Thesyndichadtoldmethatthethreeyoungladiesbelongedtorespectablefamilies,butwerenotrich。IpuzzledmyheadtothinkofsomeusefulpresentImightmakethemwithoutoffendingthem,andatlastIhitonaplanofthemostridiculousnature,asthereaderwillsee。Iwenttoajewellerandtoldhimtomakemethreegoldenballs,eachoftwoouncesinweight。
AtnoonIwenttoM。deVoltaire’s。Hewasnottobeseen,butMadameDenisconsoledmeforhisabsence。Shehadwit,learningwithoutpretension,taste,andagreathatredfortheKingofPrussia,whomshecalledavillain。Sheaskedaboutmybeautifulhousekeeper,andcongratulatedmeonhavingmarriedhertoarespectableman。AlthoughIfeelnowthatshewasquiteright,Iwasfarfromthinkingsothen;theimpressionwastoofreshonmymind。
MadameDenisbeggedmetotellherhowIhadescapedfromTheLeads,butasthestorywasratheralongoneIpromisedtosatisfyheranothertime。
M。deVoltairedidnotdinewithus;heappeared,however,atfiveo’clock,holdingaletterinhishand。
\"Doyouknow,\"saidhe,\"theMarquisAlbergatiCapacelli,senatorofBologna,andCountParadisi?\"
\"IdonotknowParadisi,butIknowAlbergatibysightandbyreputation;heisnotasenator,butoneoftheForty,whoatBolognaareFifty。\"
\"Dearme!Thatseemsratherariddle!\"
\"Doyouknowhim?\"
\"No,buthehassentmeGoldoni’s’Theatre,’thetranslationofmyTancred,andsomeBolognasausages,andhesayshewillcomeandseeme。\"
\"Hewillnotcome;heisnotsuchafool。\"
\"Howafool?Wouldtherebeanythingfoolishincomingtoseeme?\"
\"Certainlynot,asfarasyouareconcerned;butverymuchsofarhisownsake。\"
\"Wouldyoumindtellingmewhy?\"
\"Heknowswhathewouldlose;forheenjoystheideayouseemtohaveofhim,andifhecameyouwouldseehisnothingness,andgood—byetotheillusion。Heisaworthymanwithsixthousandsequinsayear,andacrazeforthetheatre。Heisagoodactorenough,andhaswrittenseveralcomediesinprose,buttheyarefitneitherforthestudynorthestage。\"
\"Youcertainlygivehimacoatwhichdoesnotmakehimlookanybigger。\"
\"Iassureyouitisnotquitesmallenough。\"
\"ButtellmehowhecanbelongtotheFortyandtheFifty?\"
\"JustasatBalenoonisateleven。\"
\"Iunderstand;justasyourCouncilofTeniscomposedofseventeenmembers。\"
\"Exactly;butthecursedFortyofBolognaaremenofanotherkind。\"
\"Whycursed?\"
\"Becausetheyarenotsubjecttothefisc,andarethusenabledtocommitwhatevercrimestheylikewithperfectimpunity;alltheyhavegottodoistoliveoutsidethestatebordersontheirrevenues。\"
\"Thatisablessing,andnotacurse;butletmereturntooursubject。IsupposetheMarquisAlbergatiisamanofletters?\"
\"Hewriteswellenough,butheisfondofthesoundofhisownvoice,hisstyleisprolix,andIdon’tthinkhehasmuchbrains。\"
\"Heisanactor,Ithinkyousaid?\"
\"Yes,andaverygoodone,aboveall,whenheplaysthelover’spartinoneofhisownplays。\"
\"Isheahandsomeman?\"
\"Yes,onthestage,butnotelsewhere;hisfacelacksexpression。\"
\"Buthisplaysgivesatisfaction?\"
\"Nottopersonswhounderstandplaywriting;theywouldbehissediftheywereintelligible。\"
\"AndwhatdoyouthinkofGoldoni?\"
\"Ihavethehighestopinionofhim。GoldoniistheItalianMoliere。\"
\"WhydoeshecallhimselfpoettotheDukeofParma?\"
\"Nodoubttoprovethatawitaswellasafoolhashisweakpoints;
inallprobabilitythedukeknowsnothingaboutit。Healsocallshimselfabarrister,thoughheissuchonlyinhisownimagination。
Goldoniisagoodplaywriter,andnothingmore。EverybodyinVeniceknowsmeforhisfriend,andIcanthereforespeakofhimwithauthority。Hedoesnotshineinsociety,andinspiteofthefinesatireofhisworksheisamanofanextremelygentledisposition。\"
\"SoIhavebeentold。Heispoor,andwantstoleaveVenice。Themanagersofthetheatreswheretheyplayhispieceswillnotlikethat。\"
\"Peopletalkedaboutgettinghimapension,buttheprojecthasbeenrelegatedtotheGreekKalends,astheysaidthatifhehadapensionhewouldwritenomore。\"
\"CumaerefusedtogiveapensiontoHomer,forfearthatalltheblindmenwouldaskforapension。\"
Wespentapleasantday,andhethankedmeheartilyforthecopyoftheMacaronicon,whichhepromisedtoread。HeintroducedmetoaJesuithehadinhishousehold,whowascalledAdam,andheadded,aftertellingmehisname,\"notthefirstAdam。\"IwastoldafterwardsthatVoltaireusedtoplaybackgammonwithhim,andwhenhelosthewouldthrowthediceandtheboxathishead。IfJesuitsweretreatedlikethatalltheworldover,perhapsweshouldhavenonebutinoffensiveJesuitsatlast,butthathappytimeisstillfaroff。
IhadscarcelygottomyinnintheeveningwhenIreceivedmythreegoldenballs,andassoonasthesyndiccamewesetofftorenewourvoluptuousorgy。Onthewayhetalkedaboutmodesty,andsaid,——
\"Thatfeelingwhichpreventsourshewingthosepartswhichwehavebeentaughttocoverfromourchildhood,mayoftenproceedfromvirtue,butisweakerthantheforceofeducation,asitcannotresistanattackwhentheattackingpartyknowswhatheisabout。
Ithinktheeasiestwaytovanquishmodestyistoignoreitspresence,toturnitintoridicule,tocarryitbystorm。Victoryiscertain。Thehardihoodoftheassailersubduestheassailed,whousuallyonlywishestobeconquered,andnearlyalwaysthanksyouforyourvictory。
\"ClementofAlexandria,alearnedmanandaphilosopher,hasremarkedthatthemodestywhichappearssodeeplyrootedinwomen’sheartsreallygoesnofartherthantheclothestheywear,andthatwhenthesearepluckedoffnotraceofitremains。\"
Wefoundthethreegirlslightlycladandsittingonalargesopha,andwesatdownoppositetothem。Pleasanttalkandathousandamorouskissesoccupiedthehalfhourjustbeforesupper,andourcombatdidnotbegintillwehadeatenadeliciousrepast,washeddownwithplentyofchampagne。
Weweresureofnotbeinginterruptedbythemaidandweputourselvesatourease,whilstourcaressesbecamemorelivelyandardent。Thesyndic,likeacarefulman,drewapacketoffineFrenchlettersfromhispocket,anddeliveredalongeulogiumonthisadmirablepreservativefromanaccidentwhichmightgiverisetoaterribleandfruitlessrepentance。Theladiesknewthem,andseemedtohavenoobjectiontotheprecaution;theylaughedheartilytoseetheshapethesearticlestookwhentheywereblownout。Butaftertheyhadamusedthemselvesthusforsometime,Isaid,\"Mydeargirls,Icaremoreforyourhonourthanyourbeauty;butdonotthinkIamgoingtoshutmyselfinapieceofdeadskintoprovethatIamalive。Here,\"Iadded,drawingoutthethreegoldenballs,\"isasurerandlessdisagreeablewayofsecuringyoufromanyunpleasantconsequences。Afterfifteenyears’experienceIcanassureyouthatwiththesegoldenballsyoucangiveandtakewithoutrunningtheleastrisk。Forthefutureyouwillhavenoneedofthosehumiliatingsheaths。TrustinmeandacceptthislittlepresentfromaVenetianwhoadoresyou。\"
