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  TheTell-TaleHeart。

  TRUE!-nervous-very,verydreadfullynervousIhadbeenandam;butwhywillyousaythatIammad?Thediseasehadsharpenedmysenses-notdestroyed-notdulledthem。Aboveallwasthesenseofhearingacute。Iheardallthingsintheheavenandintheearth。I

  heardmanythingsinhell。How,then,amImad?Hearken!andobservehowhealthily-howcalmlyIcantellyouthewholestory。

  Itisimpossibletosayhowfirsttheideaenteredmybrain;butonceconceived,ithauntedmedayandnight。Objecttherewasnone。

  Passiontherewasnone。Ilovedtheoldman。Hehadneverwrongedme。

  Hehadnevergivenmeinsult。ForhisgoldIhadnodesire。Ithinkitwashiseye!yes,itwasthis!Hehadtheeyeofavulture-apaleblueeye,withafilmoverit。Wheneveritfelluponme,mybloodrancold;andsobydegrees-verygradually-Imadeupmymindtotakethelifeoftheoldman,andthusridmyselfoftheeyeforever。

  Nowthisisthepoint。Youfancymemad。Madmenknownothing。Butyoushouldhaveseenme。YoushouldhaveseenhowwiselyIproceeded-

  withwhatcaution-withwhatforesight-withwhatdissimulationI

  wenttowork!IwasneverkindertotheoldmanthanduringthewholeweekbeforeIkilledhim。Andeverynight,aboutmidnight,Iturnedthelatchofhisdoorandopenedit-ohsogently!Andthen,whenI

  hadmadeanopeningsufficientformyhead,Iputinadarklantern,allclosed,closed,thatnolightshoneout,andthenIthrustinmyhead。Oh,youwouldhavelaughedtoseehowcunninglyIthrustitin!

  Imoveditslowly-very,veryslowly,sothatImightnotdisturbtheoldman’ssleep。IttookmeanhourtoplacemywholeheadwithintheopeningsofarthatIcouldseehimashelayuponhisbed。Ha!

  wouldamadmanhavebeensowiseasthis,Andthen,whenmyheadwaswellintheroom,Iundidthelanterncautiously-oh,socautiously-

  cautiouslyforthehingescreaked-Iundiditjustsomuchthatasinglethinrayfelluponthevultureeye。AndthisIdidforsevenlongnights-everynightjustatmidnight-butIfoundtheeyealwaysclosed;andsoitwasimpossibletodothework;foritwasnottheoldmanwhovexedme,buthisEvilEye。Andeverymorning,whenthedaybroke,Iwentboldlyintothechamber,andspokecourageouslytohim,callinghimbynameinaheartytone,andinquiringhowhehaspassedthenight。Soyouseehewouldhavebeenaveryprofoundoldman,indeed,tosuspectthateverynight,justattwelve,Ilookedinuponhimwhileheslept。

  UpontheeighthnightIwasmorethanusuallycautiousinopeningthedoor。Awatch’sminutehandmovesmorequicklythandidmine。NeverbeforethatnighthadIfelttheextentofmyownpowers-ofmysagacity。Icouldscarcelycontainmyfeelingsoftriumph。TothinkthatthereIwas,openingthedoor,littlebylittle,andhenoteventodreamofmysecretdeedsorthoughts。Ifairlychuckledattheidea;andperhapsheheardme;forhemovedonthebedsuddenly,asifstartled。NowyoumaythinkthatIdrewback-butno。Hisroomwasasblackaspitchwiththethickdarkness,fortheshutterswereclosefastened,throughfearofrobbers,andsoIknewthathecouldnotseetheopeningofthedoor,andIkeptpushingitonsteadily,steadily。

  Ihadmyheadin,andwasabouttoopenthelantern,whenmythumbslippeduponthetinfastening,andtheoldmansprangupinbed,cryingout-“Who’sthere?”

  Ikeptquitestillandsaidnothing。ForawholehourIdidnotmoveamuscle,andinthemeantimeIdidnothearhimliedown。Hewasstillsittingupinthebedlistening;-justasIhavedone,nightafternight,hearkeningtothedeathwatchesinthewall。

  PresentlyIheardaslightgroan,andIknewitwasthegroanofmortalterror。Itwasnotagroanofpainorofgrief-oh,no!-itwasthelowstifledsoundthatarisesfromthebottomofthesoulwhenoverchargedwithawe。Iknewthesoundwell。Manyanight,justatmidnight,whenalltheworldslept,ithaswelledupfrommyownbosom,deepening,withitsdreadfulecho,theterrorsthatdistractedme。IsayIknewitwell。Iknewwhattheoldmanfelt,andpitiedhim,althoughIchuckledatheart。Iknewthathehadbeenlyingawakeeversincethefirstslightnoise,whenhehadturnedinthebed。Hisfearshadbeeneversincegrowinguponhim。Hehadbeentryingtofancythemcauseless,butcouldnot。Hehadbeensayingtohimself-“Itisnothingbutthewindinthechimney-itisonlyamousecrossingthefloor。”or“Itismerelyacricketwhichhasmadeasinglechirp。”Yes,hehadbeentryingtocomforthimselfwiththesesuppositions:buthehadfoundallinvain。Allinvain;

  becauseDeath,inapproachinghimhadstalkedwithhisblackshadowbeforehim,andenvelopedthevictim。Anditwasthemournfulinfluenceoftheunperceivedshadowthatcausedhimtofeel-

  althoughheneithersawnorheard-tofeelthepresenceofmyheadwithintheroom。

  WhenIhadwaitedalongtime,verypatiently,withouthearinghimliedown,Iresolvedtoopenalittle-avery,verylittlecreviceinthelantern。SoIopenedit-youcannotimaginehowstealthily,stealthily-until,atlengthasimpledimray,likethethreadofthespider,shotfromoutthecreviceandfellfulluponthevultureeye。

  Itwasopen-wide,wideopen-andIgrewfuriousasIgazeduponit。Isawitwithperfectdistinctness-alladullblue,withahideousveiloveritthatchilledtheverymarrowinmybones;butI

  couldseenothingelseoftheoldman’sfaceorperson:forIhaddirectedtherayasifbyinstinct,preciselyuponthedamnedspot。

  AndhaveInottoldyouthatwhatyoumistakeformadnessisbutover-acutenessofthesense?-now,Isay,therecametomyearsalow,dull,quicksound,suchasawatchmakeswhenenvelopedincotton。Iknewthatsoundwell,too。Itwasthebeatingoftheoldman’sheart。Itincreasedmyfury,asthebeatingofadrumstimulatesthesoldierintocourage。

  ButevenyetIrefrainedandkeptstill。Iscarcelybreathed。Iheldthelanternmotionless。ItriedhowsteadilyIcouldmaintaintherayupontheeve。Meantimethehellishtattoooftheheartincreased。Itgrewquickerandquicker,andlouderandloudereveryinstant。Theoldman’sterrormusthavebeenextreme!Itgrewlouder,Isay,loudereverymoment!-doyoumarkmewellIhavetoldyouthatIamnervous:soIam。Andnowatthedeadhourofthenight,amidthedreadfulsilenceofthatoldhouse,sostrangeanoiseasthisexcitedmetouncontrollableterror。Yet,forsomeminuteslongerI

  refrainedandstoodstill。Butthebeatinggrewlouder,louder!I

  thoughttheheartmustburst。Andnowanewanxietyseizedme-thesoundwouldbeheardbyaneighbour!Theoldman’shourhadcome!

  Withaloudyell,Ithrewopenthelanternandleapedintotheroom。

  Heshriekedonce-onceonly。InaninstantIdraggedhimtothefloor,andpulledtheheavybedoverhim。Ithensmiledgaily,tofindthedeedsofardone。But,formanyminutes,theheartbeatonwithamuffledsound。This,however,didnotvexme;itwouldnotbeheardthroughthewall。Atlengthitceased。Theoldmanwasdead。I

  removedthebedandexaminedthecorpse。Yes,hewasstone,stonedead。Iplacedmyhandupontheheartandheldittheremanyminutes。

  Therewasnopulsation。Hewasstonedead。Hisevewouldtroublemenomore。

  Ifstillyouthinkmemad,youwillthinksonolongerwhenI

  describethewiseprecautionsItookfortheconcealmentofthebody。

  Thenightwaned,andIworkedhastily,butinsilence。FirstofallI

  dismemberedthecorpse。Icutofftheheadandthearmsandthelegs。

  Ithentookupthreeplanksfromtheflooringofthechamber,anddepositedallbetweenthescantlings。Ithenreplacedtheboardssocleverly,socunningly,thatnohumaneye-notevenhis-couldhavedetectedanythingwrong。Therewasnothingtowashout-nostainofanykind-noblood-spotwhatever。Ihadbeentoowaryforthat。A

  tubhadcaughtall-ha!ha!

  WhenIhadmadeanendoftheselabors,itwasfouro’clock-stilldarkasmidnight。Asthebellsoundedthehour,therecameaknockingatthestreetdoor。Iwentdowntoopenitwithalightheart,-forwhathadInowtofear?Thereenteredthreemen,whointroducedthemselves,withperfectsuavity,asofficersofthepolice。Ashriekhadbeenheardbyaneighbourduringthenight;suspicionoffoulplayhadbeenaroused;informationhadbeenlodgedatthepoliceoffice,andtheytheofficershadbeendeputedtosearchthepremises。

  Ismiled,-forwhathadItofear?Ibadethegentlemenwelcome。Theshriek,Isaid,wasmyowninadream。Theoldman,Imentioned,wasabsentinthecountry。Itookmyvisitorsalloverthehouse。Ibadethemsearch-searchwell。Iledthem,atlength,tohischamber。I

  showedthemhistreasures,secure,undisturbed。Intheenthusiasmofmyconfidence,Ibroughtchairsintotheroom,anddesiredthemheretorestfromtheirfatigues,whileImyself,inthewildaudacityofmyperfecttriumph,placedmyownseatupontheveryspotbeneathwhichreposedthecorpseofthevictim。

  Theofficersweresatisfied。Mymannerhadconvincedthem。Iwassingularlyatease。Theysat,andwhileIansweredcheerily,theychattedoffamiliarthings。But,erelong,Ifeltmyselfgettingpaleandwishedthemgone。Myheadached,andIfanciedaringinginmyears:butstilltheysatandstillchatted。Theringingbecamemoredistinct:-Itcontinuedandbecamemoredistinct:Italkedmorefreelytogetridofthefeeling:butitcontinuedandgaineddefiniteness-until,atlength,Ifoundthatthenoisewasnotwithinmyears。

  NodoubtInowgrew_very_pale;-butItalkedmorefluently,andwithaheightenedvoice。Yetthesoundincreased-andwhatcouldI

  do?Itwasalow,dull,quicksound-muchsuchasoundasawatchmakeswhenenvelopedincotton。Igaspedforbreath-andyettheofficershearditnot。Italkedmorequickly-morevehemently;butthenoisesteadilyincreased。Iaroseandarguedabouttrifles,inahighkeyandwithviolentgesticulations;butthenoisesteadilyincreased。Whywouldtheynotbegone?Ipacedthefloortoandfrowithheavystrides,asifexcitedtofurybytheobservationsofthemen-butthenoisesteadilyincreased。OhGod!whatcouldIdo?I

  foamed-Iraved-Iswore!IswungthechairuponwhichIhadbeensitting,andgrateditupontheboards,butthenoisearoseoverallandcontinuallyincreased。Itgrewlouder-louder-louder!Andstillthemenchattedpleasantly,andsmiled。Wasitpossibletheyheardnot?AlmightyGod!-no,no!Theyheard!-theysuspected!-

  theyknew!-theyweremakingamockeryofmyhorror!-thisIthought,andthisIthink。Butanythingwasbetterthanthisagony!Anythingwasmoretolerablethanthisderision!Icouldbearthosehypocriticalsmilesnolonger!IfeltthatImustscreamordie!andnow-again!-hark!louder!louder!louder!louder!

  “Villains!”Ishrieked,“dissemblenomore!Iadmitthedeed!-tearuptheplanks!here,here!-Itisthebeatingofhishideousheart!”

  Dicebantmihisodales,sisepulchrumamicaevisitarem,curasmeasaliquantulumforelevatas-

  _EbnZaiat_。

  MISERYismanifold。Thewretchednessofearthismultiform。

  Overreachingthewidehorizonastherainbow,itshuesareasvariousasthehuesofthatarch-asdistincttoo,yetasintimatelyblended。Overreachingthewidehorizonastherainbow!HowisitthatfrombeautyIhavederivedatypeofunloveliness?-fromthecovenantofpeace,asimileofsorrow?Butas,inethics,evilisaconsequenceofgood,so,infact,outofjoyissorrowborn。Eitherthememoryofpastblissistheanguishofto-day,ortheagonieswhich_are_,havetheiroriginintheecstasieswhich_mighthavebeen_。

  MybaptismalnameisEgaeus;thatofmyfamilyIwillnotmention。Yettherearenotowersinthelandmoretime-honoredthanmygloomy,gray,hereditaryhalls。Ourlinehasbeencalledaraceofvisionaries;andinmanystrikingparticulars-inthecharacterofthefamilymansion-inthefrescosofthechiefsaloon-inthetapestriesofthedormitories-inthechisellingofsomebuttressesinthearmory-butmoreespeciallyinthegalleryofantiquepaintings-inthefashionofthelibrarychamber-and,lastly,intheverypeculiarnatureofthelibrary’scontents-thereismorethansufficientevidencetowarrantthebelief。

  Therecollectionsofmyearliestyearsareconnectedwiththatchamber,andwithitsvolumes-ofwhichlatterIwillsaynomore。

  Herediedmymother。HereinwasIborn。ButitismereidlenesstosaythatIhadnotlivedbefore-thatthesoulhasnopreviousexistence。Youdenyit?-letusnotarguethematter。Convincedmyself,Iseeknottoconvince。Thereis,however,aremembranceofaerialforms-ofspiritualandmeaningeyes-ofsounds,musicalyetsad-aremembrancewhichwillnotbeexcluded;amemorylikeashadow-vague,variable,indefinite,unsteady;andlikeashadow,too,intheimpossibilityofmygettingridofitwhilethesunlightofmyreasonshallexist。

  InthatchamberwasIborn。Thusawakingfromthelongnightofwhatseemed,butwasnot,nonentity,atonceintotheveryregionsoffairyland-intoapalaceofimagination-intothewilddominionsofmonasticthoughtanderudition-itisnotsingularthatIgazedaroundmewithastartledandardenteye-thatIloiteredawaymyboyhoodinbooks,anddissipatedmyyouthinreverie;butit_is_

  singularthatasyearsrolledaway,andthenoonofmanhoodfoundmestillinthemansionofmyfathers-it_is_wonderfulwhatstagnationtherefelluponthespringsofmylife-wonderfulhowtotalaninversiontookplaceinthecharacterofmycommonestthought。Therealitiesoftheworldaffectedmeasvisions,andasvisionsonly,whilethewildideasofthelandofdreamsbecame,inturn,notthematerialofmyevery-dayexistence,butinverydeedthatexistenceutterlyandsolelyinitself。

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