Whatifanexecutionerpassinghiswholelifeintorturingpeopleandcuttingofftheirheads,orahopelessdrunkard,oramadmansettledforlifeinadarkroomwhichhehasfouledandimaginesthathewouldperishifheleft——whatifheaskedhimself:\"Whatislife?\"Evidentlyhecouldnototherreplytothatquestionthanthatlifeisthegreatestevil,andthemadman’sanswerwouldbeperfectlycorrect,butonlyasappliedtohimself。
WhatifIamsuchamadman?Whatifallwerichandleisuredpeoplearesuchmadmen?andIunderstoodthatwereallyaresuchmadmen。Iatanyratewascertainlysuch。
Andindeedabirdissomadethatitmustfly,collectfood,andbuildanest,andwhenIseethatabirddoesthisIhavepleasureinitsjoy。Agoat,ahare,andawolfaresomadethattheymustfeedthemselves,andmustbreedandfeedtheirfamily,andwhentheydosoIfeelfirmlyassuredthattheyarehappyandthattheirlifeisareasonableone。thenwhatshouldamando?
Hetooshouldproducehislivingastheanimalsdo,butwiththisdifference,thathewillperishifhedoesitalone;hemustobtainitnotforhimselfbutforall。Andwhenhedoesthat,Ihaveafirmassurancethatheishappyandthathislifeisreasonable。
ButwhathadIdoneduringthewholethirtyyearsofmyresponsiblelife?Farfromproducingsustenanceforall,Ididnotevenproduceitformyself。Ilivedasaparasite,andonaskingmyself,whatistheuseofmylife?Igotthereply:\"Nouse。\"Ifthemeaningofhumanlifeliesinsupportingit,howcouldI——whoforthirtyyearshadbeenengagednotonsupportinglifebutondestroyingitinmyselfandinothers——howcouldIobtainanyotheranswerthanthatmylifewassenselessandanevil?……Itwasbothsenselessandevil。