\'Yes,sir。\'
\'Whosehouseisit?\'
\'Mr。Rochester\'s。\'
\'DoyouknowMr。Rochester?\'
\'No,Ihaveneverseenhim。\'
\'Heisnotresident,then?\'
\'No。\'
\'Canyoutellmewhereheis?\'
\'Icannot。\'
\'Youarenotaservantatthehall,ofcourse。Youare—\'
Hestopped,ranhiseyeovermydress,which,asusual,wasquitesimple:
ablackmerinocloak,ablackbeaverbonnet;neitherofthemhalffineenoughforalady\'s—maid。HeseemedpuzzledtodecidewhatIwas;I
helpedhim。
\'Iamthegoverness。\'
\'Ah,thegoverness!\'herepeated;\'deucetakeme,ifI
hadnotforgotten!Thegoverness!\'andagainmyraimentunderwentscrutiny。
Intwominutesherosefromthestile:hisfaceexpressedpainwhenhetriedtomove。
\'Icannotcommissionyoutofetchhelp,\'hesaid;\'butyoumayhelpmealittleyourself,ifyouwillbesokind。\'
\'Yes,sir。\'
\'YouhavenotanumbrellathatIcanuseasastick?\'
\'No。\'
\'Trytogetholdofmyhorse\'sbridleandleadhimtome:
youarenotafraid?\'
Ishouldhavebeenafraidtotouchahorsewhenalone,butwhentoldtodoit,Iwasdisposedtoobey。Iputdownmymuffonthestile,andwentuptothetallsteed;Iendeavouredtocatchthebridle,butitwasaspiritedthing,andwouldnotletmecomenearitshead;Imadeeffortoneffort,thoughinvain:meantime,Iwasmortallyafraidofitstramplingforefeet。Thetravellerwaitedandwatchedforsometime,andatlasthelaughed。
\'Isee,\'hesaid,\'themountainwillneverbebroughttoMahomet,soallyoucandoistoaidMahomettogotothemountain;Imustbegofyoutocomehere。\'
Icame。\'Excuseme,\'hecontinued:\'necessitycompelsmetomakeyouuseful。\'Helaidaheavyhandonmyshoulder,andleaningonmewithsomestress,limpedtohishorse。Havingoncecaughtthebridle,hemastereditdirectlyandsprangtohissaddle;grimacinggrimlyashemadetheeffort,foritwrenchedhissprain。
\'Now,\'saidhe,releasinghisunderlipfromahardbite,\'justhandmemywhip;itliesthereunderthehedge。\'
Isoughtitandfoundit。
\'Thankyou;nowmakehastewiththelettertoHay,andreturnasfastasyoucan。\'
Atouchofaspurredheelmadehishorsefirststartandrear,andthenboundaway;thedogrushedinhistraces;allthreevanished,\'Likeheaththat,inthewilderness,Thewildwindwhirlsaway。\'
Itookupmymuffandwalkedon。Theincidenthadoccurredandwasgoneforme:itwasanincidentofnomoment,noromance,nointerestinasense;yetitmarkedwithchangeonesinglehourofamonotonouslife。Myhelphadbeenneededandclaimed;Ihadgivenit:Iwaspleasedtohavedonesomething;trivial,transitorythoughthedeedwas,itwasyetanactivething,andIwaswearyofanexistenceallpassive。Thenewface,too,waslikeanewpictureintroducedtothegalleryofmemory;anditwasdissimilartoalltheothershangingthere:firstly,becauseitwasmasculine;and,secondly,becauseitwasdark,strong,andstern。IhaditstillbeforemewhenIenteredHay,andslippedtheletterintothepost—office;IsawitasIwalkedfastdown—hillallthewayhome。
WhenIcametothestile,Istoppedaminute,lookedroundandlistened,withanideathatahorse\'shoofsmightringonthecausewayagain,andthatariderinacloak,andaGytrash—likeNewfoundlanddog,mightbeagainapparent:Isawonlythehedgeandapollardwillowbeforeme,risingupstillandstraighttomeetthemoonbeams;IheardonlythefaintestwaftofwindroamingfitfulamongthetreesroundThornfield,amiledistant;andwhenIglanceddowninthedirectionofthemurmur,myeye,traversingthehall—front,caughtalightkindlinginawindow:itremindedmethatIwaslate,andI
hurriedon。
Ididnotlikere—enteringThornfield。Topassitsthresholdwastoreturntostagnation;tocrossthesilenthall,toascendthedarksomestaircase,toseekmyownlonelylittleroom,andthentomeettranquilMrs。Fairfax,andspendthelongwintereveningwithher,andheronly,wastoquellwhollythefaintexcitementwakenedbymywalk,—toslipagainovermyfacultiestheviewlessfettersofanuniformandtoostillexistence;ofanexistencewhoseveryprivilegesofsecurityandeaseIwasbecomingincapableofappreciating。Whatgooditwouldhavedonemeatthattimetohavebeentossedinthestormsofanuncertainstrugglinglife,andtohavebeentaughtbyroughandbitterexperiencetolongforthecalmamidstwhichInowrepined!Yes,justasmuchgoodasitwoulddoamantiredofsittingstillina\'tooeasychair\'totakealongwalk:andjustasnaturalwasthewishtostir,undermycircumstances,asitwouldbeunderhis。
Ilingeredatthegates;Ilingeredonthelawn;Ipacedbackwardsandforwardsonthepavement;theshuttersoftheglassdoorwereclosed;Icouldnotseeintotheinterior;andbothmyeyesandspiritseemeddrawnfromthegloomyhouse—fromthegreyhollowfilledwithraylesscells,asitappearedtome—tothatskyexpandedbeforeme,—ablueseaabsolvedfromtaintofcloud;themoonascendingitinsolemnmarch;herorbseemingtolookupassheleftthehill—tops,frombehindwhichshehadcome,farandfartherbelowher,andaspiredtothezenith,midnightdarkinitsfathomlessdepthandmeasurelessdistance;andforthosetremblingstarsthatfollowedhercourse;theymademyhearttremble,myveinsglowwhenIviewedthem。Littlethingsrecallustoearth;theclockstruckinthehall;thatsufficed;Iturnedfrommoonandstars,openedaside—door,andwentin。
Thehallwasnotdark,noryetwasitlit,onlybythehigh—hungbronzelamp;awarmglowsuffusedbothitandthelowerstepsoftheoakstaircase。Thisruddyshineissuedfromthegreatdining—room,whosetwo—leaveddoorstoodopen,andshowedagenialfireinthegrate,glancingonmarblehearthandbrassfire—irons,andrevealingpurpledraperiesandpolishedfurniture,inthemostpleasantradiance。Itrevealed,too,agroupnearthemantelpiece:Ihadscarcelycaughtit,andscarcelybecomeawareofacheerfulminglingofvoices,amongstwhichIseemedtodistinguishthetonesofAdele,whenthedoorclosed。
IhastenedtoMrs。Fairfax\'sroom;therewasafiretheretoo,butnocandle,andnoMrs。Fairfax。Instead,allalone,sittinguprightontherug,andgazingwithgravityattheblaze,Ibeheldagreatblackandwhitelong—haireddog,justliketheGytrashofthelane。ItwassolikeitthatIwentforwardandsaid—\'Pilot,\'andthethinggotupandcametomeandsnuffedme。Icaressedhim,andhewaggedhisgreattail;buthelookedaneeriecreaturetobealonewith,andIcouldnottellwhencehehadcome。Irangthebell,forIwantedacandle;andIwanted,too,togetanaccountofthisvisitant。Leahentered。
\'Whatdogisthis?\'
\'Hecamewithmaster。\'
\'Withwhom?\'
\'Withmaster—Mr。Rochester—heisjustarrived。\'
\'Indeed!andisMrs。Fairfaxwithhim?\'
\'Yes,andMissAdele;theyareinthedining—room,andJohnisgoneforasurgeon;formasterhashadanaccident;hishorsefellandhisankleissprained。\'
\'DidthehorsefallinHayLane?\'
\'Yes,comingdown—hill;itslippedonsomeice。\'
\'Ah!Bringmeacandle,willyou,Leah?\'
Leahbroughtit;sheentered,followedbyMrs。Fairfax,whorepeatedthenews;addingthatMr。Carterthesurgeonwascome,andwasnowwithMr。Rochester:thenshehurriedouttogiveordersabouttea,andIwentupstairstotakeoffmythings。
chapter13CHAPTERXIII
MR。ROCHESTER,itseems,bythesurgeon\'sorders,wenttobedearlythatnight;nordidherisesoonnextmorning。Whenhedidcomedown,itwastoattendtobusiness:hisagentandsomeofhistenantswerearrived,andwaitingtospeakwithhim。
AdeleandIhadnowtovacatethelibrary:itwouldbeindailyrequisitionasareception—roomforcallers。Afirewaslitinanapartmentupstairs,andthereIcarriedourbooks,andarrangeditforthefutureschoolroom。IdiscernedinthecourseofthemorningthatThornfieldHallwasachangedplace:nolongersilentasachurch,itechoedeveryhourortwotoaknockatthedoor,oraclangofthebell:steps,too,oftentraversedthehall,andnewvoicesspokeindifferentkeysbelow;arillfromtheouterworldwasflowingthroughit;ithadamaster:formypart,Ilikeditbetter。
Adelewasnoteasytoteachthatday;shecouldnotapply:
shekeptrunningtothedoorandlookingoverthebanisterstoseeifshecouldgetaglimpseofMr。Rochester;thenshecoinedpretextstogodownstairs,inorder,asIshrewdlysuspected,tovisitthelibrary,whereIknewshewasnotwanted;then,whenIgotalittleangry,andmadehersitstill,shecontinuedtotalkincessantlyofher\'ami,MonsieurEdouardFairfaxdeRochester,\'asshedubbedhim(Ihadnotbeforeheardhisprenomens),andtoconjecturewhatpresentshehadbroughther:foritappearshehadintimatedthenightbefore,thatwhenhisluggagecamefromMillcote,therewouldbefoundamongstitalittleboxinwhosecontentsshehadaninterest。
\'Etceladoitsignifier,\'saidshe,\'qu\'ilyauraladedansuncadeaupourmoi,etpeut—etrepourvousaussi,mademoiselle。
Monsieuraparledevous:ilm\'ademandelenomdemagouvernante,etsiellen\'etaitpasunepetitepersonne,assezminceetunpeupale。J\'aiditqu\'oui:carc\'estvrai,n\'est—cepas,mademoiselle?\'
IandmypupildinedasusualinMrs。Fairfax\'sparlour;
theafternoonwaswildandsnowy,andwepasseditintheschoolroom。AtdarkIallowedAdeletoputawaybooksandwork,andtorundownstairs;for,fromthecomparativesilencebelow,andfromthecessationofappealstothedoor—bell,IconjecturedthatMr。
Rochesterwasnowatliberty。Leftalone,Iwalkedtothewindow;
butnothingwastobeseenthence:twilightandsnowflakestogetherthickenedtheair,andhidtheveryshrubsonthelawn。Iletdownthecurtainandwentbacktothefireside。
IntheclearembersIwastracingaview,notunlikeapictureI
rememberedtohaveseenofthecastleofHeidelberg,ontheRhine,whenMrs。Fairfaxcamein,breakingupbyherentrancethefierymosaicIhadbeenpiecingtogether,andscatteringtoosomeheavyunwelcomethoughtsthatwerebeginningtothrongonmysolitude。
\'Mr。Rochesterwouldbegladifyouandyourpupilwouldtaketeawithhiminthedrawing—roomthisevening,\'saidshe:\'hehasbeensomuchengagedalldaythathecouldnotasktoseeyoubefore。\'
\'Whenishistea—time?\'Iinquired。
\'Oh,atsixo\'clock:hekeepsearlyhoursinthecountry。
Youhadbetterchangeyourfrocknow;Iwillgowithyouandfastenit。Hereisacandle。\'
\'Isitnecessarytochangemyfrock?\'
\'Yes,youhadbetter:IalwaysdressfortheeveningwhenMr。
Rochesterishere。\'
Thisadditionalceremonyseemedsomewhatstately;however,I
repairedtomyroom,and,withMrs。Fairfax\'said,replacedmyblackstuffdressbyoneofblacksilk;thebestandtheonlyadditionaloneIhad,exceptoneoflightgrey,which,inmyLowoodnotionsofthetoilette,Ithoughttoofinetobeworn,exceptonfirst—rateoccasions。
\'Youwantabrooch,\'saidMrs。Fairfax。IhadasinglelittlepearlornamentwhichMissTemplegavemeasapartingkeepsake:Iputiton,andthenwewentdownstairs。UnusedasIwastostrangers,itwasratheratrialtoappearthusformallysummonedinMr。Rochester\'spresence。IletMrs。Fairfaxprecedemeintothedining—room,andkeptinhershadeaswecrossedthatapartment;and,passingthearch,whosecurtainwasnowdropped,enteredtheelegantrecessbeyond。
Twowaxcandlesstoodlightedonthetable,andtwoonthemantelpiece;baskinginthelightandheatofasuperbfire,layPilot—Adelekneltnearhim。HalfreclinedonacouchappearedMr。
Rochester,hisfootsupportedbythecushion;hewaslookingatAdeleandthedog:thefireshonefullonhisface。Iknewmytravellerwithhisbroadandjettyeyebrows;hissquareforehead,madesquarerbythehorizontalsweepofhisblackhair。Irecognisedhisdecisivenose,moreremarkableforcharacterthanbeauty;hisfullnostrils,denoting,Ithought,choler;hisgrimmouth,chin,andjaw—yes,allthreewereverygrim,andnomistake。Hisshape,nowdivestedofcloak,Iperceivedharmonisedinsquarenesswithhisphysiognomy:Isupposeitwasagoodfigureintheathleticsenseoftheterm—broadchestedandthinflanked,thoughneithertallnorgraceful。
Mr。RochestermusthavebeenawareoftheentranceofMrs。
Fairfaxandmyself;butitappearedhewasnotinthemoodtonoticeus,forheneverliftedhisheadasweapproached。
\'HereisMissEyre,sir,\'saidMrs。Fairfax,inherquietway。Hebowed,stillnottakinghiseyesfromthegroupofthedogandchild。
\'LetMissEyrebeseated,\'saidhe:andtherewassomethingintheforcedstiffbow,intheimpatientyetformaltone,whichseemedfurthertoexpress,\'WhatthedeuceisittomewhetherMissEyrebethereornot?AtthismomentIamnotdisposedtoaccosther。\'
Isatdownquitedisembarrassed。Areceptionoffinishedpolitenesswouldprobablyhaveconfusedme:Icouldnothavereturnedorrepaiditbyansweringgraceandeleganceonmypart;butharshcapricelaidmeundernoobligation;onthecontrary,adecentquiescence,underthefreakofmanner,gavemetheadvantage。Besides,theeccentricityoftheproceedingwaspiquant:Ifeltinterestedtoseehowhewouldgoon。
Hewentonasastatuewould,thatis,heneitherspokenormoved。Mrs。Fairfaxseemedtothinkitnecessarythatsomeoneshouldbeamiable,andshebegantotalk。Kindly,asusual—and,asusual,rathertrite—shecondoledwithhimonthepressureofbusinesshehadhadallday;ontheannoyanceitmusthavebeentohimwiththatpainfulsprain:thenshecommendedhispatienceandperseveranceingoingthroughwithit。
\'Madam,Ishouldlikesometea,\'wasthesolerejoindershegot。
Shehastenedtoringthebell;andwhenthetraycame,sheproceededtoarrangethecups,spoons,etc。,withassiduouscelerity。IandAdelewenttothetable;butthemasterdidnotleavehiscouch。
\'WillyouhandMr。Rochester\'scup?\'saidMrs。Fairfaxtome;
\'Adelemightperhapsspillit。\'
Ididasrequested。Ashetookthecupfrommyhand,Adele,thinkingthemomentpropitiousformakingarequestinmyfavour,criedout—
\'N\'est—cepas,monsieur,qu\'ilyauncadeaupourMademoiselleEyredansvotrepetitcoffre?\'
\'Whotalksofcadeaux?\'saidhegruffly。\'Didyouexpectapresent,MissEyre?Areyoufondofpresents?\'andhesearchedmyfacewitheyesthatIsawweredark,irate,andpiercing。
\'Ihardlyknow,sir;Ihavelittleexperienceofthem:
theyaregenerallythoughtpleasantthings。\'
\'Generallythought?Butwhatdoyouthink?\'
\'Ishouldbeobligedtotaketime,sir,beforeIcouldgiveyouananswerworthyofyouracceptance:apresenthasmanyfacestoit,hasitnot?andoneshouldconsiderall,beforepronouncinganopinionastoitsnature。\'
\'MissEyre,youarenotsounsophisticatedasAdele:shedemandsa\"cadeau,\"clamorously,themomentsheseesme:youbeataboutthebush。\'
\'BecauseIhavelessconfidenceinmydesertsthanAdelehas:shecanprefertheclaimofoldacquaintance,andtherighttooofcustom;
forshesaysyouhavealwaysbeeninthehabitofgivingherplaythings;butifIhadtomakeoutacaseIshouldbepuzzled,sinceIamastranger,andhavedonenothingtoentitlemetoanacknowledgment。\'
\'Oh,don\'tfallbackonover—modesty!IhaveexaminedAdele,andfindyouhavetakengreatpainswithher:sheisnotbright,shehasnotalents;yetinashorttimeshehasmademuchimprovement。\'
\'Sir,youhavenowgivenmemy\"cadeau\";Iamobligedtoyou:itisthemeedteachersmostcovet—praiseoftheirpupils\'progress。\'
\'Humph!\'saidMr。Rochester,andhetookhisteainsilence。
\'Cometothefire,\'saidthemaster,whenthetraywastakenaway,andMrs。Fairfaxhadsettledintoacornerwithherknitting;
whileAdelewasleadingmebythehandroundtheroom,showingmethebeautifulbooksandornamentsontheconsolesandchiffonnieres。
Weobeyed,asindutybound;Adelewantedtotakeaseatonmyknee,butshewasorderedtoamuseherselfwithPilot。
\'Youhavebeenresidentinmyhousethreemonths?\'
\'Yes,sir。\'
\'Andyoucamefrom—?\'
\'Ah!acharitableconcern。Howlongwereyouthere?\'
\'Eightyears。\'
\'Eightyears!youmustbetenaciousoflife。Ithoughthalfthetimeinsuchaplacewouldhavedoneupanyconstitution!Nowonderyouhaveratherthelookofanotherworld。Imarvelledwhereyouhadgotthatsortofface。WhenyoucameonmeinHayLanelastnight,I
thoughtunaccountablyoffairytales,andhadhalfamindtodemandwhetheryouhadbewitchedmyhorse:Iamnotsureyet。Whoareyourparents?\'
\'Ihavenone。\'
\'Noreverhad,Isuppose:doyourememberthem?\'
\'No。\'
\'Ithoughtnot。Andsoyouwerewaitingforyourpeoplewhenyousatonthatstile?\'
\'Forwhom,sir?\'
\'Forthemeningreen:itwasapropermoonlighteveningforthem。DidIbreakthroughoneofyourrings,thatyouspreadthatdamnediceonthecauseway?\'
Ishookmyhead。\'ThemeningreenallforsookEnglandahundredyearsago,\'saidI,speakingasseriouslyashehaddone。\'AndnoteveninHayLane,orthefieldsaboutit,couldyoufindatraceofthem。Idon\'tthinkeithersummerorharvest,orwintermoon,willevershineontheirrevelsmore。\'
Mrs。Fairfaxhaddroppedherknitting,and,withraisedeyebrows,seemedwonderingwhatsortoftalkthiswas。
\'Well,\'resumedMr。Rochester,\'ifyoudisownparents,youmusthavesomesortofkinsfolk:unclesandaunts?\'
\'No;nonethatIeversaw。\'
\'Andyourhome?\'
\'Ihavenone。\'
\'Wheredoyourbrothersandsisterslive?\'
\'Ihavenobrothersorsisters。\'
\'Whorecommendedyoutocomehere?\'
\'Iadvertised,andMrs。Fairfaxansweredmyadvertisement。\'
\'Yes,\'saidthegoodlady,whonowknewwhatgroundwewereupon,\'andIamdailythankfulforthechoiceProvidenceledmetomake。
MissEyrehasbeenaninvaluablecompaniontome,andakindandcarefulteachertoAdele。\'
\'Don\'ttroubleyourselftogiveheracharacter,\'returnedMr。
Rochester:\'eulogiumswillnotbiasme;Ishalljudgeformyself。
Shebeganbyfellingmyhorse。\'
\'Sir?\'saidMrs。Fairfax。
\'Ihavetothankherforthissprain。\'
Thewidowlookedbewildered。
\'MissEyre,haveyoueverlivedinatown?\'
\'No,sir。\'
\'Haveyouseenmuchsociety?\'
\'NonebutthepupilsandteachersofLowood,andnowtheinmatesofThornfield。\'
\'Haveyoureadmuch?\'
\'Onlysuchbooksascameinmyway;andtheyhavenotbeennumerousorverylearned。\'
\'Youhavelivedthelifeofanun:nodoubtyouarewelldrilledinreligiousforms;—Brocklehurst,whoIunderstanddirectsLowood,isaparson,ishenot?\'
\'Yes,sir。\'
\'Andyougirlsprobablyworshippedhim,asaconventfullofreligieuseswouldworshiptheirdirector。\'
\'Oh,no。\'
\'Youareverycool!No!What!anovicenotworshipherpriest!Thatsoundsblasphemous。\'
\'IdislikedMr。Brocklehurst;andIwasnotaloneinthefeeling。
Heisaharshman;atoncepompousandmeddling;hecutoffourhair;andforeconomy\'ssakeboughtusbadneedlesandthread,withwhichwecouldhardlysew。\'
\'Thatwasveryfalseeconomy,\'remarkedMrs。Fairfax,whonowagaincaughtthedriftofthedialogue。
\'Andwasthattheheadandfrontofhisoffending?\'demandedMr。
Rochester。
\'Hestarveduswhenhehadthesolesuperintendenceoftheprovisiondepartment,beforethecommitteewasappointed;andheboreduswithlonglecturesonceaweek,andwitheveningreadingsfrombooksofhisowninditing,aboutsuddendeathsandjudgments,whichmadeusafraidtogotobed。\'
\'WhatagewereyouwhenyouwenttoLowood?\'
\'Aboutten。\'
\'Andyoustayedthereeightyears:youarenow,then,eighteen?\'
Iassented。
\'Arithmetic,yousee,isuseful;withoutitsaid,Ishouldhardlyhavebeenabletoguessyourage。Itisapointdifficulttofixwherethefeaturesandcountenancearesomuchatvarianceasinyourcase。AndnowwhatdidyoulearnatLowood?Canyouplay?\'
\'Alittle。\'
\'Ofcourse:thatistheestablishedanswer。Gointothelibrary—
Imean,ifyouplease。—(Excusemytoneofcommand;Iamusedtosay,\"Dothis,\"anditisdone:Icannotaltermycustomaryhabitsforonenewinmate。)—Go,then,intothelibrary;takeacandlewithyou;leavethedooropen;sitdowntothepiano,andplayatune。\'
Ideparted,obeyinghisdirections。
\'Enough!\'hecalledoutinafewminutes。\'Youplayalittle,I
see;likeanyotherEnglishschool—girl;perhapsratherbetterthansome,butnotwell。\'
Iclosedthepianoandreturned。Mr。Rochestercontinued—
\'Adeleshowedmesomesketchesthismorning,whichshesaidwereyours。Idon\'tknowwhethertheywereentirelyofyourdoing;probablyamasteraidedyou?\'
\'No,indeed!\'Iinterjected。
\'Ah!thatprickspride。Well,fetchmeyourportfolio,ifyoucanvouchforitscontentsbeingoriginal;butdon\'tpassyourwordunlessyouarecertain:Icanrecognisepatchwork。\'
\'ThenIwillsaynothing,andyoushalljudgeforyourself,sir。\'
Ibroughttheportfoliofromthelibrary。
\'Approachthetable,\'saidhe;andIwheeledittohiscouch。AdeleandMrs。Fairfaxdrewneartoseethepictures。
\'Nocrowding,\'saidMr。Rochester:\'takethedrawingsfrommyhandasIfinishwiththem;butdon\'tpushyourfacesuptomine。\'
Hedeliberatelyscrutinisedeachsketchandpainting。Threehelaidaside;theothers,whenhehadexaminedthem,hesweptfromhim。
\'Takethemofftotheothertable,Mrs。Fairfax,\'saidhe,\'andlookatthemwithAdele;—you\'(glancingatme)\'resumeyourseat,andanswermyquestions。Iperceivethosepicturesweredonebyonehand:wasthathandyours?\'
\'Yes。\'
\'Andwhendidyoufindtimetodothem?Theyhavetakenmuchtime,andsomethought。\'
\'IdidtheminthelasttwovacationsIspentatLowood,whenIhadnootheroccupation。\'
\'Wheredidyougetyourcopies?\'
\'Outofmyhead。\'
\'ThatheadIseenowonyourshoulders?\'
\'Yes,sir。\'
\'Hasitotherfurnitureofthesamekindwithin?\'
\'Ishouldthinkitmayhave:Ishouldhope—better。\'
Hespreadthepicturesbeforehim,andagainsurveyedthemalternately。
Whileheissooccupied,Iwilltellyou,reader,whattheyare:
andfirst,Imustpremisethattheyarenothingwonderful。Thesubjectshad,indeed,risenvividlyonmymind。AsIsawthemwiththespiritualeye,beforeIattemptedtoembodythem,theywerestriking;butmyhandwouldnotsecondmyfancy,andineachcaseithadwroughtoutbutapaleportraitofthethingIhadconceived。
Thesepictureswereinwater—colours。Thefirstrepresentedcloudslowandlivid,rollingoveraswollensea:allthedistancewasineclipse;so,too,wastheforeground;orrather,thenearestbillows,fortherewasnoland。Onegleamoflightliftedintoreliefahalf—submergedmast,onwhichsatacormorant,darkandlarge,withwingsfleckedwithfoam;itsbeakheldagoldbraceletsetwithgems,thatIhadtouchedwithasbrillianttintsasmypalettecouldyield,andasglitteringdistinctnessasmypencilcouldimpart。
Sinkingbelowthebirdandmast,adrownedcorpseglancedthroughthegreenwater;afairarmwastheonlylimbclearlyvisible,whencethebracelethadbeenwashedortorn。
Thesecondpicturecontainedforforegroundonlythedimpeakofahill,withgrassandsomeleavesslantingasifbyabreeze。
Beyondandabovespreadanexpanseofsky,darkblueasattwilight:
risingintotheskywasawoman\'sshapetothebust,portrayedintintsasduskandsoftasIcouldcombine。Thedimforeheadwascrownedwithastar;thelineamentsbelowwereseenasthroughthesuffusionofvapour;theeyesshonedarkandwild;thehairstreamedshadowy,likeabeamlesscloudtornbystormorbyelectrictravail。
Onthenecklayapalereflectionlikemoonlight;thesamefaintlustretouchedthetrainofthincloudsfromwhichroseandbowedthisvisionoftheEveningStar。
Thethirdshowedthepinnacleofanicebergpiercingapolarwintersky:amusterofnorthernlightsrearedtheirdimlances,closeserried,alongthehorizon。Throwingtheseintodistance,rose,intheforeground,ahead,—acolossalhead,inclinedtowardstheiceberg,andrestingagainstit。Twothinhands,joinedundertheforehead,andsupportingit,drewupbeforethelowerfeaturesasableveil;abrowquitebloodless,whiteasbone,andaneyehollowandfixed,blankofmeaningbutfortheglassinessofdespair,alonewerevisible。Abovethetemples,amidstwreathedturbanfoldsofblackdrapery,vagueinitscharacterandconsistencyascloud,gleamedaringofwhiteflame,gemmedwithsparklesofamoreluridtinge。
Thispalecrescentwas\'thelikenessofakinglycrown\';whatitdiademedwas\'theshapewhichshapehadnone。\'
\'Wereyouhappywhenyoupaintedthesepictures?\'askedMr。
Rochesterpresently。
\'Iwasabsorbed,sir:yes,andIwashappy。Topaintthem,inshort,wastoenjoyoneofthekeenestpleasuresIhaveeverknown。\'
\'Thatisnotsayingmuch。Yourpleasures,byyourownaccount,havebeenfew;butIdaresayyoudidexistinakindofartist\'sdreamlandwhileyoublentandarrangedthesestrangetints。Didyousitatthemlongeachday?\'
\'Ihadnothingelsetodo,becauseitwasthevacation,andIsatatthemfrommorningtillnoon,andfromnoontillnight:thelengthofthemidsummerdaysfavouredmyinclinationtoapply。\'
\'Andyoufeltself—satisfiedwiththeresultofyourardentlabours?\'
\'Farfromit。Iwastormentedbythecontrastbetweenmyideaandmyhandiwork:ineachcaseIhadimaginedsomethingwhichIwasquitepowerlesstorealise。\'
\'Notquite:youhavesecuredtheshadowofyourthought;
butnomore,probably。Youhadnotenoughoftheartist\'sskillandsciencetogiveitfullbeing:yetthedrawingsare,foraschool—girl,peculiar。Astothethoughts,theyareelfish。TheseeyesintheEveningStaryoumusthaveseeninadream。Howcouldyoumakethemlooksoclear,andyetnotatallbrilliant?fortheplanetabovequellstheirrays。Andwhatmeaningisthatintheirsolemndepth?Andwhotaughtyoutopaintwind?Thereisahighgaleinthatsky,andonthishill—top。WheredidyouseeLatmos?ForthatisLatmos。There!
putthedrawingsaway!\'
Ihadscarcetiedthestringsoftheportfolio,when,lookingathiswatch,hesaidabruptly—
\'Itisnineo\'clock:whatareyouabout,MissEyre,toletAdelesitupsolong?Takehertobed!\'
Adelewenttokisshimbeforequittingtheroom:heenduredthecaress,butscarcelyseemedtorelishitmorethanPilotwouldhavedone,norsomuch。