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  FormanymonthsweheardnomoreofdeGarciaorofIsabelladeSiguenza。

  Bothhadvanishedleavingnosign,andwesearchedfortheminvain。

  AsformeIfellbackintomyformerwayoflifeofassistanttoFonseca,posingbeforetheworldashisnephew。

  Butitcameaboutthatfromthenightofmyduelwiththemurderer,mymaster’shealthdeclinedsteadilythroughtheactionofawastingdiseaseoftheliverwhichbaffledallskill,sothatwithineightmonthsofthattimehelayalmostbedriddenandatthepointofdeath。

  Hismindindeedremainedquiteclear,andonoccasionshewouldevenreceivethosewhocametoconsulthim,recliningonachairandwrappedinhisembroideredrobe。

  Butthehandofdeathlayonhim,andheknewthatitwasso。

  Astheweekswentbyhegrewmoreandmoreattachedtome,tillatlength,hadIbeenhisson,hecouldnothavetreatedmewithagreateraffection,whileformypartIdidwhatlayinmypowertolessenhissufferings,forhewouldletnootherphysiciannearhim。

  Atlengthwhenhehadgrownveryfeebleheexpressedadesiretoseeanotary。

  Themanhenamedwassentforandremainedclosetedwithhimforanhourormore,whenheleftforawhiletoreturnwithseveralofhisclerks,whoaccompaniedhimtomymaster’sroom,fromwhichIwasexcluded。

  Presentlytheyallwentaway,bearingsomeparchmentswiththem。

  ThateveningFonsecasentforme。

  Ifoundhimveryweak,butcheerfulandfulloftalk。

  ’Comehere,nephew,’hesaid,’Ihavehadabusyday。

  Ihavebeenbusyallmylifethrough,anditwouldnotbewelltogrowidleatthelast。

  DoyouknowwhatIhavebeendoingthisday?’

  Ishookmyhead。

  ’Iwilltellyou。

  Ihavebeenmakingmywill——thereissomethingtoleave;notsoverymuch,butstillsomething。’

  ’Donottalkofwills,’Isaid;’Itrustthatyoumayliveformanyyears。’

  Helaughed。

  ’Youmustthinkbadlyofmycase,nephew,whenyouthinkthatIcanbedeceivedthus。

  Iamabouttodieasyouknowwell,andIdonotfeardeath。

  Mylifehasbeenprosperousbutnothappy,foritwasblightedinitsspring——nomatterhow。

  Thestoryisanoldoneandnotworthtelling;moreover,whicheverwayithadread,ithadallbeenonenowinthehourofdeath。

  Wemusttravelourjourneyeachofus;whatdoesitmatteriftheroadhasbeengoodorbadwhenwehavereachedthegoal?

  Formypartreligionneithercomfortsnorfrightensmenowatthelast。

  Iwillstandorfallupontherecordofmylife。

  IhavedoneevilinitandIhavedonegood;theevilIhavedonebecausenatureandtemptationhavebeentoostrongformeattimes,thegoodalsobecausemyheartpromptedmetoit。

  Well,itisfinished,andafteralldeathcannotbesoterrible,seeingthateveryhumanbeingisborntoundergoit,togetherwithalllivingthings。

  Whateverelseisfalse,Iholdthistobetrue,thatGodexistsandismoremercifulthanthosewhopreachHimwouldhaveustobelieve。’

  Andheceasedexhausted。

  OftensincethenIhavethoughtofhiswords,andIstillthinkofthemnowthatmyownhourissonear。

  AswillbeseenFonsecawasafatalist,abeliefwhichIdonotaltogethershare,holdingasI

  dothatwithincertainlimitsweareallowedtoshapeourowncharactersanddestinies。

  ButhislastsayingsIbelievetobetrue。

  Godisandismerciful,anddeathisnotterribleeitherinitsactorinitsconsequence。

  PresentlyFonsecaspokeagain。

  ’Whydoyouleadmetotalkofsuchthings?

  TheywearymeandIhavelittletime。

  Iwastellingofmywill。

  Nephew,listen。

  ExceptcertainsumsthatIhavegiventobespentincharities——notinmasses,mindyou——IhaveleftyouallI

  possess。’

  ’YouhaveleftittoME!’Isaidastonished。

  ’Yes,nephew,toyou。

  Whynot?

  IhavenorelationslivingandI

  havelearnedtoloveyou,IwhothoughtthatIcouldnevercareagainforanymanorwomanorchild。

  Iamgratefultoyou,whohaveprovedtomethatmyheartisnotdead,takewhatIgiveyouasamarkofmygratitude。’

  NowIbegantostammermythanks,buthestoppedme。

  ’Thesumthatyouwillinherit,nephew,amountsinalltoaboutfivethousandgoldpesos,orperhapstwelvethousandofyourEnglishpounds,enoughforayoungmantobeginlifeon,evenwithawife。

  IndeedthereinEnglanditmaywellbeheldagreatfortune,andIthinkthatyourbetrothed’sfatherwillmakenomoreobjectiontoyouasason-in-law。

  Alsothereisthishouseandallthatitcontains;

  thelibraryandthesilverarevaluable,andyouwilldowelltokeepthem。

  Allislefttoyouwiththefullestformality,sothatnoquestioncanariseastoyourrighttotakeit;indeed,foreseeingmyend,Ihaveoflatecalledinmymoneys,andforthemostpartthegoldliesinstrongboxesinthesecretcupboardinthewallyonderthatyouknowof。

  ItwouldhavebeenmorehadI

  knownyousomeyearsago,forthen,thinkingthatIgrewtoorichwhowaswithoutanheir,Igaveawayasmuchaswhatremainsinactsofmercyandinprovidingrefugeforthehomelessandthesuffering。

  ThomasWingfield,forthemostpartthismoneyhascometomeasthefruitofhumanfollyandhumanwretchedness,frailtyandsin。

  Useitforthepurposesofwisdomandtheadvancingofrightandliberty。

  Mayitprosperyou,andremindyouofme,youroldmaster,theSpanishquack,tillatlastyoupassitontoyourchildrenorthepoor。

  Andnowonewordmore。

  Ifyourconsciencewillletyou,abandonthepursuitofdeGarcia。

  TakeyourfortuneandgowithittoEngland;wedthatmaidwhomyoudesire,andfollowafterhappinessinwhateverwayseemsbesttoyou。

  WhoareyouthatyoushouldmeetoutvengeanceonthisknavedeGarcia?

  Lethimbe,andhewillavengehimselfuponhimself。

  Otherwiseyoumayundergomuchtoilanddanger,andintheendloselove,andlife,andfortuneatablow。’

  ’ButIhavesworntokillhim,’Ianswered,’andhowcanIbreaksosolemnanoath?

  HowcouldIsitathomeinpeacebeneaththeburdenofsuchshame?’

  ’Idonotknow;itisnotformetojudge。

  Youmustdoasyouwish,butinthedoingofit,itmayhappenthatyouwillfallintogreatershamesthanthis。

  Youhavefoughtthemanandhehasescapedyou。

  Lethimgoifyouarewise。

  Nowbenddownandkissme,andbidmefarewell。

  Idonotdesirethatyoushouldseemedie,andmydeathisnear。

  IcannottellifweshallmeetagainwheninyourturnyouhavelainasIlienow,orifweshapeourcoursefordifferentstars。

  Ifso,farewellforever。’

  ThenIleantdownandkissedhimontheforehead,andasIdidsoI

  wept,fornottillthishourdidIlearnhowtrulyIhadcometolovehim,sotrulythatitseemedtomeasthoughmyfatherlaytheredying。

  ’Weepnot,’hesaid,’forallourlifeisbutaparting。

  OnceI

  hadasonlikeyou,andourswasthebitterestoffarewells。

  NowI

  gotoseekforhimagainwhocouldnotcomebacktome,soweepnotbecauseIdie。

  Good-bye,ThomasWingfield。

  MayGodprosperandprotectyou!

  Nowgo!’

  SoIwentweeping,andthatnight,beforethedawn,allwasoverwithAndresdeFonseca。

  Theytoldmethathewasconscioustotheendanddiedmurmuringthenameofthatsonofwhomhespokeinhislastwordstome。

  Whatwasthehistoryofthisson,orofFonsecahimself,Ineverlearned,forlikeanIndianhehidhistrailasstepbystephewandereddownthepathoflife。

  Heneverspokeofhispast,andinallthebooksanddocumentsthatheleftbehindhimthereisnoallusiontoit。

  Once,someyearsago,IreadthroughtheciphervolumesofrecordsthatIhavespokenof,andofwhichhegavemethekeybeforehedied。

  TheystandbeforemeontheshelfasI

  write,andinthemaremanyhistoriesofshame,sorrow,andevil,offaithdeludedandinnocencebetrayed,ofthecrueltyofpriests,ofavaricetriumphantoverlove,andoflovetriumphantoverdeath——

  enough,indeed,tofurnishhalfahundredoftrueromances。

  Butamongthesechroniclesofagenerationnowpastandforgotten,thereisnomentionofFonseca’sownnameandnohintofhisownstory。

  Itislostforever,andperhapsthisiswell。

  Sodiedmybenefactorandbestfriend。

  WhenhewasmadereadyforburialIwentintoseehimandhelookedcalmandbeautifulinhisdeathsleep。

  Thenitwasthatshewhohadarrayedhimforthegravehandedtometwoportraitsmostdelicatelypaintedonivoryandsetingold,whichhadbeenfoundabouthisneck。

  Ihavethemyet。

  Oneisoftheheadofaladywithasweetandwistfulcountenance,andtheotherthefaceofadeadyouthalsobeautiful,butverysad。

  Doubtlesstheyweremotherandson,butIknownomoreaboutthem。

  OnthemorrowIburiedAndresdeFonseca,butwithnopomp,forhehadsaidthathewishedaslittlemoneyaspossiblespentuponhisdeadbody,andreturnedtothehousetomeetthenotaries。

  ThenthesealswerebrokenandtheparchmentsreadandIwasputinfullpossessionofthedeadman’swealth,andhavingdeductedsuchsumsaswerepayablefordues,legacies,andfees,thenotariesleftmebowinghumbly,forwasInotrich?

  Yes,Iwasrich,wealthhadcometomewithouteffort,andIhadreasontodesireit,yetthiswasthesaddestnightthatIhadpassedsinceIsetfootinSpain,formymindwasfilledwithdoubtsandsorrow,andmoreovermylonelinessgotaholdofme。

  Butsadasitmightbe,itwasdestinedtoseemyetmoresorrowfulbeforethemorning。

  ForasI

  satmakingpretencetoeat,aservantcametomesayingthatawomanwaitedintheouterroomwhohadaskedtoseehislatemaster。

  GuessingthatthiswassomeclientwhohadnotheardofFonseca’sdeathIwasabouttoorderthatsheshouldbedismissed,thenbethoughtmethatImightbeofservicetoherorattheleastforgetsomeofmyowntroubleinlisteningtohers。

  SoIbadehimbringherin。

  Presentlyshecame,atallwomanwrappedinadarkcloakthathidherface。

  Ibowedandmotionedtohertobeseated,whensuddenlyshestartedandspoke。

  ’IaskedtoseeDonAndresdeFonseca,’shesaidinalowquickvoice。

  ’Youarenothe,senor。’

  ’AndresdeFonsecawasburiedto-day,’Ianswered。

  ’Iwashisassistantinhisbusinessandamhisheir。

  IfIcanserveyouinanywayIamatyourdisposal。’

  ’Youareyoung——veryyoung,’shemurmuredconfusedly,’andthematteristerribleandurgent。

  HowcanItrustyou?’

  ’Itisforyoutojudge,senora。’

  Shethoughtawhile,thendrewoffhercloak,displayingtherobesofanun。

  ’Listen,’shesaid。

  ’Imustdomanyapenanceforthisnight’swork,andveryhardlyhaveIwonleavetocomehitheruponanerrandofmercy。

  NowIcannotgobackempty-handed,soImusttrustyou。

  ButfirstswearbythineblessedMotherofGodthatyouwillnotbetrayme。’

  ’Igiveyoumyword,’Ianswered;’ifthatisnotenough,letusendthistalk。’

  ’Donotbeangrywithme,’shepleaded;’IhavenotleftmyconventwallsformanyyearsandIamdistraughtwithgrief。

  Iseekapoisonofthedeadliest。

  Iwillpaywellforit。’

  ’Iamnotthetoolofmurderers,’Ianswered。

  ’Forwhatpurposedoyouwishthepoison?’

  ’Oh!Imusttellyou——yethowcanI?

  Inourconventtherediesto-

  nightawomanyoungandfair,almostagirlindeed,whohasbrokenthevowsshetook。

  Shediesto-nightwithherbabe——thus,ohGod,thus!bybeingbuiltaliveintothefoundationsofthehouseshehasdisgraced。

  Itisthejudgmentthathasbeenpasseduponher,judgmentwithoutforgivenessorreprieve。

  Iamtheabbessofthisconvent——asknotitsnameormine——andIlovethissinnerasthoughsheweremydaughter。

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