Foryourownsakereviseit,forthereadersofyourbookwon’tbelievethatyouaretellingatruestoryanyhow;theywillsaythatyouwrotethischapterandattributedittome,andyouwillfindyourselfheldresponsibleforitsshortcomings。IhaveinsertedafewnoteshereandtherewhichwillgiveyouanideaofwhatI
sufferedasIwroteonandfoundhergrowingdailylessandlesstractable,withoccasionallyanindicationofthepointofdivergencebetweenheractualbehaviorandthatwhichIexpectedofher。\"
Toafellow—workmaninliteraryfieldsthischapterisofpatheticinterest,thoughitmaynotsoappeartothereaderwhoknowslittleofthedifficultiesofauthorship。IcanhardlyreaditmyselfwithoutafeelingofmostintensepityforpoorHarley。Icanimaginethesleeplessnightswhichfollowedtheshatteringofhishopesastowhathisstorymightbebytherecalcitrantattitudeoftheyoungwomanhehadhonoredsohighlybyselectingherforhisheroine。Icanalmostfeelthebittersenseofdisappointment,whichmusthaveburnedtotheverydepthsofhissoul,whenhefinallyrealizedhowcompletelyoverturnedwereallhisplans,andIcannotforegocallingattentiontotheconstancytohiscreedofStuartHarley,insacrificinghisopportunityratherthanhisprinciples,asshownbyhisresolutedeterminationnottoforceMissAndrewstodohisbidding,eventhoughitrequiredmerelythedippingofhispenintotheinkandtheresolutiontodoso。
Icannotblameher,however。GrantingtoHarleytherighttoacreed,MissAndrews,too,itmustbeadmitted,wasentitledtohaveviewsastohowsheoughttobehaveundergivencircumstances,andifshefoundhernotionsrunningcountertohis,itwasonlyproperthatsheshouldactaccordingtothedictatesofherownheart,ormind,orwhateverelseitmaybethatawomanreasonswith,ratherthanaccordingtohiswishes。
Astoallquestionsofthiskind,however,asbetweenthetwo,thereadermustjudge,andonedocumentinevidenceisHarley’schapter,whichraninthiswise: