’Now,MissHolman,that’swhatIcallwilful,’saidHoldsworth,asshegavethemtohim。’No,Iwon’tthankyou’(hislookswerethankingherallthetime)。’Mylittlebitofdampnessannoyedyou,becauseyouthoughtIhadgotwetinyourservice;soyouweredeterminedtomakemeasuncomfortableasyouwereyourself。Itwasanunchristianpieceofrevenge!’
Histoneofbadinage(astheFrenchcallit)wouldhavebeenpalpableenoughtoanyoneaccustomedtotheworld;butPhilliswasnot,anditdistressedorratherbewilderedher。’Unchristian’hadtoheraveryseriousmeaning;itwasnotawordtobeusedlightly;andthoughshedidnotexactlyunderstandwhatwrongitwasthatshewasaccusedofdoing,shewasevidentlydesiroustothrowofftheimputation。AtfirstherearnestnesstodisclaimunkindmotivesamusedHoldsworth;whilehislightcontinuanceofthejokeperplexedherstillmore;butatlasthesaidsomethinggravely,andintoolowatoneformetohear,whichmadeherallatoncebecomesilent,andcalledoutherblushes。Afterawhile,theministercameback,amovingmassofshawls,cloaks,andumbrellas。Philliskeptveryclosetoherfather’ssideonourreturntothefarm。SheappearedtometobeshrinkingawayfromHoldsworth,whilehehadnottheslightestvariationinhismannerfromwhatitusuallywasinhisgravermoods;kind,protecting,andthoughtfultowardsher。Ofcourse,therewasagreatcommotionaboutourwetclothes;
butInamethelittleeventsofthateveningnowbecauseIwonderedatthetimewhathehadsaidinthatlowvoicetosilencePhillissoeffectually,andbecause,inthinkingoftheirintercoursebythelightoffutureevents,thateveningstandsoutwithsomeprominence。
IhavesaidthatafterourremovaltoHornbyourcommunicationswiththefarmbecamealmostofdailyoccurrence。CousinHolmanandIwerethetwowhohadleasttodowiththisintimacy。AfterMrHoldsworthregainedhishealth,hetoooftentalkedaboveherheadinintellectualmatters,andtooofteninhislightbanteringtoneforhertofeelquiteathereasewithhim。Ireallybelievethatheadoptedthislattertoneinspeakingtoherbecausehedidnotknowwhattotalkabouttoapurelymotherlywoman,whoseintellecthadneverbeencultivated,andwhoselovingheartwasentirelyoccupiedwithherhusband,herchild,herhouseholdaffairsand,perhaps,alittlewiththeconcernsofthemembersofherhusband’scongregation,becausethey,inaway,belongedtoherhusband。IhadnoticedbeforethatshehadfleetingshadowsofjealousyevenofPhillis,whenherdaughterandherhusbandappearedtohavestronginterestsandsympathiesinthingswhichwerequitebeyondhercomprehension。Ihadnoticeditinmyfirstacquaintancewiththem,Isay,andhadadmiredthedelicatetactwhichmadetheminister,onsuchoccasions,bringtheconversationbacktosuchsubjectsasthoseonwhichhiswife,withherpracticalexperienceofevery-daylife,wasanauthority;whilePhillis,devotedtoherfather,unconsciouslyfollowedhislead,totallyunaware,inherfilialreverence,ofhismotivefordoingso。
ToreturntoHoldsworth。Theministerhadatmorethanonetimespokenofhimtomewithslightdistrust,principallyoccasionedbythesuspicionthathiscarelesswordswerenotalwaysthoseofsobernessandtruth。Butitwasmoreasaprotestagainstthefascinationwhichtheyoungermanevidentlyexercisedovertheelderonemoreasitweretostrengthenhimselfagainstyieldingtothisfascination——thattheministerspokeouttomeaboutthisfailingofHoldsworth’s,asitappearedtohim。InreturnHoldsworthwassubduedbytheminister’suprightnessandgoodness,anddelightedwithhisclearintellect——hisstronghealthycravingafterfurtherknowledge。