\"Weareverygrateful,\"saidtheelderofthetwosisters,\"buthowaretheseprettyballsused?\"
\"Theballhastobeattherearofthetempleoflove,whilsttheamorouscoupleareperformingthesacrifice。Theantipathycommunicatedtothemetalbyitsbeingsoakedforacertaintimeinanalkalinesolutionpreventsimpregnation。\"
\"But,\"saidthecousin,\"onemusttakegreatcarethattheballisnotshakenoutbythemotionbeforetheendofthesacrifice。\"
\"Youneedn’tbeafraidofthatifyouplaceyourselfinaproperposition。\"
\"Letusseehowit’sdone,\"saidthesyndic,holdingacandleformetoputtheballinplace。
Thecharmingcousinhadgonetoofartoturnback;shehadtosubmittotheoperation。IplacedtheballinsuchapositionthatitcouldnotfalloutbeforeIwasin;however,itfellouttowardstheend,justaswewereseparating。ThevictimperceivedthatIhadtakenherin。However,shesaidnothing,pickeduptheball,andchallengedthetwosisterstosubmittothepleasantexperiment,towhichtheylentthemselveswiththegreatestinterest;whilethesyndic,whohadnofaithinthevirtuesofthemetal,contentedhimselfwithlookingon。Afterhalfanhour’srestIbeganagain,withoutballs,assuringthemthatIwouldbecareful,andIkeptmyword,withoutdeprivingthemofthepleasureintheslightestdegree。
Whenitwastimetopart,thesegirls,whohadformerlybeenscantilyprovidedfor,threwtheirarmsroundmyneck,overwhelmedmewithcaresses,anddeclaredhowmuchtheyowedme。ThesyndictoldthemthatIwasgoingintwodays,andsuggestedthattheyshouldmakemestayadaylongerinGeneva,andImadethissacrificejoyfully。Theworthysyndichadanengagementonthefollowingday,andIsorelyneededaholidaymyself。Hetookmebacktomyinn,thankingmealmostasheartilyashischarmingnymphs。
Afterhavingenjoyedacalmandrefreshingsleeptenhours,IfeltmyselfabletoenjoythedelightfulsocietyofM。deVoltaire。I
wenttohishouse,butIwasdisappointedinmyhopes,asitpleasedthegreatmantobeinafault—findingandsarcasticmoodthewholeday。HeknewIhadtoleaveonthemorrow。
HebeganbythankingmeattableformypresentofMerlinCoccaeus。
\"Youcertainlygaveitmewithgoodintentions,\"saidhe,\"butIoweyounothanksforpraisingitsohighly,asyoumademelosefourhoursinreadingnonsense。\"
Ifeltmyhairstandonend,butImasteredmyemotions,andtoldhimquietlyenoughthatoneday,perhaps,hewouldfindhimselfobligedtopraisethepoemmorehighlythanIhaddone。Iquotedseveralinstancesoftheinsufficiencyofafirstperusal。
\"That’strue,\"saidhe;\"butasforyourMerlin,Iwillreadhimnomore。IhaveputhimbesideChapelain’s’Pucelle’。\"
\"Whichpleasesallthecritics,inspiteofitsbadversification,foritisagoodpoem,andChapelainwasarealpoetthoughhewrotebadverses。Icannotoverlookhisgenius。\"
Myfreedommusthaveshockedhim,andImighthaveguesseditwhenhetoldmehehadputthe’Macaronicon’besidethe’Pucelle’。Iknewthattherewasapoemofthesametitleincirculation,whichpassedforVoltaire’s;butIalsoknewthathedisavowedit,andIthoughtthatwouldmakehimconcealthevexationmyexplanationmusthavecausedhim。Itwasnotso,however;hecontradictedmesharply,andIclosedwithhim。
\"Chapelain,\"saidI,\"hasthemeritofhavingrenderedhissubject—matterpleasant,withoutpanderingtothetastesofhisreadersbysayingthingsshockingtomodestyandpiety。SothinksmymasterCrebillon:\"
\"Crebillon!Youciteaweightyauthority。ButhowismyfriendCrebillonyourmaster,mayIask?\"
\"HetaughtmetospeakFrenchinlessthantwoyears,andasamarkofmygratitudeItranslatedhisRadamisteintoItalianAlexandrines。
IamthefirstItalianwhohasdaredtousethismetreinourlanguage。\"
\"Thefirst?Ibegyourpardon,asthathonourbelongstomyfriendPierreJacquesMartelli。\"
\"Iamsorrytobeobligedtotellyouthatyouaremakingamistake。\"
\"Why,Ihavehisworks,printedatBologna,inmyroom!\"
\"Idon’tdenythat,IamonlytalkingaboutthemetreusedbyMartelli。Whatyouarethinkingofmustbeversesoffourteensyllables;withoutalternativemasculineandfemininerhymes。
However,IconfessthathethinkshehasimitatedtheFrenchAlexandrines,andhisprefacemademeexplodewithlaughter。Didyoureadit?\"
\"Readit?Ialwaysreadprefaces,andMartelliprovestherethathisverseshavethesameeffectinItalianasourAlexandrineverseshaveinFrench。\"
\"Exactly,that’swhat’ssoamusing。Theworthymanisquitemistaken,andIonlyaskyoutolistentowhatIhavetosayonthesubject。Yourmasculineversehasonlytwelvepoeticsyllables,andthefemininethirteen。AllMartelli’slineshavefourteensyllables,exceptthosethatfinishwithalongvowel,whichattheendofalinealwayscountsastwosyllables。YouwillobservethatthefirsthemistitchinMartellialwaysconsistsofsevensyllables,whileinFrenchitonlyhassix。YourfriendPierreJacqueswaseitherstonedeaforveryhardofhearing。\"
\"Thenyouhavefollowedourtheoryofversificationrigorously。\"
\"Justso,inspiteofthedifficulty,asnearlyallourwordsendwithashortsyllable。\"
\"Whatreceptionhasbeenaccordedtoyourinnovation?\"
\"Ithasnotbeenfoundpleasing,becausenobodyknowshowtorecitemyverses;butIhopetotriumphwhenIdeliverthemmyselfbeforeourliteraryclubs。\"
\"DoyourememberanyofyourversionoftheRadamiste?\"
\"Irememberitall。\"
\"Youhaveawonderfulmemory;Ishouldbegladtohearit。\"
IbegantorecitethesamescenethatIhadrecitedtoCrebillontenyearsbefore,andIthoughtM。deVoltairelistenedwithpleasure。
\"Itdoesn’tstrikeoneasatallharsh,\"saidhe。
Thiswasthehighestpraisehewouldgiveme。InhisturnthegreatmanrecitedapassagefromTancredwhichhadnotasyetbeenpublished,andwhichwasafterwardsconsidered,andrightly,asamasterpiece。
Weshouldhavegotonverywellifwehadkepttothat,butonmyquotingalineofHoracetopraiseoneofhispieces,hesaidthatHoracewasagreatmasterwhohadgivenpreceptswhichwouldneverbeoutofdate。ThereuponIansweredthathehimselfhadviolatedoneofthem,butthathehadviolateditgrandly。
\"Whichisthat?\"
\"Youdonotwrite,’Contentuspaucislectoribus’。\"
\"IfHoracehadhadtocombatthehydra—headedmonsterofsuperstition,hewouldhavewrittenasIhavewritten——foralltheworld。\"
\"Itseemstomethatyoumightspareyourselfthetroubleofcombatingwhatyouwillneverdestroy。\"
\"ThatwhichIcannotfinishotherswill,andIshallalwayshavethegloryofbeingthefirstinthefield。\"
\"Verygood;butsupposingyousucceedindestroyingsuperstition,whatareyougoingtoputinitsplace?\"
\"Ilikethat。IfIdelivertheraceofmanfromawildbeastwhichisdevouringit,amItobeaskedwhatIintendtoputinitsplace?\"
\"Itdoesnotdevourit;onthecontrary,itisnecessarytoitsexistence。\"
\"Necessarytoitsexistence!Thatisahorribleblasphemy,thefalsityofwhichwillbeseeninthefuture。Ilovethehumanrace;
Iwouldfainseemenlikemyself,freeandhappy,andsuperstitionandfreedomcannotgotogether。Wheredoyoufindanenslavedandyetahappypeople?\"
\"Youwish,then,toseethepeoplesovereign?\"
\"Godforbid!Theremustbeasovereigntogovernthemasses。\"
\"Inthatcaseyoumusthavesuperstition,forwithoutitthemasseswillneverobeyameremandeckedwiththenameofmonarch。\"
\"Iwillhavenomonarch;thewordexpressesdespotism,whichIhateasIdoslavery。\"
\"Whatdoyoumean,then?Ifyouwishtoputthegovernmentinthehandsofoneman,suchaman,Imaintain,willbeamonarch。\"
\"Iwouldhaveasovereignrulerofafreepeople,ofwhichheisthechiefbyanagreementwhichbindsthemboth,whichwouldpreventhimfrombecomingatyrant。\"
\"Addisonwilltellyouthatsuchasovereignisasheerimpossibility。IagreewithHobbes,oftwoevilschoosetheleast。
Anationwithoutsuperstitionwouldbeanationofphilosophers,andphilosopherswouldneverobey。Thepeoplewillonlybehappywhentheyarecrushedanddown—trodden,andboundinchains。\"
\"Thisishorrible;andyouareofthepeopleyourself。IfyouhavereadmyworksyoumusthaveseenhowIshewthatsuperstitionistheenemyofkings。\"
\"Readyourworks?Ihavereadandre—readthem,especiallyinplaceswhereIhavedifferedfromyou。Yourrulingpassionistheloveofhumanity。’Estubipeccas’。Thisblindsyou。Lovehumanity,butloveitasitis。Itisnotfittoreceivetheblessingsyouwouldlavishonit,andwhichwouldonlymakeitmorewretchedandperverse。Leavementheirdevouringmonster,itisdeartothem。
IhaveneverlaughedsoheartilyasatDonQuixoteassailedbythegalley—slaveswhomhisgenerosityhadsetfree。\"
\"Iamsorrythatyouhavesuchabadopinionofyourfellow—
creatures。Andbytheway,tellmewhetherthereisfreedominVenice。\"
\"Asmuchascanbeexpectedunderanaristocracy。OurlibertyisnotsogreatasthatwhichtheEnglishenjoy,butwearecontent。\"
\"EvenunderTheLeads?\"
\"Myimprisonmentwascertainlydespotic;butasIhadknowinglyabusedmylibertyIamsatisfiedthattheGovernmentwaswithinitsrightsinshuttingmeupwithouttheusualformalities。\"
\"Allthesame,youmadeyourescape。\"
\"Iusedmyrightsastheyhadusedtheirs。\"
\"Verygood!ButasfarasIcansee,nooneinVeniceisreallyfree。\"
\"Thatmaybe;butyoumustagreethattheessenceoffreedomconsistsinthinkingyouhaveit。\"
\"Ishallnotagreetothatsoeasily。YouandIseelibertyfromverydifferentpointsofview。Thearistocrats,themembersoftheGovernmenteven,arenotfreeatVenice;forexample,theycannottravelwithoutpermission。\"
\"True,butthatisarestrictionoftheirownmakingtopreservetheirpower。WouldyousaythataBerneseisnotfree,becauseheissubjecttothesumptuarylaws,whichhehimselfhadmade。\"
\"Well,well,Iwishthepeoplemadethelawseverywhere。\"
Afterthislivelyanswer,heabruptlyaskedmewhatpartIcamefrom。
\"FromRoche,\"saidI。\"IshouldhavebeenverysorrytoleaveSwitzerlandwithoutseeingthefamousHaller。InmytravelsIrenderhomagetomylearnedcontemporaries,andyoucomethelastandbest。\"
\"YoumusthavelikedHaller。\"
\"Ispentthreeofthehappiestdaysofmylifewithhim。\"
\"Icongratulateyou。Heisagreatmanandworthyofallhonour。\"
\"Ithinkasyoudo,andIamgladtohearyoudoinghimjustice;Iamsorryhewasnotsojusttowardsyou。\"
\"Well,youseewemaybebothofusmistaken。\"
Atthisreply,thequicknessofwhichconstituteditschiefmerit,everybodypresentbegantolaughandapplaud。
Nomorewassaidofliterature,andIbecameasilentactortillM。deVoltaireretired,whenIapproachedMadameDenis,andaskedherifshehadanycommandsformeatRome。Iwenthomewellpleasedathavingcompelledthegiantofintellecttolistentoreason,asI
thenthoughtfoolishlyenough;buttherewasaranklingfeelingleftinmyheartagainsthimwhichmademe,tenyearslater,criticiseallhehadwritten。
Iamsorrynowforhavingdoneso,thoughonreadingmycensuresoveragainIfindthatinmanyplacesIwasright。Ishouldhavedonebetter,however,tohavekeptsilence,tohaverespectedhisgenius,andtohavesuspectedmyownopinions。Ishouldhaveconsideredthatifithadnotbeenforthosequipsandcrankswhichmademehatehimonthethirdday,Ishouldhavethoughthimwhollysublime。Thisthoughtaloneshouldhavesilencedme,butanangrymanalwaysthinkshimselfright。PosterityonreadingmyattackwillrankmeamongtheZoyluses,andthehumbleapologyInowmaketothegreatman’sshadesmaynotberead。
IfwemeetinthehallsofPluto,themorepeccantpartsofourmortalnaturepurgedaway,allwillbemadeup;hewillreceivemyheartfeltapologies,andhewillbemyfriend,Ihissincereadmirer。
IspentpartofthenightandthewholeofthefollowingdayinwritingdownmyconversationswithVoltaire,andtheyamountednearlytoavolume,ofwhichIhaveonlygivenamereabridgment。TowardstheeveningmyEpicureansyndiccalledonme,andwewenttosupwiththethreenymphs,andforfivehoursweindulgedineveryspeciesofwantonness,inwhichIhadasomewhatfertileimagination。OnleavingIpromisedtocallonthemagainonmyreturnfromRome,andIkeptmyword。Isetoutthenextday,afterdiningwiththesyndic,whoaccompaniedmeasfarasAnneci,whereIspentthenight。
NextdayIdinedatAix,withtheintentionoflyingatChamberi,butmydestinyorderedotherwise。
Aixisavillainousholewherethemineralwatersattractpeopleoffashiontowardstheendofthesummer——acircumstanceofwhichIwasthenignorant。Idinedhastily,wishingtosetoutimmediatelyforChamberi,wheninthemiddleofmyrepastacrowdoffashionablepeopleburstintotheroom。Ilookedatthemwithoutstirring,replyingwithaninclinationoftheheadtothebowswhichsomeofthemmademe。Isoondiscoveredfromtheirconversationthattheyhadallcometotakethewaters。AgentlemanofafinepresencecameuptomeandaskedifIweregoingtoTurin;IansweredthatmywaywastoMarseilles。
Theirdinnerwasserved,andeverybodysatdown。AmongthemI
noticedseveralpleasant—lookingladies,withgentlemenwhowereeithertheirhusbandsortheirlovers。IconcludedthatImightfindsomeamusementwiththem,astheyallspokeFrenchwiththateasytoneofgoodsocietywhichissoattractive,andIfeltthatIshouldbeinclinedtostaywithoutmuchpressing,forthatdayatallevents。
Ifinishedmydinnerbeforethecompanyhadcometotheendoftheirfirstcourse,andasmycoachcouldnotgoforanotherhourIwentuptoaprettywoman,andcomplimentedheronthegoodthewatersofAixseemedtohavedoneher,forherappetitemadeallwholookedatherfeelhungry。
\"Ichallengeyoutoprovethatyouarespeakingthetruth,\"saidshe,withasmile。Isatdownnexttoher,andshegavemeanicepieceoftheroastwhichIateasifIhadbeenfasting。
WhileIwastalkingwiththelady,andeatingthemorselsshegaveme,IheardavoicesayingthatIwasintheabbe’splace,andanothervoicereplyingthattheabbehadbeengoneforhalfanhour。
\"Whyhashegone?\"askedathird,\"hesaidhewasgoingtostayhereforanotherweek。\"Atthistherewassomewhispering,butthedepartureofanabbehadnothinginterestinginitforme,andI
continuedeatingandtalking。ItoldLeDuc,whowasstandingbehindmychair,togetmesomechampagne。Iofferedtheladysome,sheaccepted,andeveryonebegantocallforchampagne。Seeingmyneighbour’sspiritsrising,Iproceededtomakelovetoher,andaskedherifshewerealwaysasreadytodefythosewhopaidtheircourttoher。
\"Somanyofthem,\"sheanswered,\"arenotworthythetrouble。\"
Shewasprettyandquick—witted,andItookafancytoher,andwishedforsomepretextonwhichIcouldputoffmydeparture,andchancecametomyaid。
\"Theplacenexttoyouwasconvenientlyempty,\"saidaladytomyneighbourwhowasdrinkingwithme。
\"Veryconveniently,formyneighbourweariedme。\"
\"Hadhenoappetite?\"saidI。
\"Gamestersonlyhaveanappetiteformoney。\"
\"Usually,butyourpowerisextraordinary;forIhavenevermadetwodinnersononedaybeforenow。\"
\"Onlyoutofpride;asIamsureyouwilleatnosupper。\"
\"Letusmakeabetonit。\"
\"Wewill;wewillbetthesupper。\"
\"Allright。\"
Alltheguestsbegantoclap,andmyfairneighbourblushedwithpleasure。IorderedLeDuctotellmycoachmanthatIshouldnotbegoingtillthenextday。
\"Itismybusiness,\"saidthelady,\"toorderthesupper。\"
\"Yes,youareright;forhewhopays,orders。Mypartwillbetoopposeyoutotheknife,andifIeatasmuchasyouIshallbethewinner。\"
\"Verygood。\"
Attheendofdinner,theindividualwhohadaddressedmebeforecalledforcards,andmadeasmallbankoffaro。Heputdowntwenty—
fivePiedmontesepistoles,andsomesilvermoneytoamusetheladies——altogetheritamountednearlytofortylouis。Iremainedaspectatorduringthefirstdeal,andconvincedmyselfthatthebankerplayedverywell。
Whilsthewasgettingreadyfortheseconddeal,theladyaskedmewhyIdidnotplay。Iwhisperedtoherthatshehadmademelosemyappetiteformoney。Sherepaidthiscomplimentwithacharmingsmile。
Afterthisdeclaration,feelingmyselfentitledtoplay,Iputdownfortylouis,andlostthemintwodeals。Igotup,andonthebankersayingverypolitelythathewassorryformyloss,Irepliedthatitwasamerenothing,butthatIalwaysmadeitarulenevertoriskasumofmoneylargerthanthebank。SomebodythenaskedmeifIknewacertainAbbeGilbert。
\"Iknewamanofthatname,\"saidI,\"atParis;hecamefromLyons,andowesmeapairofears,whichImeantocutoffhisheadwhenI
meethim。\"
Myquestionermadenoreplytothis,andeverybodyremainedsilent,asifnothinghadbeensaid。FromthisIconcludedthattheabbeaforesaidmustbethesamewhoseplaceIhadoccupiedatdinner。Hehaddoubtlessseenmeonmyarrivalandhadtakenhimselfoff。ThisabbewasarascalwhohadvisitedmeatLittlePoland,towhomIhadentrustedaringwhichhadcostmefivethousandflorinsinHolland;
nextdaythescoundrelhaddisappeared。
Wheneverybodyhadleftthetable,IaskedLeDucifIwerewelllodged。
\"No,\"saidhe;\"wouldyouliketoseeyourroom?\"
Hetookmetoalargeroom,ahundredpacesfromtheinn,whosesolefurnitureconsistedofitsfourwalls,alltheotherroomsbeingoccupied。Icomplainedvainlytotheinn—keeper,whosaid,\"It’sallIcanofferyou,butIwillhaveagoodbed,atable,andchairstakenthere。\"
Ihadtocontentmyselfwithit,astherewasnochoice。
\"Youwillsleepinmyroom,\"saidItoLeDuc,\"takecaretoprovideyourselfwithabed,andbringmybaggagein。\"
\"WhatdoyouthinkofGilbert,sir?\"saidmySpaniard;\"Ionlyrecognizedhimjustashewasgoing,andIhadalivelydesiretotakehimbythebackofhisneck。\"
\"Youwouldhavedonewelltohavesatisfiedthatdesire。\"
\"Iwill,whenIseehimagain。\"
AsIwasleavingmybigroom,Iwasaccostedpolitelybyamanwhosaidhewasgladtobemyneighbour,andofferedtotakemetothefountainifIweregoingthere。Iacceptedhisoffer。Hewasatallfairman,aboutfiftyyearsold;hemustoncehavebeenhandsome,buthisexcessivepolitenessshouldhavemademesuspecthim;however,I
wantedsomebodytotalkto,andtogivemethevariouspiecesofinformationIrequired。OnthewayheinformedmeoftheconditionofthepeopleIhadseen,andIlearntthatnoneofthemhadcometoAixforthesakeofthewaters。
\"Iamtheonlyone,\"saidhe,\"whotakesthemoutofnecessity。Iamconsumptive;Igetthinnereveryday,andifthewatersdon’tdomeanygoodIshallnotlastmuchlonger。\"
Soalltheothershaveonlycomehereforamusement’ssake?\"
\"Andtogame,sir,fortheyareallprofessionalgamesters。\"
\"AretheyFrench?\"
\"TheyareallfromPiedmontorSavoy;IamtheonlyFrenchmanhere。\"
\"WhatpartofFrancedoyoucomefrom?\"
\"FromLorraine;myfather,whoiseightyyearsold,istheMarquisDesarmoises。Heonlykeepsonlivingtospiteme,forasImarriedagainsthiswisheshehasdisinheritedme。However,asIamhisonlyson,Ishallinherithispropertyafterhisdeath,inspiteofhim。
MyhouseisatLyons,butInevergothere,asIhavethemisfortunetobeinlovewithmyeldestdaughter,andmywifewatchesussocloselyastomakemycourtshiphopeless。\"
\"Thatisveryfine;otherwise,Isuppose,yourdaughterwouldtakepityonheramorouspapa?\"
\"Idaresay,forsheisveryfondofme,andhasanexcellentheart。\"
CHAPTERXX
MyAdventuresatAix——MySecondM。M。——MadameZeroliThisman,who,thoughhedidnotknowme,puttheutmostconfidenceinme,sofarfromthinkinghewashorrifyingmebytheconfessionofsuchwickedness,probablyconsideredhewasdoingmeagreathonour。
WhileIlistenedtohimIreflectedthatthoughdepravedhemighthavehisgoodpoints,andthathisweaknessmighthaveapitiableifnotapardonableside。However,wishingtoknowmoreofhim,I
said,——
\"Inspiteofyourfather’ssternness,youliveverywell。\"
\"Onthecontrary,Iliveveryill。IenjoyapensionfromtheGovernment,whichIsurrendertomywife,andasformeImakealivelihoodonmytravels。Iplayblackgammonandmostothergamesperfectly。IwinmoreoftenthanIlose,andIliveonmywinnings。\"
\"Butiswhatyouhavetoldmeaboutyourdaughterknowntothevisitorshere?\"
\"Everybodyknowsit;whyshouldIhideit?Iamamanofhonourandinjurenoone;and,besides,myswordissharp。\"
\"Quiteso;butwouldyoutellmewhetheryouallowyourdaughtertohavealover?\"
\"Ishouldhavenoobjection,butmywifeisreligious。\"
\"Isyourdaughterpretty?\"
\"Very;ifyouaregoingtoLyons,youcangoandseeher;Iwillgiveyoualetterofintroductionforher。\"\"Thankyou,butIamgoingtoItaly。Canyoutellmethenameofthegentlemanwhokeptthebank?\"
\"ThatisthefamousParcalier,MarquisdePriesincethedeathofhisfather,whomyoumayhaveknownasambassadoratVenice。ThegentlemanwhoaskedyouifyouknewtheAbbeGilbertistheChevalierZeroli,husbandoftheladyyouaretosupwith。Therestarecounts,marquises,andbaronsoftheusualkind,somefromPiedmontandsomefromSavoy。Twoorthreearemerchants’sons,andtheladiesarealltheirfriendsorrelations。Theyareallprofessionalgamblersandsharp—witted。Whenastrangercomesheretheyknowhowtogetoverhim,andifheplaysitisallupwithhim,fortheygotogetherlikepickpocketsatafair。Theythinktheyhavegotyou,sotakecareofyourself。\"
Intheeveningwereturnedtotheinn,andfoundallthecompanyplaying,andmycompanionproceededtoplaywithaCountdeScarnafisch。
TheChevalierZeroliofferedtoplayfarowithmeforfortysequins,andIhadjustlostthatsumwhensupperwasserved。Mylosshadnotaffectedmyspirits,andtheladyfindingmeatoncehungryandgaypaidthebetwithagoodgrace。AtsupperIsurprisedherincertainside—glances,whichwarnedmethatshewasgoingtotrytodupeme;I
feltmyselfsafeasfaraslovewasconcerned,butIhadreasontodreadfortune,alwaysthefriendofthosewhokeepabankatfaro,especiallyasIhadalreadylost。Ishouldhavedonewelltogo,butIhadnotthestrength;allIcoulddowastopromisemyselfthatI
wouldbeextremelyprudent。Havinglargesumsinpapermoneyandplentyofgold,itwasnotdifficultformetobecareful。
JustaftersuppertheMarquisdePriemadeabankofaboutthreehundredsequins。HisstakingthispaltrysumshewedmethatIhadmuchtoloseandlittletowin,asitwasevidentthathewouldhavemadeabankofathousandsequinsifhehadhadthem。IputdownfiftyPortuguesecrowns,andsaidthatassoonasIhadlostthemI
shouldgotobed。InthemiddleofthethirddealIbrokethebank。
\"Iamgoodforanothertwohundredlouis,\"saidthemarquis。
\"Ishouldbegladtocontinueplaying,\"Ireplied,\"ifIhadnottogoatday—break\";andIthereuponlefttheroom。
JustasIwasgoingtobed,Desarmoisescameandaskedmetolendhimtwelvelouis。Ihadexpectedsomesuchrequest,andIcountedthemouttohim。Heembracedmegratefully,andtoldmethatMadameZerolihadsworntomakemestayonatleastforanotherday。I
smiledandcalledLeDuc,andaskedhimifmycoachmanknewthatI
wasstartingearly;herepliedthathewouldbeatthedoorbyfiveo’clock。
\"Verygood,\"saidDesarmoises,\"butIwillwagerthatyouwillnotgoforallthat。\"
HewentoutandIwenttobed,laughingathisprophecy。
Atfiveo’clocknextmorningthecoachmancametotellmethatoneofthehorseswasillandcouldnottravel。IsawthatDesarmoiseshadhadaninklingofsomeplot,butIonlylaughed。Isentthemanroughlyabouthisbusiness,andtoldLeDuctogetmepost—horsesattheinn。Theinn—keepercameandtoldmethattherewerenohorses,andthatitwouldtakeallthemorningtofindsome,astheMarquisdePrie,whowasleavingatoneo’clockinthemorning,hademptiedhisstables。IansweredthatinthatcaseIwoulddineatAix,butthatIcountedonhisgettingmehorsesbytwoo’clockintheafternoon。
Ilefttheroomandwenttothestable,whereIfoundthecoachmanweepingoveroneofhishorsesstretchedoutonthestraw。Ithoughtitwasreallyanaccident,andconsoledthepoordevil,payinghimasifhehaddonehiswork,andtellinghimIshouldnotwanthimanymore。Ithenwenttowardsthefountain,butthereaderwillbeastonishedbyameetingofthemostromanticcharacter,butwhichisyetthestricttruth。
AtafewpacesfromthefountainIsawtwonunscomingfromit。Theywereveiled,butIconcludedfromtheirappearancethatonewasyoungandtheotherold。Therewasnothingastonishinginsuchasight,buttheirhabitattractedmyattention,foritwasthesameasthatwornbymydearM————M————,whomIhadseenforthelasttimeonJuly24th,1755,fiveyearsbefore。Thelookofthemwasenough,nottomakemebelievethattheyoungnunwasM————M————,buttoexcitemycuriosity。Theywerewalkingtowardsthecountry,soIturnedtocutthemoffthatImightseethemfacetofaceandbeseenofthem。
WhatwasmyemotionwhenIsawtheyoungnun,who,walkinginfront,andliftingherveil,disclosedtheveritablefaceofM————M————。
Icouldnotdoubtthatitwasshe,andIbegantowalkbesideher;
butsheloweredherveil,andturnedtoavoidme。
Thereasonsshemighthaveforsuchacoursepassedinamomentthroughmymind,andIfollowedheratadistance,andwhenshehadgoneaboutfivehundredpacesIsawherenteralonelyhouseofpoorappearancethatwasenoughforme。IreturnedtothefountaintoseewhatIcouldlearnaboutthenun。
OnmywaythereIlostmyselfinamazeofconjectures。
\"ThetoocharmingandhaplessM————M————,\"saidItomyself,\"musthaveleftherconvent,desperate——nay,mad;forwhydoesshestillwearthehabitofherorder?Perhaps,though,shehasgotadispensationtocomehereforthewaters;thatmustbethereasonwhyshehasanunwithher,andwhyshehasnotleftoffherhabit。Atalleventsthejourneymusthavebeenundertakenunderfalsepretences。Hassheabandonedherselftosomefatalpassion,ofwhichtheresulthasbeenpregnancy?Sheisdoubtlessperplexed,andmusthavebeenpleasedtoseeme。Iwillnotdeceiveherexpectations;I
willdoallinmypowertoconvinceherthatIamworthyofher。\"
LostinthoughtIdidnotnoticeIhadarrivedatthefountain,roundwhichstoodthewholehostofgamesters。Theyallcrowdedroundme,andsaidhowcharmedtheyweretoseemestillthere。IaskedtheChevalierZeroliafterhiswife,andhetoldmeshewasstillabed,andthatitwouldbeagoodthingifIwouldgoandmakehergetup。
Iwasjustgoingwhenthedoctoroftheplaceaccostedme,saying,thatthewatersoftheAixwouldincreasemygoodhealth。Fulloftheoneidea,IaskedhimdirectlyifhewerethedoctorinattendanceonaprettynunIhadseen。
\"Shetakesthewaters,\"hereplied,\"butshedoesnotspeaktoanyone。\"
\"Wheredoesshecomefrom?\"
\"Nobodyknows;shelivesinapeasant’shouse。\"
Ileftthedoctor,andinsteadofgoingtowardstheinn,wherethehussyZeroliwasdoubtlesswaitingforme,Imademywaytowardsthepeasant’shouse,whichalreadyseemedtomethetempleofthemostblissfuldeities,determinedtoobtaintheinformationIrequiredasprudentlyasmightbe。Butasiflovehadfavouredmyvows,whenI
waswithinahundredpacesofthecottageIsawthepeasantwomancomingouttomeetme。
\"Sir,\"saidshe,accostingme,\"theyoungnunbegsyoutoreturnthiseveningatnineo’clock;thelay—sisterwillbeasleepthen,andshewillbeabletospeakfreelytoyou。\"
Therecouldbenomoredoubt。Myheartleaptwithjoy。Igavethecountry—womanalouis,andpromisedtobeatthehouseatnineexactly。
WiththecertaintyofseeingmydearM————M————againIreturnedtotheinn,andonascertainingwhichwasMadameZeroli’sroomIenteredwithoutceremony,andtoldherthatherhusbandhadsentmetomakehergetup。
\"Ithoughtyouweregone?\"
\"Iamgoingattwo。\"
Ifoundherstillmoreenticinginbedthanattable。Ihelpedhertoputonherstays,andthesightofhercharmsinflamedmyardour,butIexperiencedmoreresistancethanIhadanticipated。Isatdownatthefootofthebed,andtoldherhowferventlyIlovedher,andhowunhappyIwasatnotbeingabletogivehermarksofmylovebeforeIleft。
\"But,\"saidshe,laughing,\"youhaveonlygottostay。\"
\"Givemesomehope,andIwillstaytillto—morrow。\"
\"Youareintoomuchofahurry,takethingsmorequietly。\"
Icontentedmyselfwiththefewfavoursshegrantedme,pretendingasusualonlytoyieldtoviolence,whenIwasobligedtorestrainmyselfontheappearanceofherhusband,whotooktheprecautionofmakinganoisebeforehecarnein。Assoonasshesawhim,shesaid,withouttheslightestperturbation,\"Ihavepersuadedthegentlemantostaytellthedayafterto—morrow。\"
\"Iamallthemorepleasedtohearit,mydear,\"saidthechevalier,\"asIowehimhisrevenge。\"
Withthesewordshetookupapackofcards,whichcameasreadilytohishandsasiftheyhadbeenplacedthereonpurpose,andseatinghimselfbesidehiswife,whomhemadeintothetable,hebegantodeal。
Icouldnotdrawback,andasmythoughtsweredistractedIkeptonlosingtilltheycametotellmedinnerwasready。
\"Ihavenotimetodress,\"saidthelady,\"soIwillhavemydinnerinbed,ifyougentlemenwillkeepmecompany。\"
HowcouldIrefuse?Thehusbandwentouttoorderthedinner,andfeelingmyselfauthorizedbythelossoftwentyLouis,ItoldthehussythatifshewouldnotgivemeaplainpromisetomakemehappythatafternoonIshouldgoawaywhenIhadhadmydinner。
\"Breakfastwithmeto—morrowmorning。Weshallbealone。\"
Afterreceivingfromhercertainearnestsofherpromise,Ipromisedtostayon。
Wedinedbyherbedside,andItoldLeDucthatIshouldnotbegoingtilltheafternoonofthenextday,whichmadethehusbandandwiferadiant。Whenwehaddone,theladysaidshewouldliketogetup;
andIwentout,promisingtoreturnandplaypiquetwithher。I
proceededtorelinemypurse,andImetDesarmoises,whosaid,\"Ihavefoundoutthesecret;theygavehercoachmantwoLouistosubstituteasickhorseforhisown。\"
\"It’samatterofgiveandtake,\"saidI;\"Iaminlovewiththechevalier’swife,andIamputtingoffmydeparturetillIhavegotallIwantoutofher。\"
\"Iamafraidyouwillhavetopayprettydearlyforyourpleasure。
However,IwilldowhatIcanforyourinterests。\"
Ithankedhimsmilingly,andreturnedtothelady,whomIleftateighto’clockunderpretextofaviolentheadache,afterhavinglosttenlouistoher。Iremindedherofherpromisefornextmorningatnineo’clock,andIleftherinthemidstofthecompany。
ItwasafinemoonlightnightasIwalkedtowardsthepeasant’shouse,whereIwastoseemydearM————M————oncemore。Iwasimpatienttoseewhatthevisit,onwhichtherestofmylifemightdepend,wouldbringforth。
Ihadtakentheprecautiontoprovidemyselfwithapairofpistols,andmyswordhungatmyside,forIwasnotwhollydevoidofsuspicioninthisplace,wherethereweresomanyadventurers;butattwentypacesfromthecottageIsawthewomancomingtowardsme。Shetoldmethatthenuncouldnotcomedown,soImustbecontenttoenterthroughthewindow,bymeansofaladderwhichshehadplacedthereforthepurpose。Idrewnear,andnotseeinganylightI
shouldnothaveeasilydecidedongoingup,ifIhadnotheardthevoiceIthoughtIknewsowell,saying,\"Fearnothing;come。\"
Besides,thewindowwasnotveryhighup,andtherecouldnotbemuchdangerofatrap。Iascended,andthoughtforcertainthatIheldmydearM————M————inmyarms,asIcoveredherfacewithmyardentkisses。
\"Why,\"saidI,inVenetian,\"haveyounotalight?Ihopeyouaregoingtoinformmeofaneventwhichseemswonderfultome;quick,dearest,satisfymyimpatience。\"
ThereaderwillguessmysurprisewhenhelearnsthatonhearinghervoiceclosetomeIfoundthatshewasnotM————M————。ShetoldmethatshedidnotunderstandVenetian,andthatIdidnotrequirealighttotellherwhatM。deCouderthaddecidedondoingtosaveherfromherperil。
\"Yousurpriseme;IdonotknowM。deCoudert。What!AreyounotaVenetian?AreyounotthenunIsawthismorning?\"
\"Haplessone!Ihavemadeamistake。Iamthenunyousawthismorning,butIamFrench。InthenameofGodkeepmycounselandbegone,forIhavenothingtosaytoyou!Whisper,forifthelay—
sisterwokeupIshouldbeundone。\"
\"Donotbeafraidofmydiscretion。Whatdeceivedmewasyourexactlikenesstoanunofyourorderwhowillbealwaysdeartome:andifyouhadnotallowedmetoseeyourfeaturesIshouldnothavefollowedyou。ForgivethetendernessIshewedtowardsyou,thoughyoumustthinkmeveryaudacious。\"
\"Youastonishedmeverymuch,butyoudidnotoffendme。IwishI
werethenuninwhomyouareinterested。Iamonthebrinkofafearfulprecipice。\"
\"Iftenlouisareanygoodtoyou,itwillbeanhonourformetogiveyouthem。\"
\"Thankyou,Ihavenoneedofmoney。Allowmetogiveyoubackthelouisyousentmethismorning。\"
\"Thelouiswasforthecountry—woman。Youincreasemysurprise;praytellmewhatisthemisfortuneunderwhichyoulabour,forwhichmoneycandonothing。\"
\"PerhapsGodhassentyoutomyaid。Maybeyouwillgivemegoodadvice。ListentowhatIamabouttotellyou。\"
\"Iamatyourservice,andIwilllistenwiththegreatestattention。
Letussitdown。\"
\"Iamafraidthereisneitherseatnorbed。\"
\"Sayon,then;wewillremainstanding。\"
\"IcomefromGrenoble。IwasmadetotaketheveilatChamberi。Twoyearsaftermyprofession,M。deCoudertfoundmeanstoseeme。I
receivedhimintheconventgarden,thewallsofwhichhescaled,andatlastIwassounfortunateastobecomepregnant。Theideaofgivingbirthtoachildattheconventwastoodreadful——IshouldhavelanguishedtillIdiedinaterribledungeon——andM。deCoudertthoughtofaplanfortakingmeoutoftheconvent。AdoctorwhomhegainedoverwithalargesumofmoneydeclaredthatIshoulddieunlessIcameheretotakethewaters,whichhedeclaredweretheonlycureformyillness。AprincesswhomM。deCoudertknewwaspartlyadmittedtothesecret,andsheobtainedtheleaveofabsenceforthreemonthsfromtheBishopofChamberi,andtheabbessconsentedtomygoing。
\"Ithushopedtobedeliveredbeforetheexpirationofthethreemonths;butIhaveassuredlymadeamistake,forthetimedrawstoanendandIfeelnosignsofaspeedydelivery。Iamobligedtoreturntotheconvent,andyetIcannotdoso。Thelay—sisterwhoiswithmeisaperfectshrew。Shehasordersnottoletmespeaktoanybody,andnevertoletmyfacebeseen。Sheitwaswhomademeturnwhenshesawyoufollowingus。IliftedmyveilforyoutoseethatIwassheofwhomIthoughtyouwereinsearch,andhappilythelay—sisterdidnotnoticeme。Shewantsmetoreturnwithhertotheconventinthreedays,asshethinksIhaveanincurabledropsy。Shedoesnotallowmetospeaktothedoctor,whomImight,perhaps,havegainedoverbytellinghimthetruth。Iamonlytwenty—one,andyetIlongfordeath。\"
\"Donotweepso,dearsister,andtellmehowyouexpecttobedeliveredherewithoutthelay—sisterbeingawareofit?\"
\"TheworthywomanwithwhomIamstayingisanangelofgoodness。I
haveconfidedinher,andshepromisedmethatwhenIfeltthepangscomingonshewouldgivethatmaliciouswomanasporific,andthusweshouldbefreedfromallfearsofher。Byvirtueofthedrugshenowsleepssoundlyintheroomunderthisgarret。\"
\"WhywasInotletinbythedoor?\"
\"Topreventthewoman’sbrotherseeingyou;heisarudeboor。\"
\"WhatmadeyouthinkthatIhadanythingtodowithM。deCoudert?\"
\"Tenortwelvedaysago,Iwrotetohimandtoldhimofmydreadfulposition。IpaintedmysituationwithsuchlivelycoloursthatI
thoughthemustdoallinhispowertohelpme。Asthewretchedclingtoeverystraw,Ithought,whenIsawyoufollowingme,thatyouwerethedelivererhehadsent。\"
\"Areyousurehegotyourletter?\"
\"ThewomanposteditatAnneci。\"
\"Youshouldwritetotheprincess。\"
\"Idarenot。\"
\"Iwillseehermyself,andIwillseeM。deCoudert。Infine,I
willmoveheavenandearth,Iwillevengotothebishop,toobtainanextensionofyourleave;foritisoutofthequestionforyoutoreturntotheconventinyourpresentsituation。Youmustdecide,forIcandonothingwithoutyourconsent。Willyoutrustinme?
Ifso,Iwillbringyouaman’sclothesto—morrowandtakeyoutoItalywithme,andwhileIliveIswearIwillcareforyou。\"
Forreply,Ionlyheardlong—drawnsobs,whichdistressedmebeyondwords,forIfeltacutelythesituationofthispoorcreaturewhomHeavenhadmadetobeamother,andwhomthecrueltyofherparentshadcondemnedtobeauselessnun。
Notknowingwhatelsetosay,Itookherhandandpromisedtoreturnthenextdayandhearherdecision,foritwasabsolutelynecessarythatsheshoulddecideonsomeplan。Iwentawaybytheladder,andgaveasecondlouistotheworthywoman,tellingherthatIshouldbewithheronthemorrowatthesamehour,butthatIshouldliketobeabletoenterbythedoor。Ibeggedhertogivethelay—sisterastrongerdoseofopium,sothatthereshouldbenofearofherawakingwhileItalkedwiththeyoungnun。
IwenttobedgladatheartthatIhadbeenwronginthinkingthatthenunwasM————M————。Neverthelessthegreatlikenessbetweenthemmademewishtoseehernearerathand,andIwassurethatshewouldnotrefusemetheprivilegeoflookingatherthenextday。I
smiledatthethoughtoftheardentkissesIhadgivenher,butI
feltthatIcouldnotleavehertoherfate。IwasgladtofindthatIdidnotneedanysensualmotivetourgemetoagooddeed,forassoonasIfoundthatitwasnotM————M————whohadreceivedthosetenderkissesIfeltashamedofhavinggiventhem。IhadnotevengivenherafriendlykisswhenIlefther。
InthemorningDesarmoisescameandtoldmethatallthecompany,notseeingmeatsupper,hadbeenpuzzlingitselftofindoutwhathadbecomeofme。MadameZerolihadspokenenthusiasticallyaboutme,andhadtakenthejestsofthetwootherladiesingoodpart,boastingthatshecouldkeepmeatAixaslongassheremainedthereherself。ThefactwasthatIwasnotamorousbutcuriouswhereshewasconcerned,andIshouldhavebeensorrytohavelefttheplacewithoutobtainingcompletepossessionofher,foronceatallevents。
Ikeptmyappointment,andenteredherroomatnineo’clockexactly。
Ifoundherdressed,andonmyreproachinghershesaidthatitshouldbeofnoconsequencetomewhethersheweredressedorundressed。Iwasangry,andItookmychocolatewithoutsomuchasspeakingtoher。WhenIhadfinishedsheofferedmemyrevengeatpiquet,butIthankedherandbeggedtobeexcused,tellingherthatinthehumourinwhichshehadputmeIshouldprovethebetterplayer,andthatIdidnotcaretowinladies’money。SosayingI
rosetoleavetheroom。
\"Atleastbekindenoughtotakemetothefountain。\"
\"Ithinknot。Ifyoutakemeforafreshman,youmakeamistake,andIdon’tcaretogivetheimpressionthatIampleasedwhenIamdispleased。Youcangetwhomsoeveryoupleasetotakeyoutothefountain,butasformeImustbegtobeexcused。Farewell,madam。\"
WiththesewordsIwentout,payingnoattentiontohereffortstorecallme。
Ifoundtheinn—keeper,andtoldhimthatImustleaveatthreeo’clockwithoutafail。Thelady,whowasatherwindow,couldhearme。Iwentstraighttothefountainwherethechevalieraskedmewhathadbecomeofhiswife,andIansweredthatIhadleftherinherroominperfecthealth。Inhalfanhourwesawhercomingwithastranger,whowaswelcomedbyacertainM。deSt。Maurice。MadameZerolilefthim,andtackedherselfontome,asiftherehadbeennothingthematter。Icouldnotrepulseherwithoutthemosttroublesomeconsequences,butIwasverycold。Aftercomplainingofmyconductshesaidthatshehadonlybeentryingme,thatifI
reallylovedherIshouldputoffmydeparture,andthatIshouldbreakfastwithherateighto’clockthenextday。IansweredcoollythatIwouldthinkitover。Iwasseriousalldinner—time,andsaidonceortwicethatImustgoatthreeo’clock,butasIwantedtofindsomepretextforstayingonaccountofthenun,Iletmyselfbepersuadedintomakingabankatfaro。
IstakedallthegoldIhad,andIsaweveryfacelightupasIputdownaboutfourhundredlouisingold,andaboutsixhundredfrancsinsilver。\"Gentlemen,\"saidI,\"Ishallriseateighto’clockprecisely。\"Thestrangersaid,withasmile,thatpossiblythebankmightnotlivesolong,butIpretendednottounderstandhim。Itwasjustthreeo’clock。IbeggedDesarmoisestobemycroupier,andIbegantodealwithduedeliberationtoeighteenortwentypunters,allprofessionalgamblers。Itookanewpackateverydeal。
Byfiveo’clockIhadlostmoney。Weheardcarriagewheels,andtheysaiditwasthreeEnglishmenfromGeneva,whowerechanginghorsestogoontoChamberi。Amomentaftertheycamein,andIbowed。ItwasMr。Foxandhistwofriends,whohadplayedquinzewithme。Mycroupiergavethemcards,whichtheyreceivedgladly,andwenttenlouis,playingontwoandthreecards,goingparoli,sevenandthe’va’,aswellasthe’quinze’,sothatmybankwasindangerofbreaking。However,Ikeptupmyface,andevenencouragedthemtoplay,for,Godbeingneutral,thechanceswereinmyfavour。Soithappened,andatthethirddealIhadclearedtheEnglishmenout,andtheircarriagewasready。
WhileIwasshufflingafreshpackofcards,theyoungestofthemdrewoutofhispocket—bookapaperwhichhespewedtohistwocompanions。Itwasabillofexchange。\"Willyoustakethevalueofthisbillonacard,withoutknowingitsvalue?\"saidhe。
\"Yes,\"Ireplied,\"ifyouwilltellmeuponwhomitisdrawn,andprovidedthatitdoesnotexceedthevalueofthebank。\"
Afterarapidglanceatthepileofgoldbeforeme,hesaid,\"Thebillisnotforsolargeasumasyourbank,anditispayableatsightbyZappata,ofTurin。\"
Iagreed,hecut,andputhismoneyonanace,thetwofriendsgoinghalfshares。Idrewanddrewanddrew,butnoaceappeared。Ihadonlyadozencardsleft。
\"Sir,\"saidI,calmlytothepunter,\"youcandrawbackifyoulike。\"
\"No,goon。\"
Fourcardsmore,andstillnoace;Ihadonlyeightcardsleft。
\"Mylord,\"saidI,\"it’stwotoonethatIdonotholdtheace,I
repeatyoucandrawback。\"
\"No,no,youaretoogenerous,goon。\"
Icontinueddealing,andwon;Iputthebillofexchangeinmypocketwithoutlookingatit。TheEnglishmenshookmebythehandandwentofflaughing。Iwasenjoyingtheeffectthisboldstrokehadmadeonthecompany,whenyoungFoxcameinandwitharoaroflaughterbeggedmetolendhimfiftyLouis。Icountedthemoutwiththegreatestpleasure,andhepaidmethembackinLondonthreeyearslater。
Everyonewascurioustoknowthevalueofthebillofexchange,butI
wasnotpoliteenoughtosatisfytheircuriosity。ItwasforeightthousandPiedmontesefrancs,asIsawassoonasIwasalone。
TheEnglishmenhadbroughtmegoodluck,forwhentheyhadgonefortunedeclaredforthebank。Iroseateighto’clock,someladieshavingwonafewlouis,alltheothersweredriedup。Ihadwonmorethanathousandlouis,andIgavetwenty—fivetoDesarmoises,whojumpedforjoy。Ilockedupmymoney,putmypistolsinmypocket,andsetouttowardsthemeeting—place。
Theworthypeasantwomanbroughtmeinbythedoor,tellingmethateverybodywasasleep,andthatshehadnotfounditnecessarytorenewthelay—sister’sdose,asshewasstillasleep。
Iwasterrified。Iwentupstairs,andbythelightofasinglecandleIsawthewretched,veiledfigureofthenun,extendeduponasackwhichthepeasantwomanhadplacedalongthewallinsteadofasofa。Thecandlewhichlightedthisdrearyplacewasfixedinabottle。
\"Whathaveyoudecidedondoing?\"saidI。
\"Ihavedecidedonnothing,foranunforeseenincidenthasconfoundedus。Thelay—sisterhasbeenasleepforeighteenhours。\"
\"Shewilldieofconvulsionsorofanapoplecticfitto—nightifyoudonotcalladoctor,whomaypossiblyrestorehertolifewithadoseofcastoroil。\"
\"Wehavethoughtofthat,butwedidnotdaretotakethatstepforfearofconsequences;forwhetherherestoresherornot,hewillsaythatwehavepoisonedher。\"
\"Ipityyou,uponmysoul!Indeed,Ibelievethatitistoolate,andthatadoctorcoulddonothing。Onemustobeythelawsofprudenceandletherdie。Themischiefisdone,andIseenoremedy。\"
\"Atanyrate,weoughttothinkofhersoulandsendforapriest。\"
\"Apriestwoulddohernogood,assheisinaperfectlethargy;hersoulissafeenough。Besides,anignorantpriestwouldfindouttoomuch,andwouldtellthewholestoryeitherthroughmaliceorstupidity。Itwillbetimetocallapriestwhenshehasceasedtobreathe。Youmusttellhimthatshediedverysuddenly;youmustweepagreatdeal,andgivehimafee,andhewillthinkonlyofcalmingyourgrief,andnothingaboutthesuddendeath。\"
\"Thenwemustletherdie?\"
\"Wemustleavehertonature。\"
\"IfshediesIwillsendamessengertotheabbess,whowilldispatchanotherlay—sister。\"
\"Yes,andthatwillgiveyouanothertendays。Duringthattimeyoumaybedelivered,andyouwillconfessthateverycloudhasasilverlining。Donotgrieveso,butletusendeavourtosubmittothewillofGod。Sendforthecountry—woman,forImustgivehersomehintsastoherconductinthisdelicatematter,onwhichthehonourandlifeofallthreemaydepend。Forinstance,ifitwerediscoveredthatIhadcomehere,Imightbetakenforthepoisoner。\"
Thewomancame,andIshewedherhownecessaryitwasforhertobeprudentanddiscreet。Sheunderstoodmeperfectly,perceivedherowndangerousposition,andpromisedthatshewouldnotsendforthepriesttillshewascertainofthesister’sdeath。Ithenmadeheraccepttenlouisincaseofneed。
Seeingherselfmaderichbymyliberality,shekissedmyhands,kneltdown,andburstingintotearspromisedtofollowmyadvicecarefully。
Whenshehadleftus,thenunbegantoweepbitterly,accusingherselfofthemurderofthelay—sister,andthinkingthatshesawhellopeningbeneathherfeet。Isoughtinvaintocalmher;hergriefincreased,andatlastshefellinadeadfaintonthesack。I
wasextremelydistressed,andnotknowingwhattodoIcalledtothewomantobringsomevinegar,asIhadnoessencesaboutme。AllatonceIrememberedthefamoushellebore,whichhadservedmesowellwithMadameand,takingthelittlebox,Iheldittohernostrils。
Ittookeffectjustasthewomanbroughtthevinegar。\"Rubhertemples,\"saidI。Shetookoffhercap,andtheblacknessofherhairwastheonlythingthatconvincedmeitwasnotmyfairVenetian。Thehelleborehavingbroughthertohersenses,sheopenedherlargeblackeyes,andfromthatmomentIfellmadlyinlovewithher。Thepeasantwoman,seeingthatshewasherselfagainandoutofdanger,wentaway,andtakingherbetweenmyarmsIcoveredherwithfierykisses,inspiteofhercontinuoussneezes。