\'Jane,\'herecommenced,asweenteredthelaurelwalk,andslowlystrayeddowninthedirectionofthesunkfenceandthehorse—chestnut,\'Thornfieldisapleasantplaceinsummer,isitnot?\'
\'Yes,sir。\'
\'Youmusthavebecomeinsomedegreeattachedtothehouse,—
you,whohaveaneyefornaturalbeauties,andagooddealoftheorganofAdhesiveness?\'
\'Iamattachedtoit,indeed。\'
\'AndthoughIdon\'tcomprehendhowitis,IperceiveyouhaveacquiredadegreeofregardforthatfoolishlittlechildAdele,too;andevenforsimpledameFairfax?\'
\'Yes,sir;indifferentways,Ihaveanaffectionforboth。\'
\'Andwouldbesorrytopartwiththem?\'
\'Yes。\'
\'Pity!\'hesaid,andsighedandpaused。\'Itisalwaysthewayofeventsinthislife,\'hecontinuedpresently:\'nosoonerhaveyougotsettledinapleasantresting—place,thanavoicecallsouttoyoutoriseandmoveon,forthehourofreposeisexpired。\'
\'MustImoveon,sir?\'Iasked。\'MustIleaveThornfield?\'
\'Ibelieveyoumust,Jane。Iamsorry,Janet,butIbelieveindeedyoumust。\'
Thiswasablow:butIdidnotletitprostrateme。
\'Well,sir,Ishallbereadywhentheordertomarchcomes。\'
\'Itiscomenow—Imustgiveitto—night。\'
\'Thenyouaregoingtobemarried,sir?\'
\'Ex—act—ly—pre—cise—ly:withyourusualacuteness,youhavehitthenailstraightonthehead。\'
\'Soon,sir?\'
\'Verysoon,my—thatis,MissEyre:andyou\'llremember,Jane,thefirsttimeI,orRumour,plainlyintimatedtoyouthatitwasmyintentiontoputmyoldbachelor\'sneckintothesacrednoose,toenterintotheholyestateofmatrimony—totakeMissIngramtomybosom,inshort(she\'sanextensivearmful:butthat\'snottothepoint—onecan\'thavetoomuchofsuchaveryexcellentthingasmybeautifulBlanche):well,asIwassaying—listentome,Jane!
You\'renotturningyourheadtolookaftermoremoths,areyou?Thatwasonlyalady—clock,child,\"flyingawayhome。\"Iwishtoremindyouthatitwasyouwhofirstsaidtome,withthatdiscretionIrespectinyou—withthatforesight,prudence,andhumilitywhichbefityourresponsibleanddependentposition—thatincaseImarriedMissIngram,bothyouandlittleAdelehadbettertrotforthwith。Ipassoverthesortofslurconveyedinthissuggestiononthecharacterofmybeloved;indeed,whenyouarefaraway,Janet,I\'lltrytoforgetit:Ishallnoticeonlyitswisdom;whichissuchthatIhavemadeitmylawofaction。Adelemustgotoschool;andyou,MissEyre,mustgetanewsituation。\'
\'Yes,sir,Iwilladvertiseimmediately:andmeantime,I
suppose—\'Iwasgoingtosay,\'IsupposeImaystayhere,tillI
findanothersheltertobetakemyselfto\':butIstopped,feelingitwouldnotdotoriskalongsentence,formyvoicewasnotquiteundercommand。
\'InaboutamonthIhopetobeabridegroom,\'continuedMr。
Rochester;\'andintheinterim,Ishallmyselflookoutforemploymentandanasylumforyou。\'
\'Thankyou,sir;Iamsorrytogive—\'
\'Oh,noneedtoapologise!Iconsiderthatwhenadependantdoesherdutyaswellasyouhavedoneyours,shehasasortofclaimuponheremployerforanylittleassistancehecanconvenientlyrenderher;indeedIhavealready,throughmyfuturemother—in—law,heardofaplacethatIthinkwillsuit:itistoundertaketheeducationofthefivedaughtersofMrs。DionysiusO\'GallofBitternuttLodge,Connaught,Ireland。You\'lllikeIreland,Ithink:they\'resuchwarmheartedpeoplethere,theysay。\'
\'Itisalongwayoff,sir。\'
\'Nomatter—agirlofyoursensewillnotobjecttothevoyageorthedistance。\'
\'Notthevoyage,butthedistance:andthentheseaisabarrier—\'
\'Fromwhat,Jane?\'
\'FromEnglandandfromThornfield:and—\'
\'Well?\'
\'Fromyou,sir。\'
Isaidthisalmostinvoluntarily,and,withaslittlesanctionoffreewill,mytearsgushedout。Ididnotcrysoastobeheard,however;Iavoidedsobbing。ThethoughtofMrs。O\'GallandBitternuttLodgestruckcoldtomyheart;andcolderthethoughtofallthebrineandfoam,destined,asitseemed,torushbetweenmeandthemasteratwhosesideInowwalked,andcoldesttheremembranceofthewiderocean—wealth,caste,customintervenedbetweenmeandwhatInaturallyandinevitablyloved。
\'Itisalongway,\'Iagainsaid。
\'Itis,tobesure;andwhenyougettoBitternuttLodge,Connaught,Ireland,Ishallneverseeyouagain,Jane:that\'smorallycertain。InevergoovertoIreland,nothavingmyselfmuchofafancyforthecountry。Wehavebeengoodfriends,Jane;havewenot?\'
\'Yes,sir。\'
\'Andwhenfriendsareontheeveofseparation,theyliketospendthelittletimethatremainstothemclosetoeachother。
Come!we\'lltalkoverthevoyageandthepartingquietlyhalfanhourorso,whilethestarsenterintotheirshininglifeupinheavenyonder:hereisthechestnuttree:hereisthebenchatitsoldroots。
Come,wewillsitthereinpeaceto—night,thoughweshouldnevermorebedestinedtosittheretogether。\'Heseatedmeandhimself。
\'ItisalongwaytoIreland,Janet,andIamsorrytosendmylittlefriendonsuchwearytravels:butifIcan\'tdobetter,howisittobehelped?Areyouanythingakintome,doyouthink,Jane?\'
Icouldrisknosortofanswerbythistime:myheartwasstill。
\'Because,\'hesaid,\'Isometimeshaveaqueerfeelingwithregardtoyou—especiallywhenyouarenearme,asnow:itisasifIhadastringsomewhereundermyleftribs,tightlyandinextricablyknottedtoasimilarstringsituatedinthecorrespondingquarterofyourlittleframe。AndifthatboisterousChannelandtwohundredmilesorsooflandcomebroadbetweenus,Iamafraidthatcordofcommunionwillbesnapt;andthenI\'veanervousnotionIshouldtaketobleedinginwardly。Asforyou,—you\'dforgetme。\'
\'ThatInevershould,sir:youknow—\'Impossibletoproceed。
\'Jane,doyouhearthatnightingalesinginginthewood?
Listen!\'
Inlistening,Isobbedconvulsively;forIcouldrepresswhatI
endurednolonger;Iwasobligedtoyield,andIwasshakenfromheadtofootwithacutedistress。WhenIdidspeak,itwasonlytoexpressanimpetuouswishthatIhadneverbeenborn,ornevercometoThornfield。
\'Becauseyouaresorrytoleaveit?\'
Thevehemenceofemotion,stirredbygriefandlovewithinme,wasclaimingmastery,andstrugglingforfullsway,andassertingarighttopredominate,toovercome,tolive,rise,andreignatlast:
yes,—andtospeak。
\'IgrievetoleaveThornfield:IloveThornfield:—Iloveit,becauseIhavelivedinitafullanddelightfullife,—momentarilyatleast。Ihavenotbeentrampledon。Ihavenotbeenpetrified。I
havenotbeenburiedwithinferiorminds,andexcludedfromeveryglimpseofcommunionwithwhatisbrightandenergeticandhigh。I
havetalked,facetoface,withwhatIreverence,withwhatI
delightin,—withanoriginal,avigorous,anexpandedmind。Ihaveknownyou,Mr。Rochester;anditstrikesmewithterrorandanguishtofeelIabsolutelymustbetornfromyouforever。Iseethenecessityofdeparture;anditislikelookingonthenecessityofdeath。\'
\'Wheredoyouseethenecessity?\'heaskedsuddenly。
\'Where?You,sir,haveplaceditbeforeme。\'
\'Inwhatshape?\'
\'IntheshapeofMissIngram;anobleandbeautifulwoman,—
yourbride。\'
\'Mybride!Whatbride?Ihavenobride!\'
\'Butyouwillhave。\'
\'Yes;—Iwill!\'—Iwill!\'Hesethisteeth。
\'ThenImustgo:—youhavesaidityourself。\'
\'No:youmuststay!Iswearit—andtheoathshallbekept。\'
\'ItellyouImustgo!\'Iretorted,rousedtosomethinglikepassion。\'DoyouthinkIcanstaytobecomenothingtoyou?DoyouthinkIamanautomaton?—amachinewithoutfeelings?andcanbeartohavemymorselofbreadsnatchedfrommylips,andmydropoflivingwaterdashedfrommycup?Doyouthink,becauseIampoor,obscure,plain,andlittle,Iamsoullessandheartless?Youthinkwrong!—Ihaveasmuchsoulasyou,—andfullasmuchheart!AndifGodhadgiftedmewithsomebeautyandmuchwealth,Ishouldhavemadeitashardforyoutoleaveme,asitisnowformetoleaveyou。I
amnottalkingtoyounowthroughthemediumofcustom,conventionalities,norevenofmortalflesh;—itismyspiritthataddressesyourspirit;justasifbothhadpassedthroughthegrave,andwestoodatGod\'sfeet,equal,—asweare!\'
\'Asweare!\'repeatedMr。Rochester—\'so,\'headded,enclosingmeinhisarms,gatheringmetohisbreast,pressinghislipsonmylips:
\'so,Jane!\'
\'Yes,so,sir,\'Irejoined:\'andyetnotso;foryouareamarriedman—orasgoodasamarriedman,andwedtooneinferiortoyou—toonewithwhomyouhavenosympathy—whomIdonotbelieveyoutrulylove;forIhaveseenandheardyousneerather。Iwouldscornsuchaunion:thereforeIambetterthanyou—letmego!\'
\'Where,Jane?ToIreland?\'
\'Yes—toIreland。Ihavespokenmymind,andcangoanywherenow。\'
\'Jane,bestill;don\'tstruggleso,likeawildfranticbirdthatisrendingitsownplumageinitsdesperation。\'
\'Iamnobird;andnonetensnaresme;Iamafreehumanbeingwithanindependentwill,whichInowexerttoleaveyou。\'
Anothereffortsetmeatliberty,andIstooderectbeforehim。
\'Andyourwillshalldecideyourdestiny,\'hesaid:\'I
offeryoumyhand,myheart,andashareofallmypossessions。\'
\'Youplayafarce,whichImerelylaughat。\'
\'Iaskyoutopassthroughlifeatmyside—tobemysecondself,andbestearthlycompanion。\'
\'Forthatfateyouhavealreadymadeyourchoice,andmustabidebyit。\'
\'Jane,bestillafewmoments:youareover—excited:I
willbestilltoo。\'
Awaftofwindcamesweepingdownthelaurel—walkandtrembledthroughtheboughsofthechestnut:itwanderedaway—away—toanindefinitedistance—itdied。Thenightingale\'ssongwasthentheonlyvoiceofthehour:inlisteningtoit,Iagainwept。Mr。Rochestersatquiet,lookingatmegentlyandseriously。Sometimepassedbeforehespoke;heatlastsaid—
\'Cometomyside,Jane,andletusexplainandunderstandoneanother。\'
\'Iwillneveragaincometoyourside:Iamtornawaynow,andcannotreturn。\'
\'But,Jane,Isummonyouasmywife:itisyouonlyIintendtomarry。\'
Iwassilent:Ithoughthemockedme。
\'Come,Jane—comehither。\'
\'Yourbridestandsbetweenus。\'
Herose,andwithastridereachedme。
\'Mybrideishere,\'hesaid,againdrawingmetohim,\'becausemyequalishere,andmylikeness。Jane,willyoumarryme?\'
StillIdidnotanswer,andstillIwrithedmyselffromhisgrasp:forIwasstillincredulous。
\'Doyoudoubtme,Jane?\'
\'Entirely。\'
\'Youhavenofaithinme?\'
\'Notawhit。\'
\'AmIaliarinyoureyes?\'heaskedpassionately。\'Littlesceptic,youshallbeconvinced。WhatlovehaveIforMissIngram?None:andthatyouknow。Whatlovehassheforme?None:asIhavetakenpainstoprove:Icausedarumourtoreachherthatmyfortunewasnotathirdofwhatwassupposed,andafterthatIpresentedmyselftoseetheresult;itwascoldnessbothfromherandhermother。Iwouldnot—
Icouldnot—marryMissIngram。You—youstrange,youalmostunearthlything!—Iloveasmyownflesh。You—poorandobscure,andsmallandplainasyouare—Ientreattoacceptmeasahusband。\'
\'What,me!\'Iejaculated,beginninginhisearnestness—
andespeciallyinhisincivility—tocredithissincerity:\'mewhohavenotafriendintheworldbutyou—ifyouaremyfriend:notashillingbutwhatyouhavegivenme?\'
\'You,Jane,Imusthaveyouformyown—entirelymyown。
Willyoubemine?Sayyes,quickly。\'
\'Mr。Rochester,letmelookatyourface:turntothemoonlight。\'
\'Why?\'
\'BecauseIwanttoreadyourcountenance—turn!\'
\'There!youwillfinditscarcelymorelegiblethanacrumpled,scratchedpage。Readon:onlymakehaste,forIsuffer。\'
Hisfacewasverymuchagitatedandverymuchflushed,andtherewerestrongworkingsinthefeatures,andstrangegleamsintheeyes。
\'Oh,Jane,youtortureme!\'heexclaimed。\'Withthatsearchingandyetfaithfulandgenerouslook,youtortureme!\'
\'HowcanIdothat?Ifyouaretrue,andyourofferreal,myonlyfeelingstoyoumustbegratitudeanddevotion—theycannottorture。\'
\'Gratitude!\'heejaculated;andaddedwildly—\'Jane,acceptmequickly。Say,Edward—givememyname—Edward—Iwillmarryyou。\'
\'Areyouinearnest?Doyoutrulyloveme?Doyousincerelywishmetobeyourwife?\'
\'Ido;andifanoathisnecessarytosatisfyyou,Iswearit。\'
\'Then,sir,Iwillmarryyou。\'
\'Edward—mylittlewife!\'
\'DearEdward!\'
\'Cometome—cometomeentirelynow,\'saidhe;andadded,inhisdeepesttone,speakinginmyearashischeekwaslaidonmine,\'Makemyhappiness—Iwillmakeyours。\'
\'Godpardonme!\'hesubjoinederelong;\'andmanmeddlenotwithme:Ihaveher,andwillholdher。\'
\'Thereisnoonetomeddle,sir。Ihavenokindredtointerfere。\'
\'No—thatisthebestofit,\'hesaid。AndifIhadlovedhimlessIshouldhavethoughthisaccentandlookofexultationsavage;
but,sittingbyhim,rousedfromthenightmareofparting—calledtotheparadiseofunion—Ithoughtonlyoftheblissgivenmetodrinkinsoabundantaflow。Againandagainhesaid,\'Areyouhappy,Jane?\'
AndagainandagainIanswered,\'Yes,\'Afterwhichhemurmured,\'Itwillatone—itwillatone。HaveInotfoundherfriendless,andcold,andcomfortless?WillInotguard,andcherish,andsolaceher?Istherenotloveinmyheart,andconstancyinmyresolves?ItwillexpiateatGod\'stribunal。IknowmyMakersanctionswhatIdo。
Fortheworld\'sjudgment—Iwashmyhandsthereof。Forman\'sopinion—Idefyit。\'
Butwhathadbefallenthenight?Themoonwasnotyetset,andwewereallinshadow:Icouldscarcelyseemymaster\'sface,nearasI
was。Andwhatailedthechestnuttree?itwrithedandgroaned;whilewindroaredinthelaurelwalk,andcamesweepingoverus。
\'Wemustgoin,\'saidMr。Rochester:\'theweatherchanges。
I
couldhavesatwiththeetillmorning,Jane。\'
\'Andso,\'thoughtI,\'couldIwithyou。\'Ishouldhavesaidso,perhaps,butalivid,vividsparkleaptoutofacloudatwhichI
waslooking,andtherewasacrack,acrash,andacloserattlingpeal;andIthoughtonlyofhidingmydazzledeyesagainstMr。
Rochester\'sshoulder。
Therainrusheddown。Hehurriedmeupthewalk,throughthegrounds,andintothehouse;butwewerequitewetbeforewecouldpassthethreshold。Hewastakingoffmyshawlinthehall,andshakingthewateroutofmyloosenedhair,whenMrs。Fairfaxemergedfromherroom。Ididnotobserveheratfirst,nordidMr。
Rochester。Thelampwaslit。Thedockwasonthestrokeoftwelve。
\'Hastentotakeoffyourwetthings,\'saidhe;\'andbeforeyougo,good—night—good—night,mydarling!\'
Hekissedmerepeatedly。WhenIlookedup,onleavinghisarms,therestoodthewidow,pale,grave,andamazed。Ionlysmiledather,andranupstairs。\'Explanationwilldoforanothertime,\'thoughtI。Still,whenIreachedmychamber,Ifeltapangattheideasheshouldeventemporarilymisconstruewhatshehadseen。Butjoysooneffacedeveryotherfeeling;andloudasthewindblew,nearanddeepasthethundercrashed,fierceandfrequentasthelightninggleamed,cataract—likeastherainfellduringastormoftwohours\'
duration,Iexperiencednofearandlittleawe。Mr。Rochestercamethricetomydoorinthecourseofit,toaskifIwassafeandtranquil:andthatwascomfort,thatwasstrengthforanything。
BeforeIleftmybedinthemorning,littleAdelecamerunningintotellmethatthegreathorse—chestnutatthebottomoftheorchardhadbeenstruckbylightninginthenight,andhalfofitsplitaway。
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ASIroseanddressed,Ithoughtoverwhathadhappened,andwonderedifitwereadream。IcouldnotbecertainoftherealitytillIhadseenMr。Rochesteragain,andheardhimrenewhiswordsofloveandpromise。
Whilearrangingmyhair,Ilookedatmyfaceintheglass,andfeltitwasnolongerplain:therewashopeinitsaspectandlifeinitscolour;andmyeyesseemedasiftheyhadbeheldthefountoffruition,andborrowedbeamsfromthelustrousripple。Ihadoftenbeenunwillingtolookatmymaster,becauseIfearedhecouldnotbepleasedatmylook;butIwassureImightliftmyfacetohisnow,andnotcoolhisaffectionbyitsexpression。Itookaplainbutcleanandlightsummerdressfrommydrawerandputiton:itseemednoattirehadeversowellbecomeme,becausenonehadIeverworninsoblissfulamood。
Iwasnotsurprised,whenIrandownintothehall,toseethatabrilliantJunemorninghadsucceededtothetempestofthenight;
andtofeel,throughtheopenglassdoor,thebreathingofafreshandfragrantbreeze。NaturemustbegladsomewhenIwassohappy。A
beggar—womanandherlittleboy—pale,raggedobjectsboth—werecomingupthewalk,andIrandownandgavethemallthemoneyI
happenedtohaveinmypurse—somethreeorfourshillings:goodorbad,theymustpartakeofmyjubilee。Therookscawed,andblitherbirdssang;butnothingwassomerryorsomusicalasmyownrejoicingheart。
Mrs。Fairfaxsurprisedmebylookingoutofthewindowwithasadcountenance,andsayinggravely—\'MissEyre,willyoucometobreakfast?\'Duringthemealshewasquietandcool:butIcouldnotundeceiveherthen。Imustwaitformymastertogiveexplanations;
andsomustshe。IatewhatIcould,andthenIhastenedupstairs。I
metAdeleleavingtheschoolroom。
\'Whereareyougoing?Itistimeforlessons。\'
\'Mr。Rochesterhassentmeawaytothenursery。\'
\'Whereishe?\'
\'Inthere,\'pointingtotheapartmentshehadleft;andIwentin,andtherehestood。
\'Comeandbidmegood—morning,\'saidhe。Igladlyadvanced;
anditwasnotmerelyacoldwordnow,orevenashakeofthehandthatIreceived,butanembraceandakiss。Itseemednatural:itseemedgenialtobesowellloved,socaressedbyhim。
\'Jane,youlookblooming,andsmiling,andpretty,\'saidhe:\'trulyprettythismorning。Isthismypale,littleelf?Isthismymustard—seed?Thislittlesunny—facedgirlwiththedimpledcheekandrosylips;thesatin—smoothhazelhair,andtheradianthazeleyes?\'(Ihadgreeneyes,reader;butyoumustexcusethemistake:forhimtheywerenew—dyed,Isuppose。)
\'ItisJaneEyre,sir。\'
\'SoontobeJaneRochester,\'headded:\'infourweeks,Janet;notadaymore。Doyouhearthat?\'
Idid,andIcouldnotquitecomprehendit:itmademegiddy。Thefeeling,theannouncementsentthroughme,wassomethingstrongerthanwasconsistentwithjoy—somethingthatsmoteandstunned:itwas,I
think,almostfear。
\'Youblushed,andnowyouarewhite,Jane:whatisthatfor?\'
\'Becauseyougavemeanewname—JaneRochester;anditseemssostrange。\'
\'Yes,Mrs。Rochester,\'saidhe;\'youngMrs。Rochester—
FairfaxRochester\'sgirl—bride。\'
\'Itcanneverbe,sir;itdoesnotsoundlikely。Humanbeingsneverenjoycompletehappinessinthisworld。Iwasnotbornforadifferentdestinytotherestofmyspecies:toimaginesuchalotbefallingmeisafairytale—aday—dream。\'
\'WhichIcanandwillrealise。Ishallbeginto—day。ThismorningI
wrotetomybankerinLondontosendmecertainjewelshehasinhiskeeping,—heirloomsfortheladiesofThornfield。InadayortwoI
hopetopourthemintoyourlap:foreveryprivilege,everyattentionshallbeyoursthatIwouldaccordapeer\'sdaughter,ifabouttomarryher。\'
\'Oh,sir!—nevermindjewels!Idon\'tliketohearthemspokenof。JewelsforJaneEyresoundsunnaturalandstrange:Iwouldrathernothavethem。\'
\'Iwillmyselfputthediamondchainroundyourneck,andthecircletonyourforehead,—whichitwillbecome:fornature,atleast,hasstampedherpatentofnobilityonthisbrow,Jane;andIwillclaspthebraceletsonthesefinewrists,andloadthesefairy—likefingerswithrings。\'
\'No,no,sir!thinkofothersubjects,andspeakofotherthings,andinanotherstrain。Don\'taddressmeasifIwereabeauty;Iamyourplain,Quakerishgoverness。\'
\'Youareabeautyinmyeyes,andabeautyjustafterthedesireofmyheart,—delicateandaerial。\'
\'Punyandinsignificant,youmean。Youaredreaming,sir,—
oryouaresneering。ForGod\'ssake,don\'tbeironical!\'
\'Iwillmaketheworldacknowledgeyouabeauty,too,\'
hewenton,whileIreallybecameuneasyatthestrainhehadadopted,becauseIfelthewaseitherdeludinghimselfortryingtodeludeme。\'I
willattiremyJaneinsatinandlace,andsheshallhaverosesinherhair;andIwillcovertheheadIlovebestwithapricelessveil。\'
\'Andthenyouwon\'tknowme,sir;andIshallnotbeyourJaneEyreanylonger,butanapeinaharlequin\'sjacket—ajayinborrowedplumes。Iwouldassoonseeyou,Mr。Rochester,trickedoutinstage—trappings,asmyselfcladinacourt—lady\'srobe;andIdon\'tcallyouhandsome,sir,thoughIloveyoumostdearly:fartoodearlytoflatteryou。Don\'tflatterme。\'
Hepursuedhistheme,however,withoutnoticingmydeprecation。
\'ThisverydayIshalltakeyouinthecarriagetoMillcote,andyoumustchoosesomedressesforyourself。Itoldyouweshallbemarriedinfourweeks。Theweddingistotakeplacequietly,inthechurchdownbelowyonder;andthenIshallwaftyouawayatoncetotown。Afterabriefstaythere,Ishallbearmytreasuretoregionsnearerthesun:toFrenchvineyardsandItalianplains;andsheshallseewhateverisfamousinoldstoryandinmodernrecord:sheshalltaste,too,ofthelifeofcities;andsheshalllearntovalueherselfbyjustcomparisonwithothers。\'
\'ShallItravel?—andwithyou,sir?\'
\'YoushallsojournatParis,Rome,andNaples:atFlorence,Venice,andVienna:allthegroundIhavewanderedovershallbere—troddenbyyou:whereverIstampedmyhoof,yoursylph\'sfootshallstepalso。
Tenyearssince,IflewthroughEuropehalfmad;withdisgust,hate,andrageasmycompanions:nowIshallrevisitithealedandcleaned,withaveryangelasmycomforter。\'
Ilaughedathimashesaidthis。\'Iamnotanangel,\'
I
asserted;\'andIwillnotbeonetillIdie:Iwillbemyself。Mr。
Rochester,youmustneitherexpectnorexactanythingcelestialofme—
foryouwillnotgetit,anymorethanIshallgetitofyou:whichIdonotatallanticipate。\'
\'Whatdoyouanticipateofme?\'
\'Foralittlewhileyouwillperhapsbeasyouarenow,—
averylittlewhile;andthenyouwillturncool;andthenyouwillbecapricious;andthenyouwillbestern,andIshallhavemuchadotopleaseyou:butwhenyougetwellusedtome,youwillperhapslikemeagain,—likeme,Isay,notloveme。Isupposeyourlovewilleffervesceinsixmonths,orless。Ihaveobservedinbookswrittenbymen,thatperiodassignedasthefarthesttowhichahusband\'sardourextends。Yet,afterall,asafriendandcompanion,Ihopenevertobecomequitedistastefultomydearmaster。\'
\'Distasteful!andlikeyouagain!IthinkIshalllikeyouagain,andyetagain:andIwillmakeyouconfessIdonotonlylike,butloveyou—withtruth,fervour,constancy。\'
\'Yetareyounotcapricious,sir?\'
\'Towomenwhopleasemeonlybytheirfaces,IamtheverydevilwhenIfindouttheyhaveneithersoulsnorhearts—whentheyopentomeaperspectiveofflatness,triviality,andperhapsimbecility,coarseness,andill—temper:buttothecleareyeandeloquenttongue,tothesoulmadeoffire,andthecharacterthatbendsbutdoesnotbreak—atoncesuppleandstable,tractableandconsistent—
I
amevertenderandtrue。\'
\'Hadyoueverexperienceofsuchacharacter,sir?Didyoueverlovesuchanone?\'
\'Iloveitnow。\'
\'Butbeforeme:ifI,indeed,inanyrespectcomeuptoyourdifficultstandard?\'
\'Inevermetyourlikeness。Jane,youpleaseme,andyoumasterme—
youseemtosubmit,andIlikethesenseofpliancyyouimpart;andwhileIamtwiningthesoft,silkenskeinroundmyfinger,itsendsathrillupmyarmtomyheart。Iaminfluenced—conquered;andtheinfluenceissweeterthanIcanexpress;andtheconquestIundergohasawitcherybeyondanytriumphIcanwin。Whydoyousmile,Jane?
Whatdoesthatinexplicable,thatuncannyturnofcountenancemean?\'