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  Mr。Fisher,saidDr。Middleton,astoyou,Ishallnotpunishyou。I

  havenohopeofmakingyoueitherwiserorbetter。Doyouknowthispaper?——thepaperappearedtobeabillforcandlesandatinder-box。

  Idesiredhimtobuythosethings,sir,saidArcher,colouring。

  Anddidyoudesirehimnottopayforthem?

  No,saidArcher,hehadhalfacrownonpurposetopayforthem。

  Iknowhehad,buthechosetoapplyittohisprivateuse,andgaveittothegipsytobuytwelvebunsforhisowneating。Toobtaincreditforthetinder-boxandcandles,hemadeuseofTHISname,saidhe,turningtotheothersideofthebill,andpointingtoDeGrey’sname,whichwaswrittenattheendofacopyofoneofDeGrey’sexercises。

  Iassureyou,sir——criedArcher。

  Youneednotassureme,sir,saidDr。Middleton。Icannotsuspectaboyofyourtemperofhavinganypartinsobaseanaction。WhenthepeopleintheshoprefusedtoletMr。Fisherhavethethingswithoutpayingforthem,hemadeuseofDeGrey’sname,whowasknownthere。

  Suspectingsomemischief,however,fromthepurchaseofthetinder-box,theshopkeeperinformedmeofthecircumstance。NothinginthiswholebusinessgavemehalfsomuchpainasIfelt,foramoment,whenI

  suspectedthatDeGreywasconcernedinit。Aloudcry,inwhichArcher’svoicewasheardmostdistinctly,declaredDeGrey’sinnocence。

  Dr。Middletonlookedroundattheireager,honestfaces,withbenevolentapprobation。Archer,saidhe,takinghimbythehand,Iamheartilygladtoseethatyouhavegotthebetterofyourpartyspirit。Iwishyoumaykeepsuchafriendasyouhavenowbesideyou。onesuchfriendisworthtwosuchparties。Asforyou,Mr。Fisher,depart。youmustneverreturnhitheragain。InvainhesolicitedArcherandDeGreytointercedeforhim。Everybodyturnedawaywithcontempt。andhesneakedout,whimperinginadolefulvoice,WhatshallIsaytomyAuntBarbara?

  THEBRACELETS。

  InabeautifulandretiredpartofEnglandlivedMrs。Villars,aladywhoseaccurateunderstanding,benevolentheart,andsteadytemperpeculiarlyfittedherforthemostdifficult,aswellasmostimportant,ofalloccupations——theeducationofyouth。Thistaskshehadundertaken。andtwentyyoungpersonswereputunderhercare,withtheperfectconfidenceoftheirparents。Noyoungpeoplecouldbehappier。

  theyweregoodandgay,emulous,butnotenviousofeachother。forMrs。

  Villarswasimpartiallyjust。herpraisetheyfelttobetherewardofmerit,andherblametheyknewtobethenecessaryconsequenceofill-

  conduct。Totheone,therefore,theypatientlysubmitted,andintheotherconsciouslyrejoiced。Theyrosewithfreshcheerfulnessinthemorning,eagertopursuetheirvariousoccupations。Theyreturnedintheeveningwithrenewedardourtotheiramusements,andretiredtorestsatisfiedwiththemselvesandpleasedwitheachother。

  Nothingsomuchcontributedtopreserveaspiritofemulationinthislittlesocietyasasmallhonorarydistinction,givenannually,asaprizeofsuccessfulapplication。Theprizethisyearwaspeculiarlydeartoeachindividual,asitwasthepictureofafriendwhomtheydearlyloved。ItwasthepictureofMrs。Villarsinasmallbracelet。Itwantedneithergold,pearlsnorpreciousstonestogiveitvalue。

  ThetwoforemostcandidatesforthisprizewereCeciliaandLeonora。

  CeciliawasthemostintimatefriendofLeonora。butLeonorawasonlythefavouritecompanionofCecilia。

  Ceciliawasofanactive,ambitious,enterprisingdisposition,moreeagerinthepursuitthanhappyintheenjoymentofherwishes。Leonorawasofacontented,unaspiringtemperatecharacter。noteasilyrousedtoaction,butindefatigablewhenonceexcited。Leonorawasproud。Ceciliawasvain。Hervanitymadehermoredependentupontheapprobationofothers,andthereforemoreanxioustopleasethanLeonora。butthatveryvanitymadeher,atthesametime,moreapttooffend。Inshort,Leonorawasthemostanxioustoavoidwhatwaswrong。Cecilia,themostambitioustodowhatwasright。Fewofhercompanionsloved,butmanywereledbyCecilia,forshewasoftensuccessful。ManylovedLeonora,butnonewereevergovernedbyher,forshewastooindolenttogovern。

  OnthefirstdayofMay,aboutsixo’clockintheevening,agreatbellrang,tosummonthislittlesocietyintoahall,wheretheprizewastobedecided。Anumberofsmalltableswereplacedinacircleinthemiddleofthehall。Seatsfortheyoungcompetitorswereraisedoneaboveanother,inasemicircle,someyardsdistantfromthetable,andthejudges’chairs,undercanopiesoflilacsandlaburnums,forminganothersemicircle,closedtheamphitheatre。

  Everyoneputtheirwritings,theirdrawings,theirworksofvariouskindsuponthetablesappropriatedforeach。Howunsteadywerethelaststepstothesetables!Howeachlittlehandtrembledasitlaiddownitsclaims!Tillthismomenteveryonethoughtherselfsecureofsuccess。andtheheart,whichexultedwithhope,nowpalpitatedwithfear。

  Theworkswereexamined,thepreferenceadjudged,andtheprizewasdeclaredtobethehappyCecilia’s。Mrs。Villarscameforward,smiling,withthebraceletinherhand。Ceciliawasbehindhercompanions,onthehighestrow。Alltheothersgaveway,andshewasonthefloorinaninstant。Mrs。Villarsclaspedthebraceletonherarm。theclaspwasheardthroughthewholehall,andauniversalsmileofcongratulationfollowed。Mrs。VillarskissedCecilia’slittlehand。Andnow,saidshe,goandrejoicewithyourcompanions。theremainderofthedayisyours。

  Oh!youwhoseheartsareelatedwithsuccess,whosebosomsbeathighwithjoyinthemomentoftriumph,commandyourselves。Letthattriumphbemoderate,thatitmaybelasting。Consider,thatthoughyouaregood,youmaybebetter。and,thoughwise,youmaybeweak。

  AssoonasMrs。Villarshadgivenherthebracelet,allCecilia’slittlecompanionscrowdedroundher,andtheyallleftthehallinaninstant。

  Shewasfullofspiritsandvanity。Sheranon。Runningdowntheflightofstepswhichledtothegarden,inherviolenthaste,CeciliathrewdownthelittleLouisa,whohadachinamandarininherhand,whichhermotherhadsentherthatverymorning,andwhichwasallbrokentopiecesbyherfall。

  Oh,mymandarin!criedLouisa,burstingintotears。ThecrowdbehindCeciliasuddenlystopped。Louisasatontheloweststep,fixinghereyesuponthebrokenpieces。Then,turninground,shehidherfaceinherhandsuponthestepaboveher。Inturning,Louisathrewdowntheremainsofthemandarin。Thehead,whichsheplacedinthesocket,fellfromtheshoulders,androlled,boundingalongthegravelwalk。Ceciliapointedtotheheadandtothesocket,andburstintolaughter。Thecrowdbehindlaughed,too。

  AtanyothertimetheywouldhavebeenmoreinclinedtocrywithLouisa。

  butCeciliahadjustbeensuccessful,andsympathywiththevictoriousoftenmakesusforgetjustice。

  Leonora,however,preservedherusualconsistency。PoorLouisa!saidshe,lookingfirstather,andthenreproachfullyatCecilia。Ceciliaturnedsharplyround,colouring,halfwithshameandhalfwithvexation。

  Icouldnothelpit,Leonora,saidshe。

  Butyoucouldhavehelpedlaughing,Cecilia。

  Ididn’tlaughatLouisa。andIsurelymaylaugh,foritdoesnobodyanyharm。

  Iamsure,however,repliedLeonora,IshouldnothavelaughedifI

  had——

  No,tobesure,youwouldn’t,becauseLouisaisyourfavourite。Icanbuyheranothermandarinwhentheoldpeddlercomestothedoor,ifthat’sall。ICANdonomore,CANI?saidshe,againturningroundtohercompanions。No,tobesure,saidthey。that’sallfair。

  CecilialookedtriumphantlyatLeonora。Leonoraletgoherhand。sheranon,andthecrowdfollowed。Whenshegottotheendofthegarden,sheturnedroundtoseeifLeonorahadfollowedher,too。butwasvexedtoseeherstillsittingonthestepswithLouisa。I’msureIcandonomorethanbuyheranother,CANI!saidshe,againappealingtohercompanions。No,tobesure,saidthey,eagertobegintheirplay。

