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  Awerejusta—restin\'meataftera\'dcomedin,nothalfanhouri\'t\'

  place。A\'vewalkedbetternoradozenmileto—day;an\'aranout,an\'alooked,an\'justont\'walk,att\'turn,wast\'swishofawaverunnin\'

  backasquickast\'mischiefint\'t\'sea,an\'oudJeremiahstandin\'likeonecrazy,lookin\'o\'erint\'t\'watter;an\'likeastrokeo\'leeghtnin\'

  comesaman,an\'int\'t\'verymidsto\'t\'greatwaveslikeashot;an\'

  thenaknowedsummutwereint\'watteraswerenearerdeaththanlife;

  an\'aseemedtomisdoubtmethatitwereourBella;an\'ashoutsan\'acriesforhelp,an\'agoesmysel\'tot\'veryedgeo\'t\'cliff,an,abidsoudJeremiah,aswaslikeonebesidehissel\',houdtightonme,forheweregoodfornoughtelse;an\'abidesmytime,an\'whenaseestwoarmshoudin\'outalittledrippin\'streamin\'child,aclutchesherbyherwaist—band,an\'haulshertoland。She\'snoanet\'worseforherbath,a\'llbebound。\'\'Imungo——letme,\'saidSylvia,strugglingwithhisdetaininghand,whichhehadlaiduponherinthefearthatshewouldslipdowntothegroundinafaint,soashen—greywasherface。\'Letme,——Bella,Imungoseeher。\'Heletgo,andshestoodstill,suddenlyfeelingherselftooweaktostir。\'Now,ifyou\'lltryabittobequiet,a\'llleadyo\'along;butyo\'munbeasteadyandbravelass。\'\'I\'llbeaughtifyo\'onlyletmeseeBella,\'saidSylvia,humbly。\'An\'yo\'niveraxatafterhimassavedher。\'saidKester,reproachfully。\'Iknowit\'sPhilip,\'shewhispered,\'andyo\'saidhewantedme;soIknowhe\'ssafe;and,Kester,IthinkI\'m\'fearedonhim,andI\'dliketogathercourageaforeseeinghim,andalookatBellawouldgivemecourage。ItwereaterribletimewhenIsawhimlast,andIdidsay————\'\'Niverthinkonwhatthoudidsay;thinkonwhatthouwillsaytohimnow,forheliesa—dyin\'!Heweredashedagaint\'cliffan\'bruisedsoreinhisinnardsaforet\'menascomewi\'aboatcouldpickhimup。\'Shedidnotspeak;shedidnoteventremblenow;shesetherteethtogether,and,holdingtightbyKester,sheurgedhimon;butwhentheycametotheendofthebridge,sheseemeduncertainwhichwaytoturn。\'Thisway,\'saidKester。\'He\'sbeenlodgin\'wi\'Sallythisnineweek,an\'

  niveraoneaboutt\'placeasknowedhim;he\'sbeeni\'t\'warsan\'gettenhisfacebrunt。\'\'Andhewasshorto\'food,\'moanedSylvia,\'andwehadplenty,andItriedtomakeyo\'rsisterturnhimout,andsendhimaway。Oh!willGodiverforgiveme?\'Mutteringtoherself,breakinghermutteringswithsharpcriesofpain,Sylvia,withKester\'shelp,reachedwidowDobson\'shouse。Itwasnolongeraquiet,lonelydwelling。Severalsailorsstoodaboutthedoor,awaiting,insilentanxiety,fortheverdictofthedoctor,whowasevennowexaminingPhilip\'sinjuries。Twoorthreewomenstoodtalkingeagerly,inlowvoices,inthedoorway。ButwhenSylviadrewnearthemenfellback;andthewomenmovedasideasthoughtoallowhertopass,alllookinguponherwithacertainamountofsympathy,butperhapswithrathermoreofantagonisticwonderastohowshewastakingit——shewhohadbeenlivingineaseandcomfortwhileherhusband\'sshelterwaslittlebetterthanahovel,herhusband\'sdailylifeastrugglewithstarvation;forsomuchofthelodgeratwidowDobson\'swaspopularlyknown;andanydistrustofhimasastrangerandatrampwasquiteforgottennow。Sylviafeltthehardnessoftheirlooks,thehardnessoftheirsilence;

  butitwasasnothingtoher。Ifsuchthingscouldhavetouchedheratthismoment,shewouldnothavestoodstillrightinthemidstoftheiravertedhearts,andmurmuredsomethingtoKester。Hecouldnothearthewordsutteredbythathoarsechokedvoice,untilhehadstoopeddownandbroughthiseartothelevelofhermouth。\'We\'dbetterwaitfort\'doctorstocomeout,\'shesaidagain。Shestoodbythedoor,shiveringallover,almostfacingthepeopleintheroad,butwithherfaceturnedalittletotheright,sothattheythoughtshewaslookingatthepathwayonthecliff—side,ahundredyardsorsodistant,belowwhichthehungrywavesstilllashedthemselvesintohighascendingspray;whilenearertothecottage,wheretheirforcewasbrokenbythebarattheentrancetotheriver,theycamesoftlylappinguptheshelvingshore。Sylviasawnothingofallthis,thoughitwasstraightbeforehereyes。

  Sheonlysawablurredmist;sheheardnosoundofwaters,thoughitfilledtheearsofthosearound。InsteadsheheardlowwhisperspronouncingPhilip\'searthlydoom。Forthedoctorswerebothagreed;hisinternalinjurywasofamortalkind,although,asthespinewasseverelyinjuredabovetheseatofthefatalbruise,hehadnopaininthelowerhalfofhisbody。TheyhadspokeninsolowatonethatJohnFoster,standingonlyafootorsoaway,hadnotbeenabletoheartheirwords。ButSylviaheardeachsyllabletherewhereshestoodoutside,shiveringalloverinthesultrysummerevening。SheturnedroundtoKester。\'Imungotohim,Kester;thou\'llseethatnoanecomeintous,whent\'

  doctorscomeout。\'Shespokeinasoft,calmvoice;andhe,notknowingwhatshehadheard,madesomeeasyconditionalpromise。Thenthoseoppositetothecottagedoorfellback,fortheycouldseethegravedoctorscomingout,andJohnFoster,graver,sadderstill,followingthem。Withoutawordtothem——withoutawordevenofinquiry——whichmanyoutsidethoughtandspokeofasstrange——white—faced,dry—eyedSylviaslippedintothehouseoutoftheirsight。Andthewaveskeptlappingontheshelvingshore。Theroominsidewasdark,allexceptthelittlehaloorcircleoflightmadebyadip—candle。WidowDobsonhadherbacktothebed——herbed——ontowhichPhiliphadbeenborneinthehurryofterrorastowhetherhewasaliveorwhetherhewasdead。Shewascrying——cryingquietly,butthetearsdown—fallingfast,as,withherbacktothelowlybed,shewasgatheringupthedrippingclothescutofffromthepoormaimedbodybythedoctors\'

  orders。SheonlyshookherheadasshesawSylvia,spirit—like,stealin——white,noiseless,andupbornefromearth。Butnoiselessasherstepmightbe,heheard,herecognized,andwithasighheturnedhispoordisfiguredfacetothewall,hidingitintheshadow。Heknewthatshewasbyhim;thatshehadkneltdownbyhisbed;thatshewaskissinghishand,overwhichthelanguorofapproachingdeathwasstealing。

  Butnoonespoke。Atlengthhesaid,hisfacestillaverted,speakingwithaneffort。\'Littlelassie,forgivemenow!Icannotlivetoseethemorn!\'Therewasnoanswer,onlyalongmiserablesigh,andhefelthersoftcheeklaiduponhishand,andthequiverthatranthroughherwholebody。\'Ididtheeacruelwrong,\'hesaid,atlength。\'Iseeitnow。ButI\'madyingman。IthinkthatGodwillforgiveme——andI\'vesinnedagainstHim;try,lassie——try,mySylvie——willnotthouforgiveme?\'Helistenedintentlyforamoment。Heheardthroughtheopenwindowthewaveslappingontheshelvingshore。Buttherecamenowordfromher;onlythatsamelongshivering,miserablesighbrokefromherlipsatlength。\'Child,\'saidhe,oncemore。\'Iha\'madetheemyidol;andifIcouldlivemylifeo\'eragainIwouldlovemyGodmore,andtheeless;andthenI

  shouldn\'tha\'sinnedthissinagainstthee。Butspeakonewordoflovetome——onelittleword,thatImayknowIhavethypardon。\'\'Oh,Philip!Philip!\'shemoaned,thusadjured。Thensheliftedherhead,andsaid,\'Themwerewicked,wickedwords,asIsaid;andawickedvowasIvowed;

  andLordGodAlmightyhasta\'enmeatmyword。I\'msorelypunished,Philip,Iamindeed。\'Hepressedherhand,hestrokedhercheek。Butheaskedforyetanotherword。\'Ididtheeawrong。InmylyingheartIforgottodototheeasIwouldhavehadtheetodotome。AndIjudgedKinraidinmyheart。\'\'Thouthoughtashewasfaithlessandfickle,\'sheansweredquickly;\'andsohewere。Heweremarriedtoanotherwomannotsomanyweeksatafterthouwentaway。Oh,Philip,Philip!andnowIhavetheeback,and\'Dying\'wasthewordshewouldhavesaid,butfirstthedreadoftellinghimwhatshebelievedhedidnotknow,andnextherpassionatesobs,chokedher。\'Iknow,\'saidhe,oncemorestrokinghercheek,andsoothingherwithgentle,caressinghand。\'Littlelassie!\'hesaid,afterawhilewhenshewasquietfromveryexhaustion,\'Iniverthoughttobesohappyagain。

  Godisverymerciful。\'Sheliftedupherhead,andaskedwildly,\'WillHeiverforgiveme,thinkyo\'?Idroveyo\'outfra\'yo\'rhome,andsentyo\'awaytot\'wars,wheereyo\'mightha\'gettenyo\'rdeath;andwhenyo\'comeback,poorandlone,andweary,Itoldherfort\'turnyo\'out,fora\'Iknewyo\'mustbestarvinginthesefaminetimes。IthinkIshallgoaboutamongthemasgnashtheirteethforiver,whileyo\'arewheerealltearsarewipedaway。\'\'No!\'saidPhilip,turningroundhisface,forgetfulofhimselfinhisdesiretocomforther。\'Godpitiesusasafatherpitieshispoorwanderingchildren;thenearerIcometodeaththeclearerIseeHim。Butyouandmehavedonewrongtoeachother;yetwecanseenowhowwewereledtoit;wecanpityandforgiveoneanother。I\'mgettinglowandfaint,lassie;

  butthoumustrememberthisGodknowsmore,andismoreforgivingthaneitheryoutome,ormetoyou。IthinkanddobelieveasweshallmeettogetherbeforeHisface;butthenIshallha\'learnttolovetheesecondtoHim;notfirst,asIhavedonehereupontheearth。\'Thenhewassilent——verystill。Sylviaknew——widowDobsonhadbroughtitin——thattherewassomekindofmedicine,sentbythehopelessdoctors,lyinguponthetablehardby,andshesoftlyroseandpoureditoutanddroppeditintothehalf—openmouth。Thenshekneltdownagain,holdingthehandfeeblystretchedouttoher,andwatchingthefaintlightinthewistfullovingeyes。Andinthestillnesssheheardtheceaselesswaveslappingagainsttheshelvingshore。Somethinglikeanhourbeforethistime,whichwasthedeepestmidnightofthesummer\'snight,HesterRosehadcomehurryinguptheroadtowhereKesterandhissistersateoutsidetheopendoor,keepingtheirwatchunderthestar—litsky,allothershavinggoneaway,onebyone,evenJohnandJeremiahFosterhavingreturnedtotheirownhouse,wherethelittleBellalay,sleepingasoundandhealthyslumberafterherperilousadventure。HesterhadheardbutlittlefromWilliamDarleyastotheownerofthewatchandthehalf—crown;buthewaschagrinedatthefailureofallhisskilfulinterrogationstoelicitthetruth,andpromisedherfurtherinformationinafewdays,withallthemorevehemencebecausehewasunaccustomedtobebaffled。AndHesterhadagainwhisperedtoherself\'Patience!Patience!\'

  andhadslowlyreturnedbacktoherhometofindthatSylviahadleftit,whyshedidnotatoncediscover。But,growinguneasyastheadvancinghoursneitherbroughtSylvianorlittleBellatotheirhome,shehadsetoutforJeremiahFoster\'sassoonasshehadseenhermothercomfortablyasleepinherbed;andthenshehadlearntthewholestory,bitbybit,aseachpersonwhospokebrokeinuponthepreviousnarrationwithsomenewparticular。ButfromnoonedidsheclearlylearnwhetherSylviawaswithherhusband,ornot;andsoshecamespeedingalongtheroad,breathless,towhereKestersateinwakeful,mournfulsilence,hissister\'ssleepingheadlyingonhisshoulder,thecottagedooropen,bothforairandthattheremightbehelpwithincallifneeded;andthedimslantingoblongoftheinteriorlightlyingacrosstheroad。Hestercamepantingup,tooagitatedandbreathlesstoaskhowmuchwastruthofthefatal,hopelesstalewhichshehadheard。Kesterlookedatherwithoutaword。Throughthissolemnmomentarysilencethelappingoftheceaselesswaveswasheard,astheycameupcloseontheshelvingshore。\'He?Philip?\'saidshe。Kestershookhisheadsadly。\'Andhiswife——Sylvia?\'saidHester。\'Intherewithhim,alone,\'whisperedKester。Hesterturnedaway,andwrungherhandstogether。\'Oh,LordGodAlmighty!\'saidshe,\'wasInotevenworthytobringthemtogetheratlast?Andshewentawayslowlyandheavilybacktothesideofhersleepingmother。But\'Thywillbedone\'wasonherquiveringlipsbeforeshelaydowntoherrest。Thesoftgreydawnlightensthedarknessofamidsummernightsoonaftertwoo\'clock。Philipwatcheditcome,knowingthatitwashislastsightofday,——aswereckondaysonearth。Hehadbeenoftenneardeathasasoldieronceortwice,aswhenherushedintofiretosaveKinraid,hischancesoflifehadbeenasonetoahundred;

  butyethehadhadachance。Butnowtherewasthenewfeeling——thelastnewfeelingwhichweshallanyofusexperienceinthisworld——thatdeathwasnotonlycloseathand,butinevitable。Hefeltitsnumbnessstealinguphim——stealinguphim。Buttheheadwasclear,thebrainmorethancommonlyactiveinproducingvividimpressions。Itseemedbutyesterdaysincehewasalittleboyathismother\'sknee,wishingwithalltheearnestnessofhischildishhearttobelikeAbraham,whowascalledthefriendofGod,orDavid,whowassaidtobethemanafterGod\'sownheart,orSt。John,whowascalled\'theBeloved。\'Asverypresentseemedthedayonwhichhemaderesolutionsoftryingtobelikethem;itwasinthespring,andsomeonehadbroughtincowslips;andthescentofthoseflowerswasinhisnostrilsnowashelaya—dying——hislifeended,hisbattlesfought,histimefor\'beinggood\'overandgone——theopportunity,oncegiveninalleternity,past。Allthetemptationsthathadbesethimroseclearlybeforehim;thescenesthemselvesstoodupintheirsolidmaterialism——hecouldhavetouchedtheplaces;thepeople,thethoughts,theargumentsthatSatanhadurgedinbehalfofsin,werereproducedwiththevividnessofapresenttime。Andheknewthatthethoughtswereillusions,theargumentsfalseandhollow;

  forinthathourcametheperfectvisionoftheperfecttruth:hesawthe\'waytoescape\'whichhadcomealongwiththetemptation;now,thestrongresolveofanardentboyhood,withallalifebeforeittoshowtheworld\'whataChristianmightbe;\'andthentheswift,terriblenow,whenhisnaked,guiltysoulshrankintotheshadowofGod\'smercy—seat,outoftheblazeofHisangeragainstallthosewhoactalie。Hismindwaswandering,andhepluckeditback。Wasthisdeathinverydeed?Hetriedtograspatthepresent,theearthlypresent,fadingquickaway。Helaythereonthebed——onSallyDobson\'sbedinthehouse—place,notonhisaccustomedpalletinthelean—to。Heknewthatmuch。Andthedoorwasopenintothestill,dusknight;andthroughtheopencasementhecouldhearthelappingofthewavesontheshelvingshore,couldseethesoftgreydawnoverthesea——heknewitwasoverthesea——hesawwhatlayunseenbehindthepoorwallsofthecottage。AnditwasSylviawhoheldhishandtightinherwarm,livinggrasp;itwashiswifewhosearmwasthrownaroundhim,whosesobbingsighsshookhisnumbedframefromtimetotime。\'Godblessandcomfortmydarling,\'hesaidtohimself。\'Sheknowsmenow。

  Allwillberightinheaven——inthelightofGod\'smercy。\'Andthenhetriedtorememberallthathehadeverreadabout,God,andallthattheblessedChrist——thatbringethgladtidingsofgreatjoyuntoallpeoplehadsaidoftheFather,fromwhomHecame。Thosesayingsdroppedlikebalmdownuponhistroubledheartandbrain。Herememberedhismother,andhowshehadlovedhim;andhewasgoingtoalovewiser,tenderer,deeperthanhers。Ashethoughtthis,hemovedhishandsasiftopray;butSylviaclenchedherhold,andhelaystill,prayingallthesameforher,forhischild,andforhimself。Thenhesawtheskyreddenwiththefirstflushofdawn;

  heheardKester\'slong—drawnsighofwearinessoutsidetheopendoor。HehadseenwidowDobsonpassthroughlongbeforetokeeptheremainderofherwatchonthebedinthelean—to,whichhadbeenhisformanyandmanyasleeplessandtearfulnight。Thosenightswereover——heshouldneverseethatpoorchamberagain,thoughitwasscarcetwofeetdistant。Hebegantoloseallsenseofthecomparativedurationoftime:itseemedaslongsincekindSallyDobsonhadbentoverhimwithsoft,lingeringlook,beforegoingintothehumblesleeping—room——aslongasitwassincehisboyhood,whenhestoodbyhismotherdreamingofthelifethatshouldbehis,withthescentofthecowslipstemptinghimtobeofftothewoodlandswheretheygrew。Thentherecamearushandaneddyingthroughhisbrain——hissoultryingherwingsforthelongflight。Againhewasinthepresent:

  heheardthewaveslappingagainsttheshelvingshoreonceagain。AndnowhisthoughtscamebacktoSylvia。Oncemorehespokealoud,inastrangeandterriblevoice,whichwasnothis。Everysoundcamewitheffortsthatwerenewtohim。\'Mywife!Sylvie!Oncemore——forgivemeall。\'Shesprangup,shekissedhispoorburntlips;sheheldhiminherarms,shemoaned,andsaid,\'Oh,wickedme!forgiveme——me——Philip!\'Thenhespoke,andsaid,\'Lord,forgiveusourtrespassesasweforgiveeachother!\'Andafterthatthepowerofspeechwasconqueredbythecomingdeath。Helayverystill,hisconsciousnessfastfadingaway,yetcomingbackinthrobs,sothatheknewitwasSylviawhotouchedhislipswithcordial,andthatitwasSylviawhomurmuredwordsofloveinhisear。

  Heseemedtosleepatlast,andsohedid——akindofsleep,butthelightoftheredmorningsunfellonhiseyes,andwithonestrongeffortheroseup,andturnedsoasoncemoretoseehiswife\'spalefaceofmisery。\'Inheaven,\'hecried,andabrightsmilecameonhisface,ashefellbackonhispillow。NotlongafterHestercame,thelittleBellascarceawakeinherarms,withthepurposeofbringinghischildtoseehimereyethepassedaway。

  Hesterhadwatchedandprayedthroughthelivelongnight。Andnowshefoundhimdead,andSylvia,tearlessandalmostunconscious,lyingbyhim,herhandholdinghis,herotherthrownaroundhim。Kester,pooroldman,wassobbingbitterly;butshenotatall。ThenHesterboreherchildtoher,andSylviaopenedwidehermiserableeyes,andonlystared,asifallsensewasgonefromher。ButBellasuddenlyrousingupatthesightofthepoor,scarred,peacefulface,criedout,——\'Poormanwhowassohungry。Ishenothungrynow?\'\'No,\'saidHester,softly。\'Theformerthingsarepassedaway——andheisgonewherethereisnomoresorrow,andnomorepain。\'Butthenshebrokedownintoweepingandcrying。Sylviasatupandlookedather。\'Whydoyo\'cry,Hester?\'shesaid。\'Yo\'niversaidthatyo\'wouldn\'tforgivehimaslongasyo\'lived。Yo\'niverbroketheheartofhimthatlovedyo\',andlethimalmoststarveatyo\'rverydoor。Oh,Philip!myPhilip,tenderandtrue。\'ThenHestercameroundandclosedthesadhalf—openeyes;kissingthecalmbrowwithalongfarewellkiss。Asshedidso,hereyefellonablackribbonroundhisneck。Shepartlylifteditout;toitwashungahalf—crownpiece。\'ThisisthepieceheleftatWilliamDarley\'stobebored,\'saidshe,\'notmanydaysago。\'Bellahadcrepttohermother\'sarmsasaknownhaveninthisstrangeplace;

  andthetouchofhischildloosenedthefountainsofhertears。Shestretchedoutherhandfortheblackribbon,putitroundherownneck;afterawhileshesaid,\'IfIliveverylong,andtryhardtobeverygoodallthattime,doyo\'

  think,Hester,asGodwillletmetohimwhereheis?\'*******Monkshavenisalterednowintoarisingbathingplace。Yet,standingnearthesiteofwidowDobson\'shouseonasummer\'snight,attheebbofaspring—tide,youmayhearthewavescomelappinguptheshelvingshorewiththesameceaseless,ever—recurrentsoundasthatwhichPhiliplistenedtointhepausesbetweenlifeanddeath。Andsoitwillbeuntil\'thereshallbenomoresea。\'Butthememoryofmanfadesaway。Afewoldpeoplecanstilltellyouthetraditionofthemanwhodiedinacottagesomewhereaboutthisspot,——diedofstarvationwhilehiswifelivedinhard—heartedplentynottwogoodstone—throwsaway。Thisistheformintowhichpopularfeeling,andignoranceoftherealfacts,havemouldedthestory。Notlongsincealadywenttothe\'PublicBaths\'ahandsomestonebuildingerectedontheverysiteofwidowDobson\'scottage,andfindingalltheroomsengagedshesatdownandhadsometalkwiththebathingwoman;and,asitchanced,theconversationfellonPhilipHepburnandthelegendofhisfate。\'IknewanoldmanwhenIwasagirl,\'saidthebathingwoman,\'ascouldniverabidetoheart\'wifeblamed。Hewouldsaynothingagain\'th\'husband;

  heusedtosayasitwerenotfitformentobejudging;thatshehadhadhersoretrial,aswellasHepburnhisself。\'Theladyasked,\'Whatbecameofthewife?\'\'Shewasapale,sadwoman,allaysdressedinblack。IcanjustrememberherwhenIwasalittlechild,butshediedbeforeherdaughterwaswellgrownup;andMissRosetookt\'lassie,ashadalwaysbeenlikeherown。\'\'MissRose?\'\'HesterRose!haveyo\'niverhearedofHesterRose,sheasfoundedt\'alms—housesforpoordisabledsailorsandsoldiersont\'Horncastleroad?There\'sapieceo\'stoneinfronttosaythat\"ThisbuildingiserectedinmemoryofP。H。\"——andsomefolkwillhaveitP。H。standsfort\'nameo\'th\'manaswasstarvedtodeath。\'\'Andthedaughter?\'\'Oneo\'th\'Fosters,themasfoundedt\'OldBank,leftheravasto\'

  money;andsheweremarriedtodistantcousinoftheirs,andwentofftosettleinAmericamanyandmanyayearago。\'

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