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  AsthestreetsthatleadfromtheStrandtotheEmbankmentareverynarrow,itisbetternottowalkdownthemarm-in-arm。

  Ifyoupersist,lawyers’clerkswillhavetomakeflyingleapsintothemud;youngladytypistswillhavetofidgetbehindyou。

  InthestreetsofLondonwherebeautygoesunregarded,eccentricitymustpaythepenalty,anditisbetternottobeverytall,towearalongbluecloak,ortobeattheairwithyourlefthand。

  OneafternooninthebeginningofOctoberwhenthetrafficwasbecomingbriskatallmanstrodealongtheedgeofthepavementwithaladyonhisarm。Angryglancesstruckupontheirbacks。

  Thesmall,agitatedfigures——forincomparisonwiththiscouplemostpeoplelookedsmall——decoratedwithfountainpens,andburdenedwithdespatch-boxes,hadappointmentstokeep,anddrewaweeklysalary,sothattherewassomereasonfortheunfriendlystarewhichwasbestoweduponMr。Ambrose’sheightanduponMrs。Ambrose’scloak。

  Butsomeenchantmenthadputbothmanandwomanbeyondthereachofmaliceandunpopularity。Inhisguessonemightguessfromthemovinglipsthatitwasthought;andinhersfromtheeyesfixedstonilystraightinfrontofheratalevelabovetheeyesofmostthatitwassorrow。

  Itwasonlybyscorningallshemetthatshekeptherselffromtears,andthefrictionofpeoplebrushingpastherwasevidentlypainful。

  AfterwatchingthetrafficontheEmbankmentforaminuteortwowithastoicalgazeshetwitchedherhusband’ssleeve,andtheycrossedbetweentheswiftdischargeofmotorcars。Whentheyweresafeonthefurtherside,shegentlywithdrewherarmfromhis,allowinghermouthatthesametimetorelax,totremble;thentearsrolleddown,andleaningherelbowsonthebalustrade,sheshieldedherfacefromthecurious。Mr。Ambroseattemptedconsolation;

  hepattedhershoulder;butsheshowednosignsofadmittinghim,andfeelingitawkwardtostandbesideagriefthatwasgreaterthanhis,hecrossedhisarmsbehindhim,andtookaturnalongthepavement。

  Theembankmentjutsoutinangleshereandthere,likepulpits;

  insteadofpreachers,however,smallboysoccupythem,danglingstring,droppingpebbles,orlaunchingwadsofpaperforacruise。

  Withtheirsharpeyeforeccentricity,theywereinclinedtothinkMr。Ambroseawful;butthequickestwittedcried“Bluebeard!“

  ashepassed。Incasetheyshouldproceedtoteasehiswife,Mr。Ambroseflourishedhisstickatthem,uponwhichtheydecidedthathewasgrotesquemerely,andfourinsteadofonecried“Bluebeard!“inchorus。

  AlthoughMrs。Ambrosestoodquitestill,muchlongerthanisnatural,thelittleboysletherbe。SomeoneisalwayslookingintotherivernearWaterlooBridge;acouplewillstandtheretalkingforhalfanhouronafineafternoon;mostpeople,walkingforpleasure,contemplateforthreeminutes;when,havingcomparedtheoccasionwithotheroccasions,ormadesomesentence,theypasson。SometimestheflatsandchurchesandhotelsofWestminsterareliketheoutlinesofConstantinopleinamist;sometimestheriverisanopulentpurple,sometimesmud-coloured,sometimessparklingbluelikethesea。

  Itisalwaysworthwhiletolookdownandseewhatishappening。

  Butthisladylookedneitherupnordown;theonlythingshehadseen,sinceshestoodthere,wasacirculariridescentpatchslowlyfloatingpastwithastrawinthemiddleofit。Thestrawandthepatchswamagainandagainbehindthetremulousmediumofagreatwellingtear,andthetearroseandfellanddroppedintotheriver。Thentherestruckcloseuponherears——

  LarsPorsenaofClusiumBythenineGodsheswore——

  andthenmorefaintly,asifthespeakerhadpassedheronhiswalk——

  ThattheGreatHouseofTarquinShouldsufferwrongnomore。

  Yes,sheknewshemustgobacktoallthat,butatpresentshemustweep。

  Screeningherfaceshesobbedmoresteadilythanshehadyetdone,hershouldersrisingandfallingwithgreatregularity。Itwasthisfigurethatherhusbandsawwhen,havingreachedthepolishedSphinx,havingentangledhimselfwithamansellingpicturepostcards,heturned;

  thestanzainstantlystopped。Hecameuptoher,laidhishandonhershoulder,andsaid,“Dearest。“Hisvoicewassupplicating。

  Butsheshutherfaceawayfromhim,asmuchastosay,“Youcan’tpossiblyunderstand。“

  Ashedidnotleaveher,however,shehadtowipehereyes,andtoraisethemtothelevelofthefactorychimneysontheotherbank。

  ShesawalsothearchesofWaterlooBridgeandthecartsmovingacrossthem,likethelineofanimalsinashootinggallery。

  Theywereseenblankly,buttoseeanythingwasofcoursetoendherweepingandbegintowalk。

  “Iwouldratherwalk,“shesaid,herhusbandhavinghailedacabalreadyoccupiedbytwocitymen。

  Thefixityofhermoodwasbrokenbytheactionofwalking。

  Theshootingmotorcars,morelikespidersinthemoonthanterrestrialobjects,thethunderingdrays,thejinglinghansoms,andlittleblackbroughams,madeherthinkoftheworldshelivedin。

  Somewhereupthereabovethepinnacleswherethesmokeroseinapointedhill,herchildrenwerenowaskingforher,andgettingasoothingreply。Asforthemassofstreets,squares,andpublicbuildingswhichpartedthem,sheonlyfeltatthismomenthowlittleLondonhaddonetomakeherloveit,althoughthirtyofherfortyyearshadbeenspentinastreet。Sheknewhowtoreadthepeoplewhowerepassingher;thereweretherichwhowererunningtoandfromeachothers’housesatthishour;therewerethebigotedworkersdrivinginastraightlinetotheiroffices;therewerethepoorwhowereunhappyandrightlymalignant。Already,thoughtherewassunlightinthehaze,tatteredoldmenandwomenwerenoddingofftosleepupontheseats。Whenonegaveupseeingthebeautythatclothedthings,thiswastheskeletonbeneath。

  Afinerainnowmadeherstillmoredismal;vanswiththeoddnamesofthoseengagedinoddindustries——Sprules,ManufacturerofSaw-dust;Grabb,towhomnopieceofwastepapercomesamiss——

  fellflatasabadjoke;boldlovers,shelteredbehindonecloak,seemedtohersordid,pasttheirpassion;theflowerwomen,acontentedcompany,whosetalkisalwaysworthhearing,weresoddenhags;

  thered,yellow,andblueflowers,whoseheadswerepressedtogether,wouldnotblaze。Moreover,herhusbandwalkingwithaquickrhythmicstride,jerkinghisfreehandoccasionally,waseitheraVikingorastrickenNelson;thesea-gullshadchangedhisnote。

  “Ridley,shallwedrive?Shallwedrive,Ridley?“

  Mrs。Ambrosehadtospeaksharply;bythistimehewasfaraway。

  Thecab,bytrottingsteadilyalongthesameroad,soonwithdrewthemfromtheWestEnd,andplungedthemintoLondon。Itappearedthatthiswasagreatmanufacturingplace,wherethepeoplewereengagedinmakingthings,asthoughtheWestEnd,withitselectriclamps,itsvastplate-glasswindowsallshiningyellow,itscarefully-finishedhouses,andtinylivefigurestrottingonthepavement,orbowledalongonwheelsintheroad,wasthefinishedwork。Itappearedtoheraverysmallbitofworkforsuchanenormousfactorytohavemade。Forsomereasonitappearedtoherasasmallgoldentasselontheedgeofavastblackcloak。

  Observingthattheypassednootherhansomcab,butonlyvansandwaggons,andthatnotoneofthethousandmenandwomenshesawwaseitheragentlemanoralady,Mrs。Ambroseunderstoodthatafterallitistheordinarythingtobepoor,andthatLondonisthecityofinnumerablepoorpeople。StartledbythisdiscoveryandseeingherselfpacingacircleallthedaysofherliferoundPicadillyCircusshewasgreatlyrelievedtopassabuildingputupbytheLondonCountyCouncilforNightSchools。

  “Lord,howgloomyitis!“herhusbandgroaned。“Poorcreatures!“

  Whatwiththemiseryforherchildren,thepoor,andtherain,hermindwaslikeawoundexposedtodryintheair。

  Atthispointthecabstopped,foritwasindangerofbeingcrushedlikeanegg-shell。ThewideEmbankmentwhichhadhadroomforcannonballsandsquadrons,hadnowshrunktoacobbledlanesteamingwithsmellsofmaltandoilandblockedbywaggons。

  WhileherhusbandreadtheplacardspastedonthebrickannouncingthehoursatwhichcertainshipswouldsailforScotland,Mrs。Ambrosedidherbesttofindinformation。Fromaworldexclusivelyoccupiedinfeedingwaggonswithsacks,halfobliteratedtooinafineyellowfog,theygotneitherhelpnorattention。

  Itseemedamiraclewhenanoldmanapproached,guessedtheircondition,andproposedtorowthemouttotheirshipinthelittleboatwhichhekeptmooredatthebottomofaflightofsteps。Withsomehesitationtheytrustedthemselvestohim,tooktheirplaces,andweresoonwavingupanddownuponthewater,Londonhavingshrunktotwolinesofbuildingsoneithersideofthem,squarebuildingsandoblongbuildingsplacedinrowslikeachild’savenueofbricks。

  Theriver,whichhadacertainamountoftroubledyellowlightinit,ranwithgreatforce;bulkybargesfloateddownswiftlyescortedbytugs;

  policeboatsshotpasteverything;thewindwentwiththecurrent。

  Theopenrowing-boatinwhichtheysatbobbedandcurtseyedacrossthelineoftraffic。Inmid-streamtheoldmanstayedhishandsupontheoars,andasthewaterrushedpastthem,remarkedthatoncehehadtakenmanypassengersacross,wherenowhetookscarcelyany。

  Heseemedtorecallanagewhenhisboat,mooredamongrushes,carrieddelicatefeetacrosstolawnsatRotherhithe。

  “Theywantbridgesnow,“hesaid,indicatingthemonstrousoutlineoftheTowerBridge。MournfullyHelenregardedhim,whowasputtingwaterbetweenherandherchildren。Mournfullyshegazedattheshiptheywereapproaching;anchoredinthemiddleofthestreamtheycoulddimlyreadhername——_Euphrosyne_。

  Verydimlyinthefallingdusktheycouldseethelinesoftherigging,themastsandthedarkflagwhichthebreezeblewoutsquarelybehind。

  Asthelittleboatsidleduptothesteamer,andtheoldmanshippedhisoars,heremarkedoncemorepointingabove,thatshipsalltheworldoverflewthatflagthedaytheysailed。Inthemindsofboththepassengerstheblueflagappearedasinistertoken,andthisthemomentforpresentiments,butneverthelesstheyrose,gatheredtheirthingstogether,andclimbedondeck。

  Downinthesaloonofherfather’sship,MissRachelVinrace,agedtwenty-four,stoodwaitingheruncleandauntnervously。

  Tobeginwith,thoughnearlyrelated,shescarcelyrememberedthem;

  togoonwith,theywereelderlypeople,andfinally,asherfather’sdaughtershemustbeinsomesortpreparedtoentertainthem。

  Shelookedforwardtoseeingthemascivilisedpeoplegenerallylookforwardtothefirstsightofcivilisedpeople,asthoughtheywereofthenatureofanapproachingphysicaldiscomfort——

  atightshoeoradraughtywindow。Shewasalreadyunnaturallybracedtoreceivethem。Assheoccupiedherselfinlayingforksseverelystraightbythesideofknives,sheheardaman’svoicesayinggloomily:

  “Onadarknightonewouldfalldownthesestairsheadforemost,“

  towhichawoman’svoiceadded,“Andbekilled。“

  Asshespokethelastwordsthewomanstoodinthedoorway。Tall,large-eyed,drapedinpurpleshawls,Mrs。Ambrosewasromanticandbeautiful;

  notperhapssympathetic,forhereyeslookedstraightandconsideredwhattheysaw。HerfacewasmuchwarmerthanaGreekface;ontheotherhanditwasmuchbolderthanthefaceoftheusualprettyEnglishwoman。

  “Oh,Rachel,howd’youdo,“shesaid,shakinghands。

  “Howareyou,dear,“saidMr。Ambrose,inclininghisforeheadtobekissed。Hisnieceinstinctivelylikedhisthinangularbody,andthebigheadwithitssweepingfeatures,andtheacute,innocenteyes。

  “TellMr。Pepper,“Rachelbadetheservant。Husbandandwifethensatdownononesideofthetable,withtheirnieceoppositetothem。

  “Myfathertoldmetobegin,“sheexplained。“Heisverybusywiththemen……YouknowMr。Pepper?“

  Alittlemanwhowasbentassometreesarebyagaleononesideofthemhadslippedin。NoddingtoMr。Ambrose,heshookhandswithHelen。

  “Draughts,“hesaid,erectingthecollarofhiscoat。

  “Youarestillrheumatic?“askedHelen。Hervoicewaslowandseductive,thoughshespokeabsentlyenough,thesightoftownandriverbeingstillpresenttohermind。

  “Oncerheumatic,alwaysrheumatic,Ifear,“hereplied。“Tosomeextentitdependsontheweather,thoughnotsomuchaspeopleareapttothink。“

  “Onedoesnotdieofit,atanyrate,“saidHelen。

  “Asageneralrule——no,“saidMr。Pepper。

  “Soup,UncleRidley?“askedRachel。

  “Thankyou,dear,“hesaid,and,asheheldhisplateout,sighedaudibly,“Ah!she’snotlikehermother。“HelenwasjusttoolateinthumpinghertumbleronthetabletopreventRachelfromhearing,andfromblushingscarletwithembarrassment。

  “Thewayservantstreatflowers!“shesaidhastily。Shedrewagreenvasewithacrinkledliptowardsher,andbeganpullingoutthetightlittlechrysanthemums,whichshelaidonthetable-cloth,arrangingthemfastidiouslysidebyside。

  Therewasapause。

  “YouknewJenkinson,didn’tyou,Ambrose?“askedMr。Pepperacrossthetable。

  “JenkinsonofPeterhouse?“

  “He’sdead,“saidMr。Pepper。

  “Ah,dear!——Iknewhim——agesago,“saidRidley。“Hewastheheroofthepuntaccident,youremember?Aqueercard。Marriedayoungwomanoutofatobacconist’s,andlivedintheFens——neverheardwhatbecameofhim。“

  “Drink——drugs,“saidMr。Pepperwithsinisterconciseness。

  “Heleftacommentary。Hopelessmuddle,I’mtold。“

  “Themanhadreallygreatabilities,“saidRidley。

  “HisintroductiontoJellabyholdsitsownstill,“wentonMr。Pepper,“whichissurprising,seeinghowtext-bookschange。“

  “Therewasatheoryabouttheplanets,wasn’tthere?“askedRidley。

  “Ascrewloosesomewhere,nodoubtofit,“saidMr。Pepper,shakinghishead。

  Nowatremorranthroughthetable,andalightoutsideswerved。

  Atthesametimeanelectricbellrangsharplyagainandagain。

  “We’reoff,“saidRidley。

  Aslightbutperceptiblewaveseemedtorollbeneaththefloor;

  thenitsank;thenanothercame,moreperceptible。Lightsslidrightacrosstheuncurtainedwindow。Theshipgavealoudmelancholymoan。

  “We’reoff!“saidMr。Pepper。Otherships,assadasshe,answeredheroutsideontheriver。Thechucklingandhissingofwatercouldbeplainlyheard,andtheshipheavedsothatthestewardbringingplateshadtobalancehimselfashedrewthecurtain。

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