第6章
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  `Youmustaskforchampagne,\'camethewhispering,gentlemanlyvoiceoftheother。

  Geraldsuddenlyrealisedthatthiswasahinttohim。

  `Shallwehavechampagne?\'heasked,laughing。

  `Yesplease,dwy,\'shelispedchildishly。

  Geraldwatchedhereatingtheoysters。Shewasdelicateandfinickinginhereating,herfingerswerefineandseemedverysensitiveinthetips,sosheputherfoodapartwithfine,smallmotions,sheatecarefully,delicately。Itpleasedhimverymuchtoseeher,anditirritatedBirkin。

  Theywerealldrinkingchampagne。Maxim,theprimyoungRussianwiththesmooth,warm—colouredfaceandblack,oiledhairwastheonlyonewhoseemedtobeperfectlycalmandsober。Birkinwaswhiteandabstract,unnatural,Geraldwassmilingwithaconstantbright,amused,coldlightinhiseyes,leaningalittleprotectivelytowardsthePussum,whowasveryhandsome,andsoft,unfoldedlikesomeredlotusindreadfulfloweringnakedness,vaingloriousnow,flushedwithwineandwiththeexcitementofmen。Hallidaylookedfoolish。Oneglassofwinewasenoughtomakehimdrunkandgiggling。

  Yettherewasalwaysapleasant,warmnaiveteabouthim,thatmadehimattractive。

  `I\'mnotafwaidofanythingexceptblack—beetles,\'saidthePussum,lookingupsuddenlyandstaringwithherblackeyes,onwhichthereseemedanunseeingfilmofflame,fullyuponGerald。Helaugheddangerously,fromtheblood。Herchildishspeechcaressedhisnerves,andherburning,filmedeyes,turnednowfulluponhim,obliviousofallherantecedents,gavehimasortoflicence。

  `I\'mnot,\'sheprotested。`I\'mnotafraidofotherthings。Butblack—beetles——ugh!\'sheshudderedconvulsively,asiftheverythoughtweretoomuchtobear。

  `Doyoumean,\'saidGerald,withthepunctiliousnessofamanwhohasbeendrinking,`thatyouareafraidofthesightofablack—beetle,oryouareafraidofablack—beetlebitingyou,ordoingyousomeharm?\'

  `Dotheybite?\'criedthegirl。

  `Howperfectlyloathsome!\'exclaimedHalliday。

  `Idon\'tknow,\'repliedGerald,lookingroundthetable。`Doblack—beetlesbite?Butthatisn\'tthepoint。Areyouafraidoftheirbiting,orisitametaphysicalantipathy?\'

  Thegirlwaslookingfulluponhimallthetimewithinchoateeyes。

  `Oh,Ithinkthey\'rebeastly,they\'rehorrid,\'shecried。`IfIseeone,itgivesmethecreepsallover。Ifoneweretocrawlonme,I\'msureIshoulddie——I\'msureIshould。\'

  `Ihopenot,\'whisperedtheyoungRussian。

  `I\'msureIshould,Maxim,\'sheasseverated。

  `Thenonewon\'tcrawlonyou,\'saidGerald,smilingandknowing。Insomestrangewayheunderstoodher。

  `It\'smetaphysical,asGeraldsays,\'Birkinstated。

  Therewasalittlepauseofuneasiness。

  `Andareyouafraidofnothingelse,Pussum?\'askedtheyoungRussian,inhisquick,hushed,elegantmanner。

  `Notweally,\'shesaid。`Iamafwaidofsomethings,butnotweallythesame。I\'mnotafwaidofblood。\'

  `Notafwaidofblood!\'exclaimedayoungmanwithathick,pale,jeeringface,whohadjustcometothetableandwasdrinkingwhisky。

  ThePussumturnedonhimasulkylookofdislike,lowandugly。

  `Aren\'tyoureallyafraidofblud?\'theotherpersisted,asneeralloverhisface。

  `No,I\'mnot,\'sheretorted。

  `Why,haveyoueverseenblood,exceptinadentist\'sspittoon?\'jeeredtheyoungman。

  `Iwasn\'tspeakingtoyou,\'sherepliedrathersuperbly。

  `Youcananswerme,can\'tyou?\'hesaid。

  Forreply,shesuddenlyjabbedaknifeacrosshisthick,palehand。

  Hestartedupwithavulgarcurse。

  `Show\'swhatyouare,\'saidthePussumincontempt。

  `Curseyou,\'saidtheyoungman,standingbythetableandlookingdownatherwithacridmalevolence。

  `Stopthat,\'saidGerald,inquick,instinctivecommand。

  Theyoungmanstoodlookingdownatherwithsardoniccontempt,acowed,self—consciouslookonhisthick,paleface。Thebloodbegantoflowfromhishand。

  `Oh,howhorrible,takeitaway!\'squealedHalliday,turninggreenandavertinghisface。

  `D\'youfeelill?\'askedthesardonicyoungman,insomeconcern。`Doyoufeelill,Julius?Garn,it\'snothing,man,don\'tgiveherthepleasureoflettingherthinkshe\'sperformedafeat——don\'tgiveherthesatisfaction,man——it\'sjustwhatshewants。\'

  `Oh!\'squealedHalliday。

  `He\'sgoingtocat,Maxim,\'saidthePussumwarningly。ThesuaveyoungRussianroseandtookHallidaybythearm,leadinghimaway。Birkin,whiteanddiminished,lookedonasifheweredispleased。Thewounded,sardonicyoungmanmovedaway,ignoringhisbleedinghandinthemostconspicuousfashion。

  `He\'sanawfulcoward,really,\'saidthePussumtoGerald。`He\'sgotsuchaninfluenceoverJulius。\'

  `Whoishe?\'askedGerald。

  `He\'saJew,really。Ican\'tbearhim。\'

  `Well,he\'squiteunimportant。Butwhat\'swrongwithHalliday?\'

  `Julius\'sthemostawfulcowardyou\'veeverseen,\'shecried。`HealwaysfaintsifIliftaknife——he\'stewwifiedofme。\'

  `H\'m!\'saidGerald。

  `They\'reallafwaidofme,\'shesaid。`OnlytheJewthinkshe\'sgoingtoshowhiscourage。Buthe\'sthebiggestcowardofthemall,really,becausehe\'safwaidwhatpeoplewillthinkabouthim——andJuliusdoesn\'tcareaboutthat。\'

  `They\'vealotofvalourbetweenthem,\'saidGeraldgood—humouredly。

  ThePussumlookedathimwithaslow,slowsmile。Shewasveryhandsome,flushed,andconfidentindreadfulknowledge。TwolittlepointsoflightglintedonGerald\'seyes。

  `WhydotheycallyouPussum,becauseyou\'relikeacat?\'heaskedher。

  `Iexpectso,\'shesaid。

  Thesmilegrewmoreintenseonhisface。

  `Youare,rather;orayoung,femalepanther。\'

  `OhGod,Gerald!\'saidBirkin,insomedisgust。

  TheybothlookeduneasilyatBirkin。

  `You\'resilenttonight,Wupert,\'shesaidtohim,withaslightinsolence,beingsafewiththeotherman。

  Hallidaywascomingback,lookingforlornandsick。

  `Pussum,\'hesaid,`Iwishyouwouldn\'tdothesethings——Oh!\'Hesankinhischairwithagroan。

  `You\'dbettergohome,\'shesaidtohim。

  `Iwillgohome,\'hesaid。`Butwon\'tyouallcomealong。Won\'tyoucomeroundtotheflat?\'hesaidtoGerald。`Ishouldbesogladifyouwould。Do——that\'llbesplendid。Isay?\'Helookedroundforawaiter。

  `Getmeataxi。\'Thenhegroanedagain。`OhIdofeel——perfectlyghastly!

  Pussum,youseewhatyoudotome。\'

  `Thenwhyareyousuchanidiot?\'shesaidwithsullencalm。

  `ButI\'mnotanidiot!Oh,howawful!Docome,everybody,itwillbesosplendid。Pussum,youarecoming。What?Ohbutyoumustcome,yes,youmust。What?Oh,mydeargirl,don\'tmakeafussnow,Ifeelperfectly——Oh,it\'ssoghastly——Ho!——er!Oh!\'

  `Youknowyoucan\'tdrink,\'shesaidtohim,coldly。

  `Itellyouitisn\'tdrink——it\'syourdisgustingbehaviour,Pussum,it\'snothingelse。Oh,howawful!Libidnikov,doletusgo。\'

  `He\'sonlydrunkoneglass——onlyoneglass,\'cametherapid,hushedvoiceoftheyoungRussian。

  Theyallmovedofftothedoor。ThegirlkeptneartoGerald,andseemedtobeatoneinhermotionwithhim。Hewasawareofthis,andfilledwithdemon—satisfactionthathismotionheldgoodfortwo。Heheldherinthehollowofhiswill,andshewassoft,secret,invisibleinherstirringthere。

  Theycrowdedfiveofthemintothetaxi—cab。Hallidaylurchedinfirst,anddroppedintohisseatagainsttheotherwindow。ThenthePussumtookherplace,andGeraldsatnexttoher。TheyheardtheyoungRussiangivingorderstothedriver,thentheywereallseatedinthedark,crowdedclosetogether,Hallidaygroaningandleaningoutofthewindow。Theyfelttheswift,muffledmotionofthecar。

  ThePussumsatneartoGerald,andsheseemedtobecomesoft,subtlytoinfuseherselfintohisbones,asifshewerepassingintohiminablack,electricflow。Herbeingsuffusedintohisveinslikeamagneticdarkness,andconcentratedatthebaseofhisspinelikeafearfulsourceofpower。Meanwhilehervoicesoundedoutreedyandnonchalant,asshetalkedindifferentlywithBirkinandwithMaxim。BetweenherandGeraldwasthissilenceandthisblack,electriccomprehensioninthedarkness。

  Thenshefoundhishand,andgraspeditinherownfirm,smallclasp。Itwassoutterlydark,andyetsuchanakedstatement,thatrapidvibrationsranthroughhisbloodandoverhisbrain,hewasnolongerresponsible。

  Stillhervoicerangonlikeabell,tingedwithatoneofmockery。Andassheswungherhead,herfinemaneofhairjustswepthisface,andallhisnerveswereonfire,aswithasubtlefrictionofelectricity。Butthegreatcentreofhisforceheldsteady,amagnificentpridetohim,atthebaseofhisspine。

  Theyarrivedatalargeblockofbuildings,wentupinalift,andpresentlyadoorwasbeingopenedforthembyaHindu。Geraldlookedinsurprise,wonderingifhewereagentleman,oneoftheHindusdownfromOxford,perhaps。

  Butno,hewastheman—servant。

  `Maketea,Hasan,\'saidHalliday。

  `Thereisaroomforme?\'saidBirkin。

  Tobothofwhichquestionsthemangrinned,andmurmured。

  HemadeGeralduncertain,because,beingtallandslenderandreticent,helookedlikeagentleman。

  `Whoisyourservant?\'heaskedofHalliday。`Helooksaswell。\'

  `Ohyes——that\'sbecausehe\'sdressedinanotherman\'sclothes。He\'sanythingbutaswell,really。Wefoundhimintheroad,starving。SoI

  tookhimhere,andanothermangavehimclothes。He\'sanythingbutwhatheseemstobe——hisonlyadvantageisthathecan\'tspeakEnglishandcan\'tunderstandit,sohe\'sperfectlysafe。\'

  `He\'sverydirty,\'saidtheyoungRussianswiftlyandsilently。

  Directly,themanappearedinthedoorway。

  `Whatisit?\'saidHalliday。

  TheHindugrinned,andmurmuredshyly:

  `Wanttospeaktomaster。\'

  Geraldwatchedcuriously。Thefellowinthedoorwaywasgoodlookingandclean—limbed,hisbearingwascalm,helookedelegant,aristocratic。

  Yethewashalfasavage,grinningfoolishly。Hallidaywentoutintothecorridortospeakwithhim。

  `What?\'theyheardhisvoice。`What?Whatdoyousay?Tellmeagain。

  What?Wantmoney?Wantmoremoney?Butwhatdoyouwantmoneyfor?\'

  TherewastheconfusedsoundoftheHindu\'stalking,thenHallidayappearedintheroom,smilingalsofoolishly,andsaying:

  `Hesayshewantsmoneytobuyunderclothing。Cananybodylendmeashilling?Ohthanks,ashillingwilldotobuyalltheunderclotheshewants。\'HetookthemoneyfromGeraldandwentoutintothepassageagain,wheretheyheardhimsaying,`Youcan\'twantmoremoney,youhadthreeandsixyesterday。Youmustn\'taskforanymore。Bringtheteainquickly。\'

  Geraldlookedroundtheroom。ItwasanordinaryLondonsitting—roominaflat,evidentlytakenfurnished,rathercommonandugly。Buttherewereseveralnegrostatues,wood—carvingsfromWestAfrica,strangeanddisturbing,thecarvednegroeslookedalmostlikethefoetusofahumanbeing。Onewasawomansittingnakedinastrangeposture,andlookingtortured,herabdomenstuckout。TheyoungRussianexplainedthatshewassittinginchild—birth,clutchingtheendsofthebandthathungfromherneck,oneineachhand,sothatshecouldbeardown,andhelplabour。Thestrange,transfixed,rudimentaryfaceofthewomanagainremindedGeraldofafoetus,itwasalsoratherwonderful,conveyingthesuggestionoftheextremeofphysicalsensation,beyondthelimitsofmentalconsciousness。

  `Aren\'ttheyratherobscene?\'heasked,disapproving。

  `Idon\'tknow,\'murmuredtheotherrapidly。`Ihaveneverdefinedtheobscene。Ithinktheyareverygood。\'

  Geraldturnedaway。Therewereoneortwonewpicturesintheroom,intheFuturistmanner;therewasalargepiano。Andthese,withsomeordinaryLondonlodging—housefurnitureofthebettersort,completedthewhole。

  ThePussumhadtakenoffherhatandcoat,andwasseatedonthesofa。

  Shewasevidentlyquiteathomeinthehouse,butuncertain,suspended。

  Shedidnotquiteknowherposition。HerallianceforthetimebeingwaswithGerald,andshedidnotknowhowfarthiswasadmittedbyanyofthemen。Shewasconsideringhowsheshouldcarryoffthesituation。Shewasdeterminedtohaveherexperience。Now,atthiseleventhhour,shewasnottobebaulked。Herfacewasflushedaswithbattle,hereyewasbroodingbutinevitable。

  ThemancameinwithteaandabottleofKummel。Hesetthetrayonalittletablebeforethecouch。

  `Pussum,\'saidHalliday,`pouroutthetea。\'

  Shedidnotmove。

  `Won\'tyoudoit?\'Hallidayrepeated,inastateofnervousapprehension。

  `I\'venotcomebackhereasitwasbefore,\'shesaid。`Ionlycamebecausetheotherswantedmeto,notforyoursake。\'

  `MydearPussum,youknowyouareyourownmistress。Idon\'twantyoutodoanythingbutusetheflatforyourownconvenience——youknowit,I\'vetoldyousomanytimes。\'

  Shedidnotreply,butsilently,reservedlyreachedforthetea—pot。

  Theyallsatroundanddranktea。Geraldcouldfeeltheelectricconnectionbetweenhimandhersostrongly,asshesattherequietandwithheld,thatanothersetofconditionsaltogetherhadcometopass。Hersilenceandherimmutabilityperplexedhim。Howwashegoingtocometoher?

  Andyethefeltitquiteinevitable。Hetrustedcompletelytothecurrentthatheldthem。Hisperplexitywasonlysuperficial,newconditionsreigned,theoldweresurpassed;hereonedidasonewaspossessedtodo,nomatterwhatitwas。

  Birkinrose。Itwasnearlyoneo\'clock。

  `I\'mgoingtobed,\'hesaid。`Gerald,I\'llringyouupinthemorningatyourplaceoryouringmeuphere。\'

  `Right,\'saidGerald,andBirkinwentout。

  Whenhewaswellgone,Hallidaysaidinastimulatedvoice,toGerald:

  `Isay,won\'tyoustayhere——ohdo!\'

  `Youcan\'tputeverybodyup,\'saidGerald。

  `OhbutIcan,perfectly——therearethreemorebedsbesidesmine——

  dostay,won\'tyou。Everythingisquiteready——thereisalwayssomebodyhere——Ialwaysputpeopleup——Ilovehavingthehousecrowded。\'

  `Butthereareonlytworooms,\'saidthePussum,inacold,hostilevoice,`nowRupert\'shere。\'

  `Iknowthereareonlytworooms,\'saidHalliday,inhisodd,highwayofspeaking。`Butwhatdoesthatmatter?\'

  Hewassmilingratherfoolishly,andhespokeeagerly,withaninsinuatingdetermination。

  `JuliusandIwillshareoneroom,\'saidtheRussianinhisdiscreet,precisevoice。HallidayandhewerefriendssinceEton。

  `It\'sverysimple,\'saidGerald,risingandpressingbackhisarms,stretchinghimself。Thenhewentagaintolookatoneofthepictures。

  Everyoneofhislimbswasturgidwithelectricforce,andhisbackwastenselikeatiger\'s,withslumberingfire。Hewasveryproud。

  ThePussumrose。ShegaveablacklookatHalliday,blackanddeadly,whichbroughttheratherfoolishlypleasedsmiletothatyoungman\'sface。

  Thenshewentoutoftheroom,withacoldgood—nighttothemallgenerally。

  Therewasabriefinterval,theyheardadoorclose,thenMaximsaid,inhisrefinedvoice:

  `That\'sallright。\'

  HelookedsignificantlyatGerald,andsaidagain,withasilentnod:

  `That\'sallright——you\'reallright。\'

  Geraldlookedatthesmooth,ruddy,comelyface,andatthestrange,significanteyes,anditseemedasifthevoiceoftheyoungRussian,sosmallandperfect,soundedinthebloodratherthanintheair。

  `I\'mallrightthen,\'saidGerald。

  `Yes!Yes!You\'reallright,\'saidtheRussian。

  Hallidaycontinuedtosmile,andtosaynothing。

  SuddenlythePussumappearedagaininthedoor,hersmall,childishfacelookingsullenandvindictive。

  `Iknowyouwanttocatchmeout,\'camehercold,ratherresonantvoice。

  `ButIdon\'tcare,Idon\'tcarehowmuchyoucatchmeout。\'

  Sheturnedandwasgoneagain。Shehadbeenwearingaloosedressing—gownofpurplesilk,tiedroundherwaist。Shelookedsosmallandchildishandvulnerable,almostpitiful。AndyettheblacklooksofhereyesmadeGeraldfeeldrownedinsomepotentdarknessthatalmostfrightenedhim。

  Themenlitanothercigaretteandtalkedcasually。

  WomenInLove:Chapter7CHAPTERVIIFetishINTHEMORNINGGeraldwokelate。Hehadsleptheavily。

  Pussumwasstillasleep,sleepingchildishlyandpathetically。Therewassomethingsmallandcurledupanddefencelessabouther,thatrousedanunsatisfiedflameofpassionintheyoungman\'sblood,adevouringavidpity。Helookedatheragain。Butitwouldbetoocrueltowakeher。Hesubduedhimself,andwentaway。

  Hearingvoicescomingfromthesitting—room,HallidaytalkingtoLibidnikov,hewenttothedoorandglancedin。Hehadonasilkwrapofabeautifulbluishcolour,withanamethysthem。

  Tohissurprisehesawthetwoyoungmenbythefire,starknaked。Hallidaylookedup,ratherpleased。

  `Good—morning,\'hesaid。`Oh——didyouwanttowels?\'Andstarknakedhewentoutintothehall,stridingastrange,whitefigurebetweentheunlivingfurniture。Hecamebackwiththetowels,andtookhisformerposition,crouchingseatedbeforethefireonthefender。

  `Don\'tyoulovetofeelthefireonyourskin?\'hesaid。

  `Itisratherpleasant,\'saidGerald。

  `Howperfectlysplendiditmustbetobeinaclimatewhereonecoulddowithoutclothingaltogether,\'saidHalliday。

  `Yes,\'saidGerald,`ifthereweren\'tsomanythingsthatstingandbite。\'

  `That\'sadisadvantage,\'murmuredMaxim。

  Geraldlookedathim,andwithaslightrevulsionsawthehumananimal,goldenskinnedandbare,somehowhumiliating。Hallidaywasdifferent。Hehadaratherheavy,slack,brokenbeauty,whiteandfirm。HewaslikeaChristinaPieta。Theanimalwasnotthereatall,onlytheheavy,brokenbeauty。AndGeraldrealisedhowHalliday\'seyeswerebeautifultoo,soblueandwarmandconfused,brokenalsointheirexpression。Thefireglowfellonhisheavy,ratherbowedshoulders,hesatslacklycrouchedonthefender,hisfacewasuplifted,weak,perhapsslightlydisintegrate,andyetwithamovingbeautyofitsown。

  `Ofcourse,\'saidMaxim,`you\'vebeeninhotcountrieswherethepeoplegoaboutnaked。\'

  `Ohreally!\'exclaimedHalliday。`Where?\'

  `SouthAmerica——Amazon,\'saidGerald。

  `Ohbuthowperfectlysplendid!It\'soneofthethingsIwantmosttodo——tolivefromdaytodaywithouteverputtingonanysortofclothingwhatever。IfIcoulddothat,IshouldfeelIhadlived。\'

  `Butwhy?\'saidGerald。`Ican\'tseethatitmakessomuchdifference。\'

  `Oh,Ithinkitwouldbeperfectlysplendid。I\'msurelifewouldbeentirelyanotherthing——entirelydifferent,andperfectlywonderful。\'

  `Butwhy?\'askedGerald。`Whyshouldit?\'

  `Oh——onewouldfeelthingsinsteadofmerelylookingatthem。

  Ishouldfeeltheairmoveagainstme,andfeelthethingsItouched,insteadofhavingonlytolookatthem。I\'msurelifeisallwrongbecauseithasbecomemuchtoovisual——wecanneitherhearnorfeelnorunderstand,wecanonlysee。I\'msurethatisentirelywrong。\'

  `Yes,thatistrue,thatistrue,\'saidtheRussian。

  Geraldglancedathim,andsawhim,hissuave,goldencolouredbodywiththeblackhairgrowingfineandfreely,liketendrils,andhislimbslikesmoothplant—stems。Hewassohealthyandwell—made,whydidhemakeoneashamed,whydidonefeelrepelled?WhyshouldGeraldevendislikeit,whydiditseemtohimtodetractfromhisowndignity。Wasthatallahumanbeingamountedto?Souninspired!thoughtGerald。

  Birkinsuddenlyappearedinthedoorway,inwhitepyjamasandwethair,andatoweloverhisarm。Hewasaloofandwhite,andsomehowevanescent。

  `There\'sthebath—roomnow,ifyouwantit,\'hesaidgenerally,andwasgoingawayagain,whenGeraldcalled:

  `Isay,Rupert!\'

  `What?\'Thesinglewhitefigureappearedagain,apresenceintheroom。

  `Whatdoyouthinkofthatfigurethere?Iwanttoknow,\'Geraldasked。

  Birkin,whiteandstrangelyghostly,wentovertothecarvedfigureofthenegrowomaninlabour。Hernude,protuberantbodycrouchedinastrange,clutchingposture,herhandsgrippingtheendsoftheband,aboveherbreast。

  `Itisart,\'saidBirkin。

  `Verybeautiful,it\'sverybeautiful,\'saidtheRussian。

  Theyalldrewneartolook。Geraldlookedatthegroupofmen,theRussiangoldenandlikeawater—plant,Hallidaytallandheavily,brokenlybeautiful,Birkinverywhiteandindefinite,nottobeassigned,ashelookedcloselyatthecarvenwoman。Strangelyelated,Geraldalsoliftedhiseyestothefaceofthewoodenfigure。Andhisheartcontracted。

  Hesawvividlywithhisspiritthegrey,forward—stretchingfaceofthenegrowoman,Africanandtense,abstractedinutterphysicalstress。

  Itwasaterribleface,void,peaked,abstractedalmostintomeaninglessnessbytheweightofsensationbeneath。HesawthePussuminit。Asinadream,heknewher。

  `Whyisitart?\'Geraldasked,shocked,resentful。

  `Itconveysacompletetruth,\'saidBirkin。`Itcontainsthewholetruthofthatstate,whateveryoufeelaboutit。\'

  `Butyoucan\'tcallithighart,\'saidGerald。

  `High!Therearecenturiesandhundredsofcenturiesofdevelopmentinastraightline,behindthatcarving;itisanawfulpitchofculture,ofadefinitesort。\'

  `Whatculture?\'Geraldasked,inopposition。HehatedthesheerAfricanthing。

  `Purecultureinsensation,cultureinthephysicalconsciousness,reallyultimatephysicalconsciousness,mindless,utterlysensual。Itissosensualastobefinal,supreme。\'

  ButGeraldresentedit。Hewantedtokeepcertainillusions,certainideaslikeclothing。

  `Youlikethewrongthings,Rupert,\'hesaid,`thingsagainstyourself。\'

  `Oh,Iknow,thisisn\'teverything,\'Birkinreplied,movingaway。

  WhenGeraldwentbacktohisroomfromthebath,healsocarriedhisclothes。Hewassoconventionalathome,thatwhenhewasreallyaway,andontheloose,asnow,heenjoyednothingsomuchasfulloutrageousness。

  Sohestrodewithhisbluesilkwrapoverhisarmandfeltdefiant。

  ThePussumlayinherbed,motionless,herround,darkeyeslikeblack,unhappypools。Hecouldonlyseetheblack,bottomlesspoolsofhereyes。

  Perhapsshesuffered。Thesensationofherinchoatesufferingrousedtheoldsharpflameinhim,amordantpity,apassionalmostofcruelty。

  `Youareawakenow,\'hesaidtoher。

  `Whattimeisit?\'camehermutedvoice。

  Sheseemedtoflowback,almostlikeliquid,fromhisapproach,tosinkhelplesslyawayfromhim。Herinchoatelookofaviolatedslave,whosefulfilmentliesinherfurtherandfurtherviolation,madehisnervesquiverwithacutelydesirablesensation。Afterall,hiswastheonlywill,shewasthepassivesubstanceofhiswill。Hetingledwiththesubtle,bitingsensation。Andthenheknew,hemustgoawayfromher,theremustbepureseparationbetweenthem。

  Itwasaquietandordinarybreakfast,thefourmenalllookingverycleanandbathed。GeraldandtheRussianwerebothcorrectandcommeilfautinappearanceandmanner,Birkinwasgauntandsick,andlookedafailureinhisattempttobeaproperlydressedman,likeGeraldandMaxim。Hallidayworetweedsandagreenflannelshirt,andaragofatie,whichwasjustrightforhim。TheHindubroughtinagreatdealofsofttoast,andlookedexactlythesameashehadlookedthenightbefore,staticallythesame。

  AttheendofthebreakfastthePussumappeared,inapurplesilkwrapwithashimmeringsash。Shehadrecoveredherselfsomewhat,butwasmuteandlifelessstill。Itwasatormenttoherwhenanybodyspoketoher。

  Herfacewaslikeasmall,finemask,sinistertoo,maskedwithunwillingsuffering。Itwasalmostmidday。Geraldroseandwentawaytohisbusiness,gladtogetout。Buthehadnotfinished。Hewascomingbackagainatevening,theywerealldiningtogether,andhehadbookedseatsfortheparty,exceptingBirkin,atamusic—hall。

  Atnighttheycamebacktotheflatverylateagain,againflushedwithdrink。Againtheman—servant——whoinvariablydisappearedbetweenthehoursoftenandtwelveatnight——cameinsilentlyandinscrutablywithtea,bendinginaslow,strange,leopard—likefashiontoputthetraysoftlyonthetable。Hisfacewasimmutable,aristocratic—looking,tingedslightlywithgreyundertheskin;hewasyoungandgood—looking。ButBirkinfeltaslightsickness,lookingathim,andfeelingtheslightgreynessasanashoracorruption,inthearistocraticinscrutabilityofexpressionanauseating,bestialstupidity。

  Againtheytalkedcordiallyandrousedlytogether。Butalreadyacertainfriabilitywascomingovertheparty,Birkinwasmadwithirritation,HallidaywasturninginaninsanehatredagainstGerald,thePussumwasbecominghardandcold,likeaflintknife,andHallidaywaslayinghimselfouttoher。Andherintention,ultimately,wastocaptureHalliday,tohavecompletepoweroverhim。

  Inthemorningtheyallstalkedandloungedaboutagain。ButGeraldcouldfeelastrangehostilitytohimself,intheair。Itrousedhisobstinacy,andhestoodupagainstit。Hehungonfortwomoredays。TheresultwasanastyandinsanescenewithHallidayonthefourthevening。HallidayturnedwithabsurdanimosityuponGerald,inthecafe。Therewasarow。

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