Five-and-TwentyAfrequentlyrecurringdoubt,whetherMrPancks’sdesiretocollectinformationrelativetotheDorritfamilycouldhaveanypossiblebearingonthemisgivingshehadimpartedtohismotheronhisreturnfromhislongexile,causedArthurClennammuchuneasinessatthisperiod。WhatMrPancksalreadyknewabouttheDorritfamily,whatmorehereallywantedtofindout,andwhyheshouldtroublehisbusyheadaboutthematall,werequestionsthatoftenperplexedhim。MrPanckswasnotamantowastehistimeandtroubleinresearchespromptedbyidlecuriosity。ThathehadaspecificobjectClennamcouldnotdoubt。AndwhethertheattainmentofthatobjectbyMrPancks’sindustrymightbringtolight,insomeuntimelyway,secretreasonswhichhadinducedhismothertotakeLittleDorritbythehand,wasaseriousspeculation。
Notthatheeverwaveredeitherinhisdesireorhisdeterminationtorepairawrongthathadbeendoneinhisfather’stime,shouldawrongcometolight,andbereparable。Theshadowofasupposedactofinjustice,whichhadhungoverhimsincehisfather’sdeath,wassovagueandformlessthatitmightbetheresultofarealitywidelyremotefromhisideaofit。But,ifhisapprehensionsshouldprovetobewellfounded,hewasreadyatanymomenttolaydownallhehad,andbegintheworldanew。Asthefiercedarkteachingofhischildhoodhadneversunkintohisheart,sothatfirstarticleinhiscodeofmoralswas,thathemustbegin,inpracticalhumility,withlookingwelltohisfeetonEarth,andthathecouldnevermountonwingsofwordstoHeaven。Dutyonearth,restitutiononearth,actiononearth;thesefirst,asthefirststeepstepsupward。Straitwasthegateandnarrowwastheway;farstraiterandnarrowerthanthebroadhighroadpavedwithvainprofessionsandvainrepetitions,motesfromothermen’seyesandliberaldeliveryofotherstothejudgment——allcheapmaterialscostingabsolutelynothing。
No。Itwasnotaselfishfearorhesitationthatrenderedhimuneasy,butamistrustlestPancksmightnotobservehispartoftheunderstandingbetweenthem,and,makinganydiscovery,mighttakesomecourseuponitwithoutimpartingittohim。Ontheotherhand,whenherecalledhisconversationwithPancks,andthelittlereasonhehadtosupposethattherewasanylikelihoodofthatstrangepersonagebeingonthattrackatall,thereweretimeswhenhewonderedthathemadesomuchofit。Labouringinthissea,asallbarkslabourincrossseas,hetossedaboutandcametonohaven。
TheremovalofLittleDorritherselffromtheircustomaryassociation,didnotmendthematter。Shewassomuchout,andsomuchinherownroom,thathebegantomissherandtofindablankinherplace。Hehadwrittentohertoinquireifshewerebetter,andshehadwrittenback,verygratefullyandearnestlytellinghimnottobeuneasyonherbehalf,forshewasquitewell;buthehadnotseenher,forwhat,intheirintercourse,wasalongtime。
Hereturnedhomeoneeveningfromaninterviewwithherfather,whohadmentionedthatshewasoutvisiting——whichwaswhathealwayssaidwhenshewashardatworktobuyhissupper——andfoundMrMeaglesinanexcitedstatewalkingupanddownhisroom。Onhisopeningthedoor,MrMeaglesstopped,facedround,andsaid: