OrwasSuesimplysoperversethatshewilfullygaveherselfandhimpainfortheoddandmournfulluxuryofpractisinglong-sufferinginherownperson,andofbeingtouchedwithtenderpityforhimathavingmadehimpractiseit?Hecouldperceivethatherfacewasnervouslyset,andwhentheyreachedthetryingordealofJudegivinghertoPhillotsonshecouldhardlycommandherself;rather,however,asitseemed,fromherknowledgeofwhathercousinmustfeel,whomsheneednothavehadthereatall,thanfromself-consideration。Possiblyshewouldgooninflictingsuchpainsagainandagain,andgrievingforthesuffereragainandagain,inallhercolossalinconsistency。
Phillotsonseemednottonotice,tobesurroundedbyamistwhichpreventedhisseeingtheemotionsofothers。Assoonastheyhadsignedtheirnamesandcomeaway,andthesuspensewasover,Judefeltrelieved。
Themealathislodgingwasaverysimpleaffair,andattwoo’clocktheywentoff。Incrossingthepavementtotheflyshelookedback;andtherewasafrightenedlightinhereyes。CoulditbethatSuehadactedwithsuchunusualfoolishnessastoplungeintosheknewnotwhatforthesakeofassertingherindependenceofhim,ofretaliatingonhimforhissecrecy?PerhapsSuewasthusventuresomewithmenbecauseshewaschildishlyignorantofthatsideoftheirnatureswhichworeoutwomen’sheartsandlives。
Whenherfootwasonthecarriage-stepsheturnedround,sayingthatshehadforgottensomething。Judeandthelandladyofferedtogetit。
`No,’shesaid,runningback。`Itismyhandkerchief。IknowwhereIleftit。’