TheresolutiontobecomeaRedCrossnurse,takenunderstimulusofJolly’senlistment,hadbeenloyallyfulfilledwiththeirritationandregretwhichallForsytesfeelatwhatcurtailstheirindividualliberties。Enthusiasticatfirstaboutthe’wonderfulness’ofthework,shehadbegunafteramonthtofeelthatshecouldtrainherselfsomuchbetterthanotherscouldtrainher。AndifHollyhadnotinsistedonfollowingherexample,andbeingtrainedtoo,shemustinevitablyhave’criedoff。’ThedepartureofJollyandValwiththeirtroopinAprilhadfurtherstiffenedherfailingresolve。Butnow,onthepointofdeparture,thethoughtofleavingEricCobbley,withawifeandtwochildren,adriftinthecoldwatersofanunappreciativeworldweighedonhersothatshewasstillindangerofbackingout。Thereadingofthatcablegram,withitsdisquietingreality,clinchedthematter。
ShesawherselfalreadynursingJolly——forofcoursetheywouldlethernurseherownbrother!Jolyon——everwideanddoubtful——hadnosuchhope。PoorJune!
CouldanyForsyteofhergenerationgrasphowrudeandbrutallifewas?Eversinceheknewofhisboy’sarrivalatCapeTownthethoughtofhimhadbeenakindofrecurrentsicknessinJolyon。HecouldnotgetreconciledtothefeelingthatJollywasindangerallthetime。Thecablegram,gravethoughitwas,wasalmostarelief。Hewasnowsafefrombullets,anyway。Andyet——thisentericwasavirulentdisease!TheTimeswasfullofdeathstherefrom。Whycouldhenotbelyingoutthereinthatup-countryhospital,andhisboysafeathome?Theun-Forsyteanselfsacrificeofhisthreechildren,indeed,hadquitebewilderedJolyon。HewouldeagerlychangeplaceswithJolly,becausehelovedhisboy;
butnosuchpersonalmotivewasinfluencingthem。HecouldonlythinkthatitmarkedthedeclineoftheForsytetype。
LatethatafternoonHollycameouttohimundertheoldoak-tree。