Istruckthedoorofthestate—roomwhichhadformerlybeenMugridge’s,splinteringandsmashingthepanelswiththeimpactofmybody。Istruggledtomyfeet,withdifficultydraggingmyselfclearofthewreckeddoor,unawareofanyhurtwhatever。Iwasconsciousonlyofanovermasteringrage。IthinkI,too,criedaloud,asIdrewtheknifeatmyhipandsprangforwardasecondtime。
Butsomethinghadhappened。Theywerereelingapart。Iwascloseuponhim,myknifeuplifted,butIwithheldtheblow。Iwaspuzzledbythestrangenessofit。Maudwasleaningagainstthewall,onehandoutforsupport;buthewasstaggering,hislefthandpressedagainsthisforeheadandcoveringhiseyes,andwiththerighthewasgropingabouthiminadazedsortofway。Itstruckagainstthewall,andhisbodyseemedtoexpressamuscularandphysicalreliefatthecontact,asthoughhehadfoundhisbearings,hislocationinspaceaswellassomethingagainstwhichtolean。
ThenIsawredagain。Allmywrongsandhumiliationsflasheduponmewithadazzlingbrightness,allthatIhadsufferedandothershadsufferedathishands,alltheenormityoftheman’sveryexistence。Ispranguponhim,blindly,insanely,anddrovetheknifeintohisshoulder。Iknew,then,thatitwasnomorethanafleshwound,——hadfeltthesteelgrateonhisshoulder—blade,——andIraisedtheknifetostrikeatamorevitalpart。
ButMaudhadseenmyfirstblow,andshecried,\"Don’t!Pleasedon’t!\"
Idroppedmyarmforamoment,andamomentonly。Againtheknifewasraised,andWolfLarsenwouldhavesurelydiedhadshenotsteppedbetween。