  Howmanygamesdidthesejuvenileplaymatesbeginandleaveoff,beforeCeciliacouldbesatisfiedwithany!Herthoughtswerediscomposed,andhermindwasrunninguponsomethingelse。Nowonder,then,thatshedidnotplaywithherusualaddress。Shegrewstillmoreimpatient。Shethrewdowntheninepins。Come,letusplayatsomethingelse——atthreadingtheneedle,saidshe,holdingoutherhand。Theyallyieldedtothehandwhichworethebracelet。ButCecilia,dissatisfiedwithherself,wasdiscontentedwitheverybodyelse。Hertonegrewmoreandmoreperemptory。Onewastoorude,anothertoostiff。onetooslow,anothertooquick。inshorteverythingwentwrong,andeverybodywastiredofherhumours。

  ThetriumphofSUCCESSisabsolute,butshort。Cecilia’scompanionsatlengthrecollectedthatthoughshehadembroideredatulip,andpaintedapeach,betterthanthey,yetthattheycouldplayaswell,andkeeptheirtempersbetter。forshewasdiscomposed。

  Walkingtowardsthehouseinapeevishmood,CeciliametLeonora,butpassedon。Cecilia!criedLeonora。

  Well,whatdoyouwantwithme?

  Arewefriends?

  Youknowbest,saidCecilia。

  Weare,ifyouwillletmetellLouisathatyouaresorry——

  Cecilia,interruptingher,Oh,prayletmehearnomoreaboutLouisa!

  What!notconfessthatyouwereinthewrong?Oh,Cecilia!Ihadabetteropinionofyou。

  Youropinionisofnoconsequencetomenow,foryoudon’tloveme。

  No。notwhenyouareunjust,Cecilia。

  Unjust!Iamnotunjust。andifIwere,youarenotmygoverness。

  No,butamnotIyourfriend?

  Idon’tdesiretohavesuchafriend,whowouldquarrelwithmeforhappeningtothrowdownlittleLouisa。HowcouldItellthatshehadamandarininherhand?andwhenitwasbroken,couldIdomorethanpromiseheranother。wasthatunjust?

  Butyouknow,Cecilia——

  IKNOW,ironically。Iknow,Leonora,thatyouloveLouisabetterthanyouloveme。that’stheinjustice!

  IfIdid,repliedLeonora,gravely,itwouldbenoinjustice,ifshedeserveditbetter。

  HowcanyoucompareLouisatome!exclaimedCecilia,indignantly。

  Leonoramadenoanswer。forshewasreallyhurtatherfriend’sconduct。

  Shewalkedontojointherestofhercompanions。Theyweredancinginarounduponthegrass。Leonoradeclineddancing。buttheyprevaileduponhertosingforthem。Hervoicewasnotsosprightly,butitwassweeterthanusual。WhosangsosweetlyasLeonora?orwhodancedsonimblyasLouisa?Awayshewasflying,allspiritsandgaiety,whenLeonora’seyesfulloftears,caughthers。Louisasilentlyletgohercompanion’shand,and,quittingthedance,ranuptoLeonoratoinquirewhatwasthematterwithher。Nothing,repliedshe,thatneedinterruptyou。Go,mydear。goanddanceagain。

  Louisaimmediatelyranawaytohergarden,andpullingoffherlittlestrawhat,shelineditwiththefresheststrawberry-leaves,andwasuponherkneesbeforethestrawberry-bedwhenCeciliacameby。CeciliawasnotdisposedtobepleasedwithLouisaatthatinstant,fortworeasons。

  becauseshewasjealousofher,andbecauseshehadinjuredher。Theinjury,however,Louisahadalreadyforgotten。Perhapstotellthingsjustastheywere,shewasnotquitesomuchinclinedtokissCeciliaasshewouldhavebeenbeforethefallofhermandarin。butthiswastheutmostextentofhermalice,ifitcanbecalledmalice。

  Whatareyoudoingthere,littleone?saidCecilia,inasharptone。

  Areyoueatingyourearlystrawberrieshereallalone?

  No,saidLouisa,mysteriously,Iamnoteatingthem。

  Whatareyoudoingwiththem?can’tyouanswer,then?I’mnotplayingwithyou,child!

  Oh,astothat,Cecilia,youknowIneednotansweryouunlessIchooseit。notbutwhatIwouldifyouwouldonlyaskmecivilly,andifyouwouldnotcallmeCHILD。

  WhyshouldnotIcallyouchild?

  Because——because——Idon’tknow。butIwishyouwouldstandoutofmylight,Cecilia,foryouaretramplinguponallmystrawberries。

  Ihavenottouchedone,youcovetouslittlecreature!

  Indeed——indeed,Cecilia,Iamnotcovetous。Ihavenoteatenoneofthem。theyareallforyourfriendLeonora。Seehowunjustyouare!

  Unjust!that’sacantwordwhichyoulearntofmyfriendLeonora,asyoucallher。butsheisnotmyfriendnow。

  Notyourfriendnow!exclaimedLouisa。thenIamsureyoumusthavedonesomethingVERYnaughty。

  How?criedCecilia,catchingholdofher。

  Letmego,letmego!criedLouisa,struggling。Iwon’tgiveyouoneofmystrawberries,forIdon’tlikeyouatall!

  Youdon’t,don’tyou?criedCecilia,provoked,and,catchingthehatfromLouisa,sheflungthestrawberriesoverthehedge。

  Willnobodyhelpme?exclaimedLouisa,snatchingherhatagain,andrunningawaywithallherforce。

  WhathaveIdone?saidCecilia,recollectingherself。Louisa!Louisa!

  shecalledveryloud,butLouisawouldnotturnback。shewasrunningtohercompanions,whowerestilldancing,handinhand,uponthegrass,whilstLeonora,sittinginthemiddle,wassingingtothem。

  Stop!stop!andhearme!criedLouisa,breakingthroughthem。and,rushinguptoLeonora,shethrewherhatatherfeet,andpantingforbreath——Itwasfull——almostfullofmyownstrawberries,saidshe,thefirstIevergotoutofmygarden。Theyshouldallhavebeenforyou,Leonora。butnowIhavenotoneleft。Theyareallgone!saidshe。andshehidherfaceinLeonora’slap。

  Gone!gonewhere?saideveryone,atoncerunninguptoher。

  Cecilia!Cecilia!saidshe,sobbing。

  Cecilia,repeatedLeonora,whatofCecilia?

  Yes,itwas——itwas。

  Comewithme,saidLeonora,unwillingtohaveherfriendexposed。

  Come,andIwillgetyousomemorestrawberries。

  Oh,Idon’tmindthestrawberries,indeed。butIwantedtohavehadthepleasureofgivingthemtoyou。

  Leonoratookherupinherarmstocarryheraway,butitwastoolate。

  What,Cecilia!Cecilia,whowontheprize!ItcouldnotsurelybeCecilia,whisperedeverybusytongue。

  Atthisinstantthebellsummonedthemin。Theresheis!Theresheis!criedthey,pointingtoanarbour,whereCeciliawasstandingashamedandalone。and,astheypassedher,somelifteduptheirhandsandeyeswithastonishment,otherswhisperedandhuddledmysteriouslytogether,asiftoavoidher。Leonorawalkedon,herheadalittlehigherthanusual。

  Leonora!saidCecilia,timorously,asshepassed。

  Oh,Cecilia!whowouldhavethoughtthatyouhadabadheart?Ceciliaturnedherheadasideandburstintotears。

  Oh,no,indeed,shehasnotabadheart!criedLouisa,runninguptoherandthrowingherarmsaroundherneck。She’sverysorry。arenotyou,Cecilia?Butdon’tcryanymore,forIforgiveyou,withallmyheart——andIloveyounow,thoughIsaidIdidnotwhenIwasinapassion。

  Oh,yousweet-temperedgirl!howIloveyou!saidCecilia,kissingher。

  Well,then,ifyoudo,comealongwithme,anddryyoureyes,fortheyaresored!

  Go,mydear,andI’llcomepresently。

  ThenIwillkeepaplaceforyou,nexttome。butyoumustmakehaste,oryouwillhavetocomeinwhenwehaveallsatdowntosupper,andthenyouwillbesostaredat!Sodon’tstay,now。

  CeciliafollowedLouisawithhereyestillshewasoutofsight。AndisLouisa,saidshe,toherself,theonlyonewhowouldstoptopityme?

  Mrs。Villarstoldmethatthisdayshouldbemine。Shelittlethoughthowitwouldend!

  Sayingthesewords,Ceciliathrewherselfdownupontheground。herarmleaneduponaheapofturfwhichshehadraisedinthemorning,andwhich,intheprideandgaietyofherheart,shehadcalledherthrone。

  Atthisinstant,Mrs。Villarscameouttoenjoytheserenityoftheevening,and,passingbythearbourwhereCecilialay,shestarted。

  Ceciliarosehastily。

  Whoisthere?saidMrs。Villars。

  ItisI,madam。

  Andwhois_I_?

  Cecilia。

  Why,whatkeepsyouhere,mydear?Whereareyourcompanions?Thisis,perhaps,oneofthehappiestdaysofyourlife。

  Oh,no,madam,saidCecilia,hardlyabletorepresshertears。

  Why,mydear,whatisthematter?Ceciliahesitated。Speak,mydear。

  YouknowthatwhenIaskyoutotellmeanythingasyourfriend,Ineverpunishyouasyourgoverness。thereforeyouneednotbeafraidtotellmewhatisthematter。

  No,madam,Iamnotafraid,butashamed。YouaskedmewhyIwasnotwithmycompanions。Why,madam,becausetheyhaveallleftme,and——

  Andwhat,mydear?

  AndIseethattheyalldislikeme。andyetIdon’tknowwhytheyshould,forItakeasmuchpainstopleaseasanyofthem。Allmymastersseemsatisfiedwithme。andyouyourself,madam,werepleasedthisverymorningtogivemethisbracelet。andIamsureyouwouldnothavegivenittoanyonewhodidnotdeserveit。

  Certainlynot,saidMrs。Villars。Youwelldeserveitforyourapplication——foryoursuccessfulapplication。Theprizewasforthemostassiduous,notforthemostamiable。

  Then,ifithadbeenforthemostamiable,itwouldnothavebeenforme?

  Mrs。Villars,smiling,——Why,whatdoyouthinkyourself,Cecilia?YouarebetterabletojudgethanIam。IcandeterminewhetherornoyouapplytowhatIgiveyoutolearn。whetheryouattendtowhatIdesireyoutodo,andavoidwhatIdesireyounottodo。IknowthatIlikeyouasapupil,butIcannotknowthatIshouldlikeyouasacompanion,unlessIwereyourcompanion。ThereforeImustjudgeofwhatIshoulddo,byseeingwhatothersdointhesamecircumstances。

  Oh,praydon’t,madam!forthenyouwouldnotlovemeeither。AndyetI

  thinkyouwouldloveme。forIhopethatIamasreadytooblige,andasgood-naturedas——

  Yes,Cecilia,Idon’tdoubtbutthatyouwouldbeverygoodnaturedtome。butI’mafraidthatIshouldnotlikeyouunlessyouweregood-

  tempered,too。

  But,madam,bygood-naturedImeangood-tempered——it’sallthesamething。

  No,indeed,Iunderstandbythemtwoverydifferentthings。Youaregood-natured,Cecilia。foryouaredesiroustoobligeandserveyourcompanions——togainthempraise,andsavethemfromblame——togivethempleasure,andrelievethemfrompain。butLeonoraisgood-tempered,forshecanbearwiththeirfoibles,andacknowledgeherown。Withoutdisputingabouttheright,shesometimesyieldstothosewhoareinthewrong。Inshort,hertemperisperfectlygood。foritcanbearandforbear。

  Iwishthatminecould!saidCecilia,sighing。

  Itmay,repliedMrs。Villars。butitisnotwishesalonewhichcanimproveusinanything。Turnthesameexertionandperseverancewhichhavewonyoutheprizeto-daytothisobject,andyouwillmeetwiththesamesuccess。perhapsnotonthefirst,thesecond,orthethirdattempt。

  butdependuponitthatyouwillatlast。Everyneweffortwillweakenyourbadhabits,andstrengthenyourgoodones。Butyoumustnotexpecttosucceedallatonce。Irepeatittoyou,forhabitmustbecounteractedbyhabit。Itwouldbeasextravagantinustoexpectthatallourfaultscouldbedestroyedbyonepunishment,wereiteversosevere,asitwasintheRomanemperorwewerereadingofafewdaysago,towishthatalltheheadsofhisenemieswereupononeneck,thathemightcutthemoffatoneblow。

  HereMrs。VillarstookCeciliabythehand,andtheybegantowalkhome。

  SuchwasthenatureofCecilia’smind,thatwhenanyobjectwasforciblyimpressedonherimagination,itcausedatemporarysuspensionofherreasoningfaculties。Hopewastoostrongastimulusforherspirits。andwhenfeardidtakepossessionofhermind,itwasattendedwithtotaldebility。Hervanitywasnowasmuchmortifiedasinthemorningithadbeenelated。ShewalkedonwithMrs。Villarsinsilence,untiltheycameundertheshadeoftheelm-treewalk,andthere,fixinghereyesuponMrs。Villars,shestoppedshort。

  Doyouthink,madam,saidshe,withhesitation——doyouthink,madam,thatIhaveabadheart?

  Abadheart,——mydear!why,whatputthatintoyourhead?

  LeonorasaidthatIhad,madam,andIfeltashamedwhenshesaidso。

  But,mydear,howcanLeonoratellwhetheryourheartbegoodorbad?

  However,inthefirstplace,tellmewhatyoumeanbyabadheart。

  IndeedIdonotknowwhatismeantbyit,madam。butitissomethingwhicheverybodyhates。

  Andwhydotheyhateit?

  Becausetheythinkthatitwillhurtthem,ma’am,Ibelieve:andthatthosewhohavebadheartstakedelightindoingmischief。andthattheyneverdoanybodyanygoodbutfortheirownends。

  Thenthebestdefinition,saidMrs。Villars,whichyoucangivemeofabadheartis,thatitissomeconstantpropensitytohurtothers,andtodowrongforthesakeofdoingwrong。

  Yes,madam。butthatisnotalleither。Thereisstillsomethingelsemeant。somethingwhichIcannotexpress——which,indeed,Ineverdistinctlyunderstood。butofwhich,therefore,Iwasthemoreafraid。

  Well,then,tobeginwithwhatyoudounderstand,tellme,Cecilia,doyoureallythinkitpossibletobewickedmerelyfortheloveofwickedness?Nohumanbeingbecomeswickedallatonce。Amanbeginsbydoingwrongbecauseitis,orbecausehethinksit,forhisinterest。Ifhecontinuetodoso,hemustconquerhissenseofshameandlosehisloveofvirtue。Buthowcanyou,Cecilia,whofeelsuchastrongsenseofshame,andsuchaneagerdesiretoimprove,imaginethatyouhaveabadheart?

  Indeed,madam,Ineverdid,untileverybodytoldmeso,andthenIbegantobefrightenedaboutit。Thisveryevening,madam,whenIwasinapassion,IthrewlittleLouisa’sstrawberriesaway,which,Iamsure,I

  wasverysorryforafterwards。andLeonoraandeverybodycriedoutthatI

  hadabadheart——butIamsureIwasonlyinapassion。

  Verylikely。Andwhenyouareinapassion,asyoucallit,Cecilia,youseethatyouaretemptedtodoharmtoothers。Iftheydonotfeelangrythemselves,theydonotsympathizewithyou。Theydonotperceivethemotivewhichactuatesyou。andthentheysaythatyouhaveabadheart。Idaresay,however,whenyourpassionisover,andwhenyourecollectyourself,youareverysorryforwhatyouhavedoneandsaid。

  arenotyou?

  Yes,indeed,madam——verysorry。

  Thenmakethatsorryofusetoyou,Cecilia,andfixitsteadilyinyourthoughts,asyouhopetobegoodandhappy,thatifyousufferyourselftoyieldtoyourpassionuponeveryoccasion,angeranditsconsequenceswillbecomefamiliartoyourmind。and,inthesameproportion,yoursenseofshamewillbeweakened,tillwhatyoubeganwithdoingfromsuddenimpulseyouwillendwithdoingfromhabitandchoice:thenyouwould,indeed,accordingtoourdefinition,haveabadheart。

  Oh,madam!Ihope——IamsureInevershall。

  No,indeed,Cecilia。Ido,indeed,believethatyouneverwill。onthecontrary,Ithinkthatyouhaveaverygooddisposition,andwhatisofinfinitelymoreconsequencetoyou,anactivedesireofimprovement。

  Showmethatyouhaveasmuchperseveranceasyouhavecandour,andI

  shallnotdespairofyourbecomingeverythingthatIcouldwish。

  HereCecilia’scountenancebrightened,andsheranupthestepsinalmostashighspiritsassherandowntheminthemorning。

  Good-nighttoyou,Cecilia,saidMrs。Villars,asshewascrossingthehall。Good-nighttoyou,madam,saidCecilia。andsheranupstairstobed。Shecouldnotgotosleep。butshelayawake,reflectingupontheeventsoftheprecedingday,andformingresolutionsforthefuture,atthesametimethatshehadresolved,andresolvedwithouteffect,shewishedtogivehermindsomemorepowerfulmotive。Ambitionsheknewtobeitsmostpowerfulincentive。HaveInot,saidshetoherself,alreadywontheprizeofapplication,andcannotthesameapplicationprocuremeamuchhigherprize?Mrs。Villarssaidthatiftheprizehadbeenpromisedtothemostamiable,itwouldnothavebeengiventome。

  Perhapsitwouldnotyesterday,perhapsitmightnotto-morrow。butthatisnoreasonthatIshoulddespairofeverdeservingit……

  Inconsequenceofthisreasoning,Ceciliaformedadesignofproposingtohercompanionsthattheyshouldgiveaprize,thefirstoftheensuingmonththelstofJune,tothemostamiable。Mrs。Villarsapplaudedthescheme,andhercompanionsadopteditwiththegreatestalacrity。

  Lettheprize,saidthey,beabraceletofourownhair。andinstantlytheirshiningscissorswereproduced,andeachcontributedalockoftheirhair。Theyformedthemostbeautifulgradationofcolours,fromthepalestauburntothebrightestblack。Whowastohavethehonourofplaitingthem?wasnowthequestion。Carolinebeggedthatshemight,asshecouldplaitveryneatly,shesaid。Cecilia,however,wasequallysurethatshecoulddoitmuchbetter。andadisputewouldhaveinevitablyensued,ifCecilia,recollectingherselfjustashercolourrosetoscarlet,hadnotyielded——yielded,withnoverygoodgraceindeed,butaswellascouldbeexpectedforthefirsttime。Foritishabitwhichconfersease。andwithoutease,eveninmoralactions,therecanbenograce。

  ThebraceletwasplaitedintheneatestmannerbyCaroline,finishedroundtheedgewithsilvertwist,andonitwasworked,inthesmallestsilverletters,thismotto,TOTHEMOSTAMIABLE。Themomentitwascompleted,everybodybeggedtotryiton。Itfastenedwithlittlesilverclasps,andasitwasmadelargeenoughfortheeldestgirls,itwastoolargefortheyoungest。Ofthistheybitterlycomplained,andunanimouslyentreatedthatitmightbecuttofitthem。

  Howfoolish!exclaimedCecilia。don’tyouperceivethatifanyofyouwinit,youhavenothingtodobuttoputtheclipsalittlefurtherfromtheedge,butifwegetit,wecan’tmakeitlarger?

  Verytrue,saidthey。butyouneednottohavecalledusfoolish,Cecilia。

  ItwasbysuchhastyandunguardedexpressionsasthesethatCeciliaoffended。Aslightdifferenceinthemannermakesaverymaterialoneintheeffect。Cecilialostmorelovebygeneralpetulancethanshecouldgainbythegreatestparticularexertions。

  Howfarshesucceededincuringherselfofthisdefect——howfarshebecamedeservingofthebracelet,andtowhomthebraceletwasgiven——

  shallbetoldintheHistoryoftheFirstofJune——

  TheFirstofJunewasnowarrived,andalltheyoungcompetitorswereinastateofthemostanxioussuspense。LeonoraandCeciliacontinuedtobetheforemostcandidates。Theirquarrelhadneverbeenfinallyadjusted,andtheirdifferentpretensionsnowretardedallthoughtsofareconciliation。Cecilia,thoughshewascapableofacknowledginganyofherfaultsinpublicbeforeallhercompanions,couldnothumbleherselfinprivatetoLeonora。Leonorawasherequal。theywereherinferiors,andsubmissionismucheasiertoavainmind,whereitappearstobevoluntary,thanwhenitisthenecessarytributetojusticeorcandour。

  SostronglydidCeciliafeelthistruth,thatsheevendelayedmakinganyapology,orcomingtoanyexplanationwithLeonora,untilsuccessshouldoncemoregiveherthepalm。

  IfIwinthebracelet,to-day,saidshetoherself,IwillsolicitthereturnofLeonora’sfriendship。itwillbemorevaluabletomethaneventhebracelet,andatsuchatime,andaskedinsuchamanner,shesurelycannotrefuseittome。Animatedwiththishopeofadoubletriumph,Ceciliacanvassedwiththemostzealousactivity。Byconstantattentionandexertionshehadconsiderablyabatedtheviolenceofhertemper,andchangedthecourseofherhabits。Herpowersofpleasingwerenowexcited,insteadofherabilitiestoexcel。and,ifhertalentsappearedlessbrilliant,hercharacterwasacknowledgedtobemoreamiable。Sogreataninfluenceuponourmannersandconducthavetheobjectsofourambition。

  Ceciliawasnow,ifpossible,morethaneverdesirousofdoingwhatwasright,butshehadnotyetacquiredsufficientfearofdoingwrong。Thiswasthefundamentalerrorofhermind。itaroseinagreatmeasurefromherearlyeducation。Hermotherdiedwhenshewasveryyoung。andthoughherfatherhadsuppliedherplaceinthebestandkindestmanner,hehadinsensiblyinfusedintohisdaughter’smindaportionofthatenterprising,independentspiritwhichhejustlydeemedessentialtothecharacterofherbrother。ThisbrotherwassomeyearsolderthanCecilia,buthehadalwaysbeenthefavouritecompanionofheryouth。

  Whatherfather’spreceptsinculcated,hisexampleenforced。andevenCecilia’svirtuesconsequentlybecamesuchasweremoreestimableinamanthandesirableinafemale。Allsmallobjectsandsmallerrorsshehadbeentaughttodisregardastrifles。andherimpatientdispositionwasperpetuallyleadingherintomorematerialfaults。yethercandourinconfessingthese,shehadbeensufferedtobelieve,wassufficientreparationandatonement。

  Leonora,onthecontrary,whohadbeeneducatedbyhermotherinamannermoresuitedtohersex,hadacharacterandvirtuesmorepeculiartoafemale。Herjudgmenthadbeenearlycultivated,andhergoodsenseemployedintheregulationofherconduct。Shehadbeenhabituatedtothatrestraint,which,asawoman,shewastoexpectinlife,andearlyaccustomedtoyield。Complianceinherseemednaturalandgraceful。yetnotwithstandingthegentlenessofhertemper,shewasinrealitymoreindependentthanCecilia。Shehadmorerelianceuponherownjudgment,andmoresatisfactioninherownapprobation。Theuniformkindnessofhermanner,theconsistencyandequalityofhercharacter,hadfixedtheesteemandpassiveloveofhercompanions。

  Bypassivelovewemeanthatspeciesofaffectionwhichmakesusunwillingtooffendratherthananxioustooblige,whichismoreahabitthananemotionofthemind。ForCeciliahercompanionsfeltactivelove,forshewasactiveinshowingherlovetothem。

  Activelovearisesspontaneouslyinthemind,afterfeelingparticularinstancesofkindness,withoutreflectiononthepastconductorgeneralcharacter。Itexceedsthemeritsofitsobject,andisconnectedwithafeelingofgenerosity,ratherthanwithasenseofjustice。

  Withoutdeterminingwhichspeciesofloveisthemostflatteringtoothers,wecaneasilydecidewhichisthemostagreeablefeelingtoourminds。Wegiveourheartsmorecreditforbeinggenerousthanforbeingjust。andwefeelmoreself-complacencywhenwegiveourlovevoluntarily,thanwhenweyielditasatributewhichwecannotwithhold。

  ThoughCecilia’scompanionsmightnotknowallthisintheory,theyproveditinpractice。fortheylovedherinamuchhigherproportiontohermeritsthantheylovedLeonora。

  Eachoftheyoungjudgesweretosignifytheirchoicebyputtingaredorawhiteshellintoavasepreparedforthepurpose。Cecilia’scolourwasred,Leonora’swhite。

  Inthemorningnothingwastobeseenbuttheseshells。nothingtalkedofbutthelongexpectedeventoftheevening。Cecilia,followingLeonora’sexample,hadmadeitapointofhonournottoinquireofanyindividualhervote,previouslytotheirfinaldetermination。

  TheywerebothsittingtogetherinLouisa’sroom。Louisawasrecoveringfromthemeasles。Everyoneduringherillnesshadbeendesirousofattendingher。butLeonoraandCeciliaweretheonlytwothatwerepermittedtoseeher,astheyalonehadhadthedistemper。TheywerebothassiduousintheircareofLouisa,butLeonora’swantofexertiontoovercomeanydisagreeablefeelingsofsensibilityoftendeprivedherofpresenceofmind,andpreventedherfrombeingsoconstantlyusefulasCecilia。Cecilia,onthecontrary,oftenmadetoomuchnoiseandbustlewithherofficiousassistance,andwastooanxioustoinventamusementsandprocurecomfortsforLouisa,withoutperceivingthatillnesstakesawaythepowerofenjoyingthem。

  Asshewassittingatthewindowinthemorning,exertingherselftoentertainLouisa,sheheardthevoiceofanoldpeddlerwhooftenusedtocometothehouse。Downstairstheyranimmediately,toaskMrs。Villars’

  permissiontobringhimintothehall。Mrs。Villarsconsented,andawayCeciliarantoproclaimthenewstohercompanions。Then,firstreturningintothehall,shefoundthepeddlerjustunbucklinghisbox,andtakingitoffhisshoulders。

  Whatwouldyoubepleasedtowant,miss?saidthepeddler。I’veallkindsoftweezer-cases,rings,andlocketsofallsorts,continuedhe,openingalltheglitteringdrawerssuccessively。

  Oh!saidCecilia,shuttingthedraweroflocketswhichtemptedhermost,thesearenotthethingswhichIwant。Haveyouanychinafigures?anymandarins?

  Alack-a-day,miss,Ihadagreatstockofthatsamechinaware。butnowI’mquiteoutofthemkindofthings。butIbelieve,saidhe,rummagingoneofthedeepestdrawers,IbelieveIhaveoneleft,andhereitis。

  Oh,thatistheverything!what’sitsprice?

  Onlythreeshillings,ma’am。Ceciliapaidthemoney,andwasjustgoingtocarryoffthemandarin,whenthepeddlertookoutofhisgreat-

  coatpocketaneatmahoganycase。Itwasaboutafootlong,andfastenedateachendbytwolittleclasps。Ithadbesides,asmalllockinthemiddle。

  Whatisthat?saidCecilia,eagerly。

  It’sonlyachinafigure,miss,whichIamgoingtocarrytoanelderlylady,wholivesnighhand,andwhoismightyfondofsuchthings。

  Couldyouletmelookatit?

  Andwelcome,miss,saidhe,andopenedthecase。

  Oh,goodness!howbeautiful!exclaimedCecilia。

  ItwasafigureofFlora,crownedwithroses,andcarryingabasketofflowersinherhand。Ceciliacontemplateditwithdelight。HowI

  shouldliketogivethistoLouisa!saidshetoherself。and,atlast,breakingsilence,Didyoupromiseittotheoldlady?

  Oh,no,miss,Ididn’tpromiseit——sheneversawit。andifsobethatyou’dliketotakeit,I’dmakenomorewordsaboutit。

  Andhowmuchdoesitcost?

  Why,miss,astothat,I’llletyouhaveitforhalf-a-guinea。

  Ceciliaimmediatelyproducedtheboxinwhichshekepthertreasure,and,emptyingituponthetable,shebegantocounttheshillings。Alas!

  therewerebutsixshillings。Howprovoking!saidshe。thenIcan’thaveit。Where’sthemandarin?Oh,Ihaveit,saidshe,takingitup,andlookingatitwiththeutmostdisgust。IsthisthesamethatIhadbefore?

  Yes,miss,theverysame,repliedthepeddler,who,duringthistime,hadbeenexaminingthelittleboxoutofwhichCeciliahadtakenhermoney——itwasofsilver。Why,ma’am,saidhe,sinceyou’vetakensuchafancytothepiece,ifyou’veamindtomakeuptheremainderofthemoney,Iwilltakethisherelittlebox,ifyoucaretopartwithit。

  NowthisboxwasakeepsakefromLeonoratoCecilia。No,saidCeciliahastily,blushingalittle,andstretchingoutherhandtoreceiveit。

  Oh,miss!saidhe,returningitcarelessly,Ihopethere’snooffence。

  Imeantbuttoserveyou,that’sall。Suchararepieceofchina-workhasnocausetogoa-begging,addedhe。Then,puttingtheFloradeliberatelyintothecase,andturningthekeywithajerk,heletitdropintohispocket。when,liftinguphisboxbytheleatherstraps,hewaspreparingtodepart。

  Oh,stayoneminute!saidCecilia,inwhosemindtherehadpassedaverywarmconflictduringthepeddler’sharangue。LouisawouldsolikethisFlora,saidshe,arguingwithherself。Besides,itwouldbesogenerousinmetogiveittoherinsteadofthatuglymandarin。thatwouldbedoingonlycommonjustice,forIpromisedittoher,andsheexpectsit。Though,whenIcometolookatthismandarin,itisnotevensogoodasherswas。Thegildingisallrubbedoff,sothatIabsolutelymustbuythisforher。Oh,yes!Iwill,andshewillbesodelighted!

  andtheneverybodywillsayitistheprettiestthingtheyeversaw,andthebrokenmandarinwillbeforgottenforever。

  HereCecilia’shandmoved,andshewasjustgoingtodecide:Oh,butstop,saidshetoherself,consider——Leonoragavemethisbox,anditisakeepsake。However,wehavenowquarrelled,andIdaresaythatshewouldnotmindmypartingwithit。I’msurethatIshouldnotcareifshewastogiveawaymykeepsake,thesmelling-bottle,ortheringwhichIgaveher。Thenwhatdoesitsignify?Besides,isitnotmyown?andhaveInotarighttodowhatIpleasewithit?

  Atthismoment,socriticalforCecilia,apartyofhercompanionsopenedthedoor。Sheknewthattheycameaspurchasers,andshedreadedherFlora’sbecomingtheprizeofsomehigherbidder。Here,saidshe,hastilyputtingtheboxintothepeddler’shand,withoutlookingatit。

  takeit,andgivemetheFlora。Herhandtrembled,thoughshesnatcheditimpatiently。Sheranby,withoutseemingtomindanyofhercompanions。

  Letthosewhoaretemptedtodowrongbythehopesoffuturegratification,ortheprospectofcertainconcealmentandimpunity,rememberthat,unlesstheyaretotallydepraved,theybearintheirownheartsamonitor,whowillpreventtheirenjoyingwhattheyillobtained。

  InvainCeciliarantotherestofhercompanions,todisplayherpresent,inhopesthattheapplauseofotherswouldrestoreherownself-

  complacency。invainshesawtheFlorapassinduepompfromhandtohand,eachvyingwiththeotherinextollingthebeautyofthegiftandthegenerosityofthegiver。Ceciliawasstilldispleasedwithherself,withthem,andevenwiththeirpraise。FromLouisa’sgratitude,however,sheyetexpectedmuchpleasure,andimmediatelysheranupstairstoherroom。

  Inthemeantime,Leonorahadgoneintothehalltobuyabodkin。shehadjustbrokenhers。Ingivingherchange,thepeddlertookoutofhispocket,withsomehalfpence,theveryboxwhichCeciliahadsoldtohim。

  Leonoradidnotintheleastsuspectthetruth,forhermindwasabovesuspicion。andbesides,shehadtheutmostconfidenceinCecilia。

  Ishouldliketohavethatbox,saidshe,foritislikeoneofwhichIwasveryfond。

  Thepeddlernamedtheprice,andLeonoratookthebox。SheintendedtogiveittolittleLouisa。Ongoingtoherroomshefoundherasleep,andshesatsoftlydownbyherbedside。Louisaopenedhereyes。

  IhopeIdidn’tdisturbyou,saidLeonora。

  Oh,no。Ididn’thearyoucomein。butwhathaveyougotthere?

  Onlyalittlebox。wouldyouliketohaveit?Iboughtonpurposeforyou,asIthoughtperhapsitwouldpleaseyou,becauseit’slikethatwhichIgaveCecilia。

  Oh,yes!thatoutofwhichsheusedtogivemeBarbarydrops。Iamverymuchobligedtoyou。Ialwaysthoughtthatexceedinglypretty,andthis,indeed,isaslikeitaspossible。Ican’tunscrewit。willyoutry?

  Leonoraunscrewedit。Goodness!exclaimedLouisa,thismustbeCecilia’sbox。Look,don’tyouseeagreatLatthebottomofit?

  Leonora’scolourchanged。Yes,sherepliedcalmly,Iseethat。butitisnoproofthatitisCecilia’s。YouknowthatIboughtthisboxjustnowofthepeddler。

  Thatmaybe,saidLouisa。butIrememberscratchingthatLwithmyownneedle,andCeciliascoldedmeforit,too。Dogoandaskherifshehaslostherbox——do,repeatedLouisa,pullingherbytheruffle,asshedidnotseemtolisten。

  Leonora,indeed,didnothear,forshewaslostinthought。Shewascomparingcircumstances,whichhadbeforeescapedherattention。SherecollectedthatCeciliahadpassedherasshecameintothehall,withoutseemingtoseeher,buthadblushedasshepassed。Sherememberedthatthepeddlerappearedunwillingtopartwiththebox,andwasgoingtoputitagaininhispocketwiththehalfpence。Andwhyshouldhekeepitinhispocket,andnotshowitwithhisotherthings?

  Combiningallthesecircumstances,Leonorahadnolongeranydoubtofthetruth,forthoughshehadhonourableconfidenceinherfriends,shehadtoomuchpenetrationtobeimplicitlycredulous。

  Louisa,shebegan,butatthisinstantsheheardastep,which,byitsquickness,sheknewtobeCecilia’s,comingalongthepassage。Ifyouloveme,Louisa,saidLeonora,saynothingaboutthebox。

  Nay,butwhynot?Idaresayshehadlostit。

  No,mydear,I’mafraidshehasnot。Louisalookedsurprised。ButI

  havereasonsfordesiringyounottosayanythingaboutit。

  Well,then,Iwon’t,indeed。

  Ceciliaopenedthedoor,cameforwardsmiling,asifsecureofagoodreception,andtakingtheFloraoutofthecase,sheplaceditonthemantlepiece,oppositetoLouisa’sbed。Dear,howbeautiful!criedLouisa,startingup。

  Yes,saidCecilia,andguesswhoit’sfor。

  Forme,perhaps!saidtheingenuousLouisa。

  Yes,takeit,andkeepit,formysake。YouknowthatIbrokeyourmandarin。

  Oh,butthisisagreatdealprettierandlargerthanthat。

  Yes,Iknowitis。andImeantthatitshouldbeso。IshouldonlyhavedonewhatIwasboundtodoifIhadonlygivenyouamandarin。

  Well,repliedLouisa,andthatwouldhavebeenenough,surely。butwhatabeautifulcrownofroses!andthenthatbasketofflowers!theyalmostlookasifIcouldsmellthem。DearCecilia,I’mverymuchobligedtoyou。butIwon’ttakeitbywayofpaymentforthemandarinyoubroke。forI’msureyoucouldnothelpthat,and,besides,Ishouldhavebrokenitmyselfbythistime。Youshallgiveittomeentirely。

  andasyourkeepsake,I’llkeepitaslongasIlive。

  Louisastoppedshortandcoloured。thewordkeepsakerecalledtheboxtohermind,andallthetrainofideaswhichtheFlorahadbanished。

  But,saidshe,lookingupwistfullyinCecilia’sface,andholdingtheFloradoubtfully,didyou——

  Leonora,whowasjustquittingtheroom,turnedherheadback,andgaveLouisaalook,whichsilencedher。

  Ceciliawassoinfatuatedwithhervanity,thatsheneitherperceivedLeonora’ssignnorLouisa’sconfusion,butcontinuedshowingoffherpresent,byplacingitinvarioussituations,tillatlengthsheputitintothecase,andlayingitdownwithanaffectedcarelessnessuponthebed,Imustgonow,Louisa。Good-bye,saidshe,runningupandkissingher。butI’llcomeagainpresently,then,clappingthedoorafterhershewent。Butassoonastheformentationofherspiritssubsided,thesenseofshame,whichhadbeenscarcelyfeltwhenmixedwithsomanyothersensations,roseuppermostinhermind。What!saidshetoherself,isitpossiblethatIhavesoldwhatIpromisedtokeepforever?andwhatLeonoragaveme?andIhaveconcealedittoo,andhavebeenmakingaparadeofmygenerosity。Oh!whatwouldLeonora,whatwouldLouisa——whatwouldeverybodythinkofme,ifthetruthwereknown?

  Humiliatedandgrievedbythesereflections,Ceciliabegantosearchinherownmindforsomeconsolingidea。Shebegantocompareherconductwiththatofothersofherownage。andatlength,fixinghercomparisonuponherbrotherGeorge,asthecompanionofwhom,fromherinfancy,shehadbeenhabituallythemostemulous,sherecollectedthatanalmostsimilarcircumstancehadoncehappenedtohim,andthathehadnotonlyescapeddisgrace,buthadacquiredglory,byanintrepidconfessionofhisfault。Herfather’swordtoherbrother,ontheoccasion,shealsoperfectlyrecollected。

  Cometome,George,hesaidholdingouthishand,youareagenerous,braveboy:theywhodaretoconfesstheirfaultswillmakegreatandgoodmen。

  Thesewerehiswords。butCecilia,inrepeatingthemtoherself,forgottolaythatemphasisonthewordMEN,whichwouldhaveplaceditincontradistinctiontothewordWOMEN。Shewillinglybelievedthattheobservationextendedequallytobothsexes,andflatteredherselfthatsheshouldexceedherbrotherinmeritifsheownedafault,whichshethoughtthatitwouldbesomuchmoredifficulttoconfess。Yes,but,

  saidshe,stoppingherself,howcanIconfessit?Thisveryevening,inafewhours,theprizewillbedecided。LeonoraorIshallwinit。I

  havenowasgoodachanceasLeonora,perhapsabetter。andmustIgiveupallmyhopes——allthatIhavebeenlabouringforthismonthpast?Oh,Inevercan!Ifitwerebutto-morrow,oryesterday,oranydaybutthis,Iwouldnothesitate。butnowIamalmostcertainoftheprize,andifIwinit——well,whythenIwill——IthinkIwilltellall——yesIwill。

  Iamdetermined,saidCecilia。

  Hereabellsummonedthemtodinner。Leonorasatoppositetoher,andshewasnotalittlesurprisedtoseeCecilialooksogayandunconstrained。Surely,saidshetoherself,ifCeciliahaddonethatwhichIsuspect,shewouldnot,shecouldnot,lookasshedoes。ButLeonoralittleknewthecauseofhergaiety。Ceciliawasneverinhigherspirits,orbetterpleasedwithherself,thanwhenshehadresolveduponasacrificeoraconfession。

  Mustnotthiseveningbegiventothemostamiable?Whose,then,willitbe?AlleyesglancedfirstatCecilia,andthenatLeonora。Ceciliasmiled。Leonorablushed。Iseethatitisnotyetdecided,saidMrs。

  Villars。andimmediatelytheyranupstairs,amidstconfusedwhisperings。

  Cecilia’svoicecouldbedistinguishedfarabovetherest。Howcanshebesohappy!saidLeonoratoherself。OhCecilia,therewasatimewhenyoucouldnothaveneglectedmeso!whenwewerealwaystogetherthebestoffriendsandcompanions。ourwishes,tastes,andpleasuresthesame!Surelyshedidonceloveme,saidLeonora。butnowsheisquitechanged。Shehasevensoldmykeepsake。andshewouldratherwinabraceletofhairfromgirlswhomshedidnotalwaysthinksomuchsuperiortoLeonora,thanhavemyesteem,myconfidence,andmyfriendshipforherwholelife——yes,forherwholelife,forIamsureshewillbeanamiablewoman。Oh,thatthisbracelethadneverbeenthoughtof,orthatIwerecertainofherwinningit。forIamsurethatIdonotwishtowinitfromher。Iwouldrather——athousandtimesrather——thatwewereasweusedtobethanhaveallthegloryintheworld。AndhowpleasingCeciliacanbewhenshewishestoplease!——howcandidsheis!——

  howmuchshecanimproveherself!Letmebejust,thoughshehasoffendedme。sheiswonderfullyimprovedwithinthislastmonth。Foronefault,andTHATagainstmyself,shallIforgetallhermerits?

  AsLeonorasaidtheselastwords,shecouldbutjusthearthevoicesofhercompanions。Theyhadleftheraloneinthegallery。SheknockedsoftlyatLouisa’sdoor。Comein,saidLouisa。I’mnotasleep。Oh,

  saidshe,startingupwiththeFlorainherhand,theinstantthatthedoorwasopened。I’msogladyouarecome,Leonora,forIdidsolongtohearwhatyouallweremakingsuchanoiseabout。Haveyouforgotthatthebracelet——

  Oh,yes!isthistheevening?inquiredLeonora。

  Well,here’smywhiteshellforyou,saidLouisa。I’vekeptitinmypocketthisfortnight。andthoughCeciliadidgivemethisFlora,Istillloveyouagreatdealbetter。

  Ithankyou,Louisa,saidLeonora,gratefully。Iwilltakeyourshell,andIshallvalueitaslongasIlive。buthereisaredone,andifyouwishtoshowmethatyouloveme,youwillgivethistoCecilia。

  Iknowthatsheisparticularlyanxiousforyourpreference,andIamsurethatshedeservesit。

  Yes,ifIcouldIwouldchoosebothofyou,saidLouisa,butyouknowIcanonlychoosewhichIlikethebest。

  Ifyoumean,mydearLouisa,saidLeonora,thatyoulikemethebest,Iamverymuchobligedtoyou,for,indeed,Iwishyoutoloveme。butitisenoughformetoknowitinprivate。Ishouldnotfeeltheleastmorepleasureathearingitinpublic,orinhavingitmadeknowntoallmycompanions,especiallyatatimewhenitwouldgivepoorCeciliaagreatdealofpain。

  Butwhyshoulditgiveherpain?askedLouisa。Idon’tlikeherforbeingjealousofyou。

  Nay,Louisa,surelyyoudon’tthinkCeciliajealous?Sheonlytriestoexcel,andtoplease。sheismoreanxioustosucceedthanIam,itistrue,becauseshehasagreatdealmoreactivity,andperhapsmoreambition。Anditwouldreallymortifyhertolosethisprize——youknowthatsheproposeditherself。Ithasbeenherobjectforthismonthpast,andIamsureshehastakengreatpainstoobtainit。

  But,dearLeonora,whyshouldyouloseit?

  Indeed,mydear,itwouldbenolosstome。and,ifitwere,IwouldwillinglysufferitforCecilia。for,thoughweseemnottobesuchgoodfriendsasweusedtobe,Iloveherverymuch,andshewilllovemeagain——I’msureshewill。whenshenolongerfearsmeasarival,shewillagainlovemeasafriend。

  HereLeonoraheardanumberofhercompanionsrunningalongthegallery。

  Theyallknockedhastilyatthedoor,callingLeonora!Leonora!willyounevercome?Ceciliahasbeenwithusthishalf-hour。

  Leonorasmiled。Well,Louisa,saidshe,smiling,willyoupromiseme?

  Oh,Iamsure,bythewaytheyspeaktoyou,thattheywon’tgiveyoutheprize!saidthelittleLouisa,andthetearsstartedintohereyes。

  Theyloveme,though,forallthat,saidLeonora。andasfortheprize,youknowwhomIwishtohaveit。

  Leonora!Leonora!calledherimpatientcompanions。don’tyouhearus?

  Whatareyouabout?

  Oh,sheneverwilltakeanytroubleaboutanything,saidoneoftheparty。let’sgoaway。

  Oh,go,go!makehaste!criedLouisa。don’tstay。theyaresoangry。

  Remember,then,thatyouhavepromisedme,saidLeonora,andshelefttheroom。

  Duringallthistime,Ceciliahadbeeninthegardenwithhercompanions。

  Theambitionwhichshehadfelttowinthefirstprize——theprizeofsuperiortalentsandsuperiorapplication——wasnottobecomparedtotheabsoluteanxietywhichshenowexpressedtowinthissimpletestimonyoftheloveandapprobationofherequalsandrivals。

  Toemployherexuberantactivity,Ceciliahadbeendraggingbranchesoflilacsandlaburnums,rosesandsweetbriar,toornamentthebowerinwhichherfatewastobedecided。Itwasexcessivelyhot,buthermindwasengaged,andshewasindefatigable。Shestoodstillatlasttoadmireherworks。Hercompanionsalljoinedinloudapplause。Theywerenotalittleprejudicedinherfavourbythegreateagernesswhichsheexpressedtowintheirprize,andbythegreatimportancewhichsheseemedtoaffixtothepreferenceofeachindividual。Atlast,WhereisLeonora?criedoneofthem。andimmediately,aswehaveseen,theyrantocallher。

  Ceciliawasleftalone。Overcomewithheatandtooviolentexertion,shehadhardlystrengthtosupportherself。eachmomentappearedtoherintolerablylong。Shewasinastateoftheutmostsuspense,andallhercouragefailedher。Evenhopeforsookher。andhopeisacordialwhichleavestheminddepressedandenfeebled。

  Thetimeisnowcome,saidCecilia。inafewmomentsallwillbedecided。Inafewmoments——goodness!HowmuchdoIhazard?IfIshouldnotwintheprize,howshallIconfesswhatIhavedone?HowshallIbegLeonoratoforgiveme?I,whohopedtorestoremyfriendshiptoherasanhonour!Theyaregonetoseekforher。ThemomentsheappearsI

  shallbeforgotten。What——whatshallIdo?saidCecilia,coveringherfacewithherhands。

  SuchwasCecilia’ssituationwhenLeonora,accompaniedbyhercompanions,openedthehalldoor。TheymostofthemranforwardstoCecilia。AsLeonoracameintothebower,sheheldoutherhandtoCecilia。Wearenotrivals,butfriends,Ihope,saidshe。Ceciliaclaspedherhand。

  butshewasintoogreatagitationtospeak。

  Thetablewasnowsetinthearbour——thevasewasnowplacedinthemiddle。Well!saidCecilia,eagerly,whobegins?Caroline,oneofherfriends,cameforwardfirst,andthenalltheotherssuccessively。

  Cecilia’semotionwashardlyconceivable。Nowtheyareallin!Countthem,Caroline!

  One,two,three,four。thenumbersarebothequal。Therewasadeadsilence。No,theyarenot,exclaimedCecilia,pressingforward,andputtingashellintoavase。Ihavenotgivenmine,andIgiveittoLeonora。Then,snatchingthebracelet,Itisyours,Leonora,saidshe。takeit,andgivemebackyourfriendship。Thewholeassemblygaveoneuniversalclapandageneralshoutofapplause。

  Icannotbesurprisedatthisfromyou,Cecilia,saidLeonora。anddoyouthenstilllovemeasyouusedtodo?

  Oh,Leonora,stop!don’tpraiseme。Idon’tdeservethis,saidshe,turningtoherloudlyapplaudingcompanions。Youwillsoondespiseme。

  Oh,Leonora,youwillneverforgiveme!Ihavedeceivedyou。Ihavesold——

  Atthisinstant,Mrs。Villarsappeared。Thecrowddivided。Shehadheardallthatpassed,fromherwindow。Iapplaudyourgenerosity,Cecilia,saidshe,butIamtotellyouthat,inthisinstanceitisunsuccessful。YouhavenotitinyourpowertogivetheprizetoLeonora。Itisyours。Ihaveanothervotetogivetoyou。YouhaveforgottenLouisa。

  Louisa!exclaimedCecilia。butsurely,ma’am,LouisalovesLeonorabetterthanshedoesme。

  Shecommissionedme,however,saidMrs。Villars,togiveyouaredshell。andyouwillfinditinthisbox。

  Ceciliastarted,andturnedaspaleasdeath。itwasthefatalbox!

  Mrs。Villarsproducedanotherbox。Sheopenedit。itcontainedtheFlora。AndLouisaalsodesiredme,saidshe,toreturntoyouthisFlora。SheputitintoCecilia’shand。Ceciliatrembledsothatshecouldnotholdit。Leonoracaughtit。

  Oh,madam!Oh,Leonora!exclaimedCecilia。nowIhavenohopeleft。

  Iintended——Iwasjustgoingtotell——

  DearCecilia,saidLeonora,youneednottellitme。Iknowitalready。andIforgiveyouwithallmyheart。

  Yes,Icanprovetoyou,saidMrs。Villars,thatLeonorahasforgivenyou。Itisshewhohasgivenyoutheprize。itwasshewhopersuadedLouisatogiveyouhervote。Iwenttoseeheralittlewhileago。andperceiving,byhercountenance,thatsomethingwasthematter,Ipressedhertotellmewhatitwas。

  ’Why,madam,’saidshe,’LeonorahasmademepromisetogivemyshelltoCecilia。NowIdon’tloveCeciliahalfsowellasIdoLeonora。

  Besides,IwouldnothaveCeciliathinkIvoteforherbecauseshegavemeaFlora。’WhilstLouisawasspeaking,continuedMrs。Villars,Isawthissilverboxlyingonthebed。Itookitup,andaskedifitwasnotyours,andhowshecamebyit。’Indeed,madam,’saidLouisa,’IcouldhavebeenalmostcertainthatitwasCecilia’s。butLeonoragaveitme,andshesaidthatsheboughtitofthepeddlerthismorning。Ifanybodyelsehadtoldmeso,Icouldnothavebelievedthem,becauseIremembertheboxsowell。butIcan’thelpbelievingLeonora。’ButdidnotyouaskCeciliaaboutit?saidI。’No,madam,’repliedLouisa。’forLeonoraforbademe。Iguessedherreason。’Well,saidI,givemethebox,andI

  willcarryyourshellinittoCecilia。’Then,madam,’saidshe,’ifI

  mustgiveither,praydotaketheFlora,andreturnittoherfirst,thatshemaynotthinkitisforthatIdoit。’

  Oh,generousLouisa!exclaimedCecilia。but,indeed,Leonora,Icannottakeyourshell。

  Then,dearCecilia,acceptofmineinsteadofit!youcannotrefuseit。

  Ionlyfollowyourexample。Asforthebracelet,addedLeonora,takingCecilia’shand,IassureyouIdon’twishforit,andyoudo,andyoudeserveit。

  No,saidCecilia,indeed,Idonotdeserveit。Nexttoyou,surelyLouisadeservesitbest。

  Louisa!oh,yes,Louisa,exclaimedeverybodywithonevoice。

  Yes,saidMrs。Villars,andletCeciliacarrythebracelettoher。shedeservesthatreward。ForonefaultIcannotforgetallyourmerits,Cecilia,nor,Iamsure,willyourcompanions。

  Then,surely,notyourbestfriend,saidLeonora,kissingher。

  Everybodypresentwasmoved。TheylookeduptoLeonorawithrespectfulandaffectionateadmiration。

  Oh,Leonora,howIloveyou!andhowIwishtobelikeyou!exclaimedCecilia——tobeasgood,asgenerous!

  Ratherwish,Cecilia,interruptedMrs。Villars,tobeasjust。tobeasstrictlyhonourable,andasinvariablyconsistent。Remember,thatmanyofoursexarecapableofgreatefforts——ofmakingwhattheycallgreatsacrificestovirtueortofriendship。butfewtreattheirfriendswithhabitualgentleness,oruniformlyconductthemselveswithprudenceandgoodsense。

  THELITTLEMERCHANTS。

  CHAPTERI。

  Chidigallinanasce,conviencherozole。

  Astheoldcockcrows,socrowstheyoung。

  ThosewhohavevisitedItalygiveusanagreeablepictureofthecheerfulindustryofthechildrenofallagesinthecelebratedcityofNaples。

  TheirmanneroflivingandtheirnumerousemploymentsareexactlydescribedinthefollowingExtractfromaTraveller’sJournal。*

  *VarietiesofLiterature,vol。i。p。299。

  Thechildrenarebusiedinvariousways。AgreatnumberofthembringfishforsaletotownfromSantaLucia。othersareveryoftenseenaboutthearsenals,orwherevercarpentersareatwork,employedingatheringupthechipsandpiecesofwood。orbythesea-side,pickingupsticks,andwhateverelsehasdriftedashore,which,whentheirbasketisfull,theycarryaway。

  Childrenoftwoorthreeyearsold,whocanscarcelycrawlalongupontheground,incompanywithboysoffiveorsix,areemployedinthisprettytrade。Hencetheyproceedwiththeirbasketsintotheheartofthecity,whereinseveralplacestheyformasortoflittlemarket,sittingroundwiththeirstockofwoodbeforethem。Labourers,andthelowerorderofcitizens,buyitofthemtoburninthetripodsforwarmingthemselves,ortouseintheirscantykitchens。

  Otherchildrencarryaboutforsalethewaterofthesulphurouswells,which,particularlyinthespringseason,isdrunkingreatabundance。

  Othersagainendeavourtoturnafewpencebybuyingasmallmatteroffruit,ofpressedhoney,cakes,andcomfits,andthen,likelittlepeddlers,offerandsellthemtootherchildren,alwaysfornomoreprofitthanthattheymayhavetheirshareofthemfreeofexpense。

  Itisreallycurioustoseehowanurchin,whosewholestockandpropertyconsistinaboardandaknife,willcarryaboutawater-melon,orahalfroastedgourd,collectatroupofchildrenroundhim,setdownhisboard,andproceedtodividethefruitintosmallpiecesamongthem。

  Thebuyerskeepasharplookouttoseethattheyhaveenoughfortheirlittlepieceofcopper。andtheLilliputiantradesmenactwithnolesscautionastheexigenciesofthecasemayrequire,topreventhisbeingcheatedoutofamorsel。

  Theadvantagesoftruthandhonesty,andthevalueofacharacterforintegrity,areveryearlyfeltamongsttheselittlemerchantsintheirdailyintercoursewitheachother。Thefairdealerisalwayssoonerorlaterseentoprosper。Themostcunningcheatisatlastdetectedanddisgraced。

  NumerousinstancesofthetruthofthiscommonobservationwereremarkedbymanyNeapolitanchildren,especiallybythosewhowereacquaintedwiththecharactersandhistoryofPiedroandFrancisco,twoboysoriginallyequalinbirth,fortuneandcapacity,butdifferentintheireducation,andconsequentlyintheirhabitsandconduct。Franciscowasthesonofanhonestgardener,who,fromthetimehecouldspeak,taughthimtolovetospeakthetruth,showedhimthatliarsareneverbelieved——thatcheatsandthievescannotbetrusted,andthattheshortestwaytoobtainagoodcharacteristodeserveit。

  Youthandwhitepaper,astheproverbsays,takeallimpressions。Theboyprofitedmuchbyhisfather’sprecepts,andmorebyhisexample。healwaysheardhisfatherspeakthetruth,andsawthathedealtfairlywitheverybody。Inallhischildishtraffic,Francisco,imitatinghisparents,wasscrupulouslyhonest,andthereforeallhiscompanionstrustedhim——AshonestasFrancisco,becameasortofproverbamongstthem。

  AshonestasFrancisco,repeatedPiedro’sfather,whenheonedayheardthissaying。Letthemsayso。Isay,’AssharpasPiedro’。andletusseewhichwillgothroughtheworldbest。WiththeideaofmakinghissonSHARPhemadehimcunning。Hetaughthim,thattomakeaGOOD

  BARGAINwastodeceiveastothevalueandpriceofwhateverhewantedtodisposeof。togetasmuchmoneyaspossiblefromcustomersbytakingadvantageoftheirignoranceoroftheirconfidence。Heoftenrepeatedhisfavouriteproverb——Thebuyerhasneedofahundredeyes。thesellerhasneedbutofone。*Andhetookfrequentopportunitiesofexplainingthemeaningofthismaximtohisson。Hewasafisherman。andashisgainsdependedmoreuponfortunethanuponprudence,hetrustedhabituallytohisgoodluck。Afterbeingidleforawholeday,hewouldcasthislineorhisnets,andifhewasluckyenoughtocatchafinefish,hewouldgoandshowitintriumphtohisneighbourthegardener。

  *Chicomprahabisognadicent’occhi。chivenden’haassaidiuno。

  Youareobligedtoworkalldaylongforyourdailybread,hewouldsay。Lookhere。Iworkbutfiveminutes,andIhavenotonlydailybread,butdailyfish。

  Upontheseoccasions,ourfishermanalwaysforgot,orneglectedtocount,thehoursanddayswhichwerewastedinwaitingforafairwindtoputtosea,oranglinginvainontheshore。

  LittlePiedro,whousedtobaskinthesunuponthesea-shorebesidehisfather,andtoloungeorsleepawayhistimeinafishing-boat,acquiredhabitsofidleness,whichseemedtohisfatheroflittleconsequencewhilsthewasBUTACHILD。

  WhatwillyoudowithPiedroashegrowsup,neighbour?saidthegardener。Heissmartandquickenough,butheisalwaysinmischief。

  ScarcelyadayhaspassedforthisfortnightbutIhavecaughthimamongstmygrapes。Itrackhisfootstepsallovermyvineyard。

  HEISBUTACHILDyet,andknowsnobetter,repliedthefisherman。

  Butifyoudon’tteachhimbetternowheisachild,howwillheknowwhenheisaman?saidthegardener。

  Amightynoiseaboutabunchofgrapes,truly!criedthefisherman:afewgrapesmoreorlessinyourvineyard,whatdoesitsignify?

  Ispeakforyourson’ssake,andnotforthesakeofmygrapes,saidthegardener。andItellyouagain,theboywillnotdowellintheworld,neighbour,ifyoudon’tlookafterhimintime。

  He’lldowellenoughintheworld,youwillfind,answeredthefisherman,carelessly。Wheneverhecastsmynets,theynevercomeupempty。’Itisbettertobeluckythanwise。’*

  *Emeglioesserfortunatochesavio。

  ThiswasaproverbwhichPiedrohadfrequentlyheardfromhisfather,andtowhichhemostwillinglytrusted,becauseitgavehimlesstroubletofancyhimselffortunatethantomakehimselfwise。

  Comehere,child,saidhisfathertohim,whenhereturnedhomeaftertheprecedingconversationwiththegardener。howoldareyou,myboy?——

  twelveyearsold,isnotit?

  AsoldasFrancisco,andolderbysixmonths,saidPiedro。

  Andsmarterandmoreknowingbysixyears,saidhisfather。Here,takethesefishtoNaples,andletusseehowyou’llsellthemforme。

  Ventureasmallfish,astheproverbsays,tocatchagreatone。*Iwastoolatewiththematthemarketyesterday,butnobodywillknowbutwhattheyarejustfreshoutofthewater,unlessyougoandtellthem。

  *Buttaunasardellaperpigliarunluccio。

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