triumphofthiskindislikestrongwinetovanity,self-love,andalltheself-regardingfeelings。Toposeperpetuallyasadivinityisadraughtsopotentinitsintoxicatingeffects,thatIamnolongersurprisedtoseewomengrowselfish,callous,andfrivolousintheheartofthisadoration。Thefumesofsocietymounttothehead。Youlavishthewealthofyoursoulandspirit,thetreasuresofyourtime,thenoblesteffortsofyourwill,uponacrowdofpeoplewhorepayyouinsmilesandjealousy。Thefalsecoinoftheirprettyspeeches,compliments,andflatteryistheonlyreturntheygiveforthesolidgoldofyourcourageandsacrifices,andallthethoughtthatmustgotokeepupwithoutflaggingthestandardofbeauty,dress,sparklingtalk,andgeneralaffability。Youareperfectlyawarehowmuchitcosts,andthatthewholethingisafraud,butyoucannotkeepoutofthevortex。
Ah!mysweetheart,howonecravesforarealfriend!HowprecioustomearetheloveanddevotionofFelipe,andhowmyheartgoesouttoyou!JoyfullyindeedarewepreparingforourmovetoChantepleurs,wherewecanrestfromthecomedyoftheRuedeBacandoftheParisdrawing-rooms。Havingjustreadyourletteragain,IfeelthatI
cannotbetterdescribethisdemoniacparadisethanbysayingthatnowomanoffashioninPariscanpossiblybeagoodmother。
Good-bye,then,forashorttime,dearone。WeshallstayatChantepleursonlyaweekatmost,andshallbewithyouaboutMay10th。Soweareactuallytomeetagainaftermorethantwoyears!Whatchangessincethen!Hereweare,bothmatrons,bothinourpromisedland——Ioflove,youofmotherhood。
IfIhavenotwritten,mysweetest,itisnotbecauseIhaveforgottenyou。Andwhatofthemonkeygodson?Ishestillprettyandacredittome?Hemustbemorethanninemonths’oldnow。Ishoulddearlyliketobepresentwhenhemakeshisfirststepsuponthisearth;butMacumertellsmethatevenprecociousinfantshardlywalkattenmonths。