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  ThoughtsthatIhadhithertorestrained,thoughtsthatmademypositionharderthanevertoendure,crowdedonmenowthatIwasalone。

  Shewasengagedtobemarried,andherfuturehusbandwasSirPercivalGlyde。AmanoftherankofBaronet,andtheownerofpropertyinHampshire。

  TherewerehundredsofbaronetsinEngland,anddozensoflandownersinHampshire。Judgingbytheordinaryrulesofevidence,Ihadnottheshadowofareason,thusfar,forconnectingSirPercivalGlydewiththesuspiciouswordsofinquirythathadbeenspokentomebythewomaninwhite。Andyet,Ididconnecthimwiththem。WasitbecausehehadnowbecomeassociatedinmymindwithMissFairlie,MissFairliebeing,inherturn,associatedwithAnneCatherick,sincethenightwhenIhaddiscoveredtheominouslikenessbetweenthem?HadtheeventsofthemorningsounnervedmealreadythatIwasatthemercyofanydelusionwhichcommonchancesandcommoncoincidencesmightsuggesttomyimagination?Impossibletosay。IcouldonlyfeelthatwhathadpassedbetweenMissHalcombeandmyself,onourwayfromthesummer-house,hadaffectedmeverystrangely。Theforebodingofsomeundiscoverabledangerlyinghidfromusallinthedarknessofthefuturewasstrongonme。ThedoubtwhetherIwasnotlinkedalreadytoachainofeventswhichevenmyapproachingdeparturefromCumberlandwouldbePowerlesstosnapasunder——thedoubtwhetherweanyofussawtheendastheendwouldreallybe——gatheredmoreandmoredarklyovermymind。Poignantasitwas,thesenseofsufferingcausedbythemiserableendofmybrief,presumptuousloveseemedtobebluntedanddeadenedbythestillstrongersenseofsomethingobscurelyimpending,somethinginvisiblythreatening,thatTimewasholdingoverourheads。

  Ihadbeenengagedwiththedrawingslittlemorethanhalfanhour,whentherewasaknockatthedoor。Itopened,onmyanswering;and,tomysurprise,MissHalcombeenteredtheroom。

  Hermannerwasangryandagitated。ShecaughtupachairforherselfbeforeIcouldgiveherone,andsatdowninit,closeatmyside。

  `MrHartright,’shesaid,`Ihadhopedthatallpainfulsubjectsofconversationwereexhaustedbetweenus,fortodayatleast。Butitisnottobeso。Thereissomeunderhandvillainyatworktofrightenmysisteraboutherapproachingmarriage。Yousawmesendthegardenerontothehouse,withaletteraddressed,inastrangehandwriting,toMissFairlie?’

  `Certainly。’

  `Theletterisananonymousletter——avileattempttoinjureSirPercivalGlydeinmysister’sestimation。IthassoagitatedandalarmedherthatIhavehadthegreatestpossibledifficultyincomposingherspiritssufficientlytoallowmetoleaveherroomandcomehere。IknowthisisafamilymatteronwhichIoughtnottoconsultyou,andinwhichyoucanfeelnoconcernorinterest——’

  `Ibegyourpardon,MissHalcombe。IfeelthestrongestpossibleconcernandinterestinanythingthataffectsMissFairlie’shappinessoryours。’

  `Iamgladtohearyousayso。Youaretheonlypersoninthehouse,oroutofit,whocanadviseme。MrFairlie,inhisstateofhealthandwithhishorrorofdifficultiesandmysteriesofallkinds,isnottobethoughtof。Theclergymanisagood,weakman,whoknowsnothingoutoftheroutineofhisduties;andourneighboursarejustthesortofcomfortable,jog-trotacquaintanceswhomonecannotdisturbintimesoftroubleanddanger。WhatIwanttoknowisthis:oughtIatoncetotakesuchstepsasIcantodiscoverthewriteroftheletter?oroughtItowait,andapplytoMrFairlie’slegaladvisertomorrow?Itisaquestion——perhapsaveryimportantone——ofgainingorlosingaday。Tellmewhatyouthink,MrHartright。Ifnecessityhadnotalreadyobligedmetotakeyouintomyconfidenceunderverydelicatecircumstances,evenmyhelplesssituationwould,perhaps,benoexcuseforme。ButasthingsareIcannotsurelybewrong,afterallthathaspassedbetweenus,inforgettingthatyouareafriendofonlythreemonths’standing。’

  Shegavemetheletter。Itbeganabruptly,withoutanypreliminaryformofaddress,asfollows——

  `Doyoubelieveindreams?Ihope,foryourownsake,thatyoudo。SeewhatScripturesaysaboutdreamsandtheirfulfilmentGenesisxl。8,xli。

  25;Danieliv。18-25,andtakethewarningIsendyoubeforeitistoolate。

  `LastnightIdreamedaboutyou,MissFairlie。IdreamedthatIwasstandinginsidethecommunionrailsofachurch——Iononesideofthealtar-table,andtheclergyman,withhissurpliceandhisprayer-book,ontheother。

  `Afteratimetherewalkedtowardsus,downtheaisleofthechurch,amanandawoman,comingtobemarried。Youwerethewoman。Youlookedsoprettyandinnocentinyourbeautifulwhitesilkdress,andyourlongwhitelaceveil,thatmyheartfeltforyou,andthetearscameintomyeyes。

  `Theyweretearsofpity,younglady,thatheavenblesses;andinsteadoffallingfrommyeyesliketheeverydaytearsthatweallofusshed,theyturnedintotworaysoflightwhichslantednearerandnearertothemanstandingatthealtarwithyou,tilltheytouchedhisbreast。Thetworaysspranginarchesliketworainbowsbetweenmeandhim。Ilookedalongthem,andIsawdownintohisinmostheart。

  `Theoutsideofthemanyouweremarryingwasfairenoughtosee。Hewasneithertallnorshort——hewasalittlebelowthemiddlesize。A

  light,active,high-spiritedman——aboutfive-and-fortyyearsold,tolookat。Hehadapaleface,andwasbaldovertheforehead,buthaddarkhairontherestofhishead。Hisbeardwasshavenonhischin,butwaslettogrow,ofafinerichbrown,onhischeeksandhisupperlip。Hiseyeswerebrowntoo,andverybright;hisnosestraightandhandsome,anddelicateenoughtohavedoneforawoman’s。Hishandsthesame。Hewastroubledfromtimetotimewithadryhackingcough,andwhenheputuphiswhiterighthandtohismouth,heshowedtheredscarofanoldwoundacrossthebackofit。HaveIdreamtoftherightman?Youknowbest,MissFairlie,andyoucansayifIwasdeceivedornot。Readnext,whatIsawbeneaththeoutside——Ientreatyou,read,andprofit。

  `Ilookedalongthetworaysoflight,andIsawdownintohisinmostheart。Itwasblackasnight,andonitwerewritten,intheredflamingletterswhicharethehandwritingofthefallenangel,``Withoutpityandwithoutremorse。Hehasstrewnwithmiserythepathsofothers,andhewilllivetostrewwithmiserythepathofthiswomanbyhisside。’’I

  readthat,andthentheraysoflightshiftedandpointedoverhisshoulder;

  andthere,behindhim,stoodafiendlaughing。Andtheraysoflightshiftedoncemore,andpointedoveryourshoulder;andthere,behindyou,stoodanangelweeping。Andtheraysoflightshiftedforthethirdtime,andpointedstraightbetweenyouandthatman。Theywidenedandwidened,thrustingyoubothasunder,onefromtheother。Andtheclergymanlookedforthemarriage-serviceinvain;itwasgoneoutofthebook,andheshutuptheleaves,andputitfromhimindespair。AndIwokewithmyeyesfulloftearsandmyheartbeating——forIbelieveindreams。

  `Believetoo,MissFairlie——Ibegofyou,foryourownsake,believeasIdo。JosephandDaniel,andothersintheScripture,believedindreams。

  Inquireintothepastlifeofthatmanwiththescaronhishand,beforeyousaythewordsthatmakeyouhismiserablewife。Idon’tgiveyouthiswarningonmyaccount,butonyours。Ihaveaninterestinyourwell-beingthatwillliveaslongasIdrawbreath。Yourmother’sdaughterhasatenderplaceinmyheart——foryourmotherwasmyfirst,mybest,myonlyfriend。’

  Theretheextraordinaryletterended,withoutasignatureofanysort。

  Thehandwritingaffordednoprospectofaclue。Itwastracedonruledlines,inthecramped,conventionalcopy-bookcharactertechnicallytermed`mallhand。’Itwasfeebleandfaint,anddefacedbyblots,buthadotherwisenothingtodistinguishit。

  `Thatisnotanilliterateletter,’saidMissHalcombe,`andatthesametime,itissurelytooincoherenttobetheletterofaneducatedpersoninthehigherranksoflife。Thereferencetothebridaldressandveil,andotherlittleexpressions,seemtopointtoitastheproductionofsomewoman。Whatdoyouthink,MrHartright?’

  `Ithinksotoo。Itseemstometobenotonlytheletterofawoman,butofawomanwhosemindmustbe——’

  `Deranged?’suggestedMissHalcombe。`Itstruckmeinthatlighttoo。’

  Ididnotanswer。WhileIwasspeaking,myeyesrestedonthelastsentenceoftheletter:`Yourmother’sdaughterhasatenderplaceinmyheart——

  foryourmotherwasmyfirst,mybest,myonlyfriend。’Thosewordsandthedoubtwhichhadjustescapedmeastothesanityofthewriteroftheletter,actingtogetheronmymind,suggestedanidea,whichIwasliterallyafraidtoexpressopenly,oreventoencouragesecretly。Ibegantodoubtwhethermyownfacultieswerenotindangeroflosingtheirbalance。Itseemedalmostlikeamonomaniatobetracingbackeverythingstrangethathappened,everythingunexpectedthatwassaid,alwaystothesamehiddensourceandthesamesinisterinfluence。Iresolved,thistime,indefenceofmyowncourageandmyownsense,tocometonodecisionthatplainfactdidnotwarrant,andtoturnmybackresolutelyoneverythingthattemptedmeintheshapeofsurmise。

  `Ifwehaveanychanceoftracingthepersonwhohaswrittenthis,’

  Isaid,returningthelettertoMissHalcombe,`therecanbenoharminseizingouropportunitythemomentitoffers。Ithinkweoughttospeaktothegardeneragainabouttheelderlywomanwhogavehimtheletter,andthentocontinueourinquiriesinthevillage。Butfirstletmeaskaquestion。YoumentionedjustnowthealternativeofconsultingMrFairlie’slegaladvisertomorrow。Istherenopossibilityofcommunicatingwithhimearlier?Whynottoday?’

  `Icanonlyexplain,’repliedMissHalcombe,`byenteringintocertainparticulars,connectedwithmysister’smarriage-engagement,whichIdidnotthinkitnecessaryordesirabletomentiontoyouthismorning。OneofSirPercivalGlyde’sobjectsincominghereonMonday,istofixtheperiodofhismarriage,whichhashithertobeenleftquiteunsettled。Heisanxiousthattheeventshouldtakeplacebeforetheendoftheyear。’

  `DoesMissFairlieknowofthatwish?’Iaskedeagerly。

  `Shehasnosuspicionofit,andafterwhathashappened,Ishallnottaketheresponsibilityuponmyselfofenlighteningher。SirPercivalhasonlymentionedhisviewstoMrFairlie,whohastoldmehimselfthatheisreadyandanxious,asLaura’sguardian,toforwardthem。HehaswrittentoLondon,tothefamilysolicitor,MrGilmore。MrGilmorehappenstobeawayinGlasgowonbusiness,andhehasrepliedbyproposingtostopatLimmeridgeHouseonhiswaybacktotown。Hewillarrivetomorrow,andwillstaywithusafewdays,soastoallowSirPercivaltimetopleadhisowncause。Ifhesucceeds,MrGilmorewillthenreturntoLondon,takingwithhimhisinstructionsformysister’smarriage-settlement。Youunderstandnow,MrHartright,whyIspeakofwaitingtotakelegaladviceuntiltomorrow?

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