ItsometimesbroughtbacktohimthathideousshakinessofnervewhichhadbeenafeatureofhisillnesswhenhehadbeenontheRivierawithTeresita。
OfallthisBettyonlyknewtheoutwardsignswhich,takenattheirexteriorsignificance,weredetestableenough,anddroveherhardasshementallydweltontheminconnectionwithotherthings。Howeasy,ifshestoodalone,todefyhisevilinsolencetodoitsworst,andleavingtheplaceatanhour’snotice,tosailawaytoprotection,or,ifshechosetoremaininEngland,tosurroundherselfwithabodyguardofthepeopleinwhoseeyeshisdisreputerelegatedamansuchasNigelAnstrutherstopowerlessnonentity。Alone,shecouldhavesmiledandturnedherbackuponhim。ButshewasheretotakecareofRosy。
Sheoccupiedapositionsomethinglikethatofawomanwhoremainswithamanandenduresoutragebecauseshecannotleaveherchild。Thatthought,initself,broughtUghtredtohermind。TherewasUghtredtobeconsideredaswellashismother。Ughtred’sloveforandfaithinherweredeepandpassionatethings。Hefedonhertendernessforhim,andhadgrownstrongerbecausehespenthoursofeachdaytalking,reading,anddrivingwithher。ThesimpletruthwasthatneithershenorRosaliecoulddesertUghtred,andsolongasNigelmanagedcleverlyenough,thelawwouldgivetheboytohisfather。
\"Youareobligedtoprovethings,youknow,inacourtoflaw,\"hehadsaid,asifwithcasualamiability,onacertainoccasion。\"Provingthingsisthedevil。Peoplelosetheirtempersandrushintorowswhichendinlawsuits,andthenfindtheycanprovenothing。IfIwereavillain,\"slightlyshowinghisteethinanagreeablesmile——\"insteadofamanofblamelesslife,Ishouldgoinonlyforthatbranchofmyprofessionwhichcouldbeexercisedwithoutleavingstupidevidencebehind。\"
SincehisreturntoStornhamtheoutwarddecorumofhisownconducthadentertainedhimandhehadkeptitupwithanincreasingappreciationofitsusefulnessinthepresentsituation。Whatsoeverhappenedintheend,itwasthepartofdiscretiontopresenttotheruralworldabouthimanappearanceofuprightbehaviour。Hehadevenfounditamusingtogotochurchandalsotooccasionallymakeamiablecallsatthevicarage。Itwasnotdifficult,atsuchtimes,toreferdelicatelytohisregretthatdomesticdiscomforthadledhimintotheerrorofremainingmuchawayfromStornham。Heknewthathehadbeenevenrathertouchinginhisexpressionofinterestinthefutureofhisson,andthenecessityoftheboy’sbeingprotectedfromuncontrolledhystericinfluences。