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  Momentarythoughitseemed,neverthelesstheinterruptionwasupsetting;

  everyonewasmoreorlessputoutbyit,fromMr。Grice,thesteward,toRidleyhimself。AfewminuteslaterRachelpassedthesmoking-room,andfoundHelenmovingarm-chairs。Shewasabsorbedinherarrangements,andonseeingRachelremarkedconfidentially:

  “Ifonecangivemenaroomtothemselveswheretheywillsit,it’salltothegood。Arm-chairsare_the_importantthings——“

  Shebeganwheelingthemabout。“Now,doesitstilllooklikeabaratarailwaystation?“

  Shewhippedaplushcoveroffatable。Theappearanceoftheplacewasmarvellouslyimproved。

  Again,thearrivalofthestrangersmadeitobvioustoRachel,asthehourofdinnerapproached,thatshemustchangeherdress;

  andtheringingofthegreatbellfoundhersittingontheedgeofherberthinsuchapositionthatthelittleglassabovethewashstandreflectedherheadandshoulders。Intheglasssheworeanexpressionoftensemelancholy,forshehadcometothedepressingconclusion,sincethearrivaloftheDalloways,thatherfacewasnotthefaceshewanted,andinallprobabilityneverwouldbe。

  However,punctualityhadbeenimpressedonher,andwhateverfaceshehad,shemustgointodinner。

  ThesefewminuteshadbeenusedbyWilloughbyinsketchingtotheDallowaysthepeopletheyweretomeet,andcheckingthemuponhisfingers。

  “There’smybrother-in-law,Ambrose,thescholarIdaresayyou’veheardhisname,hiswife,myoldfriendPepper,averyquietfellow,butknowseverything,I’mtold。Andthat’sall。

  We’reaverysmallparty。I’mdroppingthemonthecoast。“

  Mrs。Dalloway,withherheadalittleononeside,didherbesttorecollectAmbrose——wasitasurname?——butfailed。Shewasmadeslightlyuneasybywhatshehadheard。Sheknewthatscholarsmarriedanyone——girlstheymetinfarmsonreadingparties;

  orlittlesuburbanwomenwhosaiddisagreeably,“OfcourseIknowit’smyhusbandyouwant;not_me_。“

  ButHelencameinatthatpoint,andMrs。Dallowaysawwithreliefthatthoughslightlyeccentricinappearance,shewasnotuntidy,heldherselfwell,andhervoicehadrestraintinit,whichsheheldtobethesignofalady。Mr。Pepperhadnottroubledtochangehisneatuglysuit。

  “Butafterall,“ClarissathoughttoherselfasshefollowedVinraceintodinner,“_every__one’s_interestingreally。“

  Whenseatedatthetableshehadsomeneedofthatassurance,chieflybecauseofRidley,whocameinlate,lookeddecidedlyunkempt,andtooktohissoupinprofoundgloom。

  Animperceptiblesignalpassedbetweenhusbandandwife,meaningthattheygraspedthesituationandwouldstandbyeachotherloyally。

  WithscarcelyapauseMrs。DallowayturnedtoWilloughbyandbegan:

  “WhatIfindsotiresomeabouttheseaisthattherearenoflowersinit。Imaginefieldsofhollyhocksandvioletsinmid-ocean!

  Howdivine!“

  “Butsomewhatdangeroustonavigation,“boomedRichard,inthebass,likethebassoontotheflourishofhiswife’sviolin。“Why,weedscanbebadenough,can’tthey,Vinrace?Iremembercrossinginthe_Mauretania_once,andsayingtotheCaptain——Richards——didyouknowhim?——’Nowtellmewhatperilsyoureallydreadmostforyourship,CaptainRichards?’expectinghimtosayicebergs,orderelicts,orfog,orsomethingofthatsort。Notabitofit。I’vealwaysrememberedhisanswer。’_Sedgius__aquatici_,’hesaid,whichI

  taketobeakindofduck-weed。“

  Mr。Pepperlookedupsharply,andwasabouttoputaquestionwhenWilloughbycontinued:

  “They’veanawfultimeofit——thosecaptains!Threethousandsoulsonboard!“

  “Yes,indeed,“saidClarissa。SheturnedtoHelenwithanairofprofundity。“I’mconvincedpeoplearewrongwhentheysayit’sworkthatwearsone;it’sresponsibility。That’swhyonepaysone’scookmorethanone’shousemaid,Isuppose。“

  “Accordingtothat,oneoughttopayone’snursedouble;

  butonedoesn’t,“saidHelen。

  “No;butthinkwhatajoytohavetodowithbabies,insteadofsaucepans!“

  saidMrs。Dalloway,lookingwithmoreinterestatHelen,aprobablemother。

  “I’dmuchratherbeacookthananurse,“saidHelen。“Nothingwouldinducemetotakechargeofchildren。“

  “Mothersalwaysexaggerate,“saidRidley。“Awell-bredchildisnoresponsibility。I’vetravelledalloverEuropewithmine。

  Youjustwrap’emupwarmandput’emintherack。“

  Helenlaughedatthat。Mrs。Dallowayexclaimed,lookingatRidley:

  “Howlikeafather!Myhusband’sjustthesame。Andthenonetalksoftheequalityofthesexes!“

  “Doesone?“saidMr。Pepper。

  “Oh,somedo!“criedClarissa。“Myhusbandhadtopassanirateladyeveryafternoonlastsessionwhosaidnothingelse,Iimagine。“

  “Shesatoutsidethehouse;itwasveryawkward,“saidDalloway。

  “AtlastIpluckedupcourageandsaidtoher,’Mygoodcreature,you’reonlyinthewaywhereyouare。You’rehinderingme,andyou’redoingnogoodtoyourself。’“

  “Andthenshecaughthimbythecoat,andwouldhavescratchedhiseyesout——“Mrs。Dallowayputin。

  “Pooh——that’sbeenexaggerated,“saidRichard。“No,Ipitythem,Iconfess。Thediscomfortofsittingonthosestepsmustbeawful。“

  “Servethemright,“saidWilloughbycurtly。

  “Oh,I’mentirelywithyouthere,“saidDalloway。“NobodycancondemntheutterfollyandfutilityofsuchbehaviourmorethanIdo;

  andasforthewholeagitation,well!mayIbeinmygravebeforeawomanhastherighttovoteinEngland!That’sallIsay。“

  Thesolemnityofherhusband’sassertionmadeClarissagrave。

  “It’sunthinkable,“shesaid。“Don’ttellmeyou’reasuffragist?“

  sheturnedtoRidley。

  “Idon’tcareafigonewayort’other,“saidAmbrose。

  “Ifanycreatureissodeludedastothinkthatavotedoeshimorheranygood,lethimhaveit。He’llsoonlearnbetter。“

  “You’renotapolitician,Isee,“shesmiled。

  “Goodness,no,“saidRidley。

  “I’mafraidyourhusbandwon’tapproveofme,“saidDallowayaside,toMrs。Ambrose。ShesuddenlyrecollectedthathehadbeeninParliament。

  “Don’tyoueverfinditratherdull?“sheasked,notknowingexactlywhattosay。

  Richardspreadhishandsbeforehim,asifinscriptionsweretobereadinthepalmsofthem。

  “IfyouaskmewhetherIeverfinditratherdull,“hesaid,“Iamboundtosayyes;ontheotherhand,ifyouaskmewhatcareerdoyouconsideronthewhole,takingthegoodwiththebad,themostenjoyableandenviable,nottospeakofitsmoreseriousside,ofallcareers,foraman,Iamboundtosay,’ThePolitician’s。’“

  “TheBarorpolitics,Iagree,“saidWilloughby。“Yougetmorerunforyourmoney。“

  “Allone’sfacultieshavetheirplay,“saidRichard。“Imaybetreadingondangerousground;butwhatIfeelaboutpoetsandartistsingeneralisthis:onyourownlines,youcan’tbebeaten——

  granted;butoffyourownlines——puff——onehastomakeallowances。

  Now,Ishouldn’tliketothinkthatanyonehadtomakeallowancesforme。“

  “Idon’tquiteagree,Richard,“saidMrs。Dalloway。“ThinkofShelley。

  Ifeelthatthere’salmosteverythingonewantsin’Adonais。’“

  “Read’Adonais’byallmeans,“Richardconceded。“ButwheneverI

  hearofShelleyIrepeattomyselfthewordsofMatthewArnold,’Whataset!Whataset!’“

  ThisrousedRidley’sattention。“MatthewArnold?Adetestableprig!“

  hesnapped。

  “Aprig——granted,“saidRichard;“but,Ithinkamanoftheworld。

  That’swheremypointcomesin。Wepoliticiansdoubtlessseemtoyou“

  hegraspedsomehowthatHelenwastherepresentativeofthearts

  “agrosscommonplacesetofpeople;butweseebothsides;

  wemaybeclumsy,butwedoourbesttogetagraspofthings。

  Nowyourartists_find_thingsinamess,shrugtheirshoulders,turnasidetotheirvisions——whichIgrantmaybeverybeautiful——

  and_leave_thingsinamess。Nowthatseemstomeevadingone’sresponsibilities。Besides,wearen’tallbornwiththeartisticfaculty。“

  “It’sdreadful,“saidMrs。Dalloway,who,whileherhusbandspoke,hadbeenthinking。“WhenI’mwithartistsIfeelsointenselythedelightsofshuttingoneselfupinalittleworldofone’sown,withpicturesandmusicandeverythingbeautiful,andthenIgooutintothestreetsandthefirstchildImeetwithitspoor,hungry,dirtylittlefacemakesmeturnroundandsay,’No,I

  _can’t_shutmyselfup——I_won’t_liveinaworldofmyown。

  Ishouldliketostopallthepaintingandwritingandmusicuntilthiskindofthingexistsnolonger。’Don’tyoufeel,“

  shewoundup,addressingHelen,“thatlife’saperpetualconflict?“

  Helenconsideredforamoment。“No,“shesaid。“Idon’tthinkIdo。“

  Therewasapause,whichwasdecidedlyuncomfortable。

  Mrs。Dallowaythengavealittleshiver,andaskedwhethershemighthaveherfurcloakbroughttoher。Assheadjustedthesoftbrownfuraboutherneckafreshtopicstruckher。

  “Iown,“shesaid,“thatIshallneverforgetthe_Antigone_。

  IsawitatCambridgeyearsago,andit’shauntedmeeversince。

  Don’tyouthinkit’squitethemostmodernthingyoueversaw?“

  sheaskedRidley。“ItseemedtomeI’dknowntwentyClytemnestras。

  OldLadyDitchlingforone。Idon’tknowawordofGreek,butIcouldlistentoitforever——“

  HereMr。Pepperstruckup:

  {SomeeditionsoftheworkcontainabriefpassagefromAntigone,inGreek,atthisspot。ed。}

  Mrs。Dallowaylookedathimwithcompressedlips。

  “I’dgivetenyearsofmylifetoknowGreek,“shesaid,whenhehaddone。

  “Icouldteachyouthealphabetinhalfanhour,“saidRidley,“andyou’dreadHomerinamonth。Ishouldthinkitanhonourtoinstructyou。“

  Helen,engagedwithMr。Dallowayandthehabit,nowfallenintodecline,ofquotingGreekintheHouseofCommons,noted,inthegreatcommonplacebookthatliesopenbesideusaswetalk,thefactthatallmen,evenmenlikeRidley,reallypreferwomentobefashionable。

  Clarissaexclaimedthatshecouldthinkofnothingmoredelightful。

  Foraninstantshesawherselfinherdrawing-roominBrowneStreetwithaPlatoopenonherknees——PlatointheoriginalGreek。Shecouldnothelpbelievingthatarealscholar,ifspeciallyinterested,couldslipGreekintoherheadwithscarcelyanytrouble。

  Ridleyengagedhertocometo-morrow。

  “Ifonlyyourshipisgoingtotreatuskindly!“sheexclaimed,drawingWilloughbyintoplay。Forthesakeofguests,andtheseweredistinguished,Willoughbywasreadywithabowofhisheadtovouchforthegoodbehaviourevenofthewaves。

  “I’mdreadfullybad;andmyhusband’snotverygood,“sighedClarissa。

  “Iamneversick,“Richardexplained。“Atleast,Ihaveonlybeenactuallysickonce,“hecorrectedhimself。“ThatwascrossingtheChannel。Butachoppysea,Iconfess,orstillworse,aswell,makesmedistinctlyuncomfortable。Thegreatthingisnevertomissameal。Youlookatthefood,andyousay,’Ican’t’;

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