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  Thetwopartieswhowerestrollingaboutandlosingtheirunitynowcametogether,andjoinedeachotherinalongstareovertheyellowandgreenpatchesoftheheatedlandscapebelow。

  Thehotairdancedacrossit,makingitimpossibletoseetheroofsofavillageontheplaindistinctly。Evenonthetopofthemountainwhereabreezeplayedlightly,itwasveryhot,andtheheat,thefood,theimmensespace,andperhapssomelesswell-definedcauseproducedacomfortabledrowsinessandasenseofhappyrelaxationinthem。

  Theydidnotsaymuch,butfeltnoconstraintinbeingsilent。

  “Supposewegoandseewhat’stobeseenoverthere?“saidArthurtoSusan,andthepairwalkedofftogether,theirdeparturecertainlysendingsomethrillofemotionthroughtherest。

  “Anoddlot,aren’tthey?“saidArthur。“Ithoughtweshouldneverget’emalltothetop。ButI’mgladwecame,byJove!

  Iwouldn’thavemissedthisforsomething。“

  “Idon’t_like_Mr。Hirst,“saidSusaninconsequently。“Isupposehe’sveryclever,butwhyshouldcleverpeoplebeso——Iexpecthe’sawfullynice,really,“sheadded,instinctivelyqualifyingwhatmighthaveseemedanunkindremark。

  “Hirst?Oh,he’soneoftheselearnedchaps,“saidArthurindifferently。

  “Hedon’tlookasifheenjoyedit。YoushouldhearhimtalkingtoElliot。It’sasmuchasIcandotofollow’ematall……Iwasnevergoodatmybooks。“

  Withthesesentencesandthepausesthatcamebetweenthemtheyreachedalittlehillock,onthetopofwhichgrewseveralslimtrees。

  “D’youmindifwesitdownhere?“saidArthur,lookingabouthim。

  “It’sjollyintheshade——andtheview——“Theysatdown,andlookedstraightaheadoftheminsilenceforsometime。

  “ButIdoenvythosecleverchapssometimes,“Arthurremarked。

  “Idon’tsupposetheyever……“Hedidnotfinishhissentence。

  “Ican’tseewhyyoushouldenvythem,“saidSusan,withgreatsincerity。

  “Oddthingshappentoone,“saidArthur。“Onegoesalongsmoothlyenough,onethingfollowinganother,andit’sallveryjollyandplainsailing,andyouthinkyouknowallaboutit,andsuddenlyonedoesn’tknowwhereoneisabit,andeverythingseemsdifferentfromwhatitusedtoseem。Nowto-day,comingupthatpath,ridingbehindyou,Iseemedtoseeeverythingasif——“hepausedandpluckedapieceofgrassupbytheroots。Hescatteredthelittlelumpsofearthwhichwerestickingtotheroots——“Asifithadakindofmeaning。

  You’vemadethedifferencetome,“hejerkedout,“Idon’tseewhyIshouldn’ttellyou。I’vefeltiteversinceIknewyou……It’sbecauseIloveyou。“

  EvenwhiletheyhadbeensayingcommonplacethingsSusanhadbeenconsciousoftheexcitementofintimacy,whichseemednotonlytolaybaresomethinginher,butinthetreesandthesky,andtheprogressofhisspeechwhichseemedinevitablewaspositivelypainfultoher,fornohumanbeinghadevercomesoclosetoherbefore。

  Shewasstruckmotionlessashisspeechwenton,andherheartgavegreatseparateleapsatthelastwords。Shesatwithherfingerscurledroundastone,lookingstraightinfrontofherdownthemountainovertheplain。Sothen,ithadactuallyhappenedtoher,aproposalofmarriage。

  Arthurlookedroundather;hisfacewasoddlytwisted。Shewasdrawingherbreathwithsuchdifficultythatshecouldhardlyanswer。

  “Youmighthaveknown。“Heseizedherinhisarms;againandagainandagaintheyclaspedeachother,murmuringinarticulately。

  “Well,“sighedArthur,sinkingbackontheground,“that’sthemostwonderfulthingthat’severhappenedtome。“Helookedasifheweretryingtoputthingsseeninadreambesiderealthings。

  Therewasalongsilence。

  “It’sthemostperfectthingintheworld,“Susanstated,verygentlyandwithgreatconviction。Itwasnolongermerelyaproposalofmarriage,butofmarriagewithArthur,withwhomshewasinlove。

  Inthesilencethatfollowed,holdinghishandtightlyinhers,sheprayedtoGodthatshemightmakehimagoodwife。

  “AndwhatwillMr。Perrottsay?“sheaskedattheendofit。

  “Dearoldfellow,“saidArthurwho,nowthatthefirstshockwasover,wasrelaxingintoanenormoussenseofpleasureandcontentment。

  “Wemustbeverynicetohim,Susan。“

  HetoldherhowhardPerrott’slifehadbeen,andhowabsurdlydevotedhewastoArthurhimself。Hewentontotellherabouthismother,awidowlady,ofstrongcharacter。InreturnSusansketchedtheportraitsofherownfamily——Edithinparticular,heryoungestsister,whomshelovedbetterthananyoneelse,“exceptyou,Arthur……Arthur,“shecontinued,“whatwasitthatyoufirstlikedmefor?“

  “Itwasabuckleyouworeonenightatsea,“saidArthur,afterdueconsideration。“Iremembernoticing——it’sanabsurdthingtonotice!——thatyoudidn’ttakepeas,becauseIdon’teither。“

  Fromthistheywentontocomparetheirmoreserioustastes,orratherSusanascertainedwhatArthurcaredabout,andprofessedherselfveryfondofthesamething。TheywouldliveinLondon,perhapshaveacottageinthecountrynearSusan’sfamily,fortheywouldfinditstrangewithoutheratfirst。Hermind,stunnedtobeginwith,nowflewtothevariouschangesthatherengagementwouldmake——

  howdelightfulitwouldbetojointheranksofthemarriedwomen——

  nolongertohangontogroupsofgirlsmuchyoungerthanherself——

  toescapethelongsolitudeofanoldmaid’slife。Nowandthenheramazinggoodfortuneovercameher,andsheturnedtoArthurwithanexclamationoflove。

  Theylayineachother’sarmsandhadnonotionthattheywereobserved。

  Yettwofiguressuddenlyappearedamongthetreesabovethem。

  “Here’sshade,“beganHewet,whenRachelsuddenlystoppeddead。

  Theysawamanandwomanlyingonthegroundbeneaththem,rollingslightlythiswayandthatastheembracetightenedandslackened。

  Themanthensatuprightandthewoman,whonowappearedtobeSusanWarrington,laybackupontheground,withhereyesshutandanabsorbedlookuponherface,asthoughshewerenotaltogetherconscious。

  Norcouldyoutellfromherexpressionwhethershewashappy,orhadsufferedsomething。WhenArthuragainturnedtoher,buttingherasalambbuttsaewe,HewetandRachelretreatedwithoutaword。

  Hewetfeltuncomfortablyshy。

  “Idon’tlikethat,“saidRachelafteramoment。

  “Icanremembernotlikingiteither,“saidHewet。“Icanremember——“

  buthechangedhismindandcontinuedinanordinarytoneofvoice,“Well,wemaytakeitforgrantedthatthey’reengaged。D’youthinkhe’lleverfly,orwillsheputastoptothat?“

  ButRachelwasstillagitated;shecouldnotgetawayfromthesighttheyhadjustseen。InsteadofansweringHewetshepersisted。

  “Love’sanoddthing,isn’tit,makingone’sheartbeat。“

  “It’ssoenormouslyimportant,yousee,“Hewetreplied。

  “Theirlivesarenowchangedforever。“

  “Anditmakesonesorryforthemtoo,“Rachelcontinued,asthoughsheweretracingthecourseofherfeelings。“Idon’tknoweitherofthem,butIcouldalmostburstintotears。That’ssilly,isn’tit?“

  “Justbecausethey’reinlove,“saidHewet。“Yes,“headdedafteramoment’sconsideration,“there’ssomethinghorriblypatheticaboutit,Iagree。“

  Andnow,astheyhadwalkedsomewayfromthegroveoftrees,andhadcometoaroundedhollowverytemptingtotheback,theyproceededtositdown,andtheimpressionoftheloverslostsomeofitsforce,thoughacertainintensityofvision,whichwasprobablytheresultofthesight,remainedwiththem。

  Asadayuponwhichanyemotionhasbeenrepressedisdifferentfromotherdays,sothisdaywasnowdifferent,merelybecausetheyhadseenotherpeopleatacrisisoftheirlives。

  “Agreatencampmentoftentstheymightbe,“saidHewet,lookinginfrontofhimatthemountains。“Isn’titlikeawater-colourtoo——

  youknowthewaywater-coloursdryinridgesallacrossthepaper——

  I’vebeenwonderingwhattheylookedlike。“

  Hiseyesbecamedreamy,asthoughhewerematchingthings,andremindedRachelintheircolourofthegreenfleshofasnail。

  Shesatbesidehimlookingatthemountainstoo。Whenitbecamepainfultolookanylonger,thegreatsizeoftheviewseemingtoenlargehereyesbeyondtheirnaturallimit,shelookedattheground;

  itpleasedhertoscrutinisethisinchofthesoilofSouthAmericasominutelythatshenoticedeverygrainofearthandmadeitintoaworldwhereshewasendowedwiththesupremepower。

  Shebentabladeofgrass,andsetaninsectontheutmosttasselofit,andwonderediftheinsectrealisedhisstrangeadventure,andthoughthowstrangeitwasthatsheshouldhavebentthattasselratherthananyotherofthemilliontassels。

  “You’venevertoldmeyouname,“saidHewetsuddenly。

  “MissSomebodyVinrace……Iliketoknowpeople’sChristiannames。“

  “Rachel,“shereplied。

  “Rachel,“herepeated。“IhaveanauntcalledRachel,whoputthelifeofFatherDamienintoverse。Sheisareligiousfanatic——

  theresultofthewayshewasbroughtup,downinNorthamptonshire,neverseeingasoul。Haveyouanyaunts?“

  “Ilivewiththem,“saidRachel。

  “AndIwonderwhatthey’redoingnow?“Hewetenquired。

  “Theyareprobablybuyingwool,“Racheldetermined。Shetriedtodescribethem。“Theyaresmall,ratherpalewomen,“shebegan,“veryclean。WeliveinRichmond。Theyhaveanolddog,too,whowillonlyeatthemarrowoutofbones……Theyarealwaysgoingtochurch。Theytidytheirdrawersagooddeal。“

  Buthereshewasovercomebythedifficultyofdescribingpeople。

  “It’simpossibletobelievethatit’sallgoingonstill!“

  sheexclaimed。

  Thesunwasbehindthemandtwolongshadowssuddenlylayuponthegroundinfrontofthem,onewavingbecauseitwasmadebyaskirt,andtheotherstationary,becausethrownbyapairoflegsintrousers。

  “Youlookverycomfortable!“saidHelen’svoiceabovethem。

  “Hirst,“saidHewet,pointingatthescissorlikeshadow;hethenrolledroundtolookupatthem。

  “There’sroomforusallhere,“hesaid。

  WhenHirsthadseatedhimselfcomfortably,hesaid:

  “Didyoucongratulatetheyoungcouple?“

  Itappearedthat,comingtothesamespotafewminutesafterHewetandRachel,HelenandHirsthadseenpreciselythesamething。

  “No,wedidn’tcongratulatethem,“saidHewet。“Theyseemedveryhappy。“

  “Well,“saidHirst,pursinguphislips,“solongasIneedn’tmarryeitherofthem——“

  “Wewereverymuchmoved,“saidHewet。

  “Ithoughtyouwouldbe,“saidHirst。“Whichwasit,Monk?

  Thethoughtoftheimmortalpassions,orthethoughtofnew-bornmalestokeeptheRomanCatholicsout?Iassureyou,“hesaidtoHelen,“he’scapableofbeingmovedbyeither。“

  Rachelwasagooddealstungbyhisbanter,whichshefelttobedirectedequallyagainstthemboth,butshecouldthinkofnorepartee。

  “NothingmovesHirst,“Hewetlaughed;hedidnotseemtobestungatall。“Unlessitwereatransfinitenumberfallinginlovewithafiniteone——Isupposesuchthingsdohappen,eveninmathematics。“

  “Onthecontrary,“saidHirstwithatouchofannoyance,“Iconsidermyselfapersonofverystrongpassions。“

  Itwasclearfromthewayhespokethathemeantitseriously;

  hespokeofcourseforthebenefitoftheladies。

  “Bytheway,Hirst,“saidHewet,afterapause,“Ihaveaterribleconfessiontomake。Yourbook——thepoemsofWordsworth,whichifyourememberItookoffyourtablejustaswewerestarting,andcertainlyputinmypockethere——“

  “Islost,“Hirstfinishedforhim。

  “Iconsiderthatthereisstillachance,“Heweturged,slappinghimselftorightandleft,“thatIneverdidtakeitafterall。“

  “No,“saidHirst。“Itishere。“Hepointedtohisbreast。

  “ThankGod,“Hewetexclaimed。“IneednolongerfeelasthoughI’dmurderedachild!“

  “Ishouldthinkyouwerealwayslosingthings,“Helenremarked,lookingathimmeditatively。

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