Pride,thejustnessofmycause,theunboundedconfidenceIhadinmyownresolution,andthelaboursofaninventiveheadandironbody——theseonlycouldhavepreservedmylife。Thesebodilylabours,thesecontinuedinventions,andprojectedplanstoobtainmyfreedom,preservedmyhealth。WhowouldsupposethatamanfetteredasIwascouldfindmeansofexercisinghimself?Byswingingmyarms,actingwiththeupperpartofmybody,andleapingupwards,Ifrequentlyputmyselfinastrongperspiration。AfterthuswearyingmyselfIsleptsoundly,andoftenthoughthowmanygenerals,obligedtosupporttheinclemenciesofweather,andallthedangersofthefield——howmanyofthosewhohadplungedmeintothisdenofmisery,wouldhavebeenmostgladcouldthey,likeme,havesleptwithaquietconscience。OftendidIreflecthowmuchhappierIwasthanthosetorturedonthebedofsicknessbygout,stone,andotherterriblediseases。HowmuchhappierwasIininnocencethanthemalefactordoomedtosufferthepangsofdeath,theignominyofmen,andthehorrorsofinternalguilt!
CHAPTERII。
InthefollowingpartofmyhistoryitwillappearIoftenhadmuchmoneyconcealedunderthegroundandinthewallsofmyden,yetwouldIhavegivenahundredducatsforamorselofbread,itcouldnothavebeenprocured。Moneywastomeuseless。InthisI
resembledthemiser,whohoards,yethivesinwretchedness,havingnojoyingentleactsofbenevolence。AsproudlymightIdelightmyselfwithmyhiddentreasureassuchmisers;nay,more,forIwassecurefromrobbers。
Hadfastidiouspompbeenmypleasure,Imighthaveimaginedmyselfsomeoldfield—marshalbedridden,whohearstwogrenadiersentinelsathisdoorcall,\"Whogoesthere?\"Myhonour,indeed,wasstillgreater;for,duringmylastyear’simprisonment,mydoorwasguardedbynolessthanfour。Myvanityalsomighthavebeenflattered:Imighthenceconcludehowhighwasthevaluesetuponmyhead,sinceallthistroublewastakentoholdmeinsecurity。