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  Inthemorningafteranightsobadthatitwasworsethannonightatall,shesaidshewouldgotothesteamshipofficewithhimandquestionthemupabouttheColmannia。Thepeopletherehadneverheardshewascalledanunluckyboat;theyknewofnothingdisastrousinherhistory。

  Theyweresofrankandsofullintheirdenials,andsokindlypatientofMrs。March’sanxieties,thathesaweverywordwascarryingconvictionoftheirinsinceritytoher。AttheendsheaskedwhatroomswereleftontheNorumbia,andtheclerkwhomtheyhadfallentolookedthroughhispassengerlistwithashakinghead。Hewasafraidtherewasnothingtheywouldlike。

  “Butwewouldtakeanything。”sheentreated,andMarchsmiledtothinkofhisinnocenceinsupposingforamomentthatshehadeverdreamedofnotgoing。

  “Wemerelywantthebest。”heputin。“Oneflightup,nonoiseordust,withsuninallthewindows,andaplaceforfireonrainydays。”

  TheymustbeusedtoagooddealofAmericanjokingwhichtheydonotunderstand,intheforeignsteamshipoffices。TheclerkturnedunsmilinglytooneofhissuperiorsandaskedhimsomequestioninGermanwhichMarchcouldnotcatch,perhapsbecauseitformednopartofaconversationwithabarber,abootmakerorabanker。Abriefdramafollowed,andthentheclerkpointedtoaroomontheplanoftheNorumbiaandsaidithadjustbeengivenup,andtheycouldhaveitiftheydecidedtotakeitatonce。

  Theylooked,anditwasintheveryplaceoftheirroomontheColmannia;

  itwaswithinoneofbeingthesamenumber。Itwassoprovidential,ifitwasprovidentialatall,thattheywerebothhumblysilentamoment;

  evenMrs。Marchwassilent。Inthissuprememomentshewouldnotpromptherhusbandbyaword,aglance,anditwasfromhisownfreewillthathesaid,“Wewilltakeit。”

  Hethoughtitwashisfreewill,butperhapsone’swillisneverfree;

  andthismayhavebeenaninstanceofpuredeterminismfromalltheeventsbeforeit。Noeventthatfollowedaffectedit,thoughthedayaftertheyhadtakentheirpassageontheNorumbiaheheardthatshehadoncebeenintheworstsortofstorminthemonthofAugust。Hefeltobligedtoimpartthefacttohiswife,butshesaidthatitprovednothingfororagainsttheship,andconfoundedhimmorebyherreasonthanbyallherpreviousunreason。Reasoniswhatamanisneverpreparedforinwomen;perhapsbecausehefindsitsoseldominmen。

  DuringnearlythewholemonththatnowpassedbeforethedateofsailingitseemedtoMarchthatinsomefamiliaraspectsNewYorkhadneverbeensointeresting。HehadnoteasilyreconciledhimselftotheplaceafterhismanyyearsofBoston;buthehadgotusedtotheuglygrandeur,tothenoiseandtherush,andhehaddivinedmoreandmorethecarelessgood-natureandfriendlyindifferenceofthevast,sprawling,ungainlymetropolis。Therewerehappymomentswhenhefeltapoetryunintentionalandunconsciousinit,andhethoughttherewasnopointmorefavorableforthesenseofthisthanStuyvesantSquare,wheretheyhadaflat。

  Theirwindowslookeddownintoitstree-tops,andacrossthemtothetruncatedtowersofSt。George’s,andtotheplainred-brick,white-

  trimmedfrontoftheFriends’MeetingHouse;hecameandwentbetweenhisdwellingandhisofficethroughthetwoplacesthatformthesquare,andafterdinnerhiswifeandhehadahabitoffindingseatsbyoneofthefountainsinLivingstonPlace,amongthefathersandmothersofthehybridEastSidechildrenswarmingthereatplay。TheeldersreadtheirEnglishorItalianorGermanorYiddishjournals,orgossiped,ormerelysatstillandstaredawaytheday’sfatigue;whilethelittleonesracedinandoutamongthem,cryingandlaughing,quarrellingandkissing。

  Sometimesamotherdartedforwardandcaughtherchildfromthebrinkofthebasin;anothertaughtherstowalk,holdingittightlyupbehindbyitsshortskirts;anotherpubliclynursedherbabytosleep。

  Whiletheystilldreamed,butneverthought,ofgoingtoEurope,theMarchesoftensaidhowEuropeanallthiswas;ifthesewomenhadbroughttheirknittingorsewingitwouldhavebeenquiteEuropean;butassoonastheyhaddecidedtogo,itallbegantoseempoignantlyAmerican。Inlikemanner,beforetheconditionsoftheirexilechanged,andtheystillpinedfortheOldWorld,theycontrivedaveryagreeableillusionofitbydiningnowandthenatanAustrianrestaurantinUnionSquare;butlaterwhentheybegantobehomesickfortheAmericanscenestheyhadnotyetleft,theyhadakeenerretrospectivejoyinthestrictlyNewYorksunsettheywerebowedoutinto。

  ThesunsetswereuncommonlycharacteristicthatMayinUnionSquare。

  TheywerethecoloroftheredstripesintheAmericanflag,andwhentheywereseenthroughthedeliriousarchitectureoftheBroadwayside,ordowntheperspectiveofthecross-streets,wheretheelevatedtrainssilhouettedthemselvesagainsttheirpink,theyimpartedafeelingofpervasiveAmericanisminwhichallimpressionofaliensavorsandcivilitieswaslost。OneeveningafireflamedupinHoboken,andburnedforhoursagainstthewest,intheluridcrimsontonesofaconflagrationasmemorablyandappealinglynativeasthecolorsofthesunset。

  Theweatherfornearlythewholemonthwasofamoodfamiliarenoughinourearlysummer,anditwasthiswhichgavethesunsetstheirvitreouspink。Athrillingcoolnessfollowedafirstblazeofheat,andinthelongrespitethethoughtsalmostwentbacktowinterflannels。ButatlastahotwavewastelegraphedfromtheWest,andtheweekbeforetheNorumbiasailedwasananguishofburningdaysandbreathlessnights,whichfusedallregretsandreluctancesinthehopeofescape,andmadetheexilesoftwocontinentslongforthesea,withnocareforeithershore。

  Theirsteamerwastosailearly;theywereupatdawnbecausetheyhadscarcelylaindown,andMarchcreptoutintothesquareforalastbreathofitsmorningairbeforebreakfast。Hewasnoweagertobegone;hehadbrokenwithhabit,andhewishedtoputalltracesofthepastoutofsight。Butthiswascuriouslylikeallotherearlymorningsinhisconsciousness,andhecouldnotalienatehimselffromthewontedenvironment。Hestoodtalkingonevery-daytermsofidlespeculationwiththefamiliarpoliceman,aboutastrayparrotinthetopofoneofthetrees,whereitscreamedandclawedatthedeadbranchtowhichitclung。Thenhewentcarelesslyindoorsagainasifheweresecureofreadingthereporter’sstoryofitinthatnextday’spaperwhichheshouldnotsee。

  Thesenseofaninseverablecontinuitypersistedthroughthebreakfast,whichwaslikeotherbreakfastsintheplacetheywouldbeleavinginsummershroudsjustastheyalwaysleftitattheendofJune。Theillusionwasevenheightenedbythefactthattheirsonwastobeintheapartmentallsummer,anditwouldnotbesomuchshutupasusual。Theheavytrunkshadbeensenttotheshipbyexpresstheafternoonbefore,andtheyhadonlythemselvesandtheirstateroombaggagetotransporttoHoboken;theycamedowntoacarriagesentfromaneighboringlivery-

  stable,andexchangedgood-morningswithadrivertheyknewbyname。

  MarchhadoftenfancieditachiefadvantageoflivinginNewYorkthatyoucoulddrivetothesteamerandstartforEuropeasifyouwerestartingforAlbany;hewasintheenjoymentofthisadvantagenow,butsomehowitwasnottheconsolationhehadexpected。Heknew,ofcourse,thatiftheyhadbeencomingfromBoston,forinstance,tosailintheNorumbia,theywouldprobablyhavegoneonboardthenightbefore,andswelteredthroughitsheatamongthestrangesmellsandnoisesofthedockandwharf,insteadofbreakfastingattheirowntable,andsmoothlybowlingdowntheasphaltontotheferryboat,andsototheveryfootofthegangwayattheship’sside,allinthecooloftheearlymorning。

  Butthoughhehadnowthecooloftheearlymorningontheseconditions,therewasbynomeansenoughofit。

  Thesunwasalreadyburningthelifeoutoftheair,withthethreatofanotherdayoftheterribleheatthathadprevailedforaweekpast;andthatlastbreakfastathomehadnotbeengay,thoughithadbeenlively,inafashion,throughMrs。March’seffortstoconvincehersonthatshedidnotwanthimtocomeandseethemoff。Of,herdaughter’scomingallthewayfromChicagotherewasnoquestion,andshereasonedthatifhedidnotcometosaygood-byonboarditwouldbethesameasiftheywerenotgoing。

  “Don’tyouwanttogo?”Marchaskedwithanobscureresentment。

  “Idon’twanttoseemtogo。”shesaid,withthecalmofthosewhohavelogicontheirside。

  Asshedroveawaywithherhusbandshewasnotsosureofhersatisfactioninthefeintshehadarranged,thoughwhenshesawtheghastlypartingsofpeopleonboard,shewasgladshehadnotallowedhersontocome。Shekeptsayingthistoherself,andwhentheyclimbedtotheshipfromthewharf,andfoundthemselvesinthecrowdthatchokedthesaloonsandpromenadesandpassagesandstairwaysandlandings,shesaiditmorethanoncetoherhusband。

  Sheheardwearyelderspatteringemptypolitenessesoffarewellwithfriendswhohadcometoseethemoff,astheystoodwithdrawninsuchrefugesastheship’sarchitectureafforded,orsubmittedtobepushedandtwirledaboutbythesurgingthrongwhentheygotinitsway。Shepitiedtheseintheiraffliction,whichsheperceivedthattheycouldnotlightenorshorten,butshehadnopatiencewiththeyounggirls,whobrokeintoshrieksofnervouslaughteratthecomingofcertainyoungmen,andkeptlaughingandbeckoningtilltheymadetheyoungmenseethem;andthenstretchedtheirhandstothemandstoodscreamingandshoutingtothemacrosstheinterveningheadsandshoulders。Somegirls,ofthosewhomnoonehadcometobidgood-by,madethemselvesmerry,oratleastnoisy,byrushingofftothedining-roomandlookingatthecardsonthebouquetsheapingthetables,tofindwhetheranyonehadsentthemflowers。Otherswhomyoungmenhadbroughtbunchesofvioletshidtheirnosesinthem,anddroppedtheirfansandhandkerchiefsandcard-cases,andthankedtheyoungmenforpickingthemup。Others,hadgotplacesinthemusic-room,andsattherewithopenboxesoflong-

  stemmedrosesintheirlaps,andtalkedupintothefacesofthemen,withbecomingliftsandslantsoftheireyesandchins。Inthemidstoftheturmoilchildrenstruggledagainstpeople’sfeetandknees,andbewilderedmothersflewattheship’sofficersandbatteredthemwithquestionsalientotheirrespectivefunctionsastheyamiablystifledaboutintheirthickuniforms。

  Sailors,slungovertheship’ssideonswingingseats,wereplacidlysmearingitwithpaintatthatlastmoment;thebulwarkswerethicklysetwiththeheadsandarmsofpassengerswhoweremakingsignstofriendsonshore,orcallingmessagestothemthatlostthemselvesinloudernoisesmidway。Someofthewomeninthesteeragewerecrying;theywereprobablynotgoingtoEuropeforpleasurelikethefirst-cabinpassengers,orevenfortheirhealth;onthewharfbelowMarchsawthefaceofoneyounggirltwistedwithweeping,andhewishedhehadnotseenit。Heturnedfromit,andlookedintotheeyesofhisson,whowaslaughingathisshoulder。Hesaidthathehadtocomedownwithagood-

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