第50章
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  Thisadvice,besidesbeingobviouslysensible,wouldendinsavingErnestbothtimeandsuspenseofmind,sowehadnohesitationinadoptingit。Thecasewascalledonabouteleveno’clock,butwegotitadjournedtillthree,soastogivetimeforErnesttosethisaffairsasstraightashecould,andtoexecuteapowerofattorneyenablingmetoactforhimasIshouldthinkfitwhilehewasinprison。

  ThenallcameoutaboutPryerandtheCollegeofSpiritualPathology。ErnesthadevengreaterdifficultyinmakingacleanbreastofthisthanhehadhadintellingusaboutMissMaitland,buthetoldusall,andtheupshotwasthathehadactuallyhandedovertoPryereveryhalfpennythathethenpossessedwithnoothersecuritythanPryer’sI。O。U。’sfortheamount。Ernest,thoughstilldecliningtobelievethatPryercouldbeguiltyofdishonourableconduct,wasbecomingalivetothefollyofwhathehadbeendoing;

  hestillmadesure,however,ofrecovering,atanyrate,thegreaterpartofhispropertyassoonasPryershouldhavehadtimetosell。

  TowneleyandIwereofadifferentopinion,butwedidnotsaywhatwethought。

  Itwasdrearyworkwaitingallthemorningamidsuchunfamiliaranddepressingsurroundings。IthoughthowthePsalmisthadexclaimedwithquietirony,“Onedayinthycourtsisbetterthanathousand。”

  andIthoughtthatIcouldutteraverysimilarsentimentinrespectoftheCourtsinwhichTowneleyandIwerecompelledtoloiter。Atlast,aboutthreeo’clockthecasewascalledon,andwewentroundtothepartofthecourtwhichisreservedforthegeneralpublic,whileErnestwastakenintotheprisoner’sdock。Assoonashehadcollectedhimselfsufficientlyherecognisedthemagistrateastheoldgentlemanwhohadspokentohiminthetrainonthedayhewasleavingschool,andsaw,orthoughthesaw,tohisgreatgrief,thathetoowasrecognised。

  MrOttery,forthiswasourattorney’sname,tookthelinehehadproposed。Hecallednootherwitnessesthantherector,Towneleyandmyself,andthrewhimselfonthemercyofthemagistrate。Whenhehadconcluded,themagistratespokeasfollows:“ErnestPontifex,yoursisoneofthemostpainfulcasesthatIhaveeverhadtodealwith。Youhavebeensingularlyfavouredinyourparentageandeducation。Youhavehadbeforeyoutheexampleofblamelessparents,whodoubtlessinstilledintoyoufromchildhoodtheenormityoftheoffencewhichbyyourownconfessionyouhavecommitted。YouweresenttooneofthebestpublicschoolsinEngland。ItisnotlikelythatinthehealthyatmosphereofsuchaschoolasRoughboroughyoucanhavecomeacrosscontaminatinginfluences;youwereprobably,Imaysaycertainly,impressedatschoolwiththeheinousnessofanyattempttodepartfromthestrictestchastityuntilsuchtimeasyouhadenteredintoastateofmatrimony。AtCambridgeyouwereshieldedfromimpuritybyeveryobstaclewhichvirtuousandvigilantauthoritiescoulddevise,andevenhadtheobstaclesbeenfewer,yourparentsprobablytookcarethatyourmeansshouldnotadmitofyourthrowingmoneyawayuponabandonedcharacters。Atnightproctorspatrolledthestreetanddoggedyourstepsifyoutriedtogointoanyhauntwherethepresenceofvicewassuspected。Bydaythefemaleswhowereadmittedwithinthecollegewallswereselectedmainlyonthescoreofageandugliness。Itishardtoseewhatmorecanbedoneforanyyoungmanthanthis。Forthelastfourorfivemonthsyouhavebeenaclergyman,andifasingleimpurethoughthadstillremainedwithinyourmind,ordinationshouldhaveremovedit:nevertheless,notonlydoesitappearthatyourmindisasimpureasthoughnoneoftheinfluencestowhichIhavereferredhadbeenbroughttobearuponit,butitseemsasthoughtheironlyresulthadbeenthis——

  thatyouhavenoteventhecommonsensetobeabletodistinguishbetweenarespectablegirlandaprostitute。

  “IfIweretotakeastrictviewofmydutyIshouldcommityoufortrial,butinconsiderationofthisbeingyourfirstoffence,I

  shalldeallenientlywithyouandsentenceyoutoimprisonmentwithhardlabourforsixcalendarmonths。”

  TowneleyandIboththoughttherewasatouchofironyinthemagistrate’sspeech,andthathecouldhavegivenalightersentenceifhewould,butthatwasneitherherenorthere。WeobtainedleavetoseeErnestforafewminutesbeforehewasremovedtoColdbathFields,wherehewastoservehisterm,andfoundhimsothankfultohavebeensummarilydealtwiththathehardlyseemedtocareaboutthemiserableplightinwhichhewastopassthenextsixmonths。

  Whenhecameout,hesaid,hewouldtakewhatremainedofhismoney,goofftoAmericaorAustraliaandneverbeheardofmore。

  Welefthimfullofthisresolve,I,towritetoTheobald,andalsotoinstructmysolicitortogetErnest’smoneyoutofPryer’shands,andTowneleytoseethereportersandkeepthecaseoutofthenewspapers。Hewassuccessfulasregardsallthehigher-classpapers。Therewasonlyonejournal,andthatofthelowestclass,whichwasincorruptible。

  Isawmysolicitoratonce,butwhenItriedtowritetoTheobald,I

  founditbettertosayIwouldrundownandseehim。Ithereforeproposedthis,askinghimtomeetmeatthestation,andhintingthatImustbringbadnewsabouthisson。IknewhewouldnotgetmylettermorethanacoupleofhoursbeforeIshouldseehim,andthoughttheshortintervalofsuspensemightbreaktheshockofwhatIhadtosay。

  NeverdoIremembertohavehaltedmorebetweentwoopinionsthanonmyjourneytoBattersbyuponthisunhappyerrand。WhenIthoughtofthelittlesallow-facedladwhomIhadrememberedyearsbefore,ofthelongandsavagecrueltywithwhichhehadbeentreatedinchildhood——crueltynonethelessrealforhavingbeenduetoignoranceandstupidityratherthantodeliberatemalice;oftheatmosphereoflyingandself-laudatoryhallucinationinwhichhehadbeenbroughtup;ofthereadinesstheboyhadshowntoloveanythingthatwouldbegoodenoughtolethim,andofhowaffectionforhisparents,unlessIammuchmistaken,hadonlydiedinhimbecauseithadbeenkilledanew,againandagainandagain,eachtimethatithadtriedtospring。WhenIthoughtofallthisIfeltasthough,ifthematterhadrestedwithme,IwouldhavesentencedTheobaldandChristinatomentalsufferingevenmoreseverethanthatwhichwasabouttofalluponthem。Butontheotherhand,whenIthoughtofTheobald’sownchildhood,ofthatdreadfuloldGeorgePontifexhisfather,ofJohnandMrsJohn,andofhistwosisters,whenagainIthoughtofChristina’slongyearsofhopedeferredthatmakeththeheartsick,beforeshewasmarried,ofthelifeshemusthaveledatCrampsford,andofthesurroundingsinthemidstofwhichsheandherhusbandbothlivedatBattersby,Ifeltasthoughthewonderwasthatmisfortunessopersistenthadnotbeenfollowedbyevengraverretribution。

  Poorpeople!Theyhadtriedtokeeptheirignoranceoftheworldfromthemselvesbycallingitthepursuitofheavenlythings,andthenshuttingtheireyestoanythingthatmightgivethemtrouble。

  Asonhavingbeenborntothemtheyhadshuthiseyesalsoasfaraswaspracticable。Whocouldblamethem?Theyhadchapterandverseforeverythingtheyhadeitherdoneorleftundone;thereisnobetterthumbedprecedentthanthatforbeingaclergymanandaclergyman’swife。Inwhatrespecthadtheydifferedfromtheirneighbours?HowdidtheirhouseholddifferfromthatofanyotherclergymanofthebettersortfromoneendofEnglandtotheother?

  Whythenshouldithavebeenuponthem,ofallpeopleintheworld,thatthistowerofSiloamhadfallen?

  SurelyitwasthetowerofSiloamthatwasnaughtratherthanthosewhostoodunderit;itwasthesystemratherthanthepeoplethatwasatfault。IfTheobaldandhiswifehadbutknownmoreoftheworldandofthethingsthataretherein,theywouldhavedonelittleharmtoanyone。Selfishtheywouldhavealwaysbeen,butnotmoresothanmayverywellbepardoned,andnotmorethanotherpeoplewouldbe。Asitwas,thecasewashopeless;itwouldbenousetheirevenenteringintotheirmothers’wombsandbeingbornagain。Theymustnotonlybebornagainbuttheymustbebornagaineachoneofthemofanewfatherandofanewmotherandofadifferentlineofancestryformanygenerationsbeforetheirmindscouldbecomesuppleenoughtolearnanew。Theonlythingtodowiththemwastohumourthemandmakethebestofthemtilltheydied——

  andbethankfulwhentheydidso。

  TheobaldgotmyletterasIhadexpected,andmetmeatthestationnearesttoBattersby。AsIwalkedbackwithhimtowardshisownhouseIbrokethenewstohimasgentlyasIcould。Ipretendedthatthewholethingwasingreatmeasureamistake,andthatthoughErnestnodoubthadhadintentionswhichheoughttohaveresisted,hehadnotmeantgoinganythinglikethelengthwhichMissMaitlandsupposed。Isaidwehadfelthowmuchappearanceswereagainsthim,andhadnotdaredtosetupthisdefencebeforethemagistrate,thoughwehadnodoubtaboutitsbeingthetrueone。

  TheobaldactedwithareadierandacutermoralsensethanIhadgivenhimcreditfor。

  “Iwillhavenothingmoretodowithhim。”heexclaimedpromptly,“I

  willneverseehisfaceagain;donotlethimwriteeithertomeortohismother;weknowofnosuchperson。Tellhimyouhaveseenme,andthatfromthisdayforwardIshallputhimoutofmymindasthoughhehadneverbeenborn。Ihavebeenagoodfathertohim,andhismotheridolisedhim;selfishnessandingratitudehavebeentheonlyreturnwehaveeverhadfromhim;myhopehenceforthmustbeinmyremainingchildren。”

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