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  Fitzpiers’smentalsufferingsandsuspenseledhimatlasttotakeamelancholyjourneytotheneighborhoodofLittleHintock;andherehehoveredforhoursaroundthesceneofthepurestemotionalexperiencesthathehadeverknowninhislife。HewalkedaboutthewoodsthatsurroundedMelbury’shouse,keepingoutofsightlikeacriminal。Itwasafineevening,andonhiswayhomewardhepassednearMartySouth’scottage。Asusualshehadlightedhercandlewithoutclosinghershutters;hesawherwithinashehadseenhermanytimesbefore。

  Shewaspolishingtools,andthoughhehadnotwishedtoshowhimself,hecouldnotresistspeakingintoherthroughthehalf-

  opendoor。“Whatareyoudoingthatfor,Marty?”

  “BecauseIwanttocleanthem。Theyarenotmine。”Hecouldsee,indeed,thattheywerenothers,foronewasaspade,largeandheavy,andanotherwasabill-hookwhichshecouldonlyhaveusedwithbothhands。Thespade,thoughnotanewone,hadbeensocompletelyburnishedthatitwasbrightassilver。

  FitzpierssomehowdivinedthattheywereGilesWinterborne’s,andheputthequestiontoher。

  Sherepliedintheaffirmative。“Iamgoingtokeep’em。”shesaid,“butIcan’tgethisapple-millandpress。Iwishcould;itisgoingtobesold,theysay。”

  “ThenIwillbuyitforyou。”saidFitzpiers。“Thatwillbemakingyouareturnforakindnessyoudidme。”Hisglancefelluponthegirl’srare-coloredhair,whichhadgrownagain。“Oh,Marty,thoselocksofyours——andthatletter!Butitwasakindnesstosendit,nevertheless。”headded,musingly。

  Afterthistherewasconfidencebetweenthem——suchconfidenceastherehadneverbeenbefore。Martywasshy,indeed,ofspeakingabouttheletter,andhermotivesinwritingit;butshethankedhimwarmlyforhispromiseofthecider-press。Shewouldtravelwithitintheautumnseason,ashehaddone,shesaid。Shewouldbequitestrongenough,witholdCreedleasanassistant。

  “Ah!therewasonenearertohimthanyou。”saidFitzpiers,referringtoWinterborne。“Onewholivedwherehelived,andwaswithhimwhenhedied。”

  ThenMarty,suspectingthathedidnotknowthetruecircumstances,fromthefactthatMrs。Fitzpiersandhimselfwerelivingapart,toldhimofGiles’sgenerositytoGraceingivinguphishousetoherattherisk,andpossiblythesacrifice,ofhisownlife。WhenthesurgeonheardithealmostenviedGileshischivalrouscharacter。HeexpressedawishtoMartythathisvisittohershouldbekeptsecret,andwenthomethoughtful,feelingthatinmorethatonesensehisjourneytoHintockhadnotbeeninvain。

  HewouldhavegivenmuchtowinGrace’sforgivenessthen。Butwhateverhedaredhopeforinthatkindfromthefuture,therewasnothingtobedoneyet,whileGilesWinterborne’smemorywasgreen。Towaitwasimperative。Alittletimemightmeltherfrozenthoughts,andleadhertolookonhimwithtoleration,ifnotwithlove。

  WeeksandmonthsofmourningforWinterbornehadbeenpassedbyGraceinthesoothingmonotonyofthememorialacttowhichsheandMartyhaddevotedthemselves。TwiceaweekthepairwentinthedusktoGreatHintock,and,likethetwomournersinCymbeline,sweetenedhissadgravewiththeirflowersandtheirtears。SometimesGracethoughtthatitwasapityneitheroneofthemhadbeenhiswifeforalittlewhile,andgiventheworldacopyofhimwhowassovaluableintheireyes。Nothingeverhadbroughthometoherwithsuchforceasthisdeathhowlittleacquirementsandcultureweighbesidesterlingpersonalcharacter。

  Whilehersimplesorrowforhislosstookasofteredgewiththelapseoftheautumnandwinterseasons,herself-reproachathavinghadapossiblehandincausingitknewlittleabatement。

  LittleoccurredatHintockduringthesemonthsofthefallanddecayoftheleaf。DiscussionofthealmostcontemporaneousdeathofMrs。Charmondabroadhadwaxedandwaned。Fitzpiershadhadamarvellousescapefrombeingdraggedintotheinquirywhichfollowedit,throughtheaccidentoftheirhavingpartedjustbeforeundertheinfluenceofMartySouth’sletter——thetinyinstrumentofacausedeepinnature。

  Herbodywasnotbroughthome。Itseemedtoaccordwellwiththefitfulfeverofthatimpassionedwoman’slifethatsheshouldnothavefoundanativegrave。Shehadenjoyedbutalife-interestintheestate,which,afterherdeath,passedtoarelativeofherhusband’s——onewhoknewnotFelice,onewhosepurposeseemedtobetoblotouteveryvestigeofher。

  OnacertaindayinFebruary——thecheerfuldayofSt。Valentine,infact——aletterreachedMrs。Fitzpiers,whichhadbeenmentallypromisedherforthatparticulardayalongtimebefore。

  ItannouncedthatFitzpierswaslivingatsomemidlandtown,wherehehadobtainedatemporarypracticeasassistanttosomelocalmedicalman,whosecurativeprincipleswereallwrong,thoughhedarednotsetthemright。Hehadthoughtfittocommunicatewithheronthatdayoftendertraditionstoinquireif,intheeventofhisobtainingasubstantialpracticethathehadinviewelsewhere,shecouldforgetthepastandbringherselftojoinhim。

  Therethepracticalpartended;hethenwenton——

  “Mylastyearofexperiencehasaddedtenyearstomyage,dearGraceanddearestwifethatevererringmanundervalued。YoumaybeabsolutelyindifferenttowhatIsay,butletmesayit:IhaveneverlovedanywomanaliveordeadasIlove,respect,andhonoryouatthispresentmoment。WhatyoutoldmeintheprideandhaughtinessofyourheartIneverbelieved[this,bytheway,wasnotstrictlytrue];butevenifIhadbelievedit,itcouldneverhaveestrangedmefromyou。Isthereanyuseintellingyou——no,thereisnot——thatIdreamofyourripelipsmorefrequentlythanIsaymyprayers;thattheoldfamiliarrustleofyourdressoftenreturnsuponmymindtillitdistractsme?Ifyoucouldcondescendevenonlytoseemeagainyouwouldbebreathinglifeintoacorpse。Mypure,pureGrace,modestasaturtledove,howcameI

  evertopossessyou?Forthesakeofbeingpresentinyourmindonthislovers’day,IthinkIwouldalmostratherhaveyouhatemealittlethannotthinkofmeatall。Youmaycallmyfancieswhimsical;butremember,sweet,lostone,that’natureisoneinlove,andwhere’tisfineitsendssomeinstanceofitself。’I

  willnotintrudeuponyoufurthernow。Makemealittlebithappybysendingbackonelinetosaythatyouwillconsent,atanyrate,toashortinterview。Iwillmeetyouandleaveyouasamereacquaintance,ifyouwillonlyaffordmethisslightmeansofmakingafewexplanations,andofputtingmypositionbeforeyou。

  Believeme,inspiteofallyoumaydoorfeel,Yourloveralwaysonceyourhusband,“E。”

  Itwas,oddlyenough,thefirstoccasion,ornearlythefirstonwhichGracehadeverreceivedalove-letterfromhim,hiscourtshiphavingtakenplaceunderconditionswhichrenderedletter-writingunnecessary。Itsperusal,therefore,hadacertainnoveltyforher。Shethoughtthat,uponthewhole,hewrotelove-

  lettersverywell。ButthechiefrationalinterestofthelettertothereflectiveGracelayinthechancethatsuchameetingasheproposedwouldaffordherofsettingherdoubtsatrest,onewayortheother,onheractualshareinWinterborne’sdeath。Thereliefofconsultingaskilledmind,theoneprofessionalmanwhohadseenGilesatthattime,wouldbeimmense。Asforthatstatementthatshehadutteredinherdisdainfulgrief,whichatthetimeshehadregardedashertriumph,shewasquitepreparedtoadmittohimthathisbeliefwasthetrueone;forinwrongingherselfasshedidwhenshemadeit,shehaddonewhattoherwasafarmoreseriousthing,wrongedWinterborne’smemory。

  Withoutconsultingherfather,oranyoneinthehouseoroutofit,Gracerepliedtotheletter。SheagreedtomeetFitzpiersontwoconditions,ofwhichthefirstwasthattheplaceofmeetingshouldbethetopofRubdownHill,thesecondthathewouldnotobjecttoMartySouthaccompanyingher。

  Whateverpart,muchorlittle,theremayhavebeeninFitzpiers’sso-calledvalentinetohiswife,hefeltadelightasoftheburstingofspringwhenherbriefreplycame。Itwasoneofthefewpleasuresthathehadexperiencedoflateyearsatallresemblingthoseofhisearlyyouth。Hepromptlyrepliedthatheacceptedtheconditions,andnamedthedayandhouratwhichhewouldbeonthespotshementioned。

  Afewminutesbeforethreeontheappointeddayfoundhimclimbingthewell-knownhill,whichhadbeentheaxisofsomanycriticalmovementsintheirlivesduringhisresidenceatHintock。

  Thesightofeachhomelyandwell-rememberedobjectswelledtheregretthatseldomlefthimnow。Whateverpathsmightlieopentohisfuture,thesoothingshadesofHintockwereforbiddenhimforeverasapermanentdwelling-place。

  HelongedforthesocietyofGrace。Buttolayofferingsonherslightedaltarwashisfirstaim,anduntilherpropitiationwascompletehewouldconstrainherinnowaytoreturntohim。Theleastreparationthathecouldmake,inacasewherehewouldgladlyhavemademuch,wouldbetoletherfeelherselfabsolutelyfreetochoosebetweenlivingwithhimandwithouthim。

  Moreover,asubtlistinemotions,hecultivatedasunderglassesstrangeandmournfulpleasuresthathewouldnotwillinglyletdiejustatpresent。ToshowanyforwardnessinsuggestingamodusvivenditoGracewouldbetoputanendtotheseexotics。Tobethevassalofhersweetwillforatime,hedemandednomore,andfoundsolaceinthecontemplationofthesoftmiseriesshecausedhim。

  Approachingthehill-topwithamindstrungtothesenotions,Fitzpiersdiscernedagayprocessionofpeoplecomingoverthecrest,andwasnotlonginperceivingittobeawedding-party。

  Thoughthewindwaskeenthewomenwereinlightattire,andthefloweredwaistcoatsofthemenhadapleasingvividnessofpattern。Eachofthegentleronesclungtothearmofherpartnersotightlyastohavewithhimonestep,rise,swing,gait,almostonecentreofgravity。InthebuxombrideFitzpiersrecognizednootherthanSukeDamson,whoinherlightgownlookedagiantess;

  thesmallhusbandbesideherhesawtobeTimTangs。

  Fitzpierscouldnotescape,fortheyhadseenhim;thoughofallthebeautiesoftheworldwhomhedidnotwishtomeetSukewasthechief。Butheputthebestfaceonthematterthathecouldandcameon,theapproachingcompanyevidentlydiscussinghimandhisseparationfromMrs。Fitzpiers。Asthecouplescloseduponhimheexpressedhiscongratulations。

  “Webejustwalkingroundtheparishestoshowourselvesabit。”

  saidTim。“FirstwehetacrosstoDelborough,thenathwarttohere,andfromherewegotoRubdownandMillshot,andthenroundbythecross-roadshome。HomesaysI,butitwon’tbethatlong!

  Webeoffnextmonth。”

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