`Whycouldn’tIknowbetterthanaddressutterstrangersinsuchaway?
Imaybeanimpostor,andidlescamp,amanwithabadcharacter,forallthattheyknowtothecontrary……Perhapsthat’swhatIam!’
Nevertheless,hefoundhimselfclingingtothehopeofsomereplyastohisonelastchanceofredemption。Hewaiteddayafterday,sayingthatitwasperfectlyabsurdtoexpect,yetexpecting。WhilehewaitedhewassuddenlystirredbynewsaboutPhillotson。PhillotsonwasgivinguptheschoolnearChristminster,foralargeronefurthersouth,inMid-Wessex。
Whatthismeant;howitwouldaffecthiscousin;whether,asseemedpossible,itwasapracticalmoveoftheschoolmaster’stowardsalargerincome,inviewofaprovisionfortwoinsteadofone,hewouldnotallowhimselftosay。AndthetenderrelationsbetweenPhillotsonandtheyounggirlofwhomJudewaspassionatelyenamouredeffectuallymadeitrepugnanttoJude’stastestoapplytoPhillotsonforadviceonhisownscheme。
MeanwhiletheacademicdignitariestowhomJudehadwrittenvouchsafednoanswer,andtheyoungmanwasthusthrownbackentirelyonhimself,asformerly,withtheaddedgloomofaweakenedhope。Byindirectinquirieshesoonperceivedclearlywhathehadlonguneasilysuspected,thattoqualifyhimselfforcertainopenscholarshipsandexhibitionswastheonlybrilliantcourse。Buttodothisagooddealofcoachingwouldbenecessary,andmuchnaturalability。Itwasnexttoimpossiblethatamanreadingonhisownsystem,howeverwidelyandthoroughly,evenovertheprolongedperiodoftenyears,shouldbeabletocompetewiththosewhohadpassedtheirlivesundertrainedteachersandhadworkedtoordainedlines。