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  “Indeed。Whereto?”

  TiminformedhimthattheyweregoingtoNewZealand。NotbutthathewouldhavebeencontentedwithHintock,buthiswifewasambitiousandwantedtoleave,sohehadgivenway。

  “Thengood-by。”saidFitzpiers;“Imaynotseeyouagain。”HeshookhandswithTimandturnedtothebride。“Good-by,Suke。”hesaid,takingherhandalso。“Iwishyouandyourhusbandprosperityinthecountryyouhavechosen。”Withthisheleftthem,andhastenedontohisappointment。

  Thewedding-partyre-formedandresumedmarchlikewise。ButinrestoringhisarmtoSuke,Timnoticedthatherfullandbloomingcountenancehadundergoneachange。“Holloa!medear——what’sthematter?”saidTim。

  “Nothingtospeako’。”saidshe。Buttogivethelietoherassertionshewasseizedwithlachrymosetwitches,thatsoonproducedadribblingface。

  “How——whatthedevil’sthisabout!”exclaimedthebridegroom。

  “She’salittleweebitovercome,poordear!”saidthefirstbridesmaid,unfoldingherhandkerchiefandwipingSuke’seyes。

  “Ineverdidlikepartingfrompeople!”saidSuke,assoonasshecouldspeak。

  “Whyhiminparticular?”

  “Well——he’ssuchacleverdoctor,that’tisathousandpitieswesha’n’tseehimanymore!There’llbenosuchcleverdoctorasheinNewZealand,ifIshouldrequireone;andthethoughto’tgotthebetterofmyfeelings!”

  Theywalkedon,butTim’sfacehadgrownrigidandpale,forherecalledslightcircumstances,disregardedatthetimeoftheiroccurrence。Theformerboisterouslaughterofthewedding-partyatthegroomsman’sjokeswasheardringingthroughthewoodsnomore。

  BythistimeFitzpiershadadvancedonhiswaytothetopofthehill,wherehesawtwofiguresemergingfromthebankontherighthand。Theseweretheexpectedones,GraceandMartySouth,whohadevidentlycometherebyashortandsecretpaththroughthewood。Gracewasmuffledupinherwinterdress,andhethoughtthatshehadneverlookedsoseductiveasatthismoment,inthenoontidebrightbutheatlesssun,andthekeenwind,andthepurplish-graymassesofbrushwoodaround。

  Fitzpierscontinuedtoregardthenearingpicture,tillatlengththeirglancesmetforamoment,whenshedemurelysentoffhersatatangentandgavehimthebenefitofherthree-quarterface,whilewithcourteouscompletenessofconductheliftedhishatinalargearc。Martydroppedbehind;andwhenFitzpiersheldouthishand,Gracetoucheditwithherfingers。

  “IhaveagreedtobeheremostlybecauseIwantedtoaskyousomethingimportant。”saidMrs。Fitzpiers,herintonationmodulatinginadirectionthatshehadnotquitewishedittotake。

  “Iammostattentive。”saidherhusband。“Shallwetaketothewoodforprivacy?”

  Gracedemurred,andFitzpiersgavein,andtheykeptthepublicroad。

  Atanyrateshewouldtakehisarm?Thisalsowasgravelynegatived,therefusalbeingaudibletoMarty。

  “Whynot?”heinquired。

  “Oh,Mr。Fitzpiers——howcanyouask?”

  “Right,right。”saidhe,hiseffusivenessshrivelledup。

  Astheywalkedonshereturnedtoherinquiry。“Itisaboutamatterthatmayperhapsbeunpleasanttoyou。ButIthinkIneednotconsiderthattoocarefully。”

  “Notatall。”saidFitzpiers,heroically。

  ShethentookhimbacktothetimeofpoorWinterborne’sdeath,andrelatedtheprecisecircumstancesamidwhichhisfatalillnesshadcomeuponhim,particularizingthedampnessofthesheltertowhichhehadbetakenhimself,hisconcealmentfromherofthehardshipsthathewasundergoing,allthathehadputupwith,allthathehaddoneforherinhisscrupulousconsiderateness。Theretrospectbroughthertotearsassheaskedhimifhethoughtthatthesinofhavingdrivenhimtohisdeathwasuponher。

  Fitzpierscouldhardlyhelpshowinghissatisfactionatwhathernarrativeindirectlyrevealed,theactualharmlessnessofanescapadewithherlover,whichhadatfirst,byherownshowing,lookedsograve,andhedidnotcaretoinquirewhetherthatharmlessnesshadbeentheresultofaimorofaccident。Withregardtoherquestion,hedeclaredthatinhisjudgmentnohumanbeingcouldanswerit。Hethoughtthatuponthewholethebalanceofprobabilitiesturnedinherfavor。Winterborne’sapparentstrength,duringthelastmonthsofhislife,musthavebeendelusive。Ithadoftenoccurredthatafterafirstattackofthatinsidiousdiseaseaperson’sapparentrecoverywasaphysiologicalmendacity。

  ThereliefwhichcametoGracelayalmostasmuchinsharingherknowledgeoftheparticularswithanintelligentmindasintheassurancesFitzpiersgaveher。“Well,then,toputthiscasebeforeyou,andobtainyourprofessionalopinion,waschieflywhyIconsentedtocomehereto-day。”saidshe,whenhehadreachedtheaforesaidconclusion。

  “Fornootherreasonatall?”heasked,ruefully。

  “Itwasnearlythewhole。”

  Theystoodandlookedoveragateattwentyorthirtystarlingsfeedinginthegrass,andhestartedthetalkagainbysaying,inalowvoice,“AndyetIloveyoumorethaneverIlovedyouinmylife。”

  Gracedidnotmovehereyesfromthebirds,andfoldedherdelicatelipsasiftokeeptheminsubjection。

  “Itisadifferentkindoflovealtogether。”saidhe。“Lesspassionate;moreprofound。Ithasnothingtodowiththematerialconditionsoftheobjectatall;muchtodowithhercharacterandgoodness,asrevealedbycloserobservation。’Lovetalkswithbetterknowledge,andknowledgewithdearerlove。’“

  “That’soutof’MeasureforMeasure,’“saidshe,slyly。

  “Ohyes——Imeantitasacitation。”blandlyrepliedFitzpiers。

  “Well,then,whynotgivemeaverylittlebitofyourheartagain?”

  Thecrashofafelledtreeintheremotedepthsofthewoodrecalledthepastatthatmoment,andallthehomelyfaithfulnessofWinterborne。“Don’taskit!MyheartisinthegravewithGiles。”shereplied,stanchly。

  “Mineiswithyou——innolessdeepagrave,Ifear,accordingtothat。”

  “Iamverysorry;butitcannotbehelped。”

  “Howcanyoubesorryforme,whenyouwilfullykeepopenthegrave?”

  “Ohno——that’snotso。”returnedGrace,quickly,andmovedtogoawayfromhim。

  “But,dearestGrace。”saidhe,“youhavecondescendedtocome;andIthoughtfromitthatperhapswhenIhadpassedthroughalongstateofprobationyouwouldbegenerous。Butiftherecanbenohopeofourgettingcompletelyreconciled,treatmegently——wretchthoughIam。”

  “Ididnotsayyouwereawretch,norhaveIeversaidso。”

  “ButyouhavesuchacontemptuouswayoflookingatmethatIfearyouthinkso。”

  Grace’sheartstruggledbetweenthewishnottobeharshandthefearthatshemightmisleadhim。“IcannotlookcontemptuousunlessIfeelcontempt。”shesaid,evasively。“AndallIfeelislovelessness。”

  “Ihavebeenverybad,Iknow。”hereturned。“Butunlessyoucanreallylovemeagain,Grace,Iwouldrathergoawayfromyouforever。Idon’twantyoutoreceivemeagainforduty’ssake,oranythingofthatsort。IfIhadnotcaredmoreforyouraffectionandforgivenessthanmyownpersonalcomfort,Ishouldneverhavecomebackhere。Icouldhaveobtainedapracticeatadistance,andhavelivedmyownlifewithoutcoldnessorreproach。ButI

  havechosentoreturntotheonespotonearthwheremynameistarnished——toenterthehouseofamanfromwhomIhavehadworsetreatmentthanfromanyothermanalive——allforyou!”

  Thiswasundeniablytrue,andithaditsweightwithGrace,whobegantolookasifshethoughtshehadbeenshockinglysevere。

  “Beforeyougo。”hecontinued,“Iwanttoknowyourpleasureaboutme——whatyouwishmetodo,ornottodo。”

  “Youareindependentofme,anditseemsamockerytoaskthat。

  Farbeitfrommetoadvise。ButIwillthinkitover。Iratherneedadvicemyselfthanstandinapositiontogiveit。”

  “YOUdon’tneedadvice,wisest,dearestwomanthateverlived。Ifyoudid——“

  “Wouldyougiveittome?”

  “WouldyouactuponwhatIgave?”

  “That’snotafairinquiry。”saidshe,smilingdespitehergravity。“Idon’tmindhearingit——whatyoudoreallythinkthemostcorrectandpropercourseforme。”

  “Itissoeasyformetosay,andyetIdarenot,foritwouldbeprovokingyoutoremonstrances。”

  Knowing,ofcourse,whattheadvicewouldbe,shedidnotpresshimfurther,andwasabouttobeckonMartyforwardandleavehim,whenheinterruptedherwith,“Oh,onemoment,dearGrace——youwillmeetmeagain?”

  Sheeventuallyagreedtoseehimthatdayfortnight。Fitzpiersexpostulatedattheinterval,butthehalf-alarmedearnestnesswithwhichsheentreatedhimnottocomesoonermadehimsayhastilythathesubmittedtoherwill——thathewouldregardherasafriendonly,anxiousforhisreformandwell-being,tillsuchtimeasshemightallowhimtoexceedthatprivilege。

  Allthiswastoassureher;itwasonlytooclearthathehadnotwonherconfidenceyet。ItamazedFitzpiers,andoverthrewallhisdeductionsfrompreviousexperience,tofindthatthisgirl,thoughshehadbeenmarriedtohim,couldyetbesocoy。

  Notwithstandingacertainfascinationthatitcarriedwithit,hisreflectionsweresombreashewenthomeward;hesawhowdeephadbeenhisoffencetoproducesogreatawarinessinagentleandonceunsuspicioussoul。

  Hewashimselftoofastidioustocaretocoerceher。Tobeanobjectofmisgivingordisliketoawomanwhosharedhishomewaswhathecouldnotendurethethoughtof。Lifeasitstoodwasmoretolerable。

  Whenhewasgone,MartyjoinedMrs。Fitzpiers。ShewouldfainhaveconsultedMartyonthequestionofPlatonicrelationswithherformerhusband,asshepreferredtoregardhim。ButMartyshowednogreatinterestintheiraffairs,soGracesaidnothing。

  Theycameonward,andsawMelburystandingatthesceneofthefellingwhichhadbeenaudibletothem,when,tellingMartythatshewishedhermeetingwithMr。Fitzpierstobekeptprivate,sheleftthegirltojoinherfather。Atanyrate,shewouldconsulthimontheexpediencyofoccasionallyseeingherhusband。

  Herfatherwascheerful,andwalkedbyhersideashehaddoneinearlierdays。“Iwasthinkingofyouwhenyoucameup。”hesaid。

  “Ihaveconsideredthatwhathashappenedisforthebest。Sinceyourhusbandisgoneaway,andseemsnottowishtotroubleyou,why,lethimgo,anddropoutofyourlife。Manywomenareworseoff。Youcanliveherecomfortablyenough,andhecanemigrate,ordowhathelikesforhisgood。Iwouldn’tmindsendinghimthefurthersumofmoneyhemightnaturallyexpecttocometohim,sothatyoumaynotbebotheredwithhimanymore。Hecouldhardlyhavegoneonlivingherewithoutspeakingtome,ormeetingme;

  andthatwouldhavebeenveryunpleasantonbothsides。”

  Theseremarkscheckedherintention。Therewasasenseofweaknessinfollowingthembysayingthatshehadjustmetherhusbandbyappointment。“Thenyouwouldadvisemenottocommunicatewithhim?”sheobserved。

  “Ishallneveradviseyeagain。Youareyourownmistress——doasyoulike。Butmyopinionisthatifyoudon’tlivewithhim,youhadbetterlivewithouthim,andnotgoshilly-shallyingandplayingbopeep。Yousenthimaway;andnowhe’sgone。Verywell;

  troublehimnomore。”

  Gracefeltaguiltiness——shehardlyknewwhy——andmadenoconfession。

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