Littlemiseriesofthatkindwouldcrowduponhim。Hehadarrivedatatimeinlifeinwhichsuchmiseriesmakesuchmenverymiserable;butyethethoughtthathecouldendurethem。Andwhatotherwretchednesswouldcometohim?Shewouldscoldhim——frightfully,loudly,scornfully,andworsethanall,continually。Butofthishehadsomuchhabitually,thatanythingaddedmightbebornealso;——ifonlyhecouldbesurethatthescoldingsshouldgooninprivate,thattheworldofthepalaceshouldnotbeallowedtoheartherevilingstowhichhewouldbesubjected。Buttobescoldedpubliclywasthegreatevilwhichhedreadedbeyondallevils。Hewaswellawarethatthepalacewouldknowhismisfortune,thatitwasknown,andfreelydiscussedbyall,fromtheexaminingchaplaindowntothepalaceboot—boy;——nay,thatitwasknowntoallthediocese;butyethecouldsmileuponthosearoundhim,andlookasthoughheheldhisownlikeothermen——unlesswhenopenviolencewasdisplayed。Butwhenthatvoicewasheardaloudalongthecorridorsofthepalace,andwhenhewassummonedimperiouslybythewoman,callingforthebishop,sothatallBarchesterheardit,andwhenhewascompelledtocreepforthfromhisstudy,atthesoundofthatsummons,withdistressedface,andshakinghands,andshorthurryingsteps——abeingtobepitiedevenbyadeacon——notventuringtoassumeanairofmasterdomshouldhechancetomeetahousemaidonthestairs——then,atsuchmomentsasthat,hewouldfeelthatanysubmissionwasbetterthanthemiserywhichhesuffered。Andhewellknewthatshouldhenowrebel,thewholehousewouldbeinaturmoil。Hewouldbebishopedhere,bishopedthere,beforetheeyesofallpalatialmenandwomen,tilllifewouldbeaburdentohim。Sohegotupfromhisseatoverthefire,andwenttohisdeskandwrotetheletter。Theletterwasasfollows:——
THEPALACE,BARCHESTER,——December,186—’
’REVERENDSIR,——
(heleftoutthedear,becauseheknewthatifheinsertedithewouldbecompelledtowritetheletteroveragain)。
’Ihaveheardtodaywiththegreatesttroubleofspirit,thatyouhavebeentakenbeforeabenchofmagistratesassembledatSilverbridge,havingpreviouslybeenarrestedbythepoliceinyourparsonagehouseatHogglestock,andthatthemagistratesofSilverbridgehavecommittedyoutotakeyourtrialatthenextassizesatBarchester,onachargeoftheft。