neverknewthemwaitformetobegin。Theywerealwaysforgivingme，intheirvanityandcondescension。Littleimagesofgrownpeople!
Oneofthemwasmychosenfriend。IlovedthatstupidmiteinapassionatewaythatshecouldnomoredeservethanIcanrememberwithoutfeelingashamedof，thoughIwasbutachild。Shehadwhattheycalledanamiabletemper，anaffectionatetemper。Shecoulddistribute，anddiddistributeprettylooksandsmilestoeveryoneamongthem。Ibelievetherewasnotasoulintheplace，exceptmyself，whoknewthatshediditpurposelytowoundandgallme!
Nevertheless，Isolovedthatunworthygirlthatmylifewasmadestormybymyfondnessforher。Iwasconstantlylecturedanddisgracedforwhatwascalled’tryingher；’inotherwordschargingherwithherlittleperfidyandthrowingherintotearsbyshowingherthatIreadherheart。However，Ilovedherfaithfully；andonetimeIwenthomewithherfortheholidays。
Shewasworseathomethanshehadbeenatschool。Shehadacrowdofcousinsandacquaintances，andwehaddancesatherhouse，andwentouttodancesatotherhouses，and，bothathomeandout，shetormentedmylovebeyondendurance。Herplanwas，tomakethemallfondofher——andsodrivemewildwithjealousy。Tobefamiliarandendearingwiththemall——andsomakememadwithenvyingthem。
Whenwewereleftaloneinourbedroomatnight，Iwouldreproachherwithmyperfectknowledgeofherbaseness；andthenshewouldcryandcryandsayIwascruel，andthenIwouldholdherinmyarmstillmorning：lovingherasmuchasever，andoftenfeelingasif，ratherthansufferso，Icouldsoholdherinmyarmsandplungetothebottomofariver——whereIwouldstillholdherafterwewerebothdead。