AnnabelBalchwas,ifnotthegirlHarneyoughttomarry,atleastthekindofgirlitwouldbenaturalforhimtomarry。Charityhadneverbeenabletopictureherselfashiswife;hadneverbeenabletoarrestthevisionandfollowitoutinitsdailyconsequences;butshecouldperfectlyimagineAnnabelBalchinthatrelationtohim。
Themoreshethoughtofthesethingsthemorethesenseoffatalityweighedonher:shefelttheuselessnessofstrugglingagainstthecircumstances。Shehadneverknownhowtoadaptherself;shecouldonlybreakandtearanddestroy。ThescenewithAllyhadleftherstrickenwithshameatherownchildishsavagery。WhatwouldHarneyhavethoughtifhehadwitnessedit?Butwhensheturnedtheincidentoverinherpuzzledmindshecouldnotimaginewhatacivilizedpersonwouldhavedoneinherplace。Shefeltherselftoounequallypittedagainstunknownforces……
Atlengththisfeelingmovedhertosuddenaction。ShetookasheetofletterpaperfromMr。Royall’soffice,andsittingbythekitchenlamp,onenightafterVerenahadgonetobed,beganherfirstlettertoHarney。Itwasveryshort:
IwantyoushouldmarryAnnabelBalchifyoupromisedto。IthinkmaybeyouwereafraidI’dfeeltoobadaboutit。IfeelI’dratheryouactedright。
YourlovingCHARITY。