Youarebothembarrassed，butitisYOUwhofeelashamed——
youarealmostafraidtolookathimlesthe’llthinkyouarelookingathisshabbiness。Youaskhimintohaveadrink，buthedoesn’trespondsoheartilyasyouwish，ashedidintheolddays;
hedoesn’tlikedrinkingwithanybodywhenheisn’t\"fixed\"，ashecallsit——
whenhecan’tshout。
Itdidn’tmatterintheolddayswhoheldthemoneysolongastherewasplentyof\"stuff\"inthecamp。YouthinkofthedayswhenJackstucktoyouthroughthickandthin。Youwouldliketogivehimmoneynow，butheissoproud;healwayswas;hemakesyoumadwithhisbeastlypride。