Youcouldn’tfindoutwhethertheyhadpureblood,truehearts,orcleansouls。NogirlcouldbesoverymuchprettierthanShelley;theysimplywerenotmadethatway。Sheknewhowtobehave;shehaditbeatenintoher,likeallofus。Andsheknewherbooks,whatourschoolscouldteachher,andGroveville,andLucy,whohadcitychancesforyears,andthereneverwasadayatourhousewhenbooksandpaperswerenotreadanddiscussed,andyourspellingwashammeredintoyoustandinginrowsagainstthewall,andmemorytests——whatonearthcouldbethematterwithShelleythatamanwhocouldmakeherlookandactasshedidatChristmas,wouldnowmakeherunhappy?SometimesIwantedtobegrownupdreadfully,andagain,timeslikethat,Iwishedmybedcouldstayinmother’sroom,andIcouldcreepbehindfather’spaperandgotosleepbetweenhiscoatandvest,andhavehimwarmmyfeetinhishandsforever。
Thisworldwastoomuchforme。IneverworkedandworriedinallmylifeasIhadoverLaddieandthePrincess,andLaddiesaidI,myself,neverwouldknowhowIhadhelpedhim。Ofcoursenothingwassettled;hehadtotrytomakeherlovehimbyteachingherhowlovablehewas。Weknew,becausewealwayshadknownhim,butshewasastrangerandhadtolearn。Itwasmightyfineforhimthathecouldforcehiswaypastthedogs,Thomas,theothermen,herhalf-crazyfather,andthroughthelockeddoor,andgotheretotrytomakehersee,onSundaynights,andweekdays,everysinglechancehecouldinvent,andhecouldthinkupmorereasonsforgoingtoPryors’thanmothercouldforputtingoutanextrawash。
NowjustasIgotsettledalittleabouthim,andwecouldseetheyreallywantedhimthere,atleastthePrincessandhermotherdid,andMr。PryormusthavebeenfairlydecentorLaddieneverwouldhavegone;andthePrincesscametoourhousetobringmethingstoeat,andaskhowmotherwas,andoncetolearnhowsheembroideredSally’sweddingchemise,andsocialthingslikethat;andwhenfatheractedasifhelikedhersomuchhehadn’tawordtosay,andmotherseemedtobegintofeelasifLaddieandthePrincesscouldbetrustedtofixitupaboutGod;
andtheoldmysterydidn’tmatterafterall;why,hereShelleypoppedupwithanothermystery,anditbelongedtous。ButwhateverailedthatmanIcouldn’tpossiblythink。Ithadgottobehim,forShelleywassoallrightatChristmas,itmadeherlookthatprettywehardlyknewher。
IwasthinkingaboutheruntilIscarcelycouldstudymylessons,soIcouldrecitetoLaddieatnight,andnotfallsofarbehindatschool。MissAmeliaofferedtohearme,butIjustbeggedLaddie,andfathercouldseethathetaughtmefiftythingsinalessonthatyoucouldtelltolookatMissAmelia,sheneverknew。Why,hecouldn’thearmeread: