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  Tomyunutterablesurprise,thesewords,harmlessastheyappearedtome,producedthesameastoundingeffectonPescawhichthesightofPescahadproducedontheCount。Therosyfaceofmylittlefriendwhitenedinaninstant,andhedrewbackfrommeslowly,tremblingfromheadtofoot。

  `WalterI’hesaid。`Youdon’tknowwhatyouask。’

  Hespokeinawhisper——helookedatmeasifIhadsuddenlyrevealedtohimsomehiddendangertobothofus。Inlessthanoneminuteoftimehewassoalteredfromtheeasy,lively,quaintlittlemanofallmypastexperience,thatifIhadmethiminthestreet,changedasIsawhimnow,Ishouldmostcertainlynothaveknownhimagain。

  `Forgiveme,ifIhaveunintentionallypainedandshockedyou,’Ireplied。

  `RememberthecruelwrongmywifehassufferedatCountFosco’shands。

  Rememberthatthewrongcanneverberedressed,unlessthemeansareinmypowerofforcinghimtodoherjustice。Ispokeinherinterests,Pesca——Iaskyouagaintoforgiveme——Icansaynomore。’

  Irosetogo。HestoppedmebeforeIreachedthedoor。

  `Wait,’hesaid。`YouhaveshakenmefromheadtofootYoudon’tknowhowIleftmycountry,andwhyIleftmycountry。Letmecomposemyself,letmethink,ifIcan。’

  Ireturnedtomychair。Hewalkedupanddowntheroom,talkingtohimselfincoherentlyinhisownlanguage。Afterseveralturnsbackwardsandforwards,hesuddenlycameuptome,andlaidhislittlehandswithastrangetendernessandsolemnityonmybreast。

  `Onyourheartandsoul,Walter,’hesaid,`istherenootherwaytogettothatmanbutthechance-waythroughme?’

  `Thereisnootherway,’Ianswered。

  Heleftmeagain,openedthedooroftheroomandlookedoutcautiouslyintothepassage,closeditoncemore,andcameback。

  `Youwonyourrightoverme,Walter,’hesaid,`onthedaywhenyousavedmylife。Itwasyoursfromthatmoment,whenyoupleasedtotakeit。Takeitnow。Yes!ImeanwhatIsay。Mynextwords,astrueasthegoodGodisaboveus,willputmylifeintoyourhands。’

  Thetremblingearnestnesswithwhichheutteredthisextraordinarywarning,carriedwithit,tomymind,theconvictionthathespokethetruth。

  `Mindthis!’hewenton,shakinghishandsatmeinthevehemenceofhisagitation。`Iholdnothread,inmyownmind,betweenthatmanFosco,andthepacttimewhichIcallbacktomeforyoursake。Ifyoufindthethread,keepittoyourself——tellmenothing——onmykneesIbegandpray,letmebeignorant,letmebeinnocent,letmebeblindtoallthefutureasIamnow!’

  Hesaidafewwordsmore,hesitatinglyanddisconnectedly,thenstoppedagain。

  IsawthattheeffortofexpressinghimselfinEnglish,onanoccasiontonserioustopermithimtheuseofthequaintturnsandphrasesofhisordinaryvocabulary,waspainfullyincreasingthedifficultyhehadfeltfromthefirstinspeakingtomeatall。Havinglearnttoreadandunderstandhisnativelanguagethoughnottospeakit,intheearlierdaysofourintimatecompanionship,InowsuggestedtohimthatheshouldexpresshimselfinItalian,whileIusedEnglishinputtinganyquestionswhichmightbenecessarytomyenlightenment。Heacceptedtheproposal。Inhissmooth-flowinglanguage,spokenwithavehementagitationwhichbetrayeditselfintheperpetualworkingofhisfeatures,inthewildnessandthesuddennessofhisforeigngesticulations,butneverintheraisingofhisvoice,Inowheardthewordswhicharmedmetomeetthelaststruggle,thatisleftforthisstorytorecord。*

  `YouknownothingofmymotiveforleavingItaly,’hebegan,`exceptthatitwasforpoliticalreasons。IfIhadbeendriventothiscountrybythepersecutionofmygovernment,Ishouldnothavekeptthosereasonsasecretfromyouorfromanyone。I

  *Itisonlyrighttomentionhere,thatIrepeatPesca’sstatementtome,withthecarefulsuppressionsandalterationswhichtheseriousnatureofthesubjectandmyownsenseofdutytomyfrienddemand。Myfirstandlastconcealmentsfromthereaderarethosewhichcautionrendersabsolutelynecessaryinthisportionofthenarrative。haveconcealedthembecausenogovernmentauthorityhaspronouncedthesentenceofmyexile。Youhaveheard,Walter,ofthepoliticalsocietiesthatarehiddenineverygreatcityonthecontinentofEurope?TooneofthosesocietiesIbelongedinItaly——andbelongstillinEngland。WhenIcametothiscountry,Icamebythedirectionofmychief。Iwasover-zealousinmyyoungertime——

  Irantheriskofcompromisingmyselfandothers。ForthosereasonsIwasorderedtoemigratetoEnglandandtowait。Iemigrated——Ihavewaited——Iwaitstill。TomorrowImaybecalledaway——tenyearshenceImaybecalledaway。Itisallonetome——Iamhere,Isupportmyselfbyteaching,andIwait。IviolatenooathyoushallhearwhypresentlyinmakingmyconfidencecompletebytellingyouthenameofthesocietytowhichIbelong。AllIdoistoputmylifeinyourhands。IfwhatIsaytoyounowiseverknownbyotherstohavepassedmylips,ascertainlyaswetwosithere,Iamadeadman。’

  Hewhisperedthenextwordsinmyear。Ikeepthesecretwhichhethuscommunicated。Thesocietytowhichhebelongedwillbesufficientlyindividualisedforthepurposeofthesepages,ifIcallit`TheBrotherhood’,onthefewoccasionswhenanyreferencetothesubjectwillbeneededinthisplace。

  `TheobjectoftheBrotherhood,’pescawenton,`is,briefly,theobjectofotherpoliticalsocietiesofthesamesort——thedestructionoftyrannyandtheassertionoftherightsofthepeople。TheprinciplesoftheBrotherhoodaretwo。Solongasaman’slifeisuseful,orevenharmlessonly,hehastherighttoenjoyit。But,ifhislifeinflictsinjuryonthewell-beingofhisfellow-men,fromthatmomentheforfeitstheright,anditisnotonlynocrime,butapositivemerit,todeprivehimofit。Itisnotformetosayinwhatfrightfulcircumstancesofoppressionandsufferingthissocietytookitsrise。Itisnotforyoutosay——youEnglishmen,whohaveconqueredyourfreedomsolongago,thatyouhaveconvenientlyforgottenwhatbloodyoushed,andwhatextremitiesyouproceededtointheconquering——itisnotforyoutosayhowfartheworstofallexasperationsmay,ormaynot,carrythemaddenedmenofanenslavednation。Theironthathasenteredintooursoulshasgonetoodeepforyoutofindit。Leavetherefugeealone!Laughathim,distrusthim,openyoureyesinwonderatthatsecretselfwhichsmouldersinhim,sometimesundertheevery-dayrespectabilityandtranquillityofamanlikeme——sometimesunderthegrindingpoverty,thefiercesqualor,ofmenlesslucky,lesspliable,lesspatientthanIam——butjudgeusnot!InthetimeofyourfirstCharlesyoumighthavedoneusjustice——thelongluxuryofyourownfreedomhasmadeyouincapableofdoingusjusticenow。’

  Allthedeepestfeelingsofhisnatureseemedtoforcethemselvestothesurfaceinthosewords——allhisheartwaspouredouttomeforthefirsttimeinourlives——butstillhisvoiceneverrose,stillhisdreadoftheterriblerevelationhewasmakingtomeneverlefthim。

  `Sofar,’heresumed,`youthinkthesocietylikeothersocieties。ItsobjectinyourEnglishopinionisanarchyandrevolution。Ittakesthelifeofabadkingorabadminister,asiftheoneandtheotherweredangerouswildbeaststobeshotatthefirstopportunity。Igrantyouthis。ButthelawsoftheBrotherhoodarethelawsofnootherpoliticalsocietyonthefaceoftheearth。Themembersarenotknowntooneanother。

  ThereisapresidentinItaly;therearepresidentsabroad。Eachofthesehashissecretary。Thepresidentsandthesecretariesknowthemembers,butthemembers,amongthemselves,areallstrangers,untiltheirchiefsseefit,inthepoliticalnecessityofthetime,orintheprivatenecessityofthesociety,tomakethemknowntoeachother。Withsuchasafeguardasthisthereisnooathamongusonadmittance。WeareidentifiedwiththeBrotherhoodbyasecretmark,whichweallbear,whichlastswhileourliveslast。Wearetoldtogoaboutourordinarybusiness,andtoreportourselvestothepresident,orthesecretary,fourtimesayear,intheeventofourservicesbeingrequired。Wearewarned,ifwebetraytheBrotherhood,orifweinjureitbyservingotherinterests,thatwediebytheprinciplesoftheBrotherhood——diebythehandofastrangerwhomaybesentfromtheotherendoftheworldtostriketheblow——orbythehandofourownbosom-friend,whomayhavebeenamemberunknowntousthroughalltheyearsofourintimacy。Sometimesthedeathisdelayed——sometimesitfollowscloseonthetreachery。Itisourfirstbusinesstoknowhowtowait——oursecondbusinesstoknowhowtoobeywhenthewordisspoken。

  Someofusmaywaitourlivesthrough,andmaynotbewanted。Someofusmaybecalledtothework,ortothepreparationforthework,theverydayofouradmission。Imyself——thelittle,easy,cheerfulmanyouknow,who,ofhisownaccord,wouldhardlyliftuphishandkerchieftostrikedowntheflythatbuzzesabouthisface——I。inmyyoungertime,underprovocationsodreadfulthatIwillnottellyouofit,enteredtheBrotherhoodbyanimpulse,asImighthavekilledmyselfbyanimpulse。Imustremaininitnow——ithasgotme,whateverImaythinkofitinmybettercircumstancesandmycoolermanhood,tomydyingday。WhileIwasstillinItalyIwaschosensecretary,andallthemembersofthattime,whowerebroughtfacetofacewithmypresident,werebroughtfacetofacealsowithme。

  Ibegantounderstandhim——Isawtheendtowardswhichhisextraordinarydisclosurewasnowtending。Hewaitedamoment,watchingmeearnestly——

  watchingtillhehadevidentlyguessedwhatwaspassinginmymindbeforeheresumed。

  `Youhavedrawnyourownconclusionalready,’hesaid。`Iseeitinyourface。Tellmenothing——keepmeoutofthesecretofyourthoughts。

  Letmemakemyonelastsacrificeofmyself,foryoursake,andthenhavedonewiththissubject,nevertoreturntoitagain。’

  Hesignedtomenottoanswerhim——rose——removedhiscoat——androlleduptheshirt-sleeveonhisleftarm。

  `Ipromisedyouthatthisconfidenceshouldbecomplete,’hewhispered,speakingcloseatmyear,withhiseyeslookingwatchfullyatthedoor。

  `Whatevercomesofityoushallnotreproachmewithhawinghiddenanythingfromyouwhichitwasnecessarytoyourintereststoknow。IhavesaidthattheBrotherhoodidentifiesitsmembersbyamarkthatlastsforlife。

  Seetheplace,andthemarkonitforyourself。’

  Heraisedhisbarearm,andshowedme,highontheupperpartofitandintheinnerside,abranddeeplyburntinthefleshandstainedofabrightblood-redcolour。Iabstainfromdescribingthedevicewhichthebrandrepresented。Itwillbesufficienttosaythatitwascircularinform,andsosmallthatitwouldhavebeencompletelycoveredbyashillingcoin。

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