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  TheVirginianunlockedtheroominthehotelwherehekeptstoredhistent,hisblankets,hispack-saddles,andhismanyaccoutrementsforthebridaljourneyinthemountains。Outofthewindowhesawthemountainsblueinshadow,butsomecottonwoodsdistantintheflatbetweenwerestillbrightgreeninthesun。

  Fromamonghispossessionshetookquicklyapistol,wipingandloadingit。Thenfromitsholsterheremovedthepistolwhichhehadtriedandmadesureofinthemorning。This,accordingtohiswontwhengoingintoarisk,heshovedbetweenhistrousersandhisshirtinfront。Theuntriedweaponheplacedintheholster,lettingithangvisiblyathiship。Heglancedoutofthewindowagain,andsawthemountainsofthesamedeepblue。Butthecottonwoodswerenolongerinthesunlight。Theshadowhadcomepastthem,nearerthetown;forfifteenofthefortyminutesweregone。“Thebishopiswrong,“hesaid。“Thereisnosenseintellingher。“Andheturnedtothedoor,justasshecametoitherself。

  “Oh!“shecriedoutatonce,andrushedtohim。

  Hesworeasheheldherclose。“Thefools!“hesaid。“Thefools!“

  “Ithasbeensofrightfulwaitingforyou,“saidshe,leaningherheadagainsthim。

  “Whohadtotellyouthis?“hedemanded。

  “Idon’tknow。Somebodyjustcameandsaidit。

  “Thisismeanluck,“hemurmured,pattingher。“Thisismeanluck。“

  Shewenton:“Iwantedtorunoutandfindyou;butIdidn’t!I

  didn’t!Istayedquietinmyroomtilltheysaidyouhadcomeback。“

  “Itismeanluck。Mightymean,“herepeated。

  “Howcouldyoubesolong?“sheasked。“Nevermind,I’vegotyounow。Itisover。“

  Angerandsorrowfilledhim。“Imighthaveknownsomefoolwouldtellyou,“hesaid。

  “It’sallover。Nevermind。“Herarmstightenedtheirholdofhim。Thenshelethimgo。“Whatshallwedo?“shesaid。“Whatnow?“

  “Now?“heanswered。“Nothingnow。“

  Shelookedathimwithoutunderstanding。

  “Iknowitisaheapworseforyou,“hepursued,speakingslowly。

  “Iknewitwouldbe。“

  “Butitisover!“sheexclaimedagain。

  Hedidnotunderstandhernow。Hekissedher。“Didyouthinkitwasover?“hesaidsimply。“Thereissomewaitingstillbeforeus。Iwishyoudidnothavetowaitalone。Butitwillnotbelong。“Hewaslookingdown,anddid;notseethehappinessgrowchilleduponherface,andthenfadeintobewilderedfear。“Ididmybest,hewenton。“IthinkIdid。IknowItried。Ilethimsaytomebeforethemallwhatnomanhaseversaid,oreverwillagain。Ikeptthinkinghardofyou——withallmymight,orI

  reckonI’dhavekilledhimrightthere。AndIgavehimashowtochangehismind。Igaveittohimtwice。IspokeasquietasIamspeakingtoyounow。Buthestoodtoit。AndIexpectheknowshewenttoofarinthehearingofotherstogobackonhisthreat。

  Hewillhavetogoontothefinishnow。“

  “Thefinish?“sheechoed,almostvoiceless。

  “Yes,“heansweredverygently。

  Herdilatedeveswerefixeduponhim。“But——“shecouldscarceformutterance,“butyou?“

  “Ihavegotmyselfready,“hesaid。“Didyouthink——why,whatdidyouthink?“

  Sherecoiledastep。“Whatareyougoing——“Sheputhertwohandstoherhead。“Oh,God!“shealmostshrieked,“youaregoing——“Hemadeastep,andwouldhaveputhisarmroundher,butshebackedagainstthewall,staringspeechlessathim。

  “Iamnotgoingtolethimshootme,“hesaidquietly。

  “Youmean——youmean——butyoucancomeaway!“shecried。“It’snottoolateyet。Youcantakeyourselfoutofhisreach。Everybodyknowsthatyouarebrave。Whatishetoyou?Youcanleavehiminthisplace。I’llgowithyouanywhere。Toanyhouse,tothemountains,toanywhereaway。We’llleavethishorribleplacetogetherand——and——oh,won’tyoulistentome?“Shestretchedherhandstohim。“Won’tyoulisten?“

  Hetookherhands。“Imuststayhere。“

  Herhandsclungtohis。“No,no,no。There’ssomethingelse。

  There’ssomethingbetterthansheddingbloodincoldblood。Onlythinkwhatitmeans!Onlythinkofhavingtoremembersuchathing!Why,it’swhattheyhangpeoplefor!It’smurder!“

  Hedroppedherhands。“Don’tcallitthatname,“hesaidsternly。

  “Whentherewasthechoice!“sheexclaimed,halftoherself,likeapersonstunnedandspeakingtotheair。“Togetreadyforitwhenyouhavethechoice!“

  “Hedidthechoosing,“answeredtheVirginian。“Listentome。Areyoulistening?“heasked,forhergazewasdull。

  Shenodded。

  “Iworkhyeh。Ibelonghyeh。It’smylife。IffolkscametothinkIwasacoward——“

  “Whowouldthinkyouwereacoward?“

  “Everybody。Myfriendswouldbesorryandashamed,andmyenemieswouldwalkaroundsayingtheyhadalwayssaidso。Icouldnotholdupmyheadagainamongenemiesorfriends。“

  “Whenitwasexplained——“

  “There’dbenothingtoexplain。There’djustbethefact。“Hewasnearlyangry。

  “Thereisahighercouragethanfearofoutsideopinion,“saidtheNewEnglandgirl。

  HerSouthernloverlookedather。“Cert’nlythereis。That’swhatI’mshowingingoingagainstyours。

  “Butifyouknowthatyouarebrave,andifIknowthatyouarebrave,oh,mydear,mydear!whatdifferencedoestheworldmake?

  Howmuchhighercouragetogoyourowncourse——“

  “Iamgoin’myowncourse,“hebrokein。“Can’tyu’seehowitmustbeaboutaman?It’snotfortheirbenefit,friendsorenemies,thatIhavegotthisthingtodo。IfanymanhappenedtosayIwasathiefandIheardaboutit,wouldIlethimgoonspreadin’suchathingofme?Don’tIowemyownhonestysomethingbetterthanthat?WouldIsitdowninacornerrubbin’

  myhonestyandwhisperin’toit,’There!there!Iknowyouain’tathief“?No,seh;notalittlebit!Whatmensayaboutmynatureisnotjustmerelyanoutsidething。ForthefactthatIlet’emkeeponsayin’itisaproofIdon’tvaluemynatureenoughtoshielditfromtheirslanderandgivethemtheirpunishment。Andthat’sbeingapoorsortofajay。“

  Shehadgrownverywhite。

  “Can’tyu’seehowitmustbeaboutaman?“herepeated。

  “Icannot,“sheanswered,inavoicethatscarcelyseemedherown。“IfIoughtto,Icannot。Toshedbloodincoldblood。WhenIheardaboutthatlastfall,——aboutthekillingofthosecattlethieves,——Ikeptsayingtomyself:’Hehadtodoit。Itwasapublicduty。’AndlyingsleeplessIgotusedtoWyomingbeingdifferentfromVermont。Butthis——“shegaveashudder——“whenI

  thinkofto-morrow,ofyouandme,andof——Ifyoudothis,therecanbenoto-morrowforyouandme。“

  Atthesewordshealsoturnedwhite。

  “Doyoumean——“heasked,andcouldgonofarther。

  Norcouldsheanswerhim,butturnedherheadaway。

  “Thiswouldbetheend?“heasked。

  Herheadfaintlymovedtosignifyyes。

  Hestoodstill,hishandshakingalittle。“Willyoulookatmeandsaythat?“hemurmuredatlength。Shedidnotmove。“Canyoudoit?“hesaid。

  Hissweetnessmadeherturn,butcouldnotpierceherfrozenresolve。Shegazedathimacrossthegreatdistanceofherdespair。

  “Thenitisreallyso?“hesaid。

  Herlipstriedtoformwords,butfailed。

  Helookedoutofthewindow,andsawnothingbutshadow。Theblueofthemountainswasnowbecomeadeeppurple。Suddenlyhishandclosedhard。

  “Good-by,then,“hesaid。

  Atthatwordshewasathisfeet,clutchinghim。“Formysake,“

  shebeggedhim。“Formysake。“

  Atremblepassedthroughhisframe。Shefelthislegsshakeassheheldthem,and,lookingup,shesawthathiseyeswereclosedwithmisery。Thenheopenedthem,andintheirsteadylookshereadheranswer。Heunclaspedherhandsfromholdinghim,andraisedhertoherfeet。

  “Ihavenorighttokissyouanymore,“hesaid。Andthen,beforehisdesirecouldbreakhimdownfromthis,hewasgone,andshewasalone。

  Shedidnotfall,ortotter,butstoodmotionless。Andnext——itseemedamomentanditseemedeternity——sheheardinthedistanceashot,andthentwoshots。Outofthewindowshesawpeoplebeginningtorun。Atthatsheturnedandfledtoherroom,andflungherselffacedownwarduponthefloor。

  Trampashaddepartedintosolitudefromthesaloon,leavingbehindhimhisULTIMATUM。Hisloudandpublicthreatwastownknowledgealready,wouldverylikelybecountyknowledgeto-night。Riderswouldtakeitwiththemtoentertaindistantcabinsuptheriveranddowntheriver;andbydarkthestagewouldgosouthwiththenewsofit——andthenewsofitsoutcome。

  Foreverythingwouldbeoverbydark。Afterfiveyears,herewastheendcoming——comingbeforedark。Trampashadgotupthismorningwithnosuchthought。Itseemedverystrangetolookbackuponthemorning;itlaysodistant,soirrevocable。Andhethoughtofhowhehadeatenhisbreakfast。Howwouldheeathissupper?Forsupperwouldcomeafterward。Somepeoplewereeatingtheirsnow,withnothinglikethisbeforethem。Hisheartachedandgrewcoldtothinkofthem,easyandcomfortablewithplatesandcupsofcoffee。

  Helookedatthemountains,andsawthesunabovetheirridges,andtheshadowcomingfromtheirfeet。Andthereclosebehindhimwasthemorninghecouldnevergobackto。Hecouldseeitclearly;histhoughtsreachedoutlikearmstotouchitoncemore,andbeinitagain。Thenightthatwascominghecouldnotsee,andhiseyesandhisthoughtsshrankfromit。Hehadgivenhisenemyuntilsundown。Hecouldnottracethepathwhichhadledhimtothis。Herememberedtheirfirstmeeting——fiveyearsback,inMedicineBow,andthewordswhichatoncebeganhishate。No,itwasbeforeanywords;itwastheencounteroftheireyes。Foroutoftheeyesofeverystrangerlookseitherafriendoranenemy,waitingtobeknown。Buthowhadfiveyearsofhatecometoplayhimsuchatrick,suddenly,today?Sincelastautumnhehadmeantsometimetogetevenwiththismanwhoseemedtostandateveryturnofhiscrookedness,androbhimofhisspoils。Buthowhadhecometochoosesuchawayofgettingevenasthis,facetoface?Heknewmanybetterways;andnowhisownrashproclamationhadtrappedhim。Hiswordswerelikedoorsshuttinghimintoperformhisthreattotheletter,withwitnessesathandtoseethathedidso。

  Trampaslookedatthesunandtheshadowagain。Hehadtillsundown。Theheartinsidehimwasturningitroundinthisoppositeway:itwastoHIMSELFthatinhisragehehadgiventhislesseningmarginofgrace。Buthedarednotleavetowninalltheworld’ssightafteralltheworldhadheardhim。Evenhisfriendswouldfallfromhimaftersuchanact。Couldhe——thethoughtactuallycametohim——couldhestrikebeforethetimeset?Butthethoughtwasuseless。Evenifhisfriendscouldharborhimaftersuchadeed,hisenemieswouldfindhim,andhislifewouldbeforfeittoacertainty。Hisowntrapwasclosinguponhim。

  Hecameuponthemainstreet,andsawsomedistanceofftheVirginianstandingintalkwiththebishop。Heslunkbetweentwohouses,andcursedbothofthem。Thesighthadbeengoodforhim,bringingsomewarmthofragebacktohisdesperateheart。Andhewentintoaplaceanddranksomewhiskey。

  “Inyourshoes,“saidthebarkeeper,“I’dbeafraidtotakesomuch。“

  ButthenervesofTrampaswerealmostbeyondthereachofintoxication,andheswallowedsomemore,andwentoutagain。

  Presentlyhefellinwithsomeofhisbrothersincattlestealing,andwalkedalongwiththemforalittle。

  “Well,itwillnotbelongnow,“theysaidtohim。Andhehadneverheardwordssodesolate。

  “No,“hemadeouttosay;“soonnow。“Theircheerfulnessseemedunearthlytohim,andhisheartalmostbrokebeneathit。

  “We’llhaveonetoyoursuccess,“theysuggested。

  Sowiththemherepairedtoanotherplace;andthesightofamanleaningagainstthebarmadehimstartsothattheynoticedhim。

  Thenhesawthatthemanwasastrangerwhomhehadneverlaideyesontillnow。

  “ItlookedlikeShorty,“hesaid,andcouldhavebittenhistongueoff。

  “ShortyisquietupintheTetons,“saidafriend。“Youdon’twanttobethinkingabouthim。Here’show!“

  Thentheyclappedhimonthebackandheleftthem。Hethoughtofhisenemyandhishate,beatinghisragelikeafailinghorse,andtreadingthecourageofhisdrink。AcrossaspacehesawWiggin,walkingwithMcLeanandScipio。Theywerewatchingthetowntoseethathisfriendsmadenofoulplay。

  “We’regivingyouaclearfield,“saidWiggin。

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