Theartofmotherhoodinvolvesmuchsilent,unobtrusiveself-denial,anhourlydevotionwhichfindsnodetailtoominute。Thesoupwarmingbeforethefiremustbewatched。AmIthekindofwoman,doyousuppose,toshirksuchcares?Thehumblesttaskmayearnarichharvestofaffection。Howprettyisachild’slaughwhenhefindsthefoodtohisliking!Armandhasawayofnoddinghisheadwhenheispleasedthatisworthalifetimeofadoration。HowcouldIleavetoanyoneelsetheprivilegeanddelight,aswellastheresponsibility,ofblowingonthespoonfulofsoupwhichistoohotformylittleNais,mynurslingofsevenmonthsago,whostillremembersmybreast?
Whenanursehasallowedachildtoburnitstongueandlipswithscaldingfood,shetellsthemother,whohurriesuptoseewhatiswrong,thatthechildcriedfromhunger。Howcouldamothersleepinpeacewiththethoughtthatabreath,lesspurethanherown,hascooledherchild’sfood——themotherwhomNaturehasmadethedirectvehicleoffoodtoinfantlips。TominceachopforNais,whohasjustcutherlastteeth,andmixthemeat,cookedtoaturn,withpotatoes,isaworkofpatience,andtherearetimes,indeed,whennonebutamothercouldsucceedinmakinganimpatientchildgothroughwithitsmeal。
Nonumberofservants,then,andnoEnglishnursecandispenseamotherfromtakingthefieldinpersoninthatdailycontest,wheregentlenessaloneshouldgrapplewiththelittlegriefsandpainsofchildhood。Louise,thecareoftheseinnocentdarlingsisaworktoengagethewholesoul。Towhosehandandeyes,butone’sown,intrustthetaskoffeeding,dressing,andputtingtobed?Broadlyspeaking,acryingchildistheunanswerablecondemnationofmotherornurse,exceptwhenthecryistheoutcomeofnaturalpain。NowthatIhavetwotolookafterandathirdontheroad,theyoccupyallmythoughts。Evenyou,whomIlovesodearly,havebecomeamemorytome。
Myowndressingisnotalwayscompletedbytwoo’clock。Ihavenofaithinmotherswhoseroomsareinapple-pieorder,andwhothemselvesmighthavesteppedoutofabandbox。YesterdaywasoneofthoselovelydaysofearlyApril,andIwantedtotakemychildrenforawalk,whileIwasstillable——forthewarningbellisinmyears。
Suchanexpeditionisquiteanepictoamother!Onedreamsofitthenightbefore!Armandwasforthefirsttimetoputonalittleblackvelvetjacket,anewcollarwhichIhadworked,aScotchcapwiththeStuartcolorsandcock’sfeathers;Naiswastobeinwhiteandpink,withoneofthosedeliciouslittlebabycaps;forsheisababystill,thoughshewilllosethatprettytitleonthearrivaloftheimpatientyoungster,whomIcallmybeggar,forhewillhavetheportionofayoungerson。Yousee,Louise,thechildhasalreadyappearedtomeinavision,soIknowitisaboy。