Thesystemthusenteredon,Ipursuedduringthewholeseasonofprobation;andwiththebestsuccess。Hewaskept,tobesure,rathercrossandcrusty;butonthewholeIcouldseehewasexcellentlyentertained,andthatalamb—likesubmissionandturtle—dovesensibility,whilefosteringhisdespotismmore,wouldhavepleasedhisjudgment,satisfiedhiscommonsense,andevensuitedhistasteless。
Inotherpeople\'spresenceIwas,asformerly,deferentialandquiet;anyotherlineofconductbeinguncalledfor:itwasonlyintheeveningconferencesIthusthwartedandafflictedhim。Hecontinuedtosendformepunctuallythemomenttheclockstruckseven;
thoughwhenIappearedbeforehimnow,hehadnosuchhoneyedtermsas\'love\'and\'darling\'onhislips:thebestwordsatmyservicewere\'provokingpuppet,\'\'maliciouself,\'\'sprite,\'\'changeling,\'etc。
Forcaresses,too,Inowgotgrimaces;forapressureofthehand,apinchonthearm;forakissonthecheek,aseveretweakoftheear。Itwasallright:atpresentIdecidedlypreferredthesefiercefavourstoanythingmoretender。Mrs。Fairfax,Isaw,approvedme:heranxietyonmyaccountvanished;thereforeIwascertainIdidwell。
Meantime,Mr。RochesteraffirmedIwaswearinghimtoskinandbone,andthreatenedawfulvengeanceformypresentconductatsomeperiodfastcoming。Ilaughedinmysleeveathismenaces。\'Icankeepyouinreasonablechecknow,\'Ireflected;\'andIdon\'tdoubttobeabletodoithereafter:ifoneexpedientlosesitsvirtue,anothermustbedevised。\'
Yetafterallmytaskwasnotaneasyone;oftenIwouldratherhavepleasedthanteasedhim。Myfuturehusbandwasbecomingtomemywholeworld;andmorethantheworld:almostmyhopeofheaven。
Hestoodbetweenmeandeverythoughtofreligion,asaneclipseintervenesbetweenmanandthebroadsun。Icouldnot,inthosedays,seeGodforHiscreature:ofwhomIhadmadeanidol。
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THEmonthofcourtshiphadwasted:itsverylasthourswerebeingnumbered。Therewasnoputtingoffthedaythatadvanced—thebridalday;andallpreparationsforitsarrivalwerecomplete。I,atleast,hadnothingmoretodo:thereweremytrunks,packed,locked,corded,rangedinarowalongthewallofmylittlechamber;
to—morrow,atthistime,theywouldbefarontheirroadtoLondon:
andsoshouldI(D。V。),—orrather,notI,butoneJaneRochester,apersonwhomasyetIknewnot。Thecardsofaddressaloneremainedtonailon:theylay,fourlittlesquares,inthedrawer。Mr。
Rochesterhadhimselfwrittenthedirection,\'Mrs。Rochester,—
Hotel,London,\'oneach:Icouldnotpersuademyselftoaffixthem,ortohavethemaffixed。Mrs。Rochester!Shedidnotexist:shewouldnotbeborntillto—morrow,sometimeaftereighto\'clockA。M。;andI
wouldwaittobeassuredshehadcomeintotheworldalivebeforeI
assignedtoherallthatproperty。Itwasenoughthatinyondercloset,oppositemydressing—table,garmentssaidtobehershadalreadydisplacedmyblackstuffLowoodfrockandstrawbonnet:fornottomeappertainedthatsuitofweddingraiment;thepearl—colouredrobe,thevapouryveilpendentfromtheusurpedportmanteau。Ishuttheclosettoconcealthestrange,wraith—likeapparelitcontained;
which,atthiseveninghour—nineo\'clock—gaveoutcertainlyamostghostlyshimmerthroughtheshadowofmyapartment。\'Iwillleaveyoubyyourself,whitedream,\'Isaid。\'Iamfeverish:Ihearthewindblowing:Iwillgooutofdoorsandfeelit。\'
Itwasnotonlythehurryofpreparationthatmademefeverish;
notonlytheanticipationofthegreatchange—thenewlifewhichwastocommenceto—morrow:boththesecircumstanceshadtheirshare,doubtless,inproducingthatrestless,excitedmoodwhichhurriedmeforthatthislatehourintothedarkeninggrounds:butathirdcauseinfluencedmymindmorethanthey。
Ihadatheartastrangeandanxiousthought。SomethinghadhappenedwhichIcouldnotcomprehend;nooneknewoforhadseentheeventbutmyself:ithadtakenplacetheprecedingnight。Mr。
Rochesterthatnightwasabsentfromhome;norwasheyetreturned:
businesshadcalledhimtoasmallestateoftwoorthreefarmshepossessedthirtymilesoff—businessitwasrequisiteheshouldsettleinperson,previoustohismeditateddeparturefromEngland。I
waitednowhisreturn;eagertodisburthenmymind,andtoseekofhimthesolutionoftheenigmathatperplexedme。Staytillhecomes,reader:and,whenIdisclosemysecrettohim,youshallsharetheconfidence。
Isoughttheorchard,driventoitsshelterbythewind,whichalldayhadblownstrongandfullfromthesouth,without,however,bringingaspeckofrain。Insteadofsubsidingasnightdrewon,itseemedtoaugmentitsrushanddeepenitsroar:thetreesblewsteadfastlyoneway,neverwrithinground,andscarcelytossingbacktheirboughsonceinanhour;socontinuouswasthestrainbendingtheirbranchyheadsnorthward—thecloudsdriftedfrompoletopole,fastfollowing,massonmass:noglimpseofblueskyhadbeenvisiblethatJulyday。
ItwasnotwithoutacertainwildpleasureIranbeforethewind,deliveringmytroubleofmindtothemeasurelessair—torrentthunderingthroughspace。Descendingthelaurelwalk,Ifacedthewreckofthechestnut—tree;itstoodupblackandriven:thetrunk,splitdownthecentre,gapedghastly。Theclovenhalveswerenotbrokenfromeachother,forthefirmbaseandstrongrootskeptthemunsunderedbelow;thoughcommunityofvitalitywasdestroyed—thesapcouldflownomore:theirgreatboughsoneachsideweredead,andnextwinter\'stempestswouldbesuretofelloneorbothtoearth:
asyet,however,theymightbesaidtoformonetree—aruin,butanentireruin。
\'Youdidrighttoholdfasttoeachother,\'Isaid:asifthemonster—splinterswerelivingthings,andcouldhearme。\'Ithink,scathedasyoulook,andcharredandscorched,theremustbealittlesenseoflifeinyouyet,risingoutofthatadhesionatthefaithful,honestroots:youwillneverhavegreenleavesmore—nevermoreseebirdsmakingnestsandsingingidylsinyourboughs;thetimeofpleasureandloveisoverwithyou:butyouarenotdesolate:
eachofyouhasacomradetosympathisewithhiminhisdecay。\'AsI
lookedupatthem,themoonappearedmomentarilyinthatpartoftheskywhichfilledtheirfissure;herdiskwasblood—redandhalfovercast;sheseemedtothrowonmeonebewildered,drearyglance,andburiedherselfagaininstantlyinthedeepdriftofcloud。Thewindfell,forasecond,roundThornfield;butfarawayoverwoodandwater,pouredawild,melancholywail:itwassadtolistento,andIranoffagain。
HereandthereIstrayedthroughtheorchard,gathereduptheappleswithwhichthegrassroundthetreerootswasthicklystrewn;
thenIemployedmyselfindividingtheripefromtheunripe;Icarriedthemintothehouseandputthemawayinthestoreroom。ThenI
repairedtothelibrarytoascertainwhetherthefirewaslit,for,thoughsummer,IknewonsuchagloomyeveningMr。Rochesterwouldliketoseeacheerfulhearthwhenhecamein:yes,thefirehadbeenkindledsometime,andburntwell。Iplacedhisarm—chairbythechimney—corner:Iwheeledthetablenearit:Iletdownthecurtain,andhadthecandlesbroughtinreadyforlighting。Morerestlessthanever,whenIhadcompletedthesearrangementsIcouldnotsitstill,norevenremaininthehouse:alittletimepieceintheroomandtheoldclockinthehallsimultaneouslystruckten。
\'Howlateitgrows!\'Isaid。\'Iwillrundowntothegates:
itismoonlightatintervals;Icanseeagoodwayontheroad。Hemaybecomingnow,andtomeethimwillsavesomeminutesofsuspense。\'
Thewindroaredhighinthegreattreeswhichemboweredthegates;buttheroadasfarasIcouldsee,totherighthandandtheleft,wasallstillandsolitary:savefortheshadowsofcloudscrossingitatintervalsasthemoonlookedout,itwasalongpaleline,unvariedbyonemovingspeck。
ApuerileteardimmedmyeyewhileIlooked—atearofdisappointmentandimpatience;ashamedofit,Iwipeditaway。I
lingered;themoonshutherselfwhollywithinherchamber,anddrewclosehercurtainofdensecloud:thenightgrewdark;raincamedrivingfastonthegale。
\'Iwishhewouldcome!Iwishhewouldcome!\'Iexclaimed,seizedwithhypochondriacforeboding。Ihadexpectedhisarrivalbeforetea;nowitwasdark:whatcouldkeephim?Hadanaccidenthappened?
Theeventoflastnightagainrecurredtome。Iinterpreteditasawarningofdisaster。Ifearedmyhopesweretoobrighttoberealised;
andIhadenjoyedsomuchblisslatelythatIimaginedmyfortunehadpasseditsmeridian,andmustnowdecline。
\'Well,Icannotreturntothehouse,\'Ithought;\'Icannotsitbythefireside,whileheisabroadininclementweather:bettertiremylimbsthanstrainmyheart;Iwillgoforwardandmeethim。\'
Isetout;Iwalkedfast,butnotfar:ereIhadmeasuredaquarterofamile,Iheardthetrampofhoofs;ahorsemancameon,fullgallop;adogranbyhisside。Awaywithevilpresentiment!Itwashe:
herehewas,mountedonMesrour,followedbyPilot。Hesawme;forthemoonhadopenedabluefieldinthesky,androdeinitwaterybright:
hetookhishatoff,andwaveditroundhishead。Inowrantomeethim。
\'There!\'heexclaimed,ashestretchedouthishandandbentfromthesaddle:\'youcan\'tdowithoutme,thatisevident。Steponmyboot—toe;givemebothhands:mount!\'
Iobeyed:joymademeagile:Isprangupbeforehim。A
heartykissingIgotforawelcome,andsomeboastfultriumph,whichI
swallowedaswellasIcould。Hecheckedhimselfinhisexultationtodemand,\'Butisthereanythingthematter,Janet,thatyoucometomeetmeatsuchanhour?Isthereanythingwrong?\'
\'No,butIthoughtyouwouldnevercome。Icouldnotbeartowaitinthehouseforyou,especiallywiththisrainandwind。\'
\'Rainandwind,indeed!Yes,youaredrippinglikeamermaid;
pullmycloakroundyou:butIthinkyouarefeverish,Jane:bothyourcheekandhandareburninghot。Iaskagain,isthereanythingthematter?\'
\'Nothingnow;Iamneitherafraidnorunhappy。\'
\'Thenyouhavebeenboth?\'
\'Rather:butI\'lltellyouallaboutitbyandby,sir;
andI
daresayyouwillonlylaughatmeformypains。\'
\'I\'lllaughatyouheartilywhento—morrowispast;tillthenI
darenot:myprizeisnotcertain。Thisisyou,whohavebeenasslipperyasaneelthislastmonth,andasthornyasabriar—rose?I
couldnotlayafingeranywherebutIwaspricked;andnowIseemtohavegatheredupastraylambinmyarms。Youwanderedoutofthefoldtoseekyourshepherd,didyou,Jane?\'
\'Iwantedyou:butdon\'tboast。HereweareatThornfield:
nowletmegetdown。\'
Helandedmeonthepavement。AsJohntookhishorse,andhefollowedmeintothehall,hetoldmetomakehasteandputsomethingdryon,andthenreturntohiminthelibrary;andhestoppedme,asImadeforthestaircase,toextortapromisethatI
wouldnotbelong:norwasIlong;infiveminutesIrejoinedhim。I
foundhimatsupper。
\'Takeaseatandbearmecompany,Jane:pleaseGod,itisthelastmealbutoneyouwilleatatThornfieldHallforalongtime。\'
Isatdownnearhim,buttoldhimIcouldnoteat。
\'Isitbecauseyouhavetheprospectofajourneybeforeyou,Jane?
IsitthethoughtsofgoingtoLondonthattakesawayyourappetite?\'
\'Icannotseemyprospectsclearlyto—night,sir;andI
hardlyknowwhatthoughtsIhaveinmyhead。Everythinginlifeseemsunreal。\'
\'Exceptme:Iamsubstantialenough—touchme。\'
\'You,sir,arethemostphantom—likeofall:youareameredream。\'
Heheldouthishand,laughing。\'Isthatadream?\'saidhe,placingitclosetomyeyes。Hehadarounded,muscular,andvigoroushand,aswellasalong,strongarm。
\'Yes;thoughItouchit,itisadream,\'saidI,asIputitdownfrombeforemyface。\'Sir,haveyoufinishedsupper?\'
\'Yes,Jane。\'
Irangthebellandorderedawaythetray。Whenwewereagainalone,Istirredthefire,andthentookalowseatatmymaster\'sknee。
\'Itisnearmidnight,\'Isaid。
\'Yes:butremember,Jane,youpromisedtowakewithmethenightbeforemywedding。\'
\'Idid;andIwillkeepmypromise,foranhourortwoatleast:
Ihavenowishtogotobed。\'
\'Areallyourarrangementscomplete?\'
\'All,sir。\'
\'Andonmypartlikewise,\'hereturned,\'Ihavesettledeverything;
andweshallleaveThornfieldto—morrow,withinhalfanhourafterourreturnfromchurch。\'
\'Verywell,sir。\'
\'Withwhatanextraordinarysmileyouutteredthatword—
\"verywell,\"Jane!Whatabrightspotofcolouryouhaveoneachcheek!
andhowstrangelyyoureyesglitter!Areyouwell?\'
\'IbelieveIam。\'
\'Believe!Whatisthematter?Tellmewhatyoufeel。\'
\'Icouldnot,sir:nowordscouldtellyouwhatIfeel。
Iwishthispresenthourwouldneverend:whoknowswithwhatfatethenextdaymaycomecharged?\'
\'Thisishypochondria,Jane。Youhavebeenover—excited,orover—fatigued。\'
\'Doyou,sir,feelcalmandhappy?\'
\'Calm?—no:buthappy—totheheart\'score。\'
Ilookedupathimtoreadthesignsofblissinhisface:
itwasardentandflushed。
\'Givemeyourconfidence,Jane,\'hesaid:\'relieveyourmindofanyweightthatoppressesit,byimpartingittome。Whatdoyoufear?—
thatIshallnotproveagoodhusband?\'
\'Itistheideafarthestfrommythoughts。\'
\'Areyouapprehensiveofthenewsphereyouareabouttoenter?—ofthenewlifeintowhichyouarepassing?\'
\'No。\'
\'Youpuzzleme,Jane:yourlookandtoneofsorrowfulaudacityperplexandpainme。Iwantanexplanation。\'
\'Then,sir,listen。Youwerefromhomelastnight?\'
\'Iwas:Iknowthat;andyouhintedawhileagoatsomethingwhichhadhappenedinmyabsence:—nothing,probably,ofconsequence;but,inshort,ithasdisturbedyou。Letmehearit。Mrs。
Fairfaxhassaidsomething,perhaps?oryouhaveoverheardtheservantstalk?—yoursensitiveself—respecthasbeenwounded?\'
\'No,sir。\'Itstrucktwelve—Iwaitedtillthetimepiecehadconcludeditssilverchime,andtheclockitshoarse,vibratingstroke,andthenIproceeded。
\'AlldayyesterdayIwasverybusy,andveryhappyinmyceaselessbustle;forIamnot,asyouseemtothink,troubledbyanyhauntingfearsaboutthenewsphere,etcetera:Ithinkitagloriousthingtohavethehopeoflivingwithyou,becauseIloveyou。No,sir,don\'tcaressmenow—letmetalkundisturbed。
YesterdayItrustedwellinProvidence,andbelievedthateventswereworkingtogetherforyourgoodandmine:itwasafineday,ifyourecollect—thecalmnessoftheairandskyforbadeapprehensionsrespectingyoursafetyorcomfortonyourjourney。Iwalkedalittlewhileonthepavementaftertea,thinkingofyou;andIbeheldyouinimaginationsonearme,Iscarcelymissedyouractualpresence。I
thoughtofthelifethatlaybeforeme—yourlife,sir—anexistencemoreexpansiveandstirringthanmyown:asmuchmoresoasthedepthsoftheseatowhichthebrookrunsarethantheshallowsofitsownstraitchannel。Iwonderedwhymoralistscallthisworldadrearywilderness:formeitblossomedlikearose。Justatsunset,theairturnedcoldandtheskycloudy:Iwentin,Sophiecalledmeupstairstolookatmywedding—dress,whichtheyhadjustbrought;andunderitintheboxIfoundyourpresent—theveilwhich,inyourprincelyextravagance,yousentforfromLondon:resolved,Isuppose,sinceI
wouldnothavejewels,tocheatmeintoacceptingsomethingascostly。
IsmiledasIunfoldedit,anddevisedhowIwouldteaseyouaboutyouraristocratictastes,andyoureffortstomasqueyourplebeianbrideintheattributesofapeeress。IthoughthowIwouldcarrydowntoyouthesquareofunembroideredblondIhadmyselfpreparedasacoveringformylow—bornhead,andaskifthatwasnotgoodenoughforawomanwhocouldbringherhusbandneitherfortune,beauty,norconnections。Isawplainlyhowyouwouldlook;andheardyourimpetuousrepublicananswers,andyourhaughtydisavowalofanynecessityonyourparttoaugmentyourwealth,orelevateyourstanding,bymarryingeitherapurseoracoronet。\'
\'Howwellyoureadme,youwitch!\'interposedMr。Rochester:
\'butwhatdidyoufindintheveilbesidesitsembroidery?Didyoufindpoison,oradagger,thatyoulooksomournfulnow?\'
\'No,no,sir;besidesthedelicacyandrichnessofthefabric,I
foundnothingsaveFairfaxRochester\'spride;andthatdidnotscareme,becauseIamusedtothesightofthedemon。But,sir,asitgrewdark,thewindrose:itblewyesterdayevening,notasitblowsnow—wildandhigh—but\"withasullen,moaningsound\"farmoreeerie。
Iwishedyouwereathome。Icameintothisroom,andthesightoftheemptychairandfirelesshearthchilledme。ForsometimeafterIwenttobed,Icouldnotsleep—asenseofanxiousexcitementdistressedme。Thegalestillrising,seemedtomyeartomuffleamournfulunder—sound;whetherinthehouseorabroadIcouldnotatfirsttell,butitrecurred,doubtfulyetdolefulateverylull;atlastImadeoutitmustbesomedoghowlingatadistance。Iwasgladwhenitceased。Onsleeping,Icontinuedindreamstheideaofadarkandgustynight。Icontinuedalsothewishtobewithyou,andexperiencedastrange,regretfulconsciousnessofsomebarrierdividingus。Duringallmyfirstsleep,Iwasfollowingthewindingsofanunknownroad;
totalobscurityenvironedme;rainpeltedme;Iwasburdenedwiththechargeofalittlechild:averysmallcreature,tooyoungandfeebletowalk,andwhichshiveredinmycoldarms,andwailedpiteouslyinmyear。Ithought,sir,thatyouwereontheroadalongwaybeforeme;andIstrainedeverynervetoovertakeyou,andmadeeffortonefforttoutteryournameandentreatyoutostop—
butmymovementswerefettered,andmyvoicestilldiedawayinarticulate;whileyou,Ifelt,withdrewfartherandfarthereverymoment。\'
\'Andthesedreamsweighonyourspiritsnow,Jane,whenIamclosetoyou?Littlenervoussubject!Forgetvisionarywoe,andthinkonlyofrealhappiness!Yousayyouloveme,Janet:yes—I
willnotforgetthat;andyoucannotdenyit。Thosewordsdidnotdieinarticulateonyourlips。Iheardthemclearandsoft:athoughttoosolemnperhaps,butsweetasmusic—\"Ithinkitisagloriousthingtohavethehopeoflivingwithyou,Edward,becauseIloveyou。\"Doyouloveme,Jane?—repeatit。\'
\'Ido,sir—Ido,withmywholeheart。\'
\'Well,\'hesaid,aftersomeminutes\'silence,\'itisstrange;
butthatsentencehaspenetratedmybreastpainfully。Why?Ithinkbecauseyousaiditwithsuchanearnest,religiousenergy,andbecauseyourupwardgazeatmenowistheverysublimeoffaith,truth,anddevotion:itistoomuchasifsomespiritwerenearme。Lookwicked,Jane:asyouknowwellhowtolook:coinoneofyourwild,shy,provokingsmiles,tellmeyouhateme—teaseme,vexme;doanythingbutmoveme:Iwouldratherbeincensedthansaddened。\'
\'Iwillteaseyouandvexyoutoyourheart\'scontent,whenI
havefinishedmytale:buthearmetotheend。\'
\'Ithought,Jane,youhadtoldmeall。IthoughtIhadfoundthesourceofyourmelancholyinadream。\'
Ishookmyhead。\'What!istheremore?ButIwillnotbelieveittobeanythingimportant。Iwarnyouofincredulitybeforehand。Goon。\'
Thedisquietudeofhisair,thesomewhatapprehensiveimpatienceofhismanner,surprisedme:butIproceeded。
\'Idreamtanotherdream,sir:thatThornfieldHallwasadrearyruin,theretreatofbatsandowls。Ithoughtthatofallthestatelyfrontnothingremainedbutashell—likewall,veryhighandveryfragile—looking。Iwandered,onamoonlightnight,throughthegrass—grownenclosurewithin:hereIstumbledoveramarblehearth,andthereoverafallenfragmentofcornice。Wrappedupinashawl,Istillcarriedtheunknownlittlechild:Imightnotlayitdownanywhere,howevertiredweremyarms—howevermuchitsweightimpededmyprogress,Imustretainit。Iheardthegallopofahorseatadistanceontheroad;Iwassureitwasyou;andyouweredepartingformanyyearsandforadistantcountry。Iclimbedthethinwallwithfranticperiloushaste,eagertocatchoneglimpseofyoufromthetop:thestonesrolledfromundermyfeet,theivybranchesI
graspedgaveway,thechildclungroundmyneckinterror,andalmoststrangledme;atlastIgainedthesummit。Isawyoulikeaspeckonawhitetrack,lesseningeverymoment。TheblastblewsostrongIcouldnotstand。Isatdownonthenarrowledge;Ihushedthescaredinfantinmylap:youturnedanangleoftheroad:Ibentforwardtotakealastlook;thewallcrumbled;Iwasshaken;thechildrolledfrommyknee,Ilostmybalance,fell,andwoke。\'
\'Now,Jane,thatisall。\'
\'Allthepreface,sir;thetaleisyettocome。Onwaking,agleamdazzledmyeyes;Ithought—Oh,itisdaylight!ButIwasmistaken;itwasonlycandlelight。Sophie,Isupposed,hadcomein。
Therewasalightinthedressing—table,andthedoorofthecloset,where,beforegoingtobed,Ihadhungmywedding—dressandveil,stoodopen;Iheardarustlingthere。Iasked,\"Sophie,whatareyoudoing?\"Nooneanswered;butaformemergedfromthecloset;ittookthelight,helditaloft,andsurveyedthegarmentspendentfromtheportmanteau。\"Sophie!Sophie!\"Iagaincried:andstillitwassilent。
Ihadrisenupinbed,Ibentforward:firstsurprise,thenbewilderment,cameoverme;andthenmybloodcreptcoldthroughmyveins。Mr。Rochester,thiswasnotSophie,itwasnotLeah,itwasnotMrs。Fairfax:itwasnot—no,Iwassureofit,andamstill—itwasnoteventhatstrangewoman,GracePoole。\'
\'Itmusthavebeenoneofthem,\'interruptedmymaster。
\'No,sir,Isolemnlyassureyoutothecontrary。TheshapestandingbeforemehadnevercrossedmyeyeswithintheprecinctsofThornfieldHallbefore;theheight,thecontourwerenewtome。\'
\'Describeit,Jane。\'
\'Itseemed,sir,awoman,tallandlarge,withthickanddarkhairhanginglongdownherback。Iknownotwhatdressshehadon:
itwaswhiteandstraight;butwhethergown,sheet,orshroud,I
cannottell。\'
\'Didyouseeherface?\'
\'Notatfirst。Butpresentlyshetookmyveilfromitsplace;shehelditup,gazedatitlong,andthenshethrewitoverherownhead,andturnedtothemirror。AtthatmomentIsawthereflectionofthevisageandfeaturesquitedistinctlyinthedarkoblongglass。\'
\'Andhowwerethey?\'
\'Fearfulandghastlytome—oh,sir,Ineversawafacelikeit!Itwasadiscolouredface—itwasasavageface。IwishIcouldforgettherolloftheredeyesandthefearfulblackenedinflationofthelineaments!\'
\'Ghostsareusuallypale,Jane。\'
\'This,sir,waspurple:thelipswereswelledanddark;
thebrowfurrowed:theblackeyebrowswidelyraisedoverthebloodshoteyes。
ShallItellyouofwhatitremindedme?\'
\'Youmay。\'
\'OfthefoulGermanspectre—theVampyre。\'
\'Ah!—whatdiditdo?\'
\'Sir,itremovedmyveilfromitsgaunthead,rentitintwoparts,andflingingbothonthefloor,trampledonthem。\'
\'Afterwards?\'
\'Itdrewasidethewindow—curtainandlookedout;perhapsitsawdawnapproaching,for,takingthecandle,itretreatedtothedoor。
Justatmybedside,thefigurestopped:thefieryeyesglareduponme—
shethrustuphercandleclosetomyface,andextinguisheditundermyeyes。Iwasawareherluridvisageflamedovermine,andIlostconsciousness:forthesecondtimeinmylife—onlythesecondtime—
I
becameinsensiblefromterror。\'
\'Whowaswithyouwhenyourevived?\'
\'Noone,sir,butthebroadday。Irose,bathedmyheadandfaceinwater,drankalongdraught;feltthatthoughenfeebledIwasnotill,anddeterminedthattononebutyouwouldIimpartthisvision。Nowsir,tellmewhoandwhatthatwomanwas?\'
\'Thecreatureofanover—stimulatedbrain;thatiscertain。
I
mustbecarefulofyou,mytreasure:nerveslikeyourswerenotmadeforroughhandling。\'
\'Sir,dependonit,mynerveswerenotinfault;thethingwasreal:thetransactionactuallytookplace。\'
\'Andyourpreviousdreams,weretheyrealtoo?IsThornfieldHallaruin?AmIseveredfromyoubyinsuperableobstacles?AmIleavingyouwithoutatear—withoutakiss—withoutaword?\'
\'Notyet。\'
\'AmIabouttodoit?Why,thedayisalreadycommencedwhichistobindusindissolubly;andwhenweareonceunited,thereshallbenorecurrenceofthesementalterrors:Iguaranteethat。\'
\'Mentalterrors,sir!IwishIcouldbelievethemtobeonlysuch:Iwishitmorenowthanever;sinceevenyoucannotexplaintomethemysteryofthatawfulvisitant。\'
\'AndsinceIcannotdoit,Jane,itmusthavebeenunreal。\'
\'But,sir,whenIsaidsotomyselfonrisingthismorning,andwhenIlookedroundtheroomtogathercourageandcomfortfromthecheerfulaspectofeachfamiliarobjectinfulldaylight,there—onthecarpet—Isawwhatgavethedistinctlietomyhypothesis,—theveil,tornfromtoptobottomintwohalves!\'
IfeltMr。Rochesterstartandshudder;hehastilyflunghisarmsroundme。\'ThankGod!\'heexclaimed,\'thatifanythingmalignantdidcomenearyoulastnight,itwasonlytheveilthatwasharmed。Oh,tothinkwhatmighthavehappened!\'
Hedrewhisbreathshort,andstrainedmesoclosetohim,I
couldscarcelypant。Aftersomeminutes\'silence,hecontinued,cheerily—
\'Now,Janet,I\'llexplaintoyouallaboutit。Itwashalfdream,halfreality。Awomandid,Idoubtnot,enteryourroom:andthatwomanwas—musthavebeen—GracePoole。Youcallherastrangebeingyourself:fromallyouknow,youhavereasonsotocallher—whatdidshedotome?whattoMason?Inastatebetweensleepingandwaking,younoticedherentranceandheractions;butfeverish,almostdeliriousasyouwere,youascribedtoheragoblinappearancedifferentfromherown:thelongdishevelledhair,theswelledblackface,theexaggeratedstature,werefigmentsofimagination;resultsofnightmare:thespitefultearingoftheveilwasreal:anditislikeher。IseeyouwouldaskwhyIkeepsuchawomaninmyhouse:
whenwehavebeenmarriedayearandaday,Iwilltellyou;butnotnow。Areyousatisfied,Jane?Doyouacceptmysolutionofthemystery?\'
Ireflected,andintruthitappearedtometheonlypossibleone:satisfiedIwasnot,buttopleasehimIendeavouredtoappearso—relieved,Icertainlydidfeel;soIansweredhimwithacontentedsmile。Andnow,asitwaslongpastone,Ipreparedtoleavehim。
\'DoesnotSophiesleepwithAdeleinthenursery?\'heasked,asI
litmycandle。
\'Yes,sir。\'
\'AndthereisroomenoughinAdele\'slittlebedforyou。
Youmustshareitwithherto—night,Jane:itisnowonderthattheincidentyouhaverelatedshouldmakeyounervous,andIwouldratheryoudidnotsleepalone:promisemetogotothenursery。\'
\'Ishallbeverygladtodoso,sir。\'
\'Andfastenthedoorsecurelyontheinside。WakeSophiewhenyougoupstairs,underpretenceofrequestinghertorouseyouingoodtimeto—morrow;foryoumustbedressedandhavefinishedbreakfastbeforeeight。Andnow,nomoresombrethoughts:chasedullcareaway,Janet。Don\'tyouheartowhatsoftwhispersthewindhasfallen?
andthereisnomorebeatingofrainagainstthewindow—panes:lookhere\'(heliftedupthecurtain)—\'itisalovelynight!\'
Itwas。Halfheavenwaspureandstainless:theclouds,nowtroopingbeforethewind,whichhadshiftedtothewest,werefilingoffeastwardinlong,silveredcolumns。Themoonshonepeacefully。
\'Well,\'saidMr。Rochester,gazinginquiringlyintomyeyes,\'howismyJanetnow?\'
\'Thenightisserene,sir;andsoamI。\'
\'Andyouwillnotdreamofseparationandsorrowto—night;