadowranalongtheroad,whichwasbroadenoughfortwo,butnotbroadenoughforthree。St。Johnthereforedroppedalittlebehindthepair,andthedistancebetweenthemincreasedbydegrees。Walkingwithaviewtodigestion,andwithoneeyeuponhiswatch,helookedfromtimetotimeatthepairinfrontofhim。Theyseemedtobesohappy,sointimate,althoughtheywerewalkingsidebysidemuchasotherpeoplewalk。

  Theyturnedslightlytowardeachothernowandthen,andsaidsomethingwhichhethoughtmustbesomethingveryprivate。

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