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  WhatwasItodo?Wheretogo?Oh,intolerablequestions,whenI

  coulddonothingandgonowhere!—whenalongwaymustyetbemeasuredbymyweary,tremblinglimbsbeforeIcouldreachhumanhabitation—

  whencoldcharitymustbeentreatedbeforeIcouldgetalodging:

  reluctantsympathyimportuned,almostcertainrepulseincurred,beforemytalecouldbelistenedto,oroneofmywantsrelieved!

  Itouchedtheheath:itwasdry,andyetwarmwiththeheatofthesummerday。Ilookedatthesky;itwaspure:akindlystartwinkledjustabovethechasmridge。Thedayfell,butwithpropitioussoftness;nobreezewhispered。Natureseemedtomebenignandgood;

  Ithoughtshelovedme,outcastasIwas;andI,whofrommancouldanticipateonlymistrust,rejection,insult,clungtoherwithfilialfondness。To—night,atleast,Iwouldbeherguest,asIwasherchild:mymotherwouldlodgemewithoutmoneyandwithoutprice。

  I

  hadonemorselofbreadyet:theremnantofarollIhadboughtinatownwepassedthroughatnoonwithastraypenny—mylastcoin。Isawripebilberriesgleaminghereandthere,likejetbeadsintheheath:Igatheredahandfulandatethemwiththebread。Myhunger,sharpbefore,was,ifnotsatisfied,appeasedbythishermit\'smeal。

  I

  saidmyeveningprayersatitsconclusion,andthenchosemycouch。

  Besidethecragtheheathwasverydeep:whenIlaydownmyfeetwereburiedinit;risinghighoneachside,itleftonlyanarrowspaceforthenight—airtoinvade。Ifoldedmyshawldouble,andspreaditovermeforacoverlet;alow,mossyswellwasmypillow。

  Thuslodged,Iwasnot,atleastatthecommencementofthenight,cold。

  Myrestmighthavebeenblissfulenough,onlyasadheartbrokeit。

  Itplainedofitsgapingwounds,itsinwardbleeding,itsrivenchords。IttrembledforMr。Rochesterandhisdoom;itbemoanedhimwithbitterpity;itdemandedhimwithceaselesslonging;and,impotentasabirdwithbothwingsbroken,itstillquivereditsshatteredpinionsinvainattemptstoseekhim。

  Wornoutwiththistortureofthought,Irosetomyknees。

  Nightwascome,andherplanetswererisen:asafe,stillnight:toosereneforthecompanionshipoffear。WeknowthatGodiseverywhere;butcertainlywefeelHispresencemostwhenHisworksareonthegrandestscalespreadbeforeus;anditisintheuncloudednight—sky,whereHisworldswheeltheirsilentcourse,thatwereadclearestHisinfinitude,Hisomnipotence,Hisomnipresence。IhadrisentomykneestoprayforMr。Rochester。Lookingup,I,withtear—dimmedeyes,sawthemightyMilky—way。Rememberingwhatitwas—

  whatcountlesssystemstheresweptspacelikeasofttraceoflight—

  I

  feltthemightandstrengthofGod。SurewasIofHisefficiencytosavewhatHehadmade:convincedIgrewthatneitherearthshouldperish,noroneofthesoulsittreasured。Iturnedmyprayertothanksgiving:theSourceofLifewasalsotheSaviourofspirits。

  Mr。Rochesterwassafe:hewasGod\'s,andbyGodwouldhebeguarded。Iagainnestledtothebreastofthehill;anderelonginsleepforgotsorrow。

  Butnextday,Wantcametomepaleandbare。Longafterthelittlebirdshadlefttheirnests;longafterbeeshadcomeinthesweetprimeofdaytogathertheheathhoneybeforethedewwasdried—

  whenthelongmorningshadowswerecurtailed,andthesunfilledearthandsky—Igotup,andIlookedroundme。

  Whatastill,hot,perfectday!Whatagoldendesertthisspreadingmoor!Everywheresunshine。IwishedIcouldliveinitandonit。I

  sawalizardrunoverthecrag;Isawabeebusyamongthesweetbilberries。Iwouldfainatthemomenthavebecomebeeorlizard,thatImighthavefoundfittingnutriment,permanentshelterhere。ButI

  wasahumanbeing,andhadahumanbeing\'swants:Imustnotlingerwheretherewasnothingtosupplythem。Irose;IlookedbackatthebedIhadleft。Hopelessofthefuture,Iwishedbutthis—thatmyMakerhadthatnightthoughtgoodtorequiremysoulofmewhileI

  slept;andthatthiswearyframe,absolvedbydeathfromfurtherconflictwithfate,hadnowbuttodecayquietly,andmingleinpeacewiththesoilofthiswilderness。Life,however,wasyetinmypossession,withallitsrequirements,andpains,andresponsibilities。Theburdenmustbecarried;thewantprovidedfor;

  thesufferingendured;theresponsibilityfulfilled。Isetout。

  Whitcrossregained,Ifollowedaroadwhichledfromthesun,nowferventandhigh。BynoothercircumstancehadIwilltodecidemychoice。Iwalkedalongtime,andwhenIthoughtIhadnearlydoneenough,andmightconscientiouslyyieldtothefatiguethatalmostoverpoweredme—mightrelaxthisforcedaction,and,sittingdownonastoneIsawnear,submitresistlesslytotheapathythatcloggedheartandlimb—Iheardabellchime—achurchbell。

  Iturnedinthedirectionofthesound,andthere,amongsttheromantichills,whosechangesandaspectIhadceasedtonoteanhourago,Isawahamletandaspire。Allthevalleyatmyrighthandwasfullofpasture—fields,andcornfields,andwood;andaglitteringstreamranzigzagthroughthevariedshadesofgreen,themellowinggrain,thesombrewoodland,theclearandsunnylea。

  Recalledbytherumblingofwheelstotheroadbeforeme,Isawaheavily—ladenwaggonlabouringupthehill,andnotfarbeyondweretwocowsandtheirdrover。Humanlifeandhumanlabourwerenear。I

  muststruggleon:strivetoliveandbendtotoilliketherest。

  Abouttwoo\'clockP。M。Ienteredthevillage。Atthebottomofitsonestreettherewasalittleshopwithsomecakesofbreadinthewindow。Icovetedacakeofbread。WiththatrefreshmentIcouldperhapsregainadegreeofenergy:withoutit,itwouldbedifficulttoproceed。ThewishtohavesomestrengthandsomevigourreturnedtomeassoonasIwasamongstmyfellow—beings。Ifeltitwouldbedegradingtofaintwithhungeronthecausewayofahamlet。HadI

  nothingaboutmeIcouldofferinexchangeforoneoftheserolls?I

  considered。Ihadasmallsilkhandkerchieftiedroundmythroat;I

  hadmygloves。Icouldhardlytellhowmenandwomeninextremitiesofdestitutionproceeded。Ididnotknowwhethereitherofthesearticleswouldbeaccepted:probablytheywouldnot;butImusttry。

  Ienteredtheshop:awomanwasthere。Seeingarespectably—dressedperson,aladyasshesupposed,shecameforwardwithcivility。Howcouldsheserveme?Iwasseizedwithshame:mytonguewouldnotuttertherequestIhadprepared。Idarednotofferherthehalf—worngloves,thecreasedhandkerchief:besides,Ifeltitwouldbeabsurd。Ionlybeggedpermissiontositdownamoment,asIwastired。

  Disappointedintheexpectationofacustomer,shecoollyaccededtomyrequest。Shepointedtoaseat;Isankintoit。Ifeltsorelyurgedtoweep;butconscioushowunseasonablesuchamanifestationwouldbe,Irestrainedit。SoonIaskedher\'iftherewereanydressmakerorplain—workwomaninthevillage?\'

  \'Yes;twoorthree。Quiteasmanyastherewasemploymentfor。\'

  Ireflected。Iwasdriventothepointnow。IwasbroughtfacetofacewithNecessity。Istoodinthepositionofonewithoutaresource,withoutafriend,withoutacoin。Imustdosomething。What?

  Imustapplysomewhere。Where?

  \'Didsheknowofanyplaceintheneighbourhoodwhereaservantwaswanted?\'

  \'Nay;shecouldn\'tsay。\'

  \'Whatwasthechieftradeinthisplace?Whatdidmostofthepeopledo?\'

  \'Somewerefarmlabourers;agooddealworkedatMr。Oliver\'sneedle—factory,andatthefoundry。\'

  \'DidMr。Oliveremploywomen?\'

  \'Nay;itwasmen\'swork。\'

  \'Andwhatdothewomendo?\'

  \'Iknawn\'t,\'wastheanswer。\'Somedoesonething,andsomeanother。Poorfolkmungetonastheycan。\'

  Sheseemedtobetiredofmyquestions:and,indeed,whatclaimhadItoimportuneher?Aneighbourortwocamein;mychairwasevidentlywanted。Itookleave。

  Ipassedupthestreet,lookingasIwentatallthehousestotherighthandandtotheleft;butIcoulddiscovernopretext,norseeaninducementtoenterany。Irambledroundthehamlet,goingsometimestoalittledistanceandreturningagain,foranhourormore。Muchexhausted,andsufferinggreatlynowforwantoffood,I

  turnedasideintoalaneandsatdownunderthehedge。Eremanyminuteshadelapsed,Iwasagainonmyfeet,however,andagainsearchingsomething—aresource,oratleastaninformant。Aprettylittlehousestoodatthetopofthelane,withagardenbeforeit,exquisitelyneatandbrilliantlyblooming。Istoppedatit。WhatbusinesshadItoapproachthewhitedoorortouchtheglitteringknocker?Inwhatwaycoulditpossiblybetheinterestoftheinhabitantsofthatdwellingtoserveme?YetIdrewnearandknocked。

  Amild—looking,cleanly—attiredyoungwomanopenedthedoor。Insuchavoiceasmightbeexpectedfromahopelessheartandfaintingframe—

  avoicewretchedlylowandfaltering—Iaskedifaservantwaswantedhere?

  \'No,\'saidshe;\'wedonotkeepaservant。\'

  \'CanyoutellmewhereIcouldgetemploymentofanykind?\'

  I

  continued。\'Iamastranger,withoutacquaintanceinthisplace。I

  wantsomework:nomatterwhat。\'

  Butitwasnotherbusinesstothinkforme,ortoseekaplaceforme:besides,inhereyes,howdoubtfulmusthaveappearedmycharacter,position,tale。Sheshookherhead,she\'wassorryshecouldgivemenoinformation,\'andthewhitedoorclosed,quitegentlyandcivilly:butitshutmeout。Ifshehadhelditopenalittlelonger,IbelieveIshouldhavebeggedapieceofbread;forIwasnowbroughtlow。

  Icouldnotbeartoreturntothesordidvillage,where,besides,noprospectofaidwasvisible。IshouldhavelongedrathertodeviatetoawoodIsawnotfaroff,whichappearedinitsthickshadetoofferinvitingshelter;butIwassosick,soweak,sognawedwithnature\'scravings,instinctkeptmeroamingroundabodeswheretherewasachanceoffood。Solitudewouldbenosolitude—restnorest—

  whilethevulture,hunger,thussankbeakandtalonsinmyside。

  Idrewnearhouses;Ileftthem,andcamebackagain,andagainI

  wanderedaway:alwaysrepelledbytheconsciousnessofhavingnoclaimtoask—norighttoexpectinterestinmyisolatedlot。Meantime,theafternoonadvanced,whileIthuswanderedaboutlikealostandstarvingdog。Incrossingafield,Isawthechurchspirebeforeme:

  I

  hastenedtowardsit。Nearthechurchyard,andinthemiddleofagarden,stoodawell—builtthoughsmallhouse,whichIhadnodoubtwastheparsonage。Irememberedthatstrangerswhoarriveataplacewheretheyhavenofriends,andwhowantemployment,sometimesapplytotheclergymanforintroductionandaid。Itistheclergyman\'sfunctiontohelp—atleastwithadvice—thosewhowishedtohelpthemselves。Iseemedtohavesomethinglikearighttoseekcounselhere。Renewingthenmycourage,andgatheringmyfeebleremainsofstrength,Ipushedon。Ireachedthehouse,andknockedatthekitchen—door。Anoldwomanopened:Iaskedwasthistheparsonage?

  \'Yes。\'

  \'Wastheclergymanin?\'

  \'No。\'

  \'Wouldhebeinsoon?\'

  \'No,hewasgonefromhome。\'

  \'Toadistance?\'

  \'Notsofar—happenthreemile。Hehadbeencalledawaybythesuddendeathofhisfather:hewasatMarshEndnow,andwouldverylikelystaythereafortnightlonger。\'

  \'Wasthereanyladyofthehouse?\'

  \'Nay,therewasnaughtbuther,andshewashousekeeper\';

  andofher,reader,IcouldnotbeartoaskthereliefforwantofwhichI

  wassinking;Icouldnotyetbeg;andagainIcrawledaway。

  OncemoreItookoffmyhandkerchief—oncemoreIthoughtofthecakesofbreadinthelittleshop。Oh,forbutacrust!forbutonemouthfultoallaythepangoffamine!InstinctivelyIturnedmyfaceagaintothevillage;Ifoundtheshopagain,andIwentin;andthoughothersweretherebesidesthewomanIventuredtherequest—

  \'Wouldshegivemearollforthishandkerchief?\'

  Shelookedatmewithevidentsuspicion:\'Nay,sheneversoldstuffi\'thatway。\'

  Almostdesperate,Iaskedforhalfacake;sheagainrefused。

  \'HowcouldshetellwhereIhadgotthehandkerchief?\'shesaid。

  \'Wouldshetakemygloves?\'

  \'No!whatcouldshedowiththem?\'

  Reader,itisnotpleasanttodwellonthesedetails。Somesaythereisenjoymentinlookingbacktopainfulexperiencepast;butatthisdayIcanscarcelybeartoreviewthetimestowhichIallude:

  themoraldegradation,blentwiththephysicalsuffering,formtoodistressingarecollectionevertobewillinglydwelton。Iblamednoneofthosewhorepulsedme。Ifeltitwaswhatwastobeexpected,andwhatcouldnotbehelped:anordinarybeggarisfrequentlyanobjectofsuspicion;awell—dressedbeggarinevitablyso。Tobesure,whatIbeggedwasemployment;butwhosebusinesswasittoprovidemewithemployment?Not,certainly,thatofpersonswhosawmethenforthefirsttime,andwhoknewnothingaboutmycharacter。Andastothewomanwhowouldnottakemyhandkerchiefinexchangeforherbread,why,shewasright,iftheofferappearedtohersinisterortheexchangeunprofitable。Letmecondensenow。Iamsickofthesubject。

  AlittlebeforedarkIpassedafarmhouse,attheopendoorofwhichthefarmerwassitting,eatinghissupperofbreadandcheese。

  I

  stoppedandsaid—

  \'Willyougivemeapieceofbread?forIamveryhungry。\'

  Hecastonmeaglanceofsurprise;butwithoutanswering,hecutathickslicefromhisloaf,andgaveittome。IimaginehedidnotthinkI

  wasabeggar,butonlyaneccentricsortoflady,whohadtakenafancytohisbrownloaf。AssoonasIwasoutofsightofhishouse,I

  satdownandateit。

  Icouldnothopetogetalodgingunderaroof,andsoughtitinthewoodIhavebeforealludedto。Butmynightwaswretched,myrestbroken:thegroundwasdamp,theaircold:besides,intruderspassednearmemorethanonce,andIhadagainandagaintochangemyquarters:nosenseofsafetyortranquillitybefriendedme。Towardsmorningitrained;thewholeofthefollowingdaywaswet。Donotaskme,reader,togiveaminuteaccountofthatday;asbefore,I

  soughtwork;asbefore,Iwasrepulsed;asbefore,Istarved;butoncedidfoodpassmylips。AtthedoorofacottageIsawalittlegirlabouttothrowamessofcoldporridgeintoapigtrough。\'Willyougivemethat?\'Iasked。

  Shestaredatme。\'Mother!\'sheexclaimed,\'thereisawomanwantsmetogivehertheseporridge。\'

  \'Well,lass,\'repliedavoicewithin,\'giveitherifshe\'sabeggar。T\'pigdoesn\'twantit。\'

  ThegirlemptiedthestiffenedmouldintomyhandsandIdevoureditravenously。

  Asthewettwilightdeepened,Istoppedinasolitarybridle—path,whichIhadbeenpursuinganhourormore。

  \'Mystrengthisquitefailingme,\'Isaidinasoliloquy。

  \'IfeelI

  cannotgomuchfarther。ShallIbeanoutcastagainthisnight?

  Whiletheraindescendsso,mustIlaymyheadonthecold,drenchedground?IfearIcannotdootherwise:forwhowillreceiveme?Butitwillbeverydreadful,withthisfeelingofhunger,faintness,chill,andthissenseofdesolation—thistotalprostrationofhope。

  Inalllikelihood,though,Ishoulddiebeforemorning。AndwhycannotIreconcilemyselftotheprospectofdeath?WhydoIstruggletoretainavaluelesslife?BecauseIknow,orbelieve,Mr。Rochesterisliving:andthen,todieofwantandcoldisafatetowhichnaturecannotsubmitpassively。Oh,Providence!sustainmealittlelonger!

  Aid!—directme!\'

  Myglazedeyewanderedoverthedimandmistylandscape。

  IsawI

  hadstrayedfarfromthevillage:itwasquiteoutofsight。Theverycultivationsurroundingithaddisappeared。Ihad,bycross—waysandby—paths,oncemoredrawnnearthetractofmoorland;

  andnow,onlyafewfields,almostaswildandunproductiveastheheathfromwhichtheywerescarcelyreclaimed,laybetweenmeandtheduskyhill。

  \'Well,Iwouldratherdieyonderthaninastreetoronafrequentedroad,\'Ireflected。\'Andfarbetterthatcrowsandravens—ifanyravenstherebeintheseregions—shouldpickmyfleshfrommybones,thanthattheyshouldbeprisonedinaworkhousecoffinandmoulderinapauper\'sgrave。\'

  Tothehill,then,Iturned。Ireachedit。ItremainednowonlytofindahollowwhereIcouldliedown,andfeelatleasthidden,ifnotsecure。Butallthesurfaceofthewastelookedlevel。Itshowednovariationbutoftint:green,whererushandmossovergrewthemarshes;black,wherethedrysoilboreonlyheath。Darkasitwasgetting,Icouldstillseethesechanges,thoughbutasmerealternationsoflightandshade;forcolourhadfadedwiththedaylight。

  Myeyestillrovedoverthesullenswellandalongthemoor—edge,vanishingamidstthewildestscenery,whenatonedimpoint,farinamongthemarshesandtheridges,alightsprangup。\'Thatisanignisfatuus,\'wasmyfirstthought;andIexpecteditwouldsoonvanish。

  Itburnton,however,quitesteadily,neitherrecedingnoradvancing。\'Isit,then,abonfirejustkindled?\'Iquestioned。Iwatchedtoseewhetheritwouldspread:butno;asitdidnotdiminish,soitdidnotenlarge。\'Itmaybeacandleinahouse,\'Ithenconjectured;\'butifso,Icanneverreachit。Itismuchtoofaraway:andwereitwithinayardofme,whatwoulditavail?Ishouldbutknockatthedoortohaveitshutinmyface。\'

  AndIsankdownwhereIstood,andhidmyfaceagainsttheground。Ilaystillawhile:thenight—windsweptoverthehillandoverme,anddiedmoaninginthedistance;therainfellfast,wettingmeafreshtotheskin。CouldIbuthavestiffenedtothestillfrost—thefriendlynumbnessofdeath—itmighthavepeltedon;I

  shouldnothavefeltit;butmyyetlivingfleshshudderedatitschillinginfluence。Iroseerelong。

  Thelightwasyetthere,shiningdimbutconstantthroughtherain。

  Itriedtowalkagain:Idraggedmyexhaustedlimbsslowlytowardsit。

  Itledmeaslantoverthehill,throughawidebog,whichwouldhavebeenimpassableinwinter,andwassplashyandshakingevennow,intheheightofsummer。HereIfelltwice;butasoftenIroseandralliedmyfaculties。Thislightwasmyforlornhope:Imustgainit。

  Havingcrossedthemarsh,Isawatraceofwhiteoverthemoor。I

  approachedit;itwasaroadoratrack:itledstraightuptothelight,whichnowbeamedfromasortofknoll,amidstaclumpoftrees—

  firs,apparently,fromwhatIcoulddistinguishofthecharacteroftheirformsandfoliagethroughthegloom。MystarvanishedasI

  drewnear:someobstaclehadintervenedbetweenmeandit。Iputoutmyhandtofeelthedarkmassbeforeme:Idiscriminatedtheroughstonesofalowwall—aboveit,somethinglikepalisades,andwithin,ahighandpricklyhedge。Igropedon。Againawhitishobjectgleamedbeforeme:itwasagate—awicket;itmovedonitshingesasItouchedit。Oneachsidestoodasablebush—hollyoryew。

  Enteringthegateandpassingtheshrubs,thesilhouetteofahouserosetoview,black,low,andratherlong;buttheguidinglightshonenowhere。Allwasobscurity。Weretheinmatesretiredtorest?Ifeareditmustbeso。Inseekingthedoor,Iturnedanangle:thereshotoutthefriendlygleamagain,fromthelozengedpanesofaverysmalllatticedwindow,withinafootoftheground,madestillsmallerbythegrowthofivyorsomeothercreepingplant,whoseleavesclusteredthickovertheportionofthehousewallinwhichitwasset。Theaperturewassoscreenedandnarrow,thatcurtainorshutterhadbeendeemedunnecessary;andwhenIstoopeddownandputasidethesprayoffoliageshootingoverit,Icouldseeallwithin。

  I

  couldseeclearlyaroomwithasandedfloor,cleanscoured;adresserofwalnut,withpewterplatesrangedinrows,reflectingtherednessandradianceofaglowingpeat—fire。Icouldseeaclock,awhitedealtable,somechairs。Thecandle,whoserayhadbeenmybeacon,burntonthetable;andbyitslightanelderlywoman,somewhatrough—looking,butscrupulouslyclean,likeallabouther,wasknittingastocking。

  Inoticedtheseobjectscursorilyonly—inthemtherewasnothingextraordinary。Agroupofmoreinterestappearednearthehearth,sittingstillamidsttherosypeaceandwarmthsuffusingit。Twoyoung,gracefulwomen—ladiesineverypoint—sat,oneinalowrocking—chair,theotheronalowerstool;bothworedeepmourningofcrapeandbombazeen,whichsombregarbsingularlysetoffveryfairnecksandfaces:alargeoldpointerdogresteditsmassiveheadonthekneeofonegirl—inthelapoftheotherwascushionedablackcat。

  Astrangeplacewasthishumblekitchenforsuchoccupants!

  Whowerethey?Theycouldnotbethedaughtersoftheelderlypersonatthetable;forshelookedlikearustic,andtheywerealldelicacyandcultivation。Ihadnowhereseensuchfacesastheirs:andyet,asIgazedonthem,Iseemedintimatewitheverylineament。Icannotcallthemhandsome—theyweretoopaleandgravefortheword:astheyeachbentoverabook,theylookedthoughtfulalmosttoseverity。A

  standbetweenthemsupportedasecondcandleandtwogreatvolumes,towhichtheyfrequentlyreferred,comparingthem,seemingly,withthesmallerbookstheyheldintheirhands,likepeopleconsultingadictionarytoaidtheminthetaskoftranslation。Thisscenewasassilentasifallthefigureshadbeenshadowsandthefirelitapartmentapicture:sohushedwasit,Icouldhearthecindersfallfromthegrate,theclocktickinitsobscurecorner;andIevenfanciedIcoulddistinguishtheclick—clickofthewoman\'sknitting—needles。When,therefore,avoicebrokethestrangestillnessatlast,itwasaudibleenoughtome。

  \'Listen,Diana,\'saidoneoftheabsorbedstudents;\'FranzandoldDanielaretogetherinthenight—time,andFranzistellingadreamfromwhichhehasawakenedinterror—listen!\'Andinalowvoiceshereadsomething,ofwhichnotonewordwasintelligibletome;foritwasinanunknowntongue—neitherFrenchnorLatin。WhetheritwereGreekorGermanIcouldnottell。

  \'Thatisstrong,\'shesaid,whenshehadfinished:\'Irelishit。\'

  Theothergirl,whohadliftedherheadtolistentohersister,repeated,whileshegazedatthefire,alineofwhathadbeenread。

  Atalaterday,Iknewthelanguageandthebook;therefore,Iwillherequotetheline:though,whenIfirstheardit,itwasonlylikeastrokeonsoundingbrasstome—conveyingnomeaning:—

  \'\"DatrathervorEiner,anzusehenwiedieSternenNacht。\"

  Good!

  good!\'sheexclaimed,whileherdarkanddeepeyesparkled。\'Thereyouhaveadimandmightyarchangelfitlysetbeforeyou!Thelineisworthahundredpagesoffustian。\"IchwagedieGedankeninderSchalemeinesZornesunddieWerkemitdemGewichtemeinesGrimms。\"Ilikeit!\'

  Bothwereagainsilent。

  \'Isthereonycountrywheretheytalki\'thatway?\'askedtheoldwoman,lookingupfromherknitting。

  \'Yes,Hannah—afarlargercountrythanEngland,wheretheytalkinnootherway。\'

  \'Well,forsurecase,Iknawn\'thowtheycanunderstandt\'onet\'other:andifeithero\'yewentthere,yecouldtellwhattheysaid,Iguess?\'

  \'Wecouldprobablytellsomethingofwhattheysaid,butnotall—

  forwearenotascleverasyouthinkus,Hannah。Wedon\'tspeakGerman,andwecannotreaditwithoutadictionarytohelpus。\'

  \'Andwhatgooddoesitdoyou?\'

  \'Wemeantoteachitsometime—oratleasttheelements,astheysay;andthenweshallgetmoremoneythanwedonow。\'

  \'Varrylike:butgiveowerstudying;ye\'vedoneenoughforto—night。\'

  \'Ithinkwehave:atleastI\'mtired。Mary,areyou?\'

  \'Mortally:afterall,it\'stoughworkfaggingawayatalanguagewithnomasterbutalexicon。\'

  \'Itis,especiallysuchalanguageasthiscrabbedbutgloriousDeutsch。IwonderwhenSt。Johnwillcomehome。\'

  \'Surelyhewillnotbelongnow:itisjustten(lookingatalittlegoldwatchshedrewfromhergirdle)。Itrainsfast,Hannah:

  willyouhavethegoodnesstolookatthefireintheparlour?\'

  Thewomanrose:sheopenedadoor,throughwhichIdimlysawapassage:soonIheardherstirafireinaninnerroom;shepresentlycameback。

  \'Ah,childer!\'saidshe,\'itfairtroublesmetogointoyond\'roomnow:itlookssolonesomewi\'thechairemptyandsetbackinacorner。\'

  Shewipedhereyeswithherapron:thetwogirls,gravebefore,lookedsadnow。

  \'Butheisinabetterplace,\'continuedHannah:\'weshouldn\'twishhimhereagain。Andthen,nobodyneedtohaveaquieterdeathnorhehad。\'

  \'Yousayhenevermentionedus?\'inquiredoneoftheladies。

  \'Hehadn\'ttime,bairn:hewasgoneinaminute,wasyourfather。

  Hehadbeenabitailinglikethedaybefore,butnaughttosignify;

  andwhenMr。St。Johnaskedifhewouldlikeeithero\'yetobesentfor,hefairlaughedathim。Hebeganagainwithabitofaheavinessinhisheadthenextday—thatis,afortnightsin\'—andhewenttosleepandniverwakened:hewora\'moststarkwhenyourbrotherwentintot\'chamberandfandhim。Ah,childer!that\'st\'lasto\'t\'oldstock—foryeandMr。St。Johnislikeofdifferentsoarttothem\'at\'sgone;forallyourmotherwormichi\'yourway,anda\'mostasbook—learned。Sheworthepictur\'o\'ye,Mary:Dianaismorelikeyourfather。\'

  IthoughtthemsosimilarIcouldnottellwheretheoldservant(forsuchInowconcludedhertobe)sawthedifference。Bothwerefaircomplexionedandslenderlymade;bothpossessedfacesfullofdistinctionandintelligence。One,tobesure,hadhairashadedarkerthantheother,andtherewasadifferenceintheirstyleofwearingit;Mary\'spalebrownlockswerepartedandbraidedsmooth:Diana\'sduskiertressescoveredherneckwiththickcurls。Theclockstruckten。

  \'Ye\'llwantyoursupper,Iamsure,\'observedHannah;\'andsowillMr。St。Johnwhenhecomesin。\'

  Andsheproceededtopreparethemeal。Theladiesrose;

  theyseemedabouttowithdrawtotheparlour。Tillthismoment,Ihadbeensointentonwatchingthem,theirappearanceandconversationhadexcitedinmesokeenaninterest,Ihadhalf—forgottenmyownwretchedposition:nowitrecurredtome。Moredesolate,moredesperatethanever,itseemedfromcontrast。Andhowimpossiblediditappeartotouchtheinmatesofthishousewithconcernonmybehalf;tomakethembelieveinthetruthofmywantsandwoes—toinducethemtovouchsafearestformywanderings!AsIgropedoutthedoor,andknockedatithesitatingly,Ifeltthatlastideatobeamerechimera。Hannahopened。

  \'Whatdoyouwant?\'sheinquired,inavoiceofsurprise,asshesurveyedmebythelightofthecandlesheheld。

  \'MayIspeaktoyourmistresses?\'Isaid。

  \'Youhadbettertellmewhatyouhavetosaytothem。Wheredoyoucomefrom?\'

  \'Iamastranger。\'

  \'Whatisyourbusinesshereatthishour?\'

  \'Iwantanight\'sshelterinanout—houseoranywhere,andamorselofbreadtoeat。\'

  Distrust,theveryfeelingIdreaded,appearedinHannah\'sface。

  \'I\'llgiveyouapieceofbread,\'shesaid,afterapause;\'butwecan\'ttakeinavagranttolodge。Itisn\'tlikely。\'

  \'Doletmespeaktoyourmistresses。\'

  \'No,notI。Whatcantheydoforyou?Youshouldnotberovingaboutnow;itlooksveryill。\'

  \'ButwhereshallIgoifyoudrivemeaway?WhatshallIdo?\'

  \'Oh,I\'llwarrantyouknowwheretogoandwhattodo。

  Mindyoudon\'tdowrong,that\'sall。Hereisapenny;nowgo—\'

  \'Apennycannotfeedme,andIhavenostrengthtogofarther。

  Don\'tshutthedoor:—oh,don\'t,forGod\'ssake!\'

  \'Imust;therainisdrivingin—\'

  \'Telltheyoungladies。Letmeseethem—\'

  \'Indeed,Iwillnot。Youarenotwhatyououghttobe,oryouwouldn\'tmakesuchanoise。Moveoff。\'

  \'ButImustdieifIamturnedaway。\'

  \'Notyou。I\'mfear\'dyouhavesomeillplansagate,thatbringyouaboutfolk\'shousesatthistimeo\'night。Ifyou\'veanyfollowers—housebreakersorsuchlike—anywherenear,youmaytellthemwearenotbyourselvesinthehouse;wehaveagentleman,anddogs,andguns。\'Herethehonestbutinflexibleservantclappedthedoortoandbolteditwithin。

  Thiswastheclimax。Apangofexquisitesuffering—athroeoftruedespair—rentandheavedmyheart。Wornout,indeed,Iwas;notanotherstepcouldIstir。Isankonthewetdoorstep:Igroaned—I

  wrungmyhands—Iweptinutteranguish。Oh,thisspectreofdeath!

  Oh,thislasthour,approachinginsuchhorror!Alas,thisisolation—thisbanishmentfrommykind!Notonlytheanchorofhope,butthefootingoffortitudewasgone—atleastforamoment;

  butthelastIsoonendeavouredtoregain。

  \'Icanbutdie,\'Isaid,\'andIbelieveinGod。LetmetrytowaitHiswillinsilence。\'

  ThesewordsInotonlythought,bututtered;andthrustingbackallmymiseryintomyheart,Imadeanefforttocompelittoremainthere—dumbandstill。

  \'Allmenmustdie,\'saidavoicequitecloseathand;\'butallarenotcondemnedtomeetalingeringandprematuredoom,suchasyourswouldbeifyouperishedhereofwant。\'

  \'Whoorwhatspeaks?\'Iasked,terrifiedattheunexpectedsound,andincapablenowofderivingfromanyoccurrenceahopeofaid。A

  formwasnear—whatform,thepitch—darknightandmyenfeebledvisionpreventedmefromdistinguishing。Withaloudlongknock,thenewcomerappealedtothedoor。

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