“Ontheshelf。”
ItseemedalongtimebeforeBurnamysaidwithalongsigh,asoffinalrecollection,“Oh,yes。”andthenhesaidnothing;andtheydidnotsitdown,butstoodlookingateachother。
“Wasitsomethingyougotforme,andforgottogiveme?”sheaskedinavoicewhichwouldnothavemisledawoman,butwhichdiditsworkwiththeyoungman。
Helaughedandsaid,“Well,hardly!Thegeneralhasbeenintheroomeversinceyoucame。”
“Oh,yes。Thenperhapssomebodyleftittherebeforeyouhadtheroom?”
Burnamywassilentagain,butatlasthesaid,“No,IflungitupthereI
hadforgottenallaboutit。”
“Andyouwishmetoforgetaboutit,too?”Agathaaskedinagayetyoftonethatstilldeceivedhim。
“Itwouldonlybefair。Youmademe。”herejoined,andtherewassomethingsocharminginhiswordsandway,thatshewouldhavebeengladtodoit。
Butshegovernedherselfagainstthetemptationandsaid,“Womenarenotgoodatforgetting,atleasttilltheyknowwhat。”
“Oh,I’lltellyou,ifyouwanttoknow。”hesaidwithalaugh,andatthewordsshe——sankprovisionallyintheiraccustomedseat。Hesatdownbesideher,butnotsonearasusual,andhewaitedsolongbeforehebeganthatitseemedasifhehadforgottenagain。“Why,it’snothing。
MissEtkinsandhermotherwereherebeforeyoucame,andthisisabouquetthatImeanttogiveheratthetrainwhensheleft。ButI
decidedIwouldn’t,andIthrewitontotheshelfinthecloset。”
“MayIaskwhyyouthoughtoftakingabouquettoheratthetrain?”
“Well,sheandhermother——Ihadbeenwiththemagooddeal,andI
thoughtitwouldbecivil。”
“Andwhydidyoudecidenottobecivil?”
“Ididn’twantittolooklikemorethancivility。”
“Weretheyherelong?”
“Aboutaweek。TheyleftjustaftertheMarchescame。”
Agathaseemednottoheedtheanswershehadexacted。Shesatreclinedinthecorneroftheseat,withherheaddrooping。AfteranintervalwhichwaslongtoBurnamyshebegantopullataringonthethirdfingerofherlefthand,absently,asifshedidnotknowwhatshewasdoing;
butwhenshehadgotitoffsheheldittowardsBurnamyandsaidquietly,“Ithinkyouhadbetterhavethisagain。”andthensheroseandmovedslowlyandweaklyaway。
Hehadtakentheringmechanicallyfromher,andhestoodamomentbewildered;thenhepressedafterher。
“Agatha,doyou——youdon’tmean——“
“Yes。”shesaid,withoutlookingroundathisface,whichsheknewwasclosetohershoulder。“It’sover。Itisn’twhatyou’vedone。It’swhatyouare。Ibelievedinyou,inspiteofwhatyoudidtothatman——
andyourcomingbackwhenyousaidyouwouldn’t——and——ButIseenowthatwhatyoudidwasyou;itwasyournature;andIcan’tbelieveinyouanymore。”
“Agatha!”heimplored。“You’renotgoingtobesounjust!Therewasnothingbetweenyouandmewhenthatgirlwashere!Ihadarightto——“
“Notifyoureallycaredforme!DoyouthinkIwouldhaveflirtedwithanyonesosoon,ifIhadcaredforyouasyoupretendedyoudidformethatnightinCarlsbad?Oh,Idon’tsayyou’refalse。Butyou’refickle——“
“ButI’mnotfickle!FromthefirstmomentIsawyou,Inevercaredforanyonebutyou!”
“Youhavestrangewaysofshowingyourdevotion。Well,sayyouarenotfickle。Say,thatI’mfickle。Iam。Ihavechangedmymind。Iseethatitwouldneverdo。Ileaveyoufreetofollowalltheturningandtwistingofyourfancy。”Shespokerapidly,almostbreathlessly,andshegavehimnochancetogetoutthewordsthatseemedtochokehim。Shebegantorun,butatthedoorofthehotelshestoppedandwaitedtillhecamestupidlyup。“Ihaveafavortoask,Mr。Burnamy。Ibegyouwillnotseemeagain,ifyoucanhelpitbeforewegoto-morrow。MyfatherandIareindebtedtoyoufortoomanykindnesses,andyoumustn’ttakeanymoretroubleonouraccount。Augustcanseeusoffinthemorning。”
Shenoddedquickly,andwasgonein-doorswhilehewasyetstrugglingwithhisdoubtoftherealityofwhathadallsoswiftlyhappened。
GeneralTriscoewasstillignorantofanychangeinthestatustowhichhehadreconciledhimselfwithsomuchdifficulty,whenhecamedowntogetintotheomnibusforthetrain。TillthenhehadbeentooproudtoaskwhathadbecomeofBurnamy,thoughhehadwondered,butnowhelookedaboutandsaidimpatiently,“Ihopethatyoungmanisn’tgoingtokeepuswaiting。”
Agathawaspaleandwornwithsleeplessness,butshesaidfirmly,“Heisn’tgoing,papa。Iwilltellyouinthetrain。Augustwillseetotheticketsandthebaggage。”
Augustconspiredwiththetraegertogetthemafirst-classcompartmenttothemselves。ButevenwiththeadvantagesofthisseclusionAgatha’sconfidencestoherfatherwerenotfull。ShetoldherfatherthatherengagementwasbrokenforreasonsthatdidnotmeananythingverywronginMr。Burnamybutthatconvincedhertheycouldneverbehappytogether。
Asshedidnotgivethereasons,hefoundanaturaldifficultyinacceptingthem,andtherewassomethinginthesituationwhichappealedstronglytohiscontrary-mindedness。Partlyfromthis,partlyfromhissenseofinjuryinbeingobligedsosoontoadjusthimselftonewconditions,andpartlyfromhiscomfortablefeelingofsecurityfromanengagementtowhichhisassenthadbeenforced,hesaid,“Ihopeyou’renotmakingamistake。”
“Oh,no。”sheanswered,andsheattestedherconvictionbyaburstofsobbingthatlastedwellonthewaytothefirststopofthetrain。
ItwouldhavebeenalwaystwiceaseasytogodirectfromBerlintotheHaguethroughHanover;buttheMarchesdecidedtogobyFrankfortandtheRhine,becausetheywishedtorevisitthefamousriver,whichtheyrememberedfromtheiryouth,andbecausetheywishedtostopatDusseldorf,whereHeinrichHeinewasborn。WithoutthisMrs。March,whokeptherhusbanduptohisearlypassionforthepoetwithafeelingthatshewasdefendinghimfromageinit,saidthattheirsilverweddingjourneywouldnotbecomplete;andhebeganhimselftothinkthatitwouldbeinteresting。
Theytookasleeping-carforFrankfortandtheywokeearlyaspeopledoinsleeping-carseverywhere。Marchdressedandwentoutforacupofthesamecoffeeofwhichsleeping-carbuffetshavetheawfulsecretinEuropeaswellasAmerica,andforaglimpseofthetwilightlandscape。Onegraylittletown,toweredandsteepledandred-roofedwithinitsmediaevalwalls,lookedasifitwouldhavebeenwarmerinsomethingmore。Therewasaheavydew,ifnotalightfrost,overall,andinplacesapalefogbegantoliftfromthelowhills。Thenthesunrosewithoutdispersingthecold,whichwasafterwardssosevereintheirroomattheRussischerHofinFrankfortthatinspiteofthesteam-radiatorstheysatshiveringinalltheirwrapstillbreakfast-time。
Therewasnosteamonintheradiators,ofcourse;whentheyimploredtheportierforatleastalamptowarmtheirhandsbyheturnedonalltheelectriclightswithoutraisingthetemperatureintheslightestdegree。
Amidstthesemoderncomfortstheyweresomiserablethattheyvowedeachothertoshun,aslongastheywereinGermany,oratleastwhilethesummerlasted,allhotelswhichweresteam-heatedandelectric-lighted。
Theyheatedthemselvessomewhatwiththeirwrath,andovertheirbreakfasttheyrelentedsofarastosufferthemselvesacertaininterestinthetroopsofallarmsbeginningtopassthehotel。Theywerefragmentsofthegreatparade,whichhadendedthedaybefore,andtheywerenowdriftingbacktotheirseveralquartersoftheempire。Manyofthemwereverypicturesque,andtheyhadfortheboysandgirlsrunningbeforeandbesidethem,thecharmwhicharmiesandcircusprocessionshaveforchildreneverywhere。Buttheirpassagefilledwithcruelanxietyalargeolddogwhomhismasterhadleftharnessedtoamilk-cartbeforethehoteldoor;fromtimetotimehelifteduphisvoice,andcalledtotheabsenteewithhoarse,deepbarksthatalmostshookhimfromhisfeet。
Thedaycontinuedblueandbrightandcold,andtheMarchesgavethemorningtoarapidsurveyofthecity,gladthatitwasatleastnotwet。
WhatafterwardschieflyremainedtothemwastheimpressionofanoldtownasquaintalmostandasGothicasoldHamburg,andanewtown,handsomeandregular,and,inthesuddenarrestofsomestreets,apparentlyoverbuilt。ThemodernarchitecturaltastewasofcourseParisian;thereisnoothertastefortheGermans;butintheprevailingabsenceofstatuestherewasarelieffromthemostoppressivecharacteristicoftheimperialcapitalwhichwasapositivedelight。
SomesortofmonumenttothenationalvictoryoverFrancetheremusthavebeen;butitmusthavebeenunusuallyinoffensive,foritleftnorecordofitselfinthetravellers’consciousness。Theywereawareofgardenedsquaresandavenues,borderedbystatelydwellings,ofdignifiedcivicedifices,andofavastaridsplendidrailroadstation,suchasthestatebuildseveninminorEuropeancities,butsuchasourpaternalcorporationshavenotyetgivenusanywhereinAmerica。TheywenttotheZoologicalGarden,wheretheyheardthecustomaryKalmucksattheirpublicprayersbehindahighboardfence;andaspilgrimsfromthemostplutrocraticcountryintheworldMarchinsistedthattheymustpaytheirdevoirsattheshrineoftheRothschilds,whosenatalbanking-housetheyreveredfromtheoutside。