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  Thenextfewmonthspassedaway,asmanyyearscanpassaway,withoutdefiniteevents,andyet,ifsuddenlydisturbed,itwouldbeseenthatsuchmonthsoryearshadacharacterunlikeothers。

  ThethreemonthswhichhadpassedhadbroughtthemtothebeginningofMarch。Theclimatehadkeptitspromise,andthechangeofseasonfromwintertospringhadmadeverylittledifference,sothatHelen,whowassittinginthedrawing-roomwithapeninherhand,couldkeepthewindowsopenthoughagreatfireoflogsburntononesideofher。Below,theseawasstillblueandtheroofsstillbrownandwhite,thoughthedaywasfadingrapidly。

  Itwasduskintheroom,which,largeandemptyatalltimes,nowappearedlargerandemptierthanusual。Herownfigure,asshesatwritingwithapadonherknee,sharedthegeneraleffectofsizeandlackofdetail,fortheflameswhichranalongthebranches,suddenlydevouringlittlegreentufts,burntintermittentlyandsentirregularilluminationsacrossherfaceandtheplasterwalls。

  Therewerenopicturesonthewallsbuthereandthereboughsladenwithheavy-petalledflowersspreadwidelyagainstthem。

  Ofthebooksfallenonthebarefloorandheapeduponthelargetable,itwasonlypossibleinthislighttotracetheoutline。

  Mrs。Ambrosewaswritingaverylongletter。Beginning“DearBernard,“

  itwentontodescribewhathadbeenhappeningintheVillaSanGervasioduringthepastthreemonths,as,forinstance,thattheyhadhadtheBritishConsultodinner,andhadbeentakenoveraSpanishman-of-war,andhadseenagreatmanyprocessionsandreligiousfestivals,whichweresobeautifulthatMrs。Ambrosecouldn’tconceivewhy,ifpeoplemusthaveareligion,theydidn’tallbecomeRomanCatholics。

  Theyhadmadeseveralexpeditionsthoughnoneofanylength。Itwasworthcomingifonlyforthesakeofthefloweringtreeswhichgrewwildquitenearthehouse,andtheamazingcoloursofseaandearth。

  Theearth,insteadofbeingbrown,wasred,purple,green。“Youwon’tbelieveme,“sheadded,“thereisnocolourlikeitinEngland。“

  Sheadopted,indeed,acondescendingtonetowardsthatpoorisland,whichwasnowadvancingchillycrocusesandnippedvioletsinnooks,incopses,incosycorners,tendedbyrosyoldgardenersinmufflers,whowerealwaystouchingtheirhatsandbobbingobsequiously。

  Shewentontoderidetheislandersthemselves。RumoursofLondonallinafermentoveraGeneralElectionhadreachedthemevenouthere。

  “Itseemsincredible,“shewenton,“thatpeopleshouldcarewhetherAsquithisinorAustenChamberlinout,andwhileyouscreamyourselveshoarseaboutpoliticsyoulettheonlypeoplewhoaretryingforsomethinggoodstarveorsimplylaughatthem。Whenhaveyoueverencouragedalivingartist?Orboughthisbestwork?Whyareyouallsouglyandsoservile?Heretheservantsarehumanbeings。

  Theytalktooneasiftheywereequals。AsfarasIcantelltherearenoaristocrats。“

  PerhapsitwasthementionofaristocratsthatremindedherofRichardDallowayandRachel,forsheranonwiththesamepenfultodescribeherniece。

  “It’sanoddfatethathasputmeinchargeofagirl,“shewrote,“consideringthatIhavenevergotonwellwithwomen,orhadmuchtodowiththem。However,ImustretractsomeofthethingsthatI

  havesaidagainstthem。IftheywereproperlyeducatedIdon’tseewhytheyshouldn’tbemuchthesameasmen——assatisfactoryImean;

  though,ofcourse,verydifferent。Thequestionis,howshouldoneeducatethem。Thepresentmethodseemstomeabominable。

  Thisgirl,thoughtwenty-four,hadneverheardthatmendesiredwomen,and,untilIexplainedit,didnotknowhowchildrenwereborn。

  Herignoranceuponothermattersasimportant“hereMrs。Ambrose’slettermaynotbequoted……“wascomplete。Itseemstomenotmerelyfoolishbutcriminaltobringpeopleuplikethat。Letalonethesufferingtothem,itexplainswhywomenarewhattheyare——

  thewonderisthey’renoworse。Ihavetakenituponmyselftoenlightenher,andnow,thoughstillagooddealprejudicedandliabletoexaggerate,sheismoreorlessareasonablehumanbeing。

  Keepingthemignorant,ofcourse,defeatsitsownobject,andwhentheybegintounderstandtheytakeitallmuchtooseriously。

  Mybrother-in-lawreallydeservedacatastrophe——whichhewon’tget。

  Inowprayforayoungmantocometomyhelp;someone,Imean,whowouldtalktoheropenly,andprovehowabsurdmostofherideasaboutlifeare。Unluckilysuchmenseemalmostasrareasthewomen。

  TheEnglishcolonycertainlydoesn’tprovideone;artists,merchants,cultivatedpeople——theyarestupid,conventional,andflirtatious……“Sheceased,andwithherpeninherhandsatlookingintothefire,makingthelogsintocavesandmountains,forithadgrowntoodarktogoonwriting。Moreover,thehousebegantostirasthehourofdinnerapproached;shecouldheartheplatesbeingchinkedinthedining-roomnextdoor,andChaileyinstructingtheSpanishgirlwheretoputthingsdowninvigorousEnglish。Thebellrang;

  sherose,metRidleyandRacheloutside,andtheyallwentintodinner。

  ThreemonthshadmadebutlittledifferenceintheappearanceeitherofRidleyorRachel;yetakeenobservermighthavethoughtthatthegirlwasmoredefiniteandself-confidentinhermannerthanbefore。

  Herskinwasbrown,hereyescertainlybrighter,andsheattendedtowhatwassaidasthoughshemightbegoingtocontradictit。

  Themealbeganwiththecomfortablesilenceofpeoplewhoarequiteattheireasetogether。ThenRidley,leaningonhiselbowandlookingoutofthewindow,observedthatitwasalovelynight。

  “Yes,“saidHelen。Sheadded,“Theseason’sbegun,“lookingatthelightsbeneaththem。SheaskedMariainSpanishwhetherthehotelwasnotfillingupwithvisitors。Mariainformedherwithpridethattherewouldcomeatimewhenitwaspositivelydifficulttobuyeggs——theshopkeeperswouldnotmindwhatpricestheyasked;

  theywouldgetthem,atanyrate,fromtheEnglish。

  “That’sanEnglishsteamerinthebay,“saidRachel,lookingatatriangleoflightsbelow。“Shecameinearlythismorning。“

  “Thenwemayhopeforsomelettersandsendoursback,“saidHelen。

  ForsomereasonthementionoflettersalwaysmadeRidleygroan,andtherestofthemealpassedinabriskargumentbetweenhusbandandwifeastowhetherhewasorwasnotwhollyignoredbytheentirecivilisedworld。

  “Consideringthelastbatch,“saidHelen,“youdeservebeating。

  Youwereaskedtolecture,youwereofferedadegree,andsomesillywomanpraisednotonlyyourbooksbutyourbeauty——shesaidhewaswhatShelleywouldhavebeenifShelleyhadlivedtofifty-fiveandgrownabeard。Really,Ridley,Ithinkyou’rethevainestmanIknow,“

  sheended,risingfromthetable,“whichImaytellyouissayingagooddeal。“

  Findingherletterlyingbeforethefiresheaddedafewlinestoit,andthenannouncedthatshewasgoingtotakethelettersnow——

  Ridleymustbringhis——andRachel?

  “Ihopeyou’vewrittentoyourAunts?It’shightime。“

  Thewomenputoncloaksandhats,andafterinvitingRidleytocomewiththem,whichheemphaticallyrefusedtodo,exclaimingthatRachelheexpectedtobeafool,butHelensurelyknewbetter,theyturnedtogo。Hestoodoverthefiregazingintothedepthsofthelooking-glass,andcompressinghisfaceintothelikenessofacommandersurveyingafieldofbattle,oramartyrwatchingtheflameslickhistoes,ratherthanthatofasecludedProfessor。

  Helenlaidholdofhisbeard。

  “AmIafool?“shesaid。

  “Letmego,Helen。“

  “AmIafool?“sherepeated。

  “Vilewoman!“heexclaimed,andkissedher。

  “We’llleaveyoutoyourvanities,“shecalledbackastheywentoutofthedoor。

  Itwasabeautifulevening,stilllightenoughtoseealongwaydowntheroad,thoughthestarswerecomingout。Thepillar-boxwasletintoahighyellowwallwherethelanemettheroad,andhavingdroppedthelettersintoit,Helenwasforturningback。

  “No,no,“saidRachel,takingherbythewrist。“We’regoingtoseelife。Youpromised。“

  “Seeinglife“wasthephrasetheyusedfortheirhabitofstrollingthroughthetownafterdark。ThesociallifeofSantaMarinawascarriedonalmostentirelybylamp-light,whichthewarmthofthenightsandthescentsculledfromflowersmadepleasantenough。

  Theyoungwomen,withtheirhairmagnificentlysweptincoils,aredflowerbehindtheear,satonthedoorsteps,orissuedoutontobalconies,whiletheyoungmenrangedupanddownbeneath,shoutingupagreetingfromtimetotimeandstoppinghereandtheretoenterintoamoroustalk。Attheopenwindowsmerchantscouldbeseenmakinguptheday’saccount,andolderwomenliftingjarsfromshelftoshelf。Thestreetswerefullofpeople,menforthemostpart,whointerchangedtheirviewsoftheworldastheywalked,orgatheredroundthewine-tablesatthestreetcorner,whereanoldcripplewastwanginghisguitarstrings,whileapoorgirlcriedherpassionatesonginthegutter。ThetwoEnglishwomenexcitedsomefriendlycuriosity,butnoonemolestedthem。

  Helensaunteredon,observingthedifferentpeopleintheirshabbyclothes,whoseemedsocarelessandsonatural,withsatisfaction。

  “JustthinkoftheMallto-night!“sheexclaimedatlength。

  “It’sthefifteenthofMarch。Perhapsthere’saCourt。“

  Shethoughtofthecrowdwaitinginthecoldspringairtoseethegrandcarriagesgoby。“It’sverycold,ifit’snotraining,“

  shesaid。“Firsttherearemensellingpicturepostcards;thentherearewretchedlittleshop-girlswithroundbandboxes;thentherearebankclerksintailcoats;andthen——anynumberofdressmakers。

  PeoplefromSouthKensingtondriveupinahiredfly;officialshaveapairofbays;earls,ontheotherhand,areallowedonefootmantostandupbehind;dukeshavetwo,royaldukes——soIwastold——

  havethree;theking,Isuppose,canhaveasmanyashelikes。

  Andthepeoplebelieveinit!“

  OuthereitseemedasthoughthepeopleofEnglandmustbeshapedinthebodylikethekingsandqueens,knightsandpawnsofthechessboard,sostrangeweretheirdifferences,somarkedandsoimplicitlybelievedin。

  Theyhadtopartinordertocircumventacrowd。

  “TheybelieveinGod,“saidRachelastheyregainedeachother。

  ShemeantthatthepeopleinthecrowdbelievedinHim;forsherememberedthecrosseswithbleedingplasterfiguresthatstoodwherefoot-pathsjoined,andtheinexplicablemysteryofaserviceinaRomanCatholicchurch。

  “Weshallneverunderstand!“shesighed。

  Theyhadwalkedsomewayanditwasnownight,buttheycouldseealargeirongatealittlewayfartherdowntheroadontheirleft。

  “Doyoumeantogorightuptothehotel?“Helenasked。

  Rachelgavethegateapush;itswungopen,and,seeingnooneaboutandjudgingthatnothingwasprivateinthiscountry,theywalkedstraighton。Anavenueoftreesranalongtheroad,whichwascompletelystraight。Thetreessuddenlycametoanend;

  theroadturnedacorner,andtheyfoundthemselvesconfrontedbyalargesquarebuilding。Theyhadcomeoutuponthebroadterracewhichranroundthehotelandwereonlyafewfeetdistantfromthewindows。Arowoflongwindowsopenedalmosttotheground。

  Theywereallofthemuncurtained,andallbrilliantlylighted,sothattheycouldseeeverythinginside。Eachwindowrevealedadifferentsectionofthelifeofthehotel。Theydrewintooneofthebroadcolumnsofshadowwhichseparatedthewindowsandgazedin。Theyfoundthemselvesjustoutsidethedining-room。Itwasbeingswept;awaiterwaseatingabunchofgrapeswithhislegacrossthecornerofatable。Nextdoorwasthekitchen,wheretheywerewashingup;whitecooksweredippingtheirarmsintocauldrons,whilethewaitersmadetheirmealvoraciouslyoffbrokenmeats,soppingupthegravywithbitsofcrumb。Movingon,theybecamelostinaplantationofbushes,andthensuddenlyfoundthemselvesoutsidethedrawing-room,wheretheladiesandgentlemen,havingdinedwell,laybackindeeparm-chairs,occasionallyspeakingorturningoverthepagesofmagazines。Athinwomanwasflourishingupanddownthepiano。

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