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  \"Well,mychild,\"repliedtheoldgentleman,withasmile.\"I\'vebroughthereaheartfulloftroubleandwickednessmanyatime,soyouneednotfearhurtingthegarden.\"

  \"ButIfearIshallpainandshockyou.\"

  \"Ihopeyouwill.I\'mgoingtofeelwithandforyou.What\'sthegoodofmysittingherelikeapost?\"

  \"Well,\"saidIda,desperately,\"Ipromisedtotellyoueverything,andIwill.IfthereisanychanceformeI\'llthenknowit,foryouwillnotdeceiveme.Somehow,whatIamandwhatIhavetosayseemedinsuchsadcontrastwithyouandyourgardenthatIbecameafraid.Youaskedaboutmyparents.Myfatherisaveryunhappyman.Heseemstohavelosthopeandcourage.InowbegintoseethatIhavebeenchieflytoblameforthis.Idonothingforhiscomfort.Indeed,IhavebeensooccupiedwithmyselfandmyownpleasurethatIhavegivenhimlittlethought.Hedoesnotspendmuchofhistimeathome,andwhenIsawhimhewasalwaystired,sad,andmoody.Heseemedtopossessnothingthatcouldministertomyprideandpleasuresavemoney,andItookthatfreely,withscarcelyeventhanksinreturn.

  \"Idon\'tliketospeakagainstmymother,buttruthcompelsmetoaddthatsheactsmuchinthesameway.Idon\'tthinkshelovespapa.Perhapsourtreatmentisthechiefreasonwhylife,seemingly,hasbecometohimaburden.Whenhe\'snotbusyinheofficehedrinks,anddrinks,andIfearitisonlytoforgethistrouble.

  Onceortwicethissummerhehaslookedlikeaman,andappearedcapableofthrowingoffthisdestroyinghabit,andthenbymywretchedfollyImadehimdoworsethanever,\"andsheburstintoaremorsefulpassionoftears.

  \"That\'sright,mychild,\"saidMr.Eltinge,takingoffhisspectaclesthathemightwipehissympatheticeyes;\"youwereverymuchtoblame.Thankgod,therearenoPhariseesinthisgarden.

  Godblessyou;goon.\"

  \"ThisthatI\'vetoldyouaboutmyfatheroughttobemychieftrouble,butitisn\'t,\"falteredIda.\"Ifearyouwon\'tunderstandmeverywellnow,andyoucertainlywillneverbeabletounderstandhowIcouldbetemptedtodosomethingattheverythoughtofwhichInowshudder.\"

  \"Nomatter;myMastercanunderstanditallifIcan\'t.He\'slistening,too,remember.\"

  \"Itfrightensmetothinkso,\"saidIda,inanawed,tremblingtone.

  \"That\'sbecauseyoudon\'tknowhim.Ifyouwereseverelywounded,wouldyoubefrightenedtoknowthatagoodphysicianwasrightathandtohealyou?\"

  \"Butisn\'tGodtooinfiniteandfarawaytolistentolistentothestoryofmyweaknessandfolly?Idarenotthinkofhim.Mydifficultyisjustthis——heISGod,andwhatamI?\"

  \"Oneofhislittlechildren,mydear.Yes,heisinfinite,butnotfaraway.Intheworstofmyweaknessandfollyhelistenedpatiently,andhelpedmeoutofmytrouble.Howareyougoingtogetoverthisfact?Hehaslistenedtoandhelpedmultitudesofothersineverykindoftroubleandwrong.Howareyougoingtogetoverthesefacts?\"

  Idaslowlywipedhereyes.Herfacegrewverypale,andshelookedatMr.Eltingesteadilyandearnestly,asiftogatherfromhisexpressionandmanner,aswellaswords,thepreciseeffectofherconfession.

  \"Mr.Eltinge,\"shesaid,\"atthistimeyesterdayIdidnotexpecttobealiveto-day.Iexpectedtobedead,andbymyownhand.

  WillGodforgivesuchwickedness?\"

  \"Dead!\"exclaimedtheoldgentleman,startingup.

  \"Yes,\"saidIda,growingstillpalerandtremblingwithapprehension,butstilllookingfixedlyatMr.Eltingeasifshewouldlearnfromhisfacewhethershecouldhopeormustdespairbecauseofherintendedcrime.

  \"Andwhatchangedyourawfulpurpose,mychild?\"hesaid,verygravely.

  \"Yourwordsattheprayer-meetinglastnight.\"

  Theoldgentlemanremovedhishatandreverentlybowedhishead.

  \"OGod,\"hemurmured,\"thouhastbeenmercifultomeallmydays;

  Ithanktheeforthiscrowningmercy.\"

  \"ButwillGodbemercifultoME?\"criedIda,inatoneofsharpagony.

  Theoldmancametoheside,andplacinghishandsonherheadspokewithalmosttheauthorityandsolemnityofoneofGod\'sancientprophets.

  \"Yes,mychild,yes,hewillbemercifuluntoyou——hewillforgiveyou.Butinyourdeepneedyourequiremorethantheassuranceofapoorsinfulmortallikeyourself.ListentoGod\'sownword:

  \'ThussaiththehighandloftyOnethatinhabitetheternity,whosenameisHoly:Idwellinthehighandholyplace,withhimalsothatisofacontriteandhumblespirit,torevivethespiritofthehumble,andtorevivetheheartofthecontriteones.\'

  \"\'Likeasafatherpitiethhischildren,sotheLordpitieththemthatfearhim.\'

  \"\'Ifweconfessoursinsheisfaithfulandjusttoforgiveusoursins;andthebloodofJesusChrist,hisSon,cleansethusfromallsin.\'Godanswersyourquestionhimself,mychild.\"

  \"Oh,mayHeblessyouforyourkindnesstome!Ithassavedmefromdespairanddeath,\"sobbedIda,buryingherfaceinherhands,andgivingwaytothenaturalexpressionoffeelingthateverrelievesaheartthathaslongbeenoverburdened.

  ForafewmomentsMr.Eltingesaidnothing,butgentlystrokedthebowedheadashemightcaressadaughterofhisown.Atlastheasked,withavoicethatwasbrokenfromsympathywithheremotion,\"HowaboutmyMaster,whosekindprovidencehasbroughtallthisabout?\"

  Idagraduallybecamemorequiet,andassoonasshecouldtrustherselftospeakshelifterherheadandanswered:

  \"Mr.Eltinge,IthinkIcanlearntoloveGodasyouportrayhimtome.ButinmyimperfectionandwickednessIhavenotdaredtothinkofhimtillIcamehere.\"

  \"Now,isn\'tthatjustlikethedevil\'swork!\"exclaimedMr.Eltinge.

  \"ItwasourimperfectionandwickednessthatbroughtChristtoourrescue,andyetyouhavebeenmadetobelievethatyourchiefclaimuponourDivineFriendisahopelessbarrieragainstyou!\"

  \"Mr.Eltinge,\"saidIda,slowly,asifsheweretryingtobesurethateachwordexpressedherthought,\"itwasthatword,FRIEND,asyouuseditlastnight,thatcaughtmyearandrevivedmyhopes.

  Inowbelievethatifyouhadspokenonlyofdutyortruth,orevenofGodintheordinaryway,Ishouldnowbe\"——sheburiedherfaceinherhandsandshuddered——\"Ishouldnotbeinthissunnygardenwiththememorythatyourhandshaverestedonmyhandsinblessing.

  IfIamtolive,Ishallneed,aboveallthings,afriend,andaverypatientandhelpfulone,orelsemyburdenwillbeheavierthanIcancarry.Ihavetoldyouaboutmyparents,andyouthusknowwhatImustlookforwardtoinmyownhome.Butsuchismyweaknessandfolly,Ihaveafarworsetroublethanthat.Youmaysmileatitandthinkthattimewillbringspeedyrelief.Perhapsitwill——Ihopeso.IfeelthatIknowsolittleaboutmyselfandeverythingelsethatIcanneverbesureofanythingagain.Mr.

  Eltinge,Ihavebeensounfortunateastogivemywholeheart\'slovetoamanwhodespisesme.Atfirstheseemedsomewhatattracted,buthesoondiscoveredhowimperfectandignorantIwas,andcoldlywithdrew.Heisnowpayinghisaddresses,Ibelieve,toanotherlady,andImustadmitthatsheisalovelygirl,andeverywayworthyofhim.Ithinkshewillreturnhisregard,ifshedoesnotalready.Butwhethershedoesornotcannotmatter,forheissofarmysuperiorineveryrespectthathewouldneverthinkofmeagain.Inordertohidemyfoolish,hopelesspassion,IreceivedattentionsfromanothermanthatIdetested,andwhohassinceprovedhimselfanuttervillain,butitsohappenedthatmynamebecamesocloselyassociatedwiththislowfellow,thatwhenmyheartwasbreakingforanotherreason,allthoughtthatitwasbecauseIwasinfatuatedwithamanIloathed.EvenMr.VanBergthoughtso,andIintendedtocompelhimtorespectme,oratleasttothinkbetterofme,evenifIhadtodietocarryoutmypurpose.Iwasdesperateandblindwithdisappointmentanddespair.Toastrongman,Isuppose,thesethingsdonotcountsogreatly,butI\'minclinedtothinkwhatwithuspoorwomenourheart-lifeiseverything.I

  fairlyshiveratthethoughtofthefuture.HowcanIcarrythisheavyburden,yearafteryear?Oh,howcanIbearit?HowcanI

  bearit?\"andhereyesbecamefullofdesperatetroubleagain,attheprospectbeforeher.

  \"Well,mydear,\"saidMr.Eltingeinbrokentones,\"myheartgoesouttoyouinsympathyasifyouweremyowndaughter,butoldJamesEltingecandobutlittletowardscuringyourdeeptroubles.\"

  \"Idonothopetobecured,\"saidIda,despondently,\"butIwouldbeverygladifIcouldthinkmylifewouldnotbeaburdentomyselfandothers.\"

  Mr.Eltingeponderedafewmoments,andthenbrightenedup,asifapleasantthoughthadstruckhim.

  \"Whatdoyouthinkofthispear-treeagainstwhichI\'mleaning?\"

  heasked.\"YourememberIsaiditowedmeagoodturn,andperhapsIcangetmybestfruitfromitto-day.\"

  \"Ithinkitisaprettytree,\"saidIda,wonderingly;\"andnowI

  noticethattherearesomefinepearsonit.\"

  \"Yes,andtheyareaboutripe.Letusseeifwecan\'treversetheoldstorywithwhichtheBiblecommences.Themanshalltemptthewomanthistime,andthisshallbeatreeoftheknowledgeofgood,notofevil.Poorchild,youknowenoughaboutthatalready;\"

  andtheoldgentlemanclimbeduponhischair,andwithhiscaneloosenedalargeyellowpearwithacrimsonblushonitssunnyside.

  \"Takemyhatandcatchit,\"hehadsaidtoIda;andshedidso.

  \"Now,I\'vemadeyouanaccomplicealready,andsoyoumayaswelleatthepearwhileItellyouabitofhistoryconcerningthistree.Itmayhelpmetosuggestsomeveryencouragingtruths.\"

  ButIdaheldherpearandlookedwistfullyatthespeaker.Herheartwasstilltoosoretoenterintothehalf-playfulmannerbywhichhesoughttogivealessgloomycasttoherthoughts.

  \"Someyearsago,\"saidMr.Eltinge,resuminghisseat,\"wehadanightofdarknessandviolentstormlikethatthroughwhichyou,poorchild,havejustpassed.Thegardenfencewasblowndown,andsomestraycattlegotinandmadesadhavoc.Thispear-treewasalittlethingthen,andwhenIcameoutinthemorningitwasinabadplight,Icantellyou.Thewindhadsnappedoffthetop,anditlaywitheringontheground.Worsethanthis,oneofthecattlehadsteppedonit,bruisingitseverely,andhalfbreakingitoffneartheroot.Idon\'tknowwhichoftheyoungmenyouhavenamedthisunrulybeasttypifies——bothof\'em,I\'minclinedtothink.\"

  HereIdashookherheadinprotestagainstVanBergbeingclassedwithSibley,andatthesametimecouldnotforbeartheglimmerofasmileattheoldman\'shomelyimagery.

  \"Well,accordingtomycreed,\"continuedMr.Eltinge,\"\'whilethere\'slifethere\'shope,\'soIliftedupthepoor,prostratelittletree,andtiedittoastoutstake.ThenIgotgraftingwaxandcoveredthebruisesandbrokenplaces,andfinallytiedallupascarefullyasIusedtomyboys\'fingerswhenthecutthem,sixtyoddyearsago.Andnowmark,mychild;IhaddoneallthatIcoulddo.I

  couldn\'tmakethewoundshealorevenanewtwigstart;andyethereisastatelyyoungtreebeginningtobeardeliciousfruit.

  Naturetookmysorry-lookinglittlecaseinhand,andslowlyatfirst,butbyandbywithincreasedvigorandrapidity,shedevelopedwhatyousee.Ihaveanaffectionforthistree,andliketoleanagainstit,andsometimesIhalffancyitlikestohaveme.\"

  \"Ishouldthinkitoughtto,\"saidIda,heartily,withtearsinhereyes,butasmileonherlips.

  \"Well,now,mychild,togoonwithmyparable,whatnaturewastothispear-tree,nature\'sGodmustbetoyou.Wecannotfindinnaturenorinthehappiesthumanlovethatwhichcansatisfyourdeepspiritualneed;butwecanfindallinhimwhocamefromheaveninourbehalf.JesusChrististhepatient,helpfulFriendyouneed.Hebringsmorethanjoy——eventhepeaceandrestthatfollowfulltrustinOnepledgedtotakecareofusandmakeeverythingturnoutforthebest.Hesaysofthosewhocometohim,\'Igiveuntothemeternallife,andtheyshallneverperish.\'Ifyouwilltakethislifefromhimitwillneverbeaburdentoyou,anditwillalwaysbeablessingtoothers.\"

  \"IfearIdon\'tquiteunderstandyou,Mr.Eltinge.Whatisthis\'eternallife\'——thisnew,addedlifewhichyousayChristoffers,andwhichI\'msureI\'dbeverygladtotakeifIknewhow?\"

  \"LetJesusansweryouhimself,mychild.Hesaidplainly:\'Thisislifeeternal,thattheymightknowtheetheonlytrueGod,andJesusChrist,whomthouhassent.\'PerhapsIcanmakeourLord\'swordsclearerfromyourownexperience,ifyouwillpermitmetorefertoyourfeelingstowardthemanwho,whetherworthyornothaswonyourlove.Supposeheisallyouimagine,andthathelavishedonyouthebesttreasuresofhisheart;wouldnotlifeathissideseemlifeinverytruth,andlifeelsewherebutmereexistence?\"

  \"Yes,\"saidIda,withbowedheadandpalecheeks.\"Ibegintounderstandyounow.ItseemstomethatIcouldwelcomesorrow,poverty,andevendeath,athisside,andcallliferichandfull.

  Butasitis——oh,Mr.Eltinge,teachmeyourfaith,lestIgivewaytodespairagain!\"

  \"Poorchild!poorchild!Don\'tmywhitehairsteachyouthatI

  amonthethresholdofthehomeinwhich\'Godshallwipeawayalltears\'?\"

  \"Ienvyyou,\"criedIda,almostpassionately.\"ThinkhowfarIamfromthathome!\"

  \"Well,youarenotfarfromtheDivineFriendwholeadstothathome,andwhenyoucometoKNOWhimandhisloveyourlifewillbegintogrowricherandsweeterandfullertoalleternity.Thisiseternallife.It\'sknowtheGodwholovesusandwhomwehavelearnedtolove.It\'snotlivingonandonforeverinabeautifulheaven,anymorethantheearthlylifeyoucraveislivingonandoninapleasanthomesuchasthemanofyourheartmightprovide.

  Thetruelifeisthepresenceofthelovedonehimself,andallthatheistousandallthathecandoforus;andifamortalandfinitecreatureseemstoyousoabletoimpartlife,howinfinitelymoreblessedwillthelifeeventuallybewhichcomesfromaGodofboundlesspowerandboundlesslove!\"

  \"Alas,Mr.Eltinge,Godseemstooboundless.\"

  \"DidGodseemtooboundlesstothelittlechildrenwhomhetookinhisarmsandblessed?\"

  \"OhthatIhadbeenoneofthem!\"saidIda,withasuddenrushoftears.

  \"Come,mydearyoungfriend,donotexpecttoomuchofyourselfto-day.Youcannottakeinallthistruthatonce,anymorethanthisyoungpeartreecouldtakeallthedewandsunshine,coldandheatforautumnfrostsareneededaswellasspringshowers

  thatnaturehadinstoreforit,butitslifewasassuredfromthemomentitwasabletoreceivenature\'srestoringinfluences.Sowithgreatercertaintyahappy,usefullifeisassuredtoyouassoonasyoureceiveJesusChristasyourSaviour,Teacher,andLife-giver.\'Asmanyasreceivedhim,tothemgavehepowertobecomethesonsofGod,\'andIassureyoutheGreatKingwilllookafterhischildrenrightroyally.Butyoudon\'tknowhimverywellyet,andsocannothavethelifewhichflowsfromhisfulnessoflife.Supposeyoucomeheremornings,andwe\'llreadtogetherthestoryofJesus,justasitistoldintheNewTestament,andIdon\'tbelieveitwillbelongbeforeyouwillsaytomethatmyFriendisyoursalso.Now,comeuptothehouseandI\'llintroduceyoutomysister.Youthinkmeasaint;butI\'llshowyouwhatahumanappetiteIhave.\"

  \"Ihearabrooknearby,\"saidIda;\"mayInotgotoitandbathemyface?\"

  \"Yes,dowhatyoulikebestwhilehere.Wouldyouratherbatheinthebrookthanatthehouse?\"

  \"Yes,indeed.Everythingseemssacredhere,andIcanimaginethebrookyondertobearillfromtheJordan.\"

  \"Don\'tbesuperstitiousandsentimental,\"saidtheoldgentleman,shakinghisheadgravely.\"ThelifeofaChristianmeanshonest,patientwork,andChrist\'sbloodalonecanwashustillwearewhiterthansnow.\"

  Ida\'sfacegrewearnestandnobleasshesteppedtothesymbolictreeandplacedherhandononeofitslowerbranches.

  \"Mr.Eltinge,\"shesaidgentlyandgravely,\"asthisbroken,woundedtreereceivedallthehelpnaturegaveit,soI,morebruisedandbroken,willtrytoreceiveallthehelpChristwillgivemetobearmyburdenandlivealifepleasingtohim.Ishallbeverygladindeedtocomehereandlearntoknowhimbetterunderyourmostkindandfaithfulteaching,andasIlearn,Iwilltrytodomybest;butoh,Mr.Eltinge,youcan\'trealizehowveryweakandimperfect——howignorantandfulloffaultsIam!\"

  \"Justsothepoorlittletreemighthavespokenifithadhadavoice.IndeedIthoughtitWOULDdie.Butnowlookatthefruitoveryourhead.Youshalltakesomeofithome,andeverypearwillbeasermontoyou——ajuicyone,too.Ifyouwilldoasyousay,mychild,allwillbewell.\"

  Shebathedhertear-stainedfaceinthebrook,andcamebacklookingfairerthananyflowerinthegarden.Thentheywentuptotheold-fashionedhouse.

  \"Mydear,thisismysister,MissEltinge,\"hesaid,presentingawhite-hairedoldlady,whostillwasevidentlymuchyoungerthanherbrother.Then,turningsuddenlyaroundincomicaldismay,hesaid,\"Why,blessyou,mychild,Idon\'tknowyourname!Well,well,nomatter!IknowYOU.TherearepeoplewhosenamesI\'veknownhalfmylife,andyetIdon\'tknowthemanddon\'ttrust\'em.\"

  \"MynameisIdaMayhew,\"saidtheyounggirlsimply.\"IheardMr.

  Eltingespeakattheprayer-meetinglastnightinsuchawaythatIwantedtoseehimandaskhishelpandadvice,andhehasbeenvery,verykindtome.Hecantellyouall.\"

  \"Yes,ifhechooses,\"saidtheoldgentlemanwithalaugh.\"Sisterknowsmetoowellinmycharacteroffatherconfessortoexpectmetotelleverything.\"

  Theymadeherathomeasthesimpleandwell-bredonlycando.

  AfterdinnerMissEltingetriedtoentertainherforawhile,butatlastsaid,withappreciativetact:

  \"Mydear,Ithinkyouwillbestenjoyyourselfifyouarelefttorangetheoldhouseandplaceatwill.Aftermybrotherhasrestedhewilljoinyouagain.\"

  Idawasgladtobealone.Shehadmadeapromiseoffar-reachingandvitalimportthatmorning.Lifewastakingonnewaspectsthatweresounfamiliarthatshewasbewildered.Shewentbacktothegarden,and,takingMr.Eltinge\'sseat,leanedagainsttheemblematicpear-tree,whichshecuriouslybegantoassociatewithherself,andforwhichshewasalreadyconsciousofsomethinglikeaffection.

  \"Oh,\"shesighed,\"ifmylifewouldonlycometoaboundwithdeedscorrespondingtothefruitthatisbendingtheseboughsaboveme,itcouldnotbeaburden,thoughtitmightbeverysadandlonely.

  InowbegintounderstandJennieBurton——herconstanteffortinbehalfofothers.ButHEwillcomfortherbeforelong.Herdarkdaysarenearlyover.Nomatterhowdeeporgreathertroublesmayhavebeen,theymustvanishinthesunshineofsuchaman\'slove.

  Iwonderifhehasspokenplainlyyet——butwhatneedofwords?

  Hiseyesandmannerhavetoldherallahundredtimes.Iwishshecouldbemyfriend,IwishIcouldspeaktoherplainly,forsheissokindandwise;butImustshunher,orelseshe\'lldiscoverthesecretthatI\'dhidefromherevenmorecarefullythanfromhim,ifsuchathingwerepossible.Iwonderiftheyevermetbeforetheycamehere.Ineversawonehumanbeinglookatanotherasshesometimeslooksathim.Ibelievethatdeepinherheartshefairlyidolizeshim,althoughhersingularself-controlenablesher,asageneralthing,totreathimwiththeeaseandfranknessofafriend.Well,shemaylovehimmoredeeplythanIdobecausepossessingadeepernature.IcanbutgiveallIhave.ButIthinkmylovewouldbelikethelittlebrookoverthere.It\'snotverydeeporobtrusive,butMr.Eltingesaysithasneverfailed.Well,well!thesearenotthethoughtsforme,thoughhowIcanhelpthemIcannottell.Iwilltrytowinalittlerespectfromhimbeforewepart,andthenmylife,likethispear-tree,mustbefullofgooddeedsforthosewhohavethebestrighttoreceivethem,\"andtakingasmallpen-knifefromherpocketshemountedthechair,andcarvedwithinthetwolowerbrancheswheretheycouldnoteasilybediscoveredthewords,\"IdaMayhew.\"

  ChapterXLII.TheCorner-StoneofCharacter.

  AfterthecharacteristicactbywhichIdahadidentifiedthetree——oncesobruisedandbroken——withherself,shesatdownagainatitsfootandthoughtlonganddeeply.Thedeephushandquietofthequaintoldgardenwasjustwhatsheneededafterthedeliriumofherpassionanddespair.Herpulsebegantogrowmoreeven,andherbeautifulfacesweetandnoblewiththebetterthoughtsshenowwasentertaining.Asshesatthereleaningherheadagainsttheboleofthetree,theshadowsoftheleavesabovedeepeningandbrighteningacrossherpalefeatures,andherlarge,darkeyesoftengrowinghumidwithsympathywithherthoughts,shemadeasfairapictureascouldEveherself,wereshedreamingoverherlostgarden-home.Atlastshesaidslowly:

  \"IwonderifitwillbepossibleforaDivinelovegraduallytosupplantahumanlove?\'Whomtoknowiseternallife.\'Thishopeseemstobemyonlyhope——myonlyremedy,myonechance.Imustsoongobacktothecity,whereIcannotseegoodoldMr.Eltinge,whereIwillnolongerhavetheexcitementofoccasionallymeetingMr.VanBerg,whereIshallbefacttofacewithonlythehard,prosaicdifficultiesthatwillaboundintheworldwithout,butespeciallyinmyownhome.IplainlyforeseethatIshallbecomebitter,selfish,andrecklessagain,unlessIfindsuchaFriendasMr.Eltingedescribes,whowillgivemedailyandpositivehelp;

  ameredecorous,formalreligionwillbeofnomoreusetomethanpicturesofbreadtothefamishing.Imusthaveastrong,patientFriendwhowillseemethroughmytroubles,orI\'mlost.ImayevengrowasdesperateandwickedasIhavebeenagain,\"andsheburiedherfaceinherhandsandfairlytrembledwithapprehension.

  \"Come,mychild,cheerup!Allwillendwellyet.Takeanoldman\'swordforit.I\'velivedthroughseveraltroublesthatIthoughtwouldfinishme,thankstothegoodLord,andhereIamnow,safeandsoundandinthepossessionoftwogoodhomes——thisoneandthebetteroneovertherivertheysayissodark.Idon\'tbelieveit\'smuchmoreofarivertotheChristianthanyonderlittlebrook;

  butIcantellyou,mychild,we\'llfindawonderfuldifferencebetweenthetwoshores.\"

  Idafoundthattheoldgentlemanhadjoinedherunperceived,andshetoldhimofherfears.

  \"Now,don\'tworry,\"heanswered,\"aboutwhatwillhappenwhenyougobacktothecity.Christhimselfhassaid:\'Sufficientuntothedayistheevilthereof.\'Yourwholedutyistodoyourbestnow,andhe\'lltakecareofthefuture.Hedidnotcallhimselfthe\'GoodShepherd\'fornothing,asIandmillionsofothers,knowfromexperience.He\'llseeyouoverallthehardplaces,ifyouaskhimto,andjustfollowpatiently.Youmaynotbeabletoseethewayorknowwhereheisleadingyou,anymorethanthesheep;

  butthepath,howeverflintyandthorny,willendinthefold.Ofthatbeassured.\"Andhegaveheroneortwosadchaptersfromhisownlifeofwhichhecouldnowspeakcalmlyandunderstandingly.

  Astheywereabouttopart,Idasaid:\"Mr.Eltinge,I\'msoignorantthatIhavenottheremotestideahowtocommencethisChristianlife.Igreatlywishtoformacharacterworthyofrespect,butIdon\'tknowhowtosetaboutit.\"

  \"Commencebylivingsimpleandtrue,mydear.Truthfulnessisthecorner-stoneofthecharacterthatmenmostrespectandGodwillhonor.Noneofuscanbeperfect,butwecanallbehonest,andpretendtobenobetterthanweare.Justsimplyfollowyourconscience,praydailyforlightandguidance,anddothebestyoucan.Liveuptothelightasyougetit,andrememberthegoodLordwillbeaspatientwithyouasamotherwithherbabythatisjustlearningtowalk.Betruthfulandsincereasyouhavebeenwithmeto-day,andallwillbewell.\"

  Thenhebroughtastep-ladder,andfilledalittlebasketwithpears.

  \"They\'llripennicelyinyourdrawer,\"hesaid,\"andIshouldn\'twonderifyoufound\'emkindofnourishingtoyoursoulaswellasbody,nowyouknowhowtheygrew.\"

  WithapromisetocomeonthemorrowIdadroveawaymorecheeredandcomfortedthanshehadthoughtitpossibleevertobeagain.

  Butassheapproachedthehotelpiazza,andsawtheartisttalkingwithJennieBurton,sheexperiencedasinkingofheartthattaughtherhowdifficultherpathmustbeatbest.